A/N: Okay now I'm writing this when I should be writing the 9th chapter. But I had this idea for a really long time and I need to write it out before I lose it!

Disclaimer: I disclaim all the characters and anything else you would recognize as the wonderful and talented J.K. Rowling.

Rated: PG-13 – there's a lot of cursing…I have a potty mouth!

Summary: Ginny gets a job at Draco's magazine. What happens when two rivals start having feelings for one another and one makes a mistake that could tear everything they have apart?

Fluff-o-meter: Sorry there isn't any!

Apologizes

It had been a rough night for Draco. After Ginny and Lillian left, he stayed with his head resting against the door.

How could he have jumped to an assumption like that? How could he have been so stupid as to think that Ginny didn't love him?

He didn't get much sleep that night. Actually he didn't get any sleep. He tossed and turned all night and finally gave up around three in the morning. He got up and walked around his flat, and then when he got bored of that, he got dressed and went to the office.

He thought he might as well do something while he was up and it would take his mind off of Ginny and the stupid mistake he made.

He also decided to beg for her forgiveness. He had to. He needed Ginny like air and water. He would do anything to get her back. He had to get her back.

Arriving at the office building, he went up to his office and tried to start on some paperwork. It wasn't easy getting things done. He kept thinking about Ginny.


Having a horrible night would have been an understatement for Ginny. It didn't come close to what she experienced.

When she saw Draco with that other girl, she died. She literally died. He was her everything and here he was with another girl. And he thought she was cheating on him. Did he not believe her when she told him she loved him? Did he not trust her?

She cried the entire night. She just sat on her bed, sobbing into her pillow. She couldn't stop and her mind wouldn't let her forget what she saw when she walked into the flat.

Again, a guy broke her heart. This was the second time and she felt like an even bigger fool. She actually believed she meant something to Draco. She thought he felt the same way that she did, but she was obviously wrong.

Since sleep was not coming to her, Ginny decided to go to the office early and get some work done before the photo shoot.

She threw on a pair of jeans and a top then pulled her hair back in a messy bun. She went into her bathroom and looked at her reflection in the mirror. She sighed loudly and glumly. Her eyes were puffy and red; it was obvious she had been crying the entire night.

Sighing once again, Ginny bent down and picked up her makeup. There was probably a simple spell that could fix the bags and puffiness but Ginny didn't feel like using it, and she left her wand in her bedroom and didn't feel like getting it. She first applied cream on her eyes to take away the puffiness then proceeded to cover up the dark circles with concealer.

Finishing up, she put the makeup bag back and went to her room to retrieve her wand and purse. Getting those two items, she apparated to the front of the office building. She slowly made her way inside and into the elevator.

In the elevator, she got to thinking about what today would bring with Draco. What would she do when she saw him during the day? What would he say to her? What would she say to him?

This was why she didn't want to date her boss. Because of the awkwardness that would come if they broke up. But she let her feelings take over and she followed her heart. Unfortunately, her heart was wrong for a second time.

She stepped off the elevator and noticed that someone was already there from some light coming into the hallway. She found where the light was coming from and her heart sank. Draco was already here. She wasn't expecting to have to face him until later today.

She took a deep breath and walked to her office. She went in, closed the door behind her, and placed a locking charm on it. She didn't want to talk to Draco.

Draco saw Ginny come in and immediately got out of his chair and walked over to her office. He tried to open her door but found it locked. He knocked softly. "Ginny, please let me in. I want to talk to you," he said through the door. He didn't get an answer. "Gin, please. I need to talk to you. I'm sorry."

"Go away," came Ginny's response on the other side.

Draco sighed and put his forehead against the door. "Please, just let me talk to you," he begged.

Ginny shut her eyes tightly. All she wanted to do was open that door and put her arms around him but he had broke her heart. "I don't want to hear it," she said quickly to keep her voice from cracking.

"Please Ginny, open the door and let me apologize. Let me explain," Draco pleaded.

Ginny sighed, picked up her wand, and unlocked the door. She fell into her chair with her hands over her face. Her emotions were too strong to keep in and she started sobbing.

Draco opened the door upon hearing the click. He stepped inside closing the door behind him and walked over to the front of Ginny's desk. "Can you forgive me?" he asked looking down at Ginny.

His heart was breaking seeing her like this. Here was the woman he loved, with everything he had, crying because of something stupid he did.

