Lonely nights. I hate them. I've spent every night of my life alone. Dreaming of being held by someone, holding someone. Just someone next to me. Anyone would work, really. Even Trunks would do. I had feelings for him once upon a time, but then he just disappeared, and they got snuffed out, and I'm left with an empty spot in my soul.
Then I lay numbly under the stars, plotting my course, and timing it out, figuring where I could stop, and get some food. There was no other civilization with food as good as Earth, so I was glad I stocked up. Sometimes I just wished I could go back to the guy everyone like, loved, cared about, knew existed.
There is no one who cares about me anymore. They only are realizing why I've gone bezerk because I tried to kill Bulma, and for some reason, I wish Trunks hadn't hit it out of the way. I wish she had died. I wish... I wish I died. I guess I kind of did, really. That is only if you want to look really deep into it.
"Makes you think, doesn't it?" I heard a voice ask me.
"Not really." I admitted. "They are just stars and planets, and this is just one of them to someone else."
"Why do you lay out here when you have so many capsules?" The voice asked.
"Because it pisses people like you off." I rolled my eyes.
"What happened to you?" The voice asked. "What made you snap?"
"People like you."
"People like me? Do you even know who you're talking to?"
"No, and I don't particularly care." I was getting annoyed.
"What happened?" The voice persisted.
"Not gonna talk about it." I sat up, then stood, and looked at the shadowed figure.
"Are you gonna shoot me like you did that lady? Are you gonna try and kill me like Bulma?" The voice sounded interested.
"No, I think it'd be worse for you if you lived. People who ask questions don't ask questions for long, and I'd rather not be the one to kill you." I shrugged.
"What happened?" The voice asked.
"People like you happened! People who get what they want and then leave you forever, people who abandon you, people who don't give a damn. People who say they love you, even in their sleep, and then leave you." I yelled, getting angry.
"People like me? I'm not any of those."
"People like you. People like everybody, just people in general!" I growled.
"Not everybody has left you."
"Name one." I challenged. "Earth's special forces totally forgot about me, my mother runs away from me, Gohan looks right through me, Dad is gone, and Trunks is too!"
"I haven't left you." The voice said. "You know I'm always around. You know I stay for days, but you hide in your room."
Radditz... This guy was creepy.
"Ever consider that it's your fault for not being sociable?" Radditz asked.
"Ever consider that I knocked on everyone's door every other day for two Years straight asking for people to come hang out?!" I yelled. "You don't know me, you don't know what it's like!"
"You don't know what it's like in hell, being alone, without the chance for companionship! You could've always gone out and made friends, you know." Radditz belittled me.
"Go away Radditz. Even if I had made friends, they wouldn't of stayed. No one ever does." I sighed.
"And when they come, you turn them away." Radditz came out of the shadows.
"I like being alone, I've gotten used to it, I don't deal well with people anymore." I growled. "Certainly not you."
"What's wrong with me?" Radditz asked
"You're a creep!" I sat down, leaning against a tree.
He sat down and faced me, our knee's less than 6 inches apart, and I realized how freaken big this guy was.
"I'm creepy?" Radditz chuckled at this.
"Yeah! You are! Whenever I tried to leave my house you were always right outside, and that gets weird!"
"Sorry. Vegeta just told me to-"
"Do you do EVERYTHING he tells you to?" I asked.
"If he told me to eat 1000 gallons of paste, I'd do it. He is my Prince, he looks after all Sayain." Radditz said. "That is why the Royal family is supposed to be the strongest, so they can protect their people."
"Here I am going insane, and he does what?" I chuckled.
"It's been many years, but didn't he save you from Buu?" Radditz asked.
"True..." I sighed. "You realy can see everything from hell, can't you?" I asked.
"EVERYTHING! It's a horrible expirience. There you are, watching everything happen, and not being able to control any of it, or change the channel, or stop it. You see everything." Radditz looked up at me. "I need a favor."
"Um... okay..." I looked around nervously.
"Let me mate with you."
"That's the creepy part." I stood uncomfortably, and took a few step away from him.
"Or just let me into your mind. I think I can fix what's broken in there." Radditz stood, him towering over me by like two feet.
