I sank onto my bed after hanging the phone up. I don't know why, but I had felt crushed when Craig wasn't there for me. I guess I had grown dependant on him, too dependent. I wondered where he was at and who he was with, but I guessed it was probably Marco or Sean.
"Paige," Dylan burst through the doors of my bedroom.
"Can't you knock?" I asked bitterly.
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing. What did you have to tell me?"
"Just that mom said she wasn't going to be home tonight, and neither am I. so maybe you should ask Craig to come over or maybe Ashley?"
"I just tried to call Craig, he's not home. And Ashley ran away."
"Ran away?" he sat down on the edge of my bed.
"Yeah," I wiped a tear from my eye. "She met this guy and they ran away together."
"That's not like Ashley."
"I don't know what's wrong with her."
"Where's Craig?"
"I don't know that either," I said. I tried to stop from crying.
"Do you want me to stay?"
"You don't have to."
"Do you want me to?"
"No, I'm fine. Go have fun."
He eyed me for a moment and then walked to the door.
"I tried to warn you," he said.
"Warn me?"
"Yes. I tried to tell you that after you had sex with him you would become super-sensitive about everything. There's no going back now." He closed the door behind him and I laid down on the bed. He was right. There was no going back...even if I had wanted to.
I racked my brain for someone to call and talk to. I tried Hazel, but she was with her aunt and wouldn't answer her cell phone. I tried Terri but she wouldn't answer the phone either. I even tried Ellie, but she wasn't home. Finally, I dialed Spinners phone number.
It rang and it rang and it rang. Just when I was ready to hang up, Spinner answered the phone, sounding sleepy.
"Did I wake you?" I asked.
"Kind of. What's going on?" I could hear him yawn.
I turned over on my side on the bed. "I'm just kind of upset that's all. It's like my life has been turned upside down."
"Ashley came to see you, then?"
"How did you know?"
"I ran into her while I was at the Dot. She said goodbye to me and that she was on her way to see you."
"She left about an hour ago. I don't believe she's actually moving away with that guy. Does she even know him?"
"You know Ashley. She's always wanted that type of romance. She couldn't get it with Jimmy so she went to Craig and when Craig cheated on her, she went to an older guy, its who she is."
"Yeah, I know. It's just so hard to believe."
"It is."
"I miss you," I said quietly.
"I miss you, too."
"What happened with us?" I asked, trying to stop from crying. "Its like...we were Paige and Spinner...Degrassi's super couple. And then...it just went all to hell."
"You were Dean-centric and I was afraid."
"Afraid of what?"
"That I'd fall for you. And that it would happen again, or that you wouldn't want to be with me."
"I'm sorry."
"It's over now."
And, for the first time, in a long time, I wasn't happy that it was over.
The following Monday, I met Craig at his locker when I got to school.
"I tried to call you this weekend," I said quietly.
"Really? I was home all weekend."
"Joey said you were at a friends house."
"Oh, that's right. I went to Sean's. Why? What did you need to talk about?"
"Nothing really, other than the fact that my best friend ruined her life."
"What happened?" he asked again.
"It's over now. Besides, you weren't there. So lets forget about it, okay?" I kissed him lightly and walked away as fast as I could.
