The lyrics at the end of the chapter are from BBMAK, the song is Still on Your Side. I hope you enjoy.
Mom still wasn't home when I went to bed, so that meant that she probably wouldn't be home until the morning. That was fine with me, I was used to it by now. It had been like that since Dad left. I didn't remember him, and I didn't want to.
I sat up, straight. I had had some nightmare...I couldn't remember what. I looked around the room quickly, scanning it. I turned the lamp on next to me, and he was there. Dean.
"What are you doing here?" I screamed.
"Come on, Spirit," his voice was menacing. "We had fun."
"No, we didn't.." I said. "Get out before I call the police."
"The police didn't do anything last time," he said, moving toward me. "And they wont do anything this time."
I sat up in a cold sweat. It had been a dream. Dean wasn't here. It was a dream. I turned the light next to my bed on. Other than me, there wasn't a soul in the room. I breathed a sigh of relief. I looked at the clock next to my bed. It was ten after midnight. I wiped tears from my eyes as my eyes fell on the phone. I picked it up without thinking and dialed a phone number.
"Hello?" the sleepy voice asked.
"C-Craig," I stammered. "It's Paige."
"Are you okay?" he asked.
"I had a nightmare," I said, tears pouring down my cheeks. "About Dean, and I couldn't think of anyone to call. You seem to be the only one who understands me."
"Do you want to meet at the coffee house to talk?" he asked.
"Were you asleep?" I asked.
"No," he said. "I haven't been able to get to sleep yet."
"Okay," I said. "Are you sure you don't mind meeting me there?"
"I'm positive," he said.
"Okay, then I'll meet you there."
We sat at a table in the nearly deserted coffee house. A cup of coffee sat in front of each of us, my hair was stringy, despite my attempts to brush it before I left the house. Craig's hair fell around his eyes, his leather jacket was on...making him look tough, even though I knew he was dying on the inside. His eyes were tired, exhausted. I knew he couldn't have slept for a while...it showed.
"How are you feeling?" I asked.
"I'm okay," he answered. "Its still hard sometimes, though."
"Yeah I know what you mean," I said.
"What happened in your dream?"
"It was like...I had woke up from this really creepy dream and Dean was there, and he said that the police didn't do anything last time, and that they wouldn't do anything this time." I shuddered at the thought.
"So you're afraid he's going to come back?" he asked.
"Yeah," I said. "I don't want to have to face him again. I don't ever want to see him again."
He nodded. "That's understandable."
"Yeah."
"What makes you think he's going to come back?"
"I don't know...it's just a feeling."
"Well, if he does or if he doesn't I'll be here for you."
"Do you have nightmares about your dad?" I asked.
"Sometimes," he said. "Like when I take a picture of a family playing in a park, and I realize that I never had that with him. Or when I look at my camera, and I remember the day he smashed all of my equipment because he found pictures of my little sister."
I couldn't think of anything to say. But he didn't want me to say anything, he just wanted me to listen. Like when I told Spinner about Dean, he would always end up saying something-usually the wrong thing-when all I wanted him to do was listen to how I felt. That's what I found with Craig, a listener. Don't get me wrong- there was nothing sexual or romantic about my feelings. He was a good friend. That's all I needed.
Still On your Side :
I will stand up for you
No matter what you're goin through You've found the place where you belong
New friends who can do no wrong
That's what you believe
But who's gonna be there when you fall
To build you up when you're feeling small
Give you love that you need
Who will? I will
When the whole world turns against you
Ain't no lie
Don't you know that Chorus
I will stand up for you
No matter what you're goin through
I'm still on your side
Anytime, day or night
Don't care if it's wrong or right
I'm still on your side You wanna run, you wanna break free
Well what you want ain't what you need
Can't you see that I care
I know I'm hard on you sometimes
But when you're lookin for the things you can't find
Don't you know who'll be there
Who will? I will
When it's more than you can handle
Ain't no lie
Don't you know that
I will stand up for you
No matter what you're goin through
I'm still on your side
Anytime, day or night
Don't care if it's wrong or right
I'm still on your side
I'll be there
I'll be there when you need me
I won't let you go
There's nothing I won't do
I'll be there you know