He held my chin gently, and pushed his lips to mine. I didn't understand what was going on until I felt him in my mind. He was looking around.
Radditz POV
I didn't expect to see anything out of the ordinary, but when I finally got in, I saw Goten sitting in the middle of a room, shattered glass surrounding him. The glass was from Picture Frames, and there were dozens broken. In the mangled frames held a person, or a picture, and the one's with shattered frames and glasses were obviously the people who abandoned him.
Goten was bloody. It seemed it came crashing down around him, and he didn't get out in time. Goten looked very different here. He wasn't so skinny, and he had a good tan. He let his Ki out freely, but nothing left this room. as I stepped over the glass to get to him, I noticed his wrists were slit, which was the worst thing I could want in this room.
Goten was killing himself very slowly. I looked at the Pictures that still hung, glass intact. One was of a huge fish, another was of Vegeta, one of Tien, Krillin, Yamcha and Piccolo together, and one of me. When I looked at mine, I saw Goten get up, walk to the picture of Tien, Krillin, Yamcha, and Piccolo, and smash it on the ground, and stomped on it repeatedly.
"Gone." He whispered, not even seeing me.
I took my picture off the wall, and put it on a table with the pictures of food, he obviously loved food, and as I placed it down the table began to shake as if it would break under the weight. I took off SPAM, and replaced it with my picture. I know it's very wrong to rearrange another's soul, but I believe that I can fix him.
Goten stood, and picked up a picture. The picture of Trunks. He looked at it sadly, and ripped it up copletely.
"Gone." He whispered
Goten got back up, and walked over to my picture, took it out of it's frame, and brought it back and he sat down, just looking at it.
"Gone." He whispered, and just as he began to rip, I grabbed his hands, not allowing him to rip up my picture.
"No, still here." I said.
He looked up to me with those sweet eyes of his, and nodded, understanding, he stood, and put the picture back. Surprisingly he pushed everything else off the table, and made sure my picture wouldn't fall. Goten looked at me, and showed me his wrists, blood flowing out slowly.
I brought the wrists to my lips, and lapped up the blood. His blood was sweet, and I knew he must be the offspring of Brolli. He smiled, but pulled away. He pointed to my frame, and smiled brigher.
"Not gone."
"Not gone." I smiled back at him.
I knew I'd have to get Vegeta to look at this kids room. Right away. I knew he had to see how horribly this kids mind was in shape. I left his litte room of Broken picture frames, and pulled my lips away from his, he was shocked, and slightly feeling awkward.
"We're not blood related, so don't worry." I chuckled.
"Oh, that's right. I'm adopted son from Brolli." The kid knew.
"How'd you figure that out?" I asked, really wondering, as I picked him up Bridal style.
"I met him a while back. He told me everyhting. Why are you holding me?" He asked.
"Vegeta needs to see how badly your mind is broken. And you're cute." I smiled and flew off.
"Not gonna go to Capsule corp." He said stubbornly.
"Yes you are, 'cause Geta's there." I said.
"He lets you call him Geta?!" Goten, cute when normal, gorgeous when smiling, and when laughing, he's a god, right then, he was a god.
"He hates it, so make sure to call him that." I smiled, and lifted off.
He became really serious. "I'm serious! I'm not going back to Capsule Corp! They're mad at me! I lost control! I can't control what I do anymore!"
"Well, then I'll knock you out and bring you back, they can't be mad at a lifeless cute Goten. No one can be mad at you when you sleep, you're just too cute." I admitted.
It wasn't looked down upon on Vejita-sei for two males to be together, since Females were very rare, and no one really cared about blood relations. Vejita-sei rocked my socks.
"I won't let anyone hurt you, and I promise to be there when you wake up." I tried.
"Okay. I trust you." He sighed, and I hit him in the back of the neck, he was out cold.
I kissed his forehead and flew off to Capsule Corp.
Radditz rang the doorbell, unable to open it, since he was holding Goten in his arms, and Trunks opened the door. Trunks had a shocked look on his face, and immediatly tried to grab Goten, but Radditz snarled, not letting Trunks grab him. Trunks was confused, but let it slide, and ran to get Bulma and Vegeta, and all the others who were slowly accumulating at Capsule Corp to find out what the hell was up with Goten.
