I was just about to be in another writers block thingy…when a certain idea hit me. Things are about to clear up and get confusing. After about five chapters I want you all to vote, for the final pairing, so I can work off it. You'll understand once you read, at I least have an idea for what to write for the next five chapters, let's just hope that more ideas will come. I'm sorry for my lack of update, and I do hope that you like this chapter!
Bunny Winner- You just might be right. Actually you kind of were…why with the past tense? I wanted to do something that you guys wouldn't expect, so when you wrote that I had to do some re-thinking. I was about to do, what you thought, but then other things came to mind. I hope you like it; and tell me whether or not if you expected this. (grins) Bunny Winner…Bunny Winner…now why does that name sound so damn familiar. I was curious to know why your name struck me so, and then it hit me; after I looked in your profile. I read your stories! In Bunny Winner, you had this story that is still trapped in my mind, and I use to think, 'PLEASE update soon!' I still do to. You are a great writer. Enjoy the story!
Baybe-Dinez- (grins) I just love doing this, but I'm sure that all things will come to plan once you read this chapter. Read, read and I promise you'll get your answer. Plus…if I tell you I kind of have this feeling that somebody will be digging my grave. You'll all know…and soon too. Sooner then you think. I'm glad I helped, well somehow inspired you to write; and I'm sorry that you're in the mist of a writer's block. I hate those. Well, lets see what ideas can I come up with. I wanted to see more— Inuyasha and Kagome action, (grins) I don't know…I'm beginning to love that couple. Maybe you can make Kagome do something… (nervous laugh) I'm not very good at ideas, so I'm sorry if I'm confusing you. More Sango & Miroku! They were so funny and the way you wrote it was just genius! Miroku could be more flirtatious…haha…Eh—more problems? Did that help you any? (face fault) I'm so bad at this, and I'm terribly sorry—my ideas are probably not going to help you much, but I'm sure praise will: (wink) Write more! You were so good! You can't possibly leave it at that! Write women! WRITE! You have two people. One, a ignorant, bastard—named Inuyasha, who is all the more cute. Two, a moron that I think has somewhat of a crush on I don't know…and lastly two people together in the dead of night. I wish you luck Dee! I'll be there to read it, I know you can do it! YOU ALMOST GOT SUED! Who would do such a thing? That'd be a nice boss; I can just picture you now. After a run in with this mean old…pah…person your boss tells you it's not a big deal, and just tell them to lay off. Bugger people…(grins) Daddy's little girl (grins) I guess I could be considered one…expect Mommy's…heh. Lol, it seems as if you're pretty well off. You don't want to be a doctor? What do you want to be? I, on the other hand want to be a doctor, and they're all hounding over me to do my studies. Saying things like, "Work hard now, and you'll have a better life later." Study, study, study, I'm a worrywart about failing, cause I don't like to fail. (grins) I come off as a brat at times…heh but who doesn't have there moments? I can actually see you running away from your hubby. What a funny site that would be. Your not boring at all, and look at me—I MUST be boring you. That fic your talking about does sound funny! I wish I could think of something like that… Ah, well, enjoy!
O wait in the reviews for Believe you asked me a question, so I thought I might as well answer you here :: 'WHO THE HELL IS SEIYA?!?!?' :: I think, I think my heart just stopped. (grins) If you don't know Seiya then I'm pretty sure you don't know Yaten, or Taiki? Am I right? I can't believe you haven't asked me, after all Seiya is sort of a main side character in this story too. Anyways there's a fifth season to Sailor Moon, the Star Series. It's when three shooting stars appearing in the sky…but that wasn't really your question so I'll get to the point. Seiya Kou, is apart of the band named, The Three Lights, which also contained Yaten and Taiki Kou. They are also the new scouts, now I know what you're going to say, 'how the hell can guys be scouts!?' They turn into girls…it's just complicated. Well, anyways in search for their princess Seiya fell in love with Usagi, at this time Mamoru is out in the states 'studying'. Seiya has a lot of similarities to Mamoru. Black hair, blue eyes…their appearance could justify them as brothers…but where they differ is personalities. Seiya is more carefree, the jokester, he has fame, and fortune because he's an idol. I could go on and on, but basically Seiya is just another guy that fell in love with Usagi…just another possibility. If you want to know more just tell me! I can tell you everything because the Star Series is my favorite. Enjoy the story now! I must have taken up a whole lot of space typing to you. (grins) Read, read, read!
