Author's note: I'm so sorry! Sorry for updating so slowly. Too busy with my work. Anyway, thanks for supporting me! I'll try to update all my works as soon as possible. Here's chapter six of silence! Just a reminder, silence is written in Tsukushi's POV. Enjoy!
Chapter 6:
It has been two days since that incident happened. I didn't went to bed with Tsukasa actually caused I backed out. I was afraid and I was confused. Do I love Tsukasa or Rui? I love Rui, but I must admit that I do have feelings for Tsukasa too. I'm not sure if the kiss happened because I was feeling empty deep inside or what. If God heard my prayers, please tell me what to do.
'Tsukushi, can I talk to you over lunch?' Tsukasa asked.
'Erm...'
'I really need to talk to you'
'Okay. I'll meet you at the restaurant down the street,' I answered still unable to look at him directly in the eye. I'm ashamed of what I've done. I'm still Rui's girlfriend when I kissed Tsukasa. I'm betraying Rui. What kind of a girl am I?
(lunch time)
'Tsukushi, I'm not sure why you are avoiding me but if you feel uncomfortable about what have happened, I'm sorry,' Tsukasa said seriously.
'I'm not avoiding you,' I replied, looking down at my coffee.
'If you are not, kindly have eye contact with me when you are talking to me,' said Tsukasa, raising his voice a little. 'Tsukushi, I didn't mean to raise my voice at you. I'm just angry with myself for causing so much trouble for you.'
'Tsukasa, it's my fault. I just need time to cool down. I didn't mean to avoid you or anything.'
'Tsukushi, I know you are in love with Rui. I don't need you to make any decision now. I love you and I'll wait for you. No matter how long you'll take I'll wait for you. I'll never give up till the day you get married and lead a blissful marriage life. Here, this is my gift to you. It's for your birthday next week.' Tsukasa handled me the diamond necklace that I've chosen.
'But I thought this is for Haruko?!'
'It's for you. I lied to you. I'm not in love with Haruko. I used her name to get you to choose a present. I didn't know what to get for you. Haruko said this was the best idea.'
'What about the decorating of the house? It was a lie too?'
'Yes. But I did this because I want to spend more time with you and I don't how to tell you that. I'm sorry. What's wrong with me? I kept saying sorry. This is just not like me, Tsukushi. It's you. You've changed me. It's the truth.'
'So what do you want me to do? Break off with Rui?' How can Tsukasa lie to me? It was a trap. He set a trap up for me to fall right into.
'No. I just want you think carefully if you will be happier with me or Rui. That's all I ask for. Even if you chose Rui in the end, I'll still be there for you if you need me. That's all I have to say. I think I better leave now.' With that Tsukasa left