Radditz sat down, holding Goten close to him, and rocking the teen sweetly. Radditz knew how badly Goten was Broken, and sometimes when you're like this, all you need is to be held a little, loved a little, cared about a little, and slowly get better.
Vegeta came running, and was shocked at the sight he saw. Radditz wasn't a tender and gentle guy, he was rough and tough, and like to cause people pain, so why was Radditz holding Goten in such a sweet and eerily adorable way? Was it that bad?
"He's bad. He's worse than I first thought, too. I'm gonna claim him, 'Geta. I have to." Radditz sighed.
"Can I have a look, or will you kill me?" Vegeta asked.
"I want you to look." Radditz said. "That's why he is here."
People gathered, and looked on. "This'll look like a kiss, but it's one of two ways to get into the other's mind." Vegeta explained.
"What's the other way?" Gohan asked.
"Smash open his skull." Vegeta said bluntly. "That isn't what we're aiming for."
Gohan 'eeped', and Piccolo chuckled at it. Gohan glared, and Piccolo smirked, and Tien looked on jealously. Back to the story...
Vegeta lowered his lips to Goten's, and entered his mind.
Goten sat in the middle of a room, Glass shattered everywhere, himself so covered in blood, you'd think he was dead already. The room had grown darker, and Goten now sat on the floor. Goten was skinny, and pale, you could tell even under all the blood, and his Ki was being trapped inside. Goten was crying.
"What's wrong?" Vegeta asked.
"Empty walls, and empty tables. No one. Radditz..." Goten held the frame in his arms, holding it close, so it wouldn't break. "Only one left."
Vegeta looked at the pieces of glass that were everywhere. Vegeta picked up his own picture, and handed it to Goten, smiling sweetly at him.
"Not just one, two. You aren't alone. I won't leave you again." Vegeta kissed Goten's cheek, and sat down with him.
"Geta not gone?" Goten asked.
Vegeta cringed, but pushed out the words. "Geta not gone."
Goten smiled happily, and hugged Vegeta tightly. Vegeta did hug back to his own surprise, and pulled the boy into his lap. He had to protect this boy at all costs, if it meant his life, he'd give it up. Goten was his own person, he wasn't Kakarot's Brat, or part of Gotenks, he was his own person who was a carrier by chance. Right now he could care less if he was a carrier or not.
Then it hit Goten. They only wanted his lower half. His top half could go screw a cow, and bathe in acid for what they cared. Atleast Vegeta wanted that, Radditz would never hurt him like that!
"Leave." Goten got off of Vegeta, tears streaming down his face, as the tears fell, the picture of Vegeta melted away.
"I don't care what you are, or aren't, Goten! Whether or not you believe me, I care more than about if you can carry a kid. That doesn't matter to me. I'm still going to stick around, Goten. I'm not going to leave you." Vegeta said, and the picture stopped melting away, and started regrowing.
"Not gone?"
"Not Gone." Vegeta kissed Goten's cheek, and left his mind.
Vegeta pulled away slowly, and put his head in his hands. This kid was messed up inside. This kid was hurt worse than when he 'worked' for Freiza. Vegeta closed his eyes, and put his knee's to his chest.
"Well?" Chi-Chi asked worriedly.
"He's hurt so deep I don't know if he's gonna make it." Vegeta admitted. "It is our fault. We all abandoned him. We all drove him to be this way. We ignored what he knew about him, and went on like he was not there. If he doesn't make it, I hope you all realize what we've done to him." Vegeta stood, and ordered Radditz to follow with Goten, to the Medical Wing, and told everyone else to stay.
"How bad was it?" Radditz asked.
"Worse than when you entered I suppose." Vegeta got out blankets and pillows. " Get him cleaned up, and change him into some clean PJ's."