Ysienay- You deserved every bit. I hate it when people like steal other people's idea and don't give credit; and I'm telling you; with ideas like that, you would make one heck of a story. The new guy? More handsome then Mamoru? Well, you'll have to be the judge of that. Gym, gym, gym…it isn't bad except for the running, I'm always bad at running; not too bad, but bad. You entered a poetry contest!? Can I read it sometime? I also want to say, CONGRATS! If I'm stuck, I'll sure contact ya, and please my head is getting too big for my body. (grins) Enjoy!
Katana-hime- Great guesses. You'll have to see, and I'm thinking that you might like it, or you might not. Ha…anyways read and enjoy!
ThatsMsDiva2U- Yeah, no ones perfect. Usagi was bound to mess up, sooner or later. I swear that you guys will be hitting yourselves after you find out who he is, either that, or saying, "I KNEW IT!" at the top of your lungs. You'll know who he is, soon. Enjoy!
rabbitTsukino- Thank you. I really hoped to keep them all somewhat cannon, except Usagi. In order for this story to work Usagi has to change a bit. Heh. I hope you like this next chapter, enjoy!
Elementalmoon- The guy, you'll know pretty soon. As for her shameful past…I think I'll explain it to you now. In fact you kind of already know it. You know that Usagi childhood was somewhat bad…filled with ridicule and such. She doesn't tell 'him' about her past. She considers them…things that shouldn't be spoken of. Like, things that she would rather forget—but can't. It will be explained in the chapter ahead, or to come. Enjoy!
kireisnowtenshi- Do tell me if you're right? Which I'm sure you are…how many silver haired, blue-eyed guys could there be? Am I saying too much? Oh well, read! I think I might be breaking my promise about the flashback thing for about four chapters. Four chapters with one flashback each…that's all there is. I hope that you guys will forgive me, but I just had…or am going to do it. Four chapters. Four chapters, and that's it. More drama? You'll get what you asked for, and I give you my word. Enjoy!
Fushigi Hime- Mistakes! I read that chapter over and over again trying to catch them…(grr)…I think I should consider a beta reader sometime, but I'll think about that later. You were on vacation? I hope you had fun, and thank you for taking time to read this story of mine. Yeah, longer chapter was your idea. I wonder whether or not if I can keep it up—maybe. We'll have to see. Enjoy!
SilverMo- You are…(grins) "I will love u until the end of time! or at least till u have to update again..." I feel so cheap. I hope you enjoy this chapter!
Anymore questions? I chatter too much—
Disclaimer- I do not own Sailor Moon
Rated- Pg-13
Eyes of the Beholder
Chapter 15- My Own Lies (She wasn't able to tell me…so I had to wing it)
MUST READ! – In this chapter it's going to be all in Usagi's point of view…eh…and some other things might make you kill me. Unexpected things…read on! Also there will be memories…flashbacks…and they're all going to be in italics. Remember. –
MUST READ!
It was twelve o-clock to the point, a full day later after my disaster. I tried so hard to keep them apart, and I did, I succeeded; but during all this I had failed to keep myself a secret. I failed. I was alone now…my childhood friend was with Rei, doing god knows what. I had a sickening feeling in the depths of my stomach. I had introduced them, showed them what to do…and to my horror Rei took a liking to him. He was mine.
Was it me, or was I a bit possessive? I didn't know why, but when they first said their hellos, I knew my plan had backfired. Mamoru wasn't directly with us, but I had made sure that he was in looking and hearing distance. I made sure that Rei could still see him, and I made sure that he saw her—
-- "Come on!"
I was dragging him along towards the park. It was clear, crisp, evening, and it was the perfect time. I wanted everything to be perfect, and he, he was perfect. I chose what he would wear. I chose what he would say. He laughed throughout all my misery. He watched me scramble around the room, throwing his shirts, pants, and undergarments around. I could remember myself holding those white boxers, and just wondering.
He smiled, and then erupted in laughter. I could remember myself blushing, at what I thought, and what he was thinking right then. I couldn't help myself, and at this very moment, I still couldn't help myself. We had chose, well I had chose beige shorts, and a white dress shirt. His hair was still a mess, no matter how hard I tried to straighten it. It still covered his left eye…perfectly.
Rei was in our vision at this point, and at that point I was being to doubt what I was about to do. He looked down at me, with those icy pools of blue. I smiled and continue lead the way. Rei-Rei looked perfect. Red suited her so well. Her hair was down, as usual…and she was wearing…what looked like a red Chinese dress. It had a pretty yet simple design. He wasn't looking at me any longer, but now instead at the young ravishing, raven haired beauty before us.
I didn't know why, but I didn't like the way he was looking at her. I didn't like it one bit.
"Is that her?"
