Inside my Mind

This part features a song by Save Ferris. It might be hard to distinguish the lyrics from the flashbacks, but I tried my best, since I know that the bold or italics don't show up here, and I don't know how to fix that. Enjoy.

Part 17

It had been a long night for Alex Whitman. He arrived in Roswell, NM about four hours ago. After being there a good two hours, and seeing the most gorgeous women he had ever laid eyes on... he heard why she was laying in a hospital bed in critical condition. Sean Orbock. That man had caused so much to go wrong in Alex's life it was unreal.

Now here he was at five o'clock in the morning in a waiting room while everyone else around him was with what appeared to be a 'significant other'. Figures I always was the odd man out. Alex thought as he decided that he needed some coffee. After driving straight through he really wasn't in a sleeping mood. He trugid his way down the long, white tiled hall of the hospital. When he walked past the room that contained her he didn't know why but he felt compelled to go in there, like he owed it to her to check in on her, make sure that she was safe.

So Alex followed his feet and pushed open the door to her room. She was sleeping. Which was why they had all left her in the first place. He was happy to see her at peace. She was so riled up when he was in there before, in her condition he didn't think that that was a good thing for her to be doing. She needed to rest, and relax.

For some strange reason he felt connected to her. Like he knew her, and they were old time pals. Alex decided to take a seat in the chair next to her bed. She shouldn't be alone right now, he thought carelessly as he leaned back in the chair and finally felt at ease for the first time that night. All his tense muscles seemed to unclench, all his worries went away just by sitting there and being near her. Her who though? Alex questioned himself. He didn't even know her! Trying to push those thoughts aside he noticed for the first time the music that was playing in the room. He didn't know the song but he couldn't help but to relate the current situation to it.

--"I remember all the things she used to say

And I remember all the games we used to play

And I remember loving you"

But now that love has all gone away--

As the lyrics rushed on he kept putting moments from the past three years to them without even thinking about it or wanting to encourage it they flooded his very being and thought they'd never end...

--His love for her had only turned to harm--

Getting his call from Maria that Liz was in a coma. Finally getting to the hospital to find out that a drunken Sean had beat her and thrown her against a wall... because she refused to have sex with him.

--"So she ran for sanctuary

Into another's arms"--

Seeing Liz asleep in the hospital waiting room with a dark haired, mystery man. Securely tucked away in his protective embrace.

--But he caught wind of what was happening

And flew into a rage so maddening--

Him being backed up against the wall of his own home, Sean threatening to beat the details of Liz's jaunt out of him, without hesitation.

--"She'll be with no one

If she won't be with me"--

Sean coming to the hospital everyday after he had put Liz in the coma. Only to be taken away by security, screaming and hollering that she was his.

--You see his love for her had turned to obsession

Could not let go of his prized possession--

Reading over the letter that Sean had left in Liz's hotel room. The comments that he owned her and that she was a bad girl for leaving him, but that she would be punished when she returned and until she did bad things were going to happen..

--This was what she was

For this is what she was--

Liz crying in his arms that she was stuck and couldn't find her way out, that no matter what she did or where she went he'd always be there to screw her over. Knowing that Liz was right, but still telling her that everything would work out.

--But the love grew into bitter jealousy

Violence ends in silence

With fatality

Why must this be?--

Finding out what had happened to Isabel, and who had caused it. Knowing that Sean was acting out on his threat to kill Liz's friends so she would have no one to turn to, and be forced to come back to him.

--That's all there is

There's no love--

Being with Liz after she awoke from her coma, only to tell the cops that Sean had done nothing to her. That she was at fault for what had happened.

--There's no love for you

This time--

Knowing that Liz had gone back with Sean after she left was realeased from the hospital, but Liz denying it to him and Maria for fear of their disapproval.

--There's no love for you

There's no love--

Watching Liz from a far, knowing that she was blaming herself for what had happened to Isabel. Knowing that she was living in fear and that there wasn't a damn thing he could do about it since know one knew where Sean was.

--No Love--

Alex finally snapped back to reality when 'the sleeping beauty' in front of him stirred in her sleep, rolling over so that her face was now in his line of view. Even with the stitches above her eye and the bruise on her cheek, there was no doubt in his mind that she was the most amazing women he had ever seen. Inside and Out.

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He sat at the small diner that she had been meeting at with men ... other men that weren't him. He shook his head at the thought "tisk tisk Lizzy" he mumbled as he lifted the white coffee cup to his mouth and washed back more of its hot liquid, while looking over the morning paper.

He decided to turn to the obituary section hoping that something would be printed on the 'accidental death of Isabel Evans' or the 'unsolved murder of Isabel Evans'. He was disappointed not to find a thing. Defeated he turned to the local news section as he sipped more coffee, only to spit it back out when he read the first headline –

"Local sweetheart Isabel Evans Survives Near Fatal Car Wreck."

Throwing the newspaper against the table and cursing to himself. He'd thought for sure she'd been dead when he left. How could she not of been!

Which only showed to prove that now he had one more person to rid of and even less time to do it. A smirk spread across his face as he envisioned his next victim... what a sweet victory that would be.

TBC