Tainted White
- Shattered Romance -
By: Li'l Amethyst Angel
Summary: Omi is not as happy as everyone thinks. Weiss never looks behind the smile, but what happens when his façade starts to crack? Will someone be there to pick up the pieces?
Warnings: OOC (dark Omi), angst, swearing, self mutilation (cutting), shounen-ai.
Omi's POV
Clear blue eyes gaze into mine and a soft hand comes up to caress my cheek. I shiver. Why is Aki here? Is this some trick by Schwarz? I feel a sharp pain in my broken wrist. Aki would never hurt me. Aki smiles. His smile is no longer innocent. It is cruel, mocking and overwhelming. I shake my head. No, no that's not right. Aki is my opposite. My angel. He is pure white. I couldn't have been so totally wrong.
"Oh, yes. Yes, you were, my dear. So wrong." I just now notice the others have stopped fighting and are watching our exchange; Weiss in confusion and Schwarz in perverse pleasure. I take a step back from Aki, my eyes never leaving his. He...he's betraying me. Like everyone else. He can't. He was different. He takes a step forward, so we are once again close enough that our noises almost touch.
"Ah, but it seems yet again you were wrong. You vowed to yourself never to trust anyone, never put yourself in such a position as you are in now. What happened to that silent promise?" Aki smirks. Realization starts to dawn on me. He's replying to my thoughts. He's just like Mastermind, he's a telepath. Oh my god, I had my shields down around him. Kritiker-
"I did get some information out of you, but nothing that could be useful." He sighs, interrupting my thoughts. "You seem to bury most of it deep within your mind and always keep some kind of barrier around it. It was not my objective to bring down Kritiker."
I swallow and force my voice to come out steadily. "What is your objective?" I ask, only managing a whisper.
"My objective all along has been to..." Aki leans closer, his breath tickling my ear, "kill you."
I let out a strangled cry. This isn't right. It's not true. None of this is real. It's a nightmare or an illusion. "It's not true!" I scream, stumbling back as if struck. The only response this gains is harsh laughter from Aki.
"Leave him alone!" I hear Ken yell at Aki.
"Bombay, snap out of it." Aya shouts.
"Guys! The target!" Youji shouts, pointing to our target, who is trying to exit the building without drawing our attention. I see Youji use his wire to strangle the mad scientist. Schwarz doesn't make a move to stop him. Aya eyes them suspiciously. I look at Aki in question.
"I told you that killing you was the main objective. Your target means nothing to us." Aki says airily. I cringe as the words leave his mouth.
"Aki, let's go. Farf is loosing a lot of blood." Mastermind calls.
"Well, I guess I'll take my leave now, Omi. Don't worry, I'll see you soon, love." With that said, he leaves with the rest of Schwarz. I stare at the door Aki left through. All those times we shared together, when he comforted me, they were all false. I feel someone put there arm around me and drag me to the car. I don't know who, not that it really matter, Schwarz could be kidnapping me for all I care.
"Omi..." I hear a familiar voice, but am too out of it to identify it.
As much as I don't want to believe this it does make sense. I knew Mastermind couldn't have known all of those things in the short time my mental shields were down. Aki, on the other hand, spent time with me when I had them down, and could have told the rest of Schwarz of my...problems. There were times when Aki seemed to know what I was thinking. I guess that was because he did. Also, it would explain why Aki was so nice to me. He was trying to get close to me so he could bring me down. Schwarz must finally be trying to take down Weiss. What better way to do it than by taking down the leader? Even so, there must be more to their decision of ruining my life eve more so than it already is. I feel my eyes closing. I'm exhausted and I don't want to think about this anymore. Soon I am comforted by the darkness.
I feel a hand brushing my bangs away from my face and stopping to rest on my forehead. I can tell I'm on a bed. When I open my eyes I half expect to see those loving blue eyes that haunt my memory. It is not Aki I see. I stare into warm, brown eyes instead. Ken.
"Hey." He smiles. "You're up. You passed out in the car. Youji carried you in. We were really worried about you."
"I'm fine." I say tiredly. I shift to the side to avoid Ken's hand. He frowns as I do so.
"Would you like anything to eat or drink?" He asks. I shake my head 'no'. My mind wandered to the events of last night and I felt a strange pain in my chest. I'm not used to this feeling. What is it? Unconsciously, I place my hand over my heart. Ken looks at me with sadness and understanding.
"I know it hurts." He all but whispers. What hurts? Does he know why I'm feeling pain? How can he if even I don't? "I know it hurts when someone you love betrays you," Ken continues.
Is that what I'm feeling? Betrayal, yes. I can't really blame Aki thought, now can I? I knew this would happen. I brought this on myself. It would be like jumping into a pit of hungry lions and being surprised if one of them bit you. Even though I started to love Aki, some part of me knew, one day, he would turn from me. You would think knowing that, expecting that, would lessen the pain, but it doesn't. I notice Ken's gaze is still firmly fixed on me. The brunette places his hand gently on top of mine. I had involuntarily tightened my hold on my shirt and was digging my fingernails into the skin beneath it.
"Omi, it's not your fault, you know." Ken says. I glare at him.
"Actually, it is. I endangered Weiss and Kritiker. I'm not going to say I'm sorry, because I'm not, but I am angry with myself for being so gullible. I should have realized he was lying. There was evidence, I had suspicions, but I still never questioned his actions. I knew better." I grumble more to myself than him. "I changed myself. I'm not supposed to be able to be affected anymore, I'm not white anymore. I am the darkness. Black isn't supposed to be affected."
"Omi, you're human. Even the most intense darkness can be lightened." I don't respond. Suddenly, an overwhelming need to cut engulfs me. I need my dagger. I need something. I growl, remembering the others have taken away all of my weapons. As if it wasn't enough to take away my beloved dagger they had to completely remove everything sharp from the damn house. I would break a mirror or window and use the glass, but the noise would draw the others, who would stop me before I had a chance to make the beautiful blood visible. My hands are starting to shake, so I shove them under the covers. Ken looks at my quizzically.
"Ken, I'm tired. Can you please just leave?" He nods and exits my room, closing the door behind him. I immediately jump out of bed and start pacing the floor. I stop dead in my tracks. As thorough as the guys were I'm sure they didn't take away my cross necklace. Manx had given it to me a while back as a birthday gift. If you press down on the top a little blade will pop out of the bottom. I rush over to my dresser and open a wooden box sitting there. Lo and behold, my lovely cross. I got to stand over by my window. The curtains are drawn, so sunlight pours in, lighting the room. The brightness is almost painful. I grimace. I hate the light. I hold the dazzling blade above my left arm. This position is so familiar. How many times have I found myself with a blade hovering over my burning skin, my blood begging to be released, the blade begging to be tainted.
As I finally press down, feeling my body relax, I look once more out the window and towards the sun. I am reminded of my light, Aki. A bitter smile touches my lips. Aki is still my angel, only now, he is my fallen angel.
To Be Continued
Author's Note: I finally got my next chapter up. The story is coming to end. There may be only one or two more chapters left. I would appreciate it if you would continue to review. Thanks.