Keeping her head in her hands Ginny shook her head. She couldn't look at him. She couldn't see him without seeing the scene she walked into last night.

"Then let me explain," Draco said falling into a chair.

"What is there to explain Draco?" Ginny sobbed her hands still covering her face. "You cheated on me!"

"I saw you with Harry…it didn't mean anything…it was stupid!" Draco stumbled trying to explain.

"You're right, it was stupid." Ginny said, taking a deep breath. It didn't stop the tears. "But I was stupid to think I meant something to you," she spat out.

Draco shook his head and leaned forward. "You do mean something!" he cried. "Ginny you mean everything to me! It was a mistake!"

Ginny shook her head, dropping her hands, but kept her head down. "If I really mean everything to you Draco, then why were you with that other woman?" she asked.

"Because I saw you and Harry. I saw you kiss Harry." He told her, trying to explain what he saw.

"Draco, I kissed Harry on the cheek." Ginny told him. "And I only did that because he said he would model for the magazine."

Draco put his elbows on the table. He shook his head then rested his forehead on his hands. "I had a few drinks last night. I guess I saw it wrong," he said.

"That's not an excuse."

"I know," Draco said quickly afterward. He picked his head up and looked at Ginny. Her head was down and she wouldn't look at him. Her eyes were red and puffy and she had tearstains down her face. He hated knowing he did that to her. "I really am sorry," he mumbled gently.

Ginny took a long trembling breath. "I know," she whispered. He was here, begging for her forgiveness, and Merlin knows how bad she wanted to give it to him. But he promised her he wouldn't break her heart. He promised her he wouldn't hurt her like Chris did, but he did.

"Just tell me what I can do to fix this. I'll do anything Ginny," Draco said. He needed to find some way to get her back.

Ginny shook her head and wiped away her tears. "There isn't any way to fix this," she said softly. Merlin did she just want to die. She wanted to take him back but he hurt her so badly that she couldn't let herself take him back and possibly get hurt again. Her heart couldn't take anymore.

"Please Ginny, find a way and tell me how to fix this." Draco reached out and took one of her hands.

Ginny snatched her hand back as if Draco's touched burned her. "Please don't touch me," she said. She shut her eyes tightly and more tears threatened to leak. His touch still sent a shock through her body, but knowing that his hands were on someone else's body made her not want him touching her.

Draco pulled his hand back and placed it on his knee. "Sorry," he muttered. He looked up at her, his eyes full of defeat that he wasn't willing to happen. "Will you look at me, please?" he begged.

Ginny shook her head a tear rolling down her already wet cheek. "I can't."

"Then will you talk to me?" he requested. He wanted to find a way to fix what he had done.

"About what Draco?" Ginny cried. She spun her chair around and stood up, her back facing Draco. "About how you broke my heart! About how you literally killed me when I saw you two together?" she yelled.

Draco stood up as well, running a hand through his hair. "Ginny, it didn't mean anything," he said, trying to keeping his calm. "I saw you and Harry and got jealous!" It wasn't working very well.

"So this is my fault?" Ginny spat. "You want me to apologize? Fine I'm sorry for having a friend!" she yelled.

"No!" Draco yelled back. He was trying to keep his voice down but he was angry with himself. "I'm just trying to explain what happened," he said, walking over to her.

Ginny turned to face him finally. "Explain what?" She asked, her voice cracking again. "Draco, I gave you all of me and you shoved it right back in my face like it was nothing. Like I was nothing, and you mean everything to me."

"You mean everything to me too!" Draco cried, shaking his head. He sighed and walked over to her. "Ginny please, forgive me! It was a mistake and stupid mistake. I saw you and Harry and got jealous." There was anger in his voice, but it was directed at himself for being so stupid.

Ginny shook her head angrily. How could he think that would be a good enough excuse to make her forgive him? "Look, you made a mistake, okay, but you have no idea how bad you hurt me! Face the consequences!"

"No!" Draco cried grabbing her shoulders. "I will not let you go without a fight!"

Ginny sighed and didn't move out of his hold. She looked into his defeated eyes with hurt and defeated eyes of her own. "The fight's over Draco," she said. "You already lost."

Draco shook his head firmly and dropped his hands. "No, there has to be a way to fix this."

"Yeah." Ginny picked up her wand, some papers, and a few articles of clothing. She walked to the door and opened it. She turned to face him before she walked out of the door. "Just stay away from me," she said then left and shut the door.

