Just Like You

Chapter 4:

A/n: Hey everyone! Back in action again! I decided to start writting my next chapter though I'm not all that sure where this one will be going so bare with me here. This is my 4th chappie to Just Like you, which is going along well but I'm still not getting many reviews and there has been people r eading this. I was listening to Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls just moments ago and I decided to use the song for this chapter so yes this is another songfic chapter, I'm not to sure how long this chapter is going to be though so I hope that you the reader enjoys it anyways and hopefully you'll love me enough to review -

Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing as I have told you all in my other chapters, though I still wish I did own it. IT WILL BE MINE ONE DAY I TELLS YA! Okay anyways no more pop for breakfast.

Chapter 4

Last Time

Not knowing that she had a spy watching her in the shadows. His short black ponytail blowing slightly in the breeze. Oh miss Relena... wouldn't it be sad if oh I don't know Heero found out what you planning to do right now? It's great to be a preventer since I can find people so much more easily." Brown eyes watched as Relena walked away towards her door. Now all I have to do is get to Sally and tell her what is going on. Thanks Trowa for the tip the brown eyed boy walked away from the house unnoticed and got into his car, heading back to preventers HQ

A/n That was alittle cliffie and ya but the main story went on so meh. I know I'm not a perfect writter but I'm atleast trying to be good. That's all I can give is my best. v-v Anyways I'm gonna start this story now so enjoy, I'm just going on pure instincts right now on this story... ya

Chapter 4- I Just Want You to Know Who I am

DUO'S POV

And I'd give up forever to touch you

'Cause I know that you feel me somehow

I looked at my lover as he slept next to me that night, he seemed to be emotionally drained but he never was one to show such a thing, I pushed some of his hairout of his eyes and continued to stare at him. He was so beautiful but never thought he was, he would always telling me that I was lying when I would tell him such things. One thing you must know about me 'I may run and I may hide but I never tell a lie' but still Heero doesn't believe me. I guess I know where he is coming from, after everything Relena has done to him I wouldn't think of myself as beautiful either. God Heero why did you let her do all that stuff to you, you could have fought her. You could have stopped her but you didn't. You could have told me what she was doing, I could have helped you. Tears started to fill my eyes as I watched my love some more. I couldn't bare what he has told me earlier, it broke my heart to see him struggle so much to tell me what had happened to him when he was working for Relena

FLASH BACK

After talking with Quatre and Heero was finished with the dishes I went back to the kitchen

"Heero we need to talk. Why did you quit your job at Relena's?" I had to know why he left now. I thought it was the right time to ask.

"Duo... Relena has had a crush on me for a long time, though I didn't really know at the time, after our last battle together I went back to her and got a job as her top guard. Finally she began to say she loved me and shit like that. I really didn't get why she kept saying that. One day I woke up to find that I was tied to my own bed and naked for that matter. I saw her on the side of the bed, she was getting ready to take me I don't know what happened but she stopped soon after. I thought it was normal for females to act like that but soon I figured out that it wasn't. Then on most nights she would always call me to her room and start saying she loved me and that I should tell her that I love her, of course I couldn't. I have always thought of her as my sister and nothing more, so two nights ago was my last night I would work for her again. She had started doing her routine over again and I just got fed up with it. I told her straight out that I didn't love her and that... I was gay and left. Right now though I'm worried that she's going to stalk me and even kidnap me if she finds out where I am. I can't stand that women. I thought she was a good person with a good heart but I was sadly mistaken, and my mistakes went on not noticed until now." I stood there silently for what seemed to be hours but only a couple minutes, I wanted to cry, I wanted to throw something, I wanted to kill Relena to. Heero's eyes were filled with sadness. I couldn't bare that look in his eyes. I went to him and he stood up letting me embrace him. How dare she hurt him so much, hurt my love. God Heero you should have said something.

END FLASH BACK

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be

And I don't want to go home right now

Right now though Heero looks at ease, his face soft and just relaxed, how I want to see him. I brushed my fingertips against his cheek and just laid beside him until he woke up. Heero was so much like an angel even through the war he seemed like an angel, even if he did kill he just was an angel to me. He is the closest to heaven that I'll ever be and I wont let him leave me this time either. I wonder if Trowa and Quatre heard our talk yesturday in the kitchen? Probably, when it comes to listening to things and finding out new things they're there to hear it. I slowly closed my eyes, I was up most of the night thinking about the day's events I just couldn't sleep knowing that Heero had been hurt and didn't even know it at first. I looked at Heero one last time before letting sleep take me over.