He'd whisper to me, and to which I numbly nodded. I was no longer leading the way. I backed off and just watched from a distance as they said their hellos'. She gave him a hug, and a small kiss. I knew what she was trying to do, and so my eyes wondered off to certain bench, where a certain black haired youth stood.
He looked…marvelous. Mamoru, that is. His eyes were transfixed upon Rei, wrapped in another man's arms. I felt bad right then. Was I doing the right thing? The wind stroked his hair so lovingly… Eyes of a midnight blue, somehow blurred in color. Was he crying?
I watched as Andrew's angelic face was suddenly struck with shock. I watched as Seiya's eyes burned with a certain fire. I watched as Yaten somehow switch personalities completely, and became the friend that Mamoru needed. I had yet, to work this plan of mine on the others, and at this point I already felt sorry for them. All of them…but mostly for Mamoru.
Rei was talking to him, her eyes unknowingly went by to Mamoru's now and then, until the two walked of…out of sight—out of view. --
What happened this morning was undoubtedly my fault. It was guilt. That was what I was feeling right now.
'Twelve o-one'What was the deal with that clock! I wanted time to fly by, I wanted the next morning to come. I wanted him to come home. I wanted to go home. I wanted to leave this hell! You know…right when they said, "Kas." I knew that I had done something horribly wrong.
'Twelve o-one'Rolling over, I was faced with the stars. I remember that Seiya would always talk about the stars, and how-how they represent each and every one of us. Shaking my head lightly I turned away. I was suppose to be angry at him right now…not—not that. I was now faced with the wall. The blank wall, now I couldn't possibly think of them looking at a wall…can I?
Yaten helped me paint once.
Damn it!
'Twelve o-one'
What was wrong with this clock!? I could remember their surprised faces as I stepped out of that bathroom. I was such an idiot to not check myself in that mirror. Such an idiot.
-- "Kas?"
My heart stopped right then, I swear it did. They were looking at me with such amazement, but for some reason Seiya and Yaten seemed unperturbed by the fact that I changed. Or maybe they just thought that I was a completely different person. That was what I hoped they thought. Mamoru was the only person that called me, this 'Kas'.
Andrew was staring at me in disbelief, and Seiya—Yaten…they were—were sipping their coffee! What was I going to say to them!? What was I going to do!? This whole idea was Minako's fault, and I swear that blonde with pay; but revenge later. I needed a lie, and I needed a lie fast. Was I shaking? I hopped not…
"What are you doing here?"
Mamoru's voice held complete amusement as he got up. Soon followed by Andrew. The two were just hounded me with questions, which I answered—quite horribly might I add.
"How'd you get here!"
"When did you meet Usagi again?"
"How?"
I smiled, and was relieved that they found an answered on there own. Whatever they thought I didn't really care, as long as they didn't think that I was Usagi. Which I am.
"I live here…Usagi didn't tell me we'd have company."
"YOU LIVE HERE!"
My smile grew as I nodded.
"Oh, so you were making all those noses."
"…yeah…sorry about that. I didn't interrupt anything did I?"
"No, certainly not. I hope that we didn't interrupt anything."
"No-no."
"Speaking of Usagi…where is she?"
I chuckled lightly as my eyes wondered around for an answer. They landed on Seiya, who was looking at me with that cocky grin. What in the world was that boy thinking? My eyes squinted in confusion, which only made him grin. "She…she went out. Wanted me to keep you guys company." The two mouthed me an 'oh' and then simply went back to there seats.
At least they believed me, that was the first step. I turned to look at Yaten, who was also giving me, 'that look'. I was fidgeting, nervous to be looked at in such a way. Jade and blue clashed as their eyes turned towards each other, both signaling a nod. What was going on between the two brothers was unbeknownst to Mamoru and Andrew, but I noticed. I certainly did.
I had a habit, when I'm nervous I bite…I tend to chew lightly upon that lower lip of mine. Seiya's eyes gleamed as he watched me. Did he always have this staring problem? Maybe he thinks I'm cute or whatever guys think. Grumbling slightly I shifted my gaze to the smiling Andrew, who was flipping through the channels. I took a seat on the ground, close enough to them all; but as far away from Seiya and Yaten as possible—without looking suspicious.
We all laughed, played a few games of cards. It was as if we were kids again…without certain things of course. They were nice—to this 'Kas' person, I somehow, unbelievingly envied this 'Kas'.
Placing down a flush, I flashed them all a grin and scooped up my rewards. Cookies galore, and they were all mine. Munching them slowly as another game started, I decided to watch—this time.
Suddenly the phone went ringing. It wasn't my phone…couldn't be. Mamoru flashed us a apologetic smile and excused himself to the hallway. I wonder who called…probably Rei. "I'll take his place!" I volunteered.