She walked down the hall to the studio quickly. Getting there, she closed the door behind her and slid down the length of it. Coming to the floor, she burst into uncontrolled sobs.

She hated him for making her hurt, but at the same time, loved him so much and wanted him back. But she was scared he would hurt her again and she wouldn't let herself walk into another heartbreak.


Back in Ginny's office, Draco just stared at the door Ginny left through. Her words replayed over in her head.

"I was stupid to think I meant something to you."

"How you broke my heart! About how you literally killed me when I saw you two together?"

"I gave you all of me and you shoved it right back in my face like it was nothing. Like I was nothing, and you mean everything to me."

"There isn't any way to fix this."

How could he make her see that she meant everything to him? That she was his everything. That he would do anything, absolutely anything to have her back in his arms.

He sighed and fell into a chair. He couldn't get her hurtful face out of his head. The way she cried tears he caused. And he promised her that he wouldn't hurt her. When she told him about Chris and what he did to her, he swore to her that he wouldn't do the same. But he did.

Merlin, how could he have been so stupid to ruin such a good thing with such a stupid assumption. He knew Ginny loved him. He knew by the way she touched him, kissed him, talked to him, and looked at him. Her love for him was radiating off her.

Then why was he so stupid to think that she didn't love him and that she loved Harry? He jumped to a stupid conclusion like he usually did.

He ruined everything, but he wouldn't let Ginny go without a fight. This was the first woman, besides his mother, that he ever truly loved and who loved him back. He'd be damned if he let her go that easily.


The rest of the day was hell for Ginny. Not only did it go by slowly but she looked like a wreck the entire day as well. Her co-workers came up to her and asked why her eyes were so puffy and red.

"Allergies," she told them.

It was a very bad excuse considering it was October and most, not if all, people who have allergies don't have reactions in October. But that was the only thing Ginny could come up with without thinking too hard.

When she finally got home, she fell face first into the couch without even taking her cloak off. It was a very hard, emotional day. Every time she picked her head up from her desk, she would look into Draco's office. It was second nature for her to look at what he was doing from across the hall. Realizing what she was doing, she would look away quickly and force tears not to fall.

It was like the Chris breakup all over again, except worse. She was more in love with Draco than she was with Chris. Draco was everything she wanted and more.

She grabbed a pillow and buried her face into it. Hot tears made their journey down her already tear streaked face. It was too much for Ginny to think about everything she wouldn't have anymore.

His kisses, his touches, the way he smelled and the way he would absent-mindedly play with her hair at night. The way the hairs on the back of her neck would stand on end when he whispered something in her ear or the way he would blush slightly when she caught him staring at her.

Why was love not on her side? Why did everything good get taken away from her?

She buried her face into the pillow, more her cries becoming harder. Her body shook and she longed for someone to hold her. Not just anyone though. She wanted Draco.


Draco glumly walked towards the door of the manor. Today felt never ending. Every time he glanced into Ginny's office, he found her with her head down and it looked like she was crying.

He hated seeing her like that and not being able to do anything to make her feel better. Worse, he hated knowing that he was the one who caused her pain.

He opened the heavy doors to the manor and stepped inside. He was having dinner with his mother tonight. Actually, Ginny was supposed to be with him.

His mother was going to be heart broken when he told her he messed things up with Ginny. He knew his mother loved Ginny and thought she was perfect for him.

Draco thought Ginny was perfect for him too.

He sighed as he closed the door behind him. Sighing loudly once more, he ran his hands over his face and walked into the study where he knew his mother was waiting for him.

"Mum, I'm here," he said. He walked to the couch and sat down next to her.

Mrs. Malfoy turned to face him and smiled. She put her arms around Draco's shoulders and hugged him. "Where's Ginevra?" she asked, pulling away.

Draco sighed and slouched into the couch. He shook his head. "I messed up mum. We aren't together anymore," he told his mother.

Mrs. Malfoy's mouth dropped open in shock. Quickly remembering her etiquette she closed it and grabbed her son's hands to comfort him. "What happened sweetie?" she tried to keep her voice calm but she was having some trouble.

Mrs. Malfoy thought Ginny was perfect for her son. She was good to him and Mrs. Malfoy could tell Ginny genuinely loved her son.