Vegeta tossed him some, and Radditz nodded, laid Goten down, and slowly undressed him. Radditz took the Naked Goten to the bath and put some Strawberry stuff into it. When the water was warm and smelling good, Radditz placed Goten in it. Goten was beautiful. Everything a Sayain body should look like, he was skinnier than he should have been, a little pale, but he was shaped perfectly, and even had some scars from battle, which was always worth it.
Radditz washed Goten's limp body, and washed his hair, He leaned him against a wall, and towel died him, then dressed him in warm PJ's he left on the heater, so they'd get all warm. Radditz hled him close, and when he sat, Goten slowly woke up.
"What... Where am I?" Goten groaned tiredly.
"You're with me, and Geta." Radditz smiled sweetly.
"Someone bathed me, didn't they?" Goten asked.
"I did." Radditz smiled.
"Man, didn't even notice." Goten yawned, and snuggled into Radditz's chest.
"Everyone is worried about you." Vegeta said.
"They're worried about what I'm gonna do next. I'm very unpredictable you know." Goten said absentmindedly, as Radditz fingered his tail gently. "You're rather distracting you know."
"What am I distracting you from exactly?" Radditz asked
"Can't quite tell, you're distracting me." Goten sighed.
"Cute." Vegeta chuckled, sitting on the bed that was meant for Goten.
Radditz threw a glare at Vegeta, death written all over it. Vegeta rolled his eyes, and stuck out his tongue. Radditz was gonna pounce Vegeta, but Goten had started to purr, and he was just too damned cute. Radditz had his mind set on Claiming Goten as his, and Vegeta had the same objective. Now all that stood in the way was eachother.
It was night, and Goten had left to take a piss, and wouldn't let either join him. Modest little brat. Goten had actually snuck away, to get far from those two. They didn't let him be alone at all. He missed his alone time. After being alone so long, it was strange having people around. Then again, he did miss people, so he settled to hiding his Ki completely, and listening in on Radditz and Vegeta's converstation about him.
"He's in bad shape." Vegeta sighed. "One of us is going to have to claim him, if he's going to live."
"I'll do it." Radditz offered. "You've got Bulma, he needs me."
"Bulma and I have been divorced for years, right after we got married, really. We divorced a month after marrying." Vegeta thought.
"Which is exactly why I should claim him. Who knows if you'd be able to keep up with him. You're older now." Radditz said. "I stopped aging after I died. I'm 25."
"Sayains live much longer than humans. I'm equivelent of a 25 year old as it stands. Since Goku made the wish right after you were wished back, you might not of realized it. He wished us all 30 years younger, sucker, you're the same age as me." Vegeta chuckled, and snickered.
"That why..??.. Wait, then Goten shouldn't be even alive. He wasn't even 30."
Man, they were talking about really boring things. Were they always so... boring?
"I'm to claim him." Vegeta sighed.
Goten didn't even know what claiming was, poor little Tyke. He'd have to go find someone, and beat it out of them... That's what he was turning into. Goten walked down the halls, and began to do what he did best, act. He'd act scared, like he had turned this way because of a traumatic expirience, like someone did something to him.
Goten had always loved Drama class.
Goten entered the living room 'groggily', faking it perfectly, and everyone looked up at him. He jumped back in 'shock' when he 'noticed' everyone. He shook his head, and whimpered.
"No... Don't hurt me..." Goten turned and ran.
"Goten!" Trunks ran after him, and eventually grabbed his arm, spinning him around.
Goten was crying, and whimpering, and begging not to be hurt again. Goten let the tears fall, the tears he had held back for so long. Trunks didn't know what to do. Had he turned Goten into this... mass of jelly? The Goten he knew was gone, and all he was holding onto was a memory, so why was it so damn hard to let go of it?
Goten looked closer, and then gaped slightly, 'realizing' that Trunks meant no harm to him, and collapsed into Trunks' embrace.
"I'm so damn scared Trunks. I don't know how I'm gonna hold together anymore. I'm slipping away, and I can't even stop it. He said he'd be back! He said he wouldn't leave me living this time, and now, I don't know who to trust!" Goten cried.
