When I went back to school, two days after I got out of the hospital, I wanted everything to be like it was before. Well, I wanted it to be normal. So I didn't tell anyone about my act of stupidity; I didn't want anybody to know about it.
I was feeling a little better though, even though I don't know why. Nothing had changed.
The hallway was nearly deserted, except for a few students here and there. I looked down the row of lockers to my classroom, and headed toward it. That's when I saw Craig. I cautiously approached him.
"Hey," I said nervously.
"Hey," his tone seemed to match mine.
"Listen...you better not tell anyone about the other day, okay? I don't want people to know that I'm not over it yet."
"Don't worry," he said. "I had no intention of telling anyone."
I started to walk away, then I turned back around. "Hey, Craig?"
He turned to look at me.
"Thanks," I said, and then continued walking to the classroom.

In Media Immersion, I could feel Spinners eyes on me. I didn't want to talk to him. I didn't want him to know I still loved him; I didn't want him to know that it had almost killed me to break up with him.
After school, Spinner caught up with me. I was at my locker, trying to avoid him. I had been avoiding him all day...it was just too painful to look at him. Too painful to be with him.
"What was up with you and Manning?" he asked.
"Nothing," I said. "We were talking about something."
"Like what?" he asked.
"Why do you want to know? Its none of your business," I said. I had to get him to leave me alone.
"Dammit, Paige, it is my business, I still love you," he said.
"Spinner, I thought we talked about this."
"No, you talked about it. You didn't let me get a word in," he said.
"I just want to be friends," I said. "I don't want to be attached right now."
"You looked pretty attached to Craig," he said. "Are you blowing me off again...like last time?"
I stopped dead in my tracks. "Like last time? You mean with Dean? How dare you!" I screamed at him.
"Paige I didn't mean it..." he said.
"The hell you didn't," I slammed my locker door and ran from the building. I didn't stop until I had reached the park.
I sank onto a bench, wiping tears away. I hugged my knees, trying to keep from crying. How could he throw that in my face like that?
"Are you okay, Paige?" I heard a voice say.
I looked up to see Craig standing above me. "I'm fine, I had a fight with Spinner."
"Yeah, I saw," he said.
"Pretty bad, huh?" I asked.
He laughed lightly. "So, how are you doing? Do you feel any better than the other night?"
"A little," I admitted.
"Yeah, me too," he said, sitting down next to me.
"I'm sorry about your dad," I said.
"I'm sorry about what happened," he said.
I started to cry again. "It's like I can't get over it. He's in my nightmares...he's in my day mares. I can't escape him and when I try...I have to go without sleep. When I close my eyes...he's there, waiting for me. Planning his next move...I think I'm going crazy. "
He put his arm around my shoulders. "It's okay," he said. "Everything will be okay."

Mom was out on another date with some guy-don't ask me his name, I have no clue- so Dylan and I decided to spend some quality time together, something we hadn't done in a long time.
We were sitting in the living room watching some reality TV show.
"I'm hungry," Dylan said.
"Yeah, me too," I said. "Do you want to order a pizza?"
"No," he said. "Do you want to order some Chinese?"
"Yeah, Chinese sounds great," I said.
He left to go order the food. I ordered sweet and sour chicken...the best.
I felt happy, for the first time in a long time, I felt genuinely happy. It felt really nice.
When the food came, we tried our best to eat it with chopsticks. I managed to pick the food up with them, but it landed everywhere but my mouth. We gave up and used a fork.