And Ginny was a mother's dream. She was polite and did not flaunt herself. She was nothing like Draco's past girlfriends, which was a big reason for Mrs. Malfoy to love her.

Draco threw his hands in the air, sighing and shaking his head. "I jumped to a very wrong conclusion when I thought I saw something," he explained. He didn't want to tell her what exactly happened, but when his mother raised her eyebrow like she knew he wasn't telling her everything, he decided to tell her the whole story. "I thought she was cheating on me with her ex-boyfriend, Harry Potter, because I saw her kiss him, when she only kissed his cheek because he was doing a big favor for her, so I…" he trailed off not wanting to say what he did. "…Well I made a big mistake and she walked in on it."

"Oh Draco," Mrs. Malfoy said sympathetically, embracing him in another hug. She really thought this one was going to work out for him. And she knew how her son was. He was a very jealous person.

Draco hugged him mother back, finding comfort. His mother knew exactly how to make him feel better and help him in bad situations. "I don't know what I'm gonna do Mum. I love her and I ruined everything I had with her." A small tear escaped out of the corner of his eye and fell down the side of his face.

"Did you talk to her?" Mrs. Malfoy asked. She pushed him away to look him in the eyes. "Apologize and do something to get her back Draco." She cupped his chin in her hand. She looked at him with sympathy and spoke with it too. "I know you love her. Tell her and do everything you can to get her back. Don't give up."

"I did and I'm not," Draco said. "But she told me there wasn't anything I could do." He shook his head and looked down at his lap. "I promised her I wouldn't hurt her and I did. Her heart is broken and it kills me to know I did that to her." He brushed away another small tear that fell from his eye.

Mrs. Malfoy quickly took her son into her arms. "I know sweetie. I know." She hated seeing her son this upset. And Draco never cries so the fact that he was crying just showed Mrs. Malfoy how much Ginny meant to him.

"I'm sorry Mum. I'm sorry I didn't become everything you wanted me to be. This just proves I am like Father," Draco said apologetically.

Mrs. Malfoy shook her head firmly and pushed Draco away again. She looked him straight in his eyes. "You are everything I wanted you to be. You are nothing like your father Draco. This proves that," she told him firmly. "Look at you, you're crying because you lost someone who meant a lot to you. And the fact that you were able to open up to this girl and love her proves even more that you aren't anything like your father." She paused for a moment to let everything sink into Draco. She cupped his face in her hands. "You love her Draco. And I know she loves you. Do what you have to, to get her back. And I promise you, things will work out."

Draco smiled a little bit. He hugged his mother. "Thank you," he said. Her reassurance that everything will work out made him believe that everything will be okay.

Mrs. Malfoy hugged Draco back tightly. "You're welcome Draco. And I love you."

Draco squeezed his mother closer to him. "I love you too, Mum."


A/N: First I just want to say that the little yelling fest at the beginning of the chapter was how I get the idea for the story. So the story came from just that part. And I also want everyone to know that it came from a role-play I did with my friend Kristen, so everything that Draco said came from her. So I need to give her a big thank you!

I also want to say I'm sorry. I forgot to mention that fact that I was going away on vacation for a week for my 16th birthday. So I AM SO SORRY THAT YOU GUYS WAITED SO LONG FOR THIS CHAPTER. I hope it was worth the wait.

Another thing is I want to say thank you for putting up with my physo-ness with the other chapter. You all wanted me to take a different direction with the story, as in they get married, and I went in the opposite direction. But I will admit that I got myself worked up so thank you for letting me be crazy lol!

Lastly I want to thank everyone who reviewed. When I came home the first thing I check were my reviews. I had 184 reviews! Needless to say I was floored with the amount of people who reviewed and like the story. I had new reviewers and I was just taken back by all the good comments about the story. Since there were so many of you who reviewed I'm not going to give out individual thank you like I have in the past because it would take all night and it already 1 in the morning. So I just want to say THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO REVIEWED THE LAST CHAPTER. AndI want to answer some questions.

The first question was if Draco actually had sex with the woman. No he didn't, but they were close to it. The other one asked who sang the song 'What's Your Fantasy'. It was in chapter 10. Ludacris raps it and it is a brilliant song lol. Sorry I have a male mind ;)!

Anyway I'll finish this super long Author's note. Thanks again for everyone who reviewed and again there will be a happy ending! Be patient and get through the drama I promised the end will be bitter sweet!