Trunks held him and ran a hand through his hair sweetly. "I won't let him hurt you, Goten, never, ever again, I promise. I'm not gonna leave you again. You don't realize how much I missed you." Trunks cried with him softly
"You were gone! You left me! You caused this! You made him do this to me!" Goten backed up, now totally convincing with his angry tears. "You didn't save me."
Goten looked at him once more, and ran back, but ran into Radditz's tall, muscular chest. Radditz picked up Goten gingerly, and glared daggers at Trunks. Trunks was speechless, what was he supposed to say? Goten cried hysterically into Radditz's chest.
Trunks nodded. "You're right, Goten. I didn't save you. I'm sorry I wasn't there. If it takes me the rest of my life, I'll do my best to make it up to you. Just please, let me hold you."
Goten paused, looked Trunks in the eyes. "You're not gonna leave me again, are you?"
"Never." Trunks smiled genuinely, and Goten pulled himself away from Radditz, and went to walk with Trunks.
This new development was not going to be enough to stomp out the awaiting Claim he had coming from two other angles. He would ask Trunks what a claim was, and exactly why people kept kissing him, even though he already knew, he had a persona to keep up.
Trunks sat on the couch, Goten on his lap, purring quietly.
"Vegeta and Radditz have been saying things I don't understand, care to clear things up?" Goten asked.
"What do you need?" Trunks smiled into Goten's neck, loving the closeness.
"Why were they fighting over a 'claim' and me?" Goten got off Trunks, and leaned on the other side of the couch, so he could see Trunks explain it.
Trunks didn't want Goten to leave his arms, but this'd have to do. "A claim?! That means they want to mate with you, and make you theirs for eternity, even after death. Vegeta and Radditz must think it's nessacary for you to get a mate soon, seeing as you're both of age, and full-sayain, it's working twice as much as it would for me." Trunks sighed deeply.
"Why do people keep kissing me?" Goten asked.
"That's how they can get into your mind, see what's up in a projection of how things are in your body. Sayains are telepathic in a certain sense, so it's pretty cool to be in another's mind." Trunks smiled.
"You and Gohan tried it, didn't you?" Goten asked.
"Yeah, a long time ago." Trunks smiled.
"I think I want to go back to 'Geta and Radditz now." Goten said, hurt slightly by the fact he could never have a relationship with Trunks.
Goten would never hurt Gohan in anyway, and Goten knew Gohan still had feelings for him. Goten decided that he needed to get away before something happened between them.
"What are they, your keepers?" Trunks asked
"No, They are my Prince, and my friend, we stick together." Goten stood and walked away.
"What did I do wrong?" Trunks followed.
"Nothing at all." Goten replied.
"Then why are you so cold to me?" Trunks asked.
"Why did you never return my calls, why did you stop answering your door, why did you stop stopping by?" Goten asked coldly.
"So you ARE mad at me." Trunks said.
"I was in love with you damn it! Then you just left the face of the Earth! Of course I'm mad!" Goten yelled. "Leave. I'm not warning you again."
Trunks only managed to get a "But-" Out before Goten blasted him into a wall.
Goten sat in the med lab, Vegeta hugging him from behind, holding him gently. Goten shook his head and pulled away from Vegeta. Goten had a very masochistical look on his face, he was going to hurt himself, and Vegeta couldn't do a thing to stop him, or could he? Vegeta lunged, and caught Goten's lips with his.
Vegeta appeared in Goten's room, a bloody Goten tied to a wall, unconcious, and beaten badly. This was not a good sign. Vegeta walked over broken glass, and towards the pictures. The picture of Trunks caught his eyes. The picture was of Trunks laying dead, in millions of pieces. Showing exactly what Goten wanted Trunks to be.
Vegeta looked at his picture, and was surprised beyond all reason to see what only mates would have there. A picture of Vegeta and Goten, Vegeta holding Goten protectively, and glaring down all those who wanted to hurt him. What really gave him a kick in the keister were the bite marks Goten's mind inserted on their necks, proving to be eachothers, except there was another set of Teeth marks on Goten's neck.
Vegeta looked at Radditz's picture, a picture not unlike his own, except Radditz had no shirt on in this picture, and there were bruises, and hickey's and cuts and blood and everything to imply they had had Sex the Sayain way.