Once again another win. They might've all been good at most things, but this really wasn't there game—or maybe I was just lucky. Mamoru was still out talking in the hall, and this was the third game since his absence.
"…eh Kas?"
Looking up at Andrew. I smiled.
"Yeah?"
"Where's the bathroom again?"
"Oh, down the hall, third door on the left."
With all that said, he took running—which left—shit.
This was probably all a trap. I should've gone with him—wait a minute what would I be doing in the bathroom with… Well, at least it would be better then being in here. "So…" I was trying to begin a conversation…I really was.
Seiya's lips curved into a smile as the bathroom door was heard shutting, his lips opened and:
"We know who you are."
Well, that wasn't expected.
"What?"
"We know who you are…Usagi."
I nearly choked on that cookie. Were my ears deceiving me?
"What?"
I tried to sound confused, and I prayed to the heavens above, hoping that I did. Seiya took another card from the pile, shuffling them as he went—and Yaten, Yaten was just being Yaten. He listened carefully to what Seiya was saying, and simply took pleasure to my horror filled reactions.
"We know who you are Usagi, simple as that."
This was the third time he said this, and yet I felt as if I was hearing things.
"W-w-w-what?"
Was I stuttering?
My eyes were wide. My mouth was left hanging. The cards were no longer in my hands. I simply felt faint. His smile was scaring me in a way, in a way that-- that was simply unnerving. Once again I asked a, "What?"
Seiya let out a small sigh, as he turned his gaze directly towards me. I couldn't hide any longer. Where was Mamoru? How long could a person possibly talk? The bathroom…any minute now Andrew would be walking out of that bathroom. "Please—please walk out." I muttered.
"What my idiotic brother is trying to say is…Kas…or Usagi…which ever you prefer--"
That was the first time Yaten had spoken up during this whole escapade…and he needn't continue. I now knew, that he knew. I smiled a defeated smile.
"So…I guess the secrets out…"
"Why all the secrecy?"
I looked up to his charming face, and had a sudden urge to—blush? Shaking my head lightly, I answered.
"I didn't want—I didn't want to be treated differently."
"…and why would we ever treat you differently…?"
Seiya's words surprised me, that's all; but I wanted to know at least one thing:
"How?"
Letting out another laugh he answered with the calmest, and serenest voice that I had yet to hear from him.
"The first time I…we saw you…we knew something was up--"
Damn it, I knew I should've done something differently.
"It was just the way you looked and talked, you know. You seemed familiar…but we didn't think anything of it—until…"
His eyes sparkled. Taking a small glance towards his brother he continued.
"…until Mamoru told us your name…other name that is: Kastgi Usuin…we knew it right then."
Yaten's laughter made me shudder—
"With a little help from Taiki, and a few pots of coffee we all discovered something: Kastgi Usuino when scrambled spelled out Usagi Tsukino…then things just sort of filled in."
The Kous' were clever…I knew I should've spoken with Taiki before this whole thing ever started—
--
Turning towards the clock for the forth time, it read:
'Twelve o-one'So many mistakes. I really should've thought things over…I really should've, but one can't really turn back time—can they? And that DAMN clock!
'Twelve o-one'Ah, this whole night was one memory after another. One mistake after the other— I didn't know…yet…if the Kou's told Mamoru and the rest, but I'll find out; and oh what I nightmare that'll be. Maybe I did this all on purpose…maybe through it all I wanted them to figure it out. Scrambling my name—what a joke—and where in the world was he! It was twelve o-one and he's still not home! How could he leave me worrying like this, I seriously need a talk with him.
A sudden jingling sound clanked through my bedroom door. Leaping up I ran towards the door, and threw it open; putting up a angry face I faced him. My eyes turned towards the clock:
'Twelve o-two'
…
"It's twelve o-two! Where in hell were you Diamond!"…
Stupid clock—
Well, I wanted to give you all something to ease the pain of the upcoming school year. Now tell me…did you know? I bet you all did. (grins)
Chapter 16- Past Memories :: Mamoru's
Summary- The past is sometimes muddled. The past is sometimes forgotten…but to Usagi, the past is only a faded memory. You believe and remember what you want…so what if you aren't remembering the entire picture?
A/N- Well the upcoming chapter is Part I of the upcoming four series. You'll understand once you see Part I. Did you expect that? I hope you all liked it! The guys is finally revealed! Review! I think I deserve them! (grins)
Tell Me Please! – One – Did you guys know it would be Diamond?
-- Two -- Did you guys make the connection within the names? Kastgi Usuino: Usagi Tsukino?
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