HEERO'S POV

And all I can taste is this moment

And all I can breathe is your life

'Cause sooner or later it's over

I just don't want to miss you tonight

I woke up around 5 in the morning to see Duo asleep. I had been dreaming all night about the weirdest stuff though I don't remember what they were about. It was still dark out so I decided to stay in bed until Duo woke up later. He looked so cute curled up next to me with his hair everywhere, the moment right now was one that I could live with forever. Duo had so much life that he was helping me get mine back on track. I keep telling myself that this isn't a dream but it's hard to even believe that, because when you wake up from a dream it's gone. I wrapped my arm around Duo's waist and pulled him closer to me, to reasure me that this isn't a dream, that these past few nights haven't been dreams either. I think I am deeply inlove with Duo, he's the only person in the world that I can see myself with fifty years from now. But everything that has happened after the war... how do I deal with that? Duo still doesn't even know everything and I wish I could tell him but he would hate to hear what I have to tell him.

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

I don't think he would understand everything that has been going on in my head and in my life. I don't want to tell him. Show him tears that no one has seen me shed. No one can see me cry, it's something that people just can't see me do. These emotions are supposed to be locked down and blocked out. I've had nightmares since the war ended, nightmares about killing people. I once had a dream about when I was little. I was with people that I suppose were my parents. We were in a park having a pinic. It was beautiful out, but just as fast as the beauty came it left. There I was standing in the middle of a trashed, grey universe, dead bodies covered the landscape. I looked down to see the two people who were supposed to be my parents dead, blood pooled all around them. When I looked up afterwards there was a gun pointed between my eyes and I remember that in the dream I cried. The trigger was pulled and that's when I woke up. I was covered in sweat and my breathing was rapid. I knew that none of that had actually happened in the past because at that age I had been travelling with Odin. Still, it made me think about what I had done to other children. They'd probably lost their parents in the war. Now they're probably war orphans. I can't tell anyone this right now though I wish I could. I don't think they'd understand.

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

By the age of fifteen I was emotionless, drained of everything except anger and the need to complete my missions. Duo, I love you, but I really don't want you to be dragged into my fucked up life. You have everything you need and you're happy. I don't want to take that away from you, but I'll stay if you ask me to. If only I could get my voice to say those words that need to be said to you. I'm shattered inside. I don't get how I'm supposed to live now. What do I do? I want you to know the whole, real me Duo, but it's easier said than done.

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming

Or the moment of truth in your lies

I don't want what we have to be a lie or for one of us to be not truthful to the other, mainly me. Maybe I should just leave you Duo. I'm not going to do you any good, but you said you wanted me to stay. Oh Gods when did things get so confusing? I jumped slightly as Duo moaned slightly and opened his eyes. I looked at the clock and noted that it was already eight in the morning. Have I been up that long? "Morning Koi." I had been calling Duo that for alittle while now, it just seemed like a good name for him. He smiled at me and kissed me gently on the lips. "How long have you been up Hee-chan?" "About an hour I think." I replied softly as I watched him sit up in our bed. Long chestnut straids were pushed back behind him as he made to get up. "Are you taking a shower with me today love?" I looked up at him as he asked me this. I smiled at him and nodded. He smiled back at me and went into the bathroom. I heard the taps turn on and the water running. I got up and took off my boxers and followed Duo into the shower.

When everything feels like the movies

Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

I didn't notice that Duo had put the radio on before he stepped into the shower. It sounded like the song was already half way done but I still liked it. I listened to the lyrics of the song for a bit and I let the water run down my body.

And I don't want the world to see me 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

I thought about the lyrics for a bit and realized that, that's how I felt, I didn't want the world to see me because I don't think that they'd understand. When things began to break I wanted Duo to know the real me, know who I am now. I'm not the perfect soldier anymore. I am just another normal person who has had a bad past and I am trying to get over it now. I never realized that songs could fit right into your everyday life so easily. I washed my hair after Duo did and stepped out, grabbing Duo and I a towel to dry off it. Duo went out into our room and put on some shorts while I dried off.

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

Just as I was putting on a pair of shorts and shirt the doorbell rang. I let Duo go get thinking it was probably Hilde or Quatre and Trowa who got locked out of the house. Duo opened the door and all that could be heard was him screaming and a gun shot. After that my world went blurry as Quatre and Trowa came out of the guest room to run towards Duo who laided there with blood starting to pool around him. Quatre was shouting something but I didn't understand any of it. All I knew was that Duo had gotten shot and he could die any minute. I looked at Duo, his usually bright violet orbs were not bright any more and were filled with fear. That was all I saw before I blacked out. A single tear slid down my cheak.

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

A/n Okay... ummm I wasn't intending on doing that to my Duo but um it just happened, I just got that idea and put it in my story. I'm not to sure if this is a really long chapter but oh well. I hope that whoever reads this likes it and hopefully some people will be nice enough to leave a review behind after they read this chapter or the whole story! Please! Okay well R&R

Ja Ne!

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