KudoeEdogawa presents...
Feelings

Of Takagi

Well, where to begin?

I supposed it was when I first entered the police department, and she was assigned to be my partner so that I can learn how to handle different things in real, crime situations. Her beauty had stunned me then, and also made me feel worthless. She was my senpai, not in age though, only experience. We were about the same age, yet she had graduated police school sooner than I did, and her rank was also higher than mine.

First I had thought that it's enough for me to be her partner, to be able to be at her side when she needs help and just looking at her when she doesn't. Later I found that it isn't enough, though.... Not since he came.

Shiratori.

"Ahh, Takagi-san." Oh boy, here he comes, "Too bad about that case yesterday... the two of you got him, didn't you? Oh wait... I think I heard from someone that you dropped your guard and allowed the criminal to escape. Tsk tsk. Pity... you don't seem like the kind of person who'd make such a mistake, being Miwako's partner."

He laid a hand on my shoulder knowingly and stared at me, "You know, you do seem pretty tired... I think you should rest for a week or two... to rebuild your strength. I'll be glad to fill your spot while you're gone."

And then what, claim Satou-san all for yourself?! "No thanks," I said, grabbing his hand with mine and pushed it away, "I'm managing well, thanks."

"TAKAGI-KUN! WHAT ARE YOU DOING, GET OVER HERE!!" Satou-san's roar echoed through the hall from the room next to us.

"Coming!" I called back, and turned to Shiratori, "I gotta go, see ya." I said and entered the room, shutting the door behind us, awaiting the inevitable doom of being reprimanded by Megure-keibu.

I inhaled deeply and began reciting what Megure-keibu has to say, mentally: "Look at you, Takagi! Another criminal got away because of you! This is why you can't get a promotion, Takagi! Don't you care? Other men in the force are all much stronger and more reliable than you are..."

Blah, blah, blah. Though I do respect Megure-keibu a lot, he can be really annoying at sometimes--like an old man scolding his grandson. I sighed and he continued.

"...I see a lot of potential in you, boy; you're bright and in a right state of heart and mind, you can easily be promoted if you paid enough attention and worked hard enough! If you are ever to be married and support a family, I don't see how they'd survive!"

An arrow struck my heart when he said this. He was right; I am useless, and even though I love Satou a lot, a family can't be expected survive on love and love alone, could it? Now that's something I haven't thought of before: her happiness. Sure, I love her, and she has been willing to give me a chance.... But being the lower ranked officer, if we do get married... she's probably going to be the one supporting the family... that'd be too much pressure for her. And what can I do? Nothing. I'll probably get fired soon if I make anymore mistakes, and then...... start a life as Mouri-san's assistant.

I sighed at the thought and received a huge smack on the hand. "Are you listening, Takagi?!" Megure-san roared, covering me with spit.

"Yes, keibu."

I managed to stay focused for a little while, but ended up thinking about our relationship again. Perhaps we won't get along well... perhaps we'll end up like Mouri-san and Kisaki-san... perhaps.... Perhaps Shiratori is the better choice for her. He's smarter, wealthier, and a much higher ranked officer, and he definitely loves her, too. He can probably give her all that she wants: cars, houses, jewelry, and a good family, whereas the only thing I can give her are my rented apartment, rented car, and a bunch of fake, out-of-date rings that mother used to wear. The only certain thing that I can promise her is love: the most love any man could give her.

...But what good is it if I can't give her the most out of life?

"If you keep this up, you better starting looking for a new job!" Megure-keibu concluded, and turned to Satou. "Satou-san, I do hope that you'd keep an eye on him more often from now on."

"Yes sir!" Satou replied, and Megure-keibu left.

.........

Maybe it's time that I give up.


I think I made Megure a bit to harsh in this one ll
And I'm sorry for the lack of sweetness and cuteness in this one, but I promise it will be present in the Satou chapter.

The next few updates will be: Heiji/Kazuha, and finally concluding with Ai/Conan/Ran/Shinichi...

I think I might do a Sonoko/Makoto, just for fun, can anyone give me Makoto's last name?

Thanks to all those who have reviewed!
Next Chapter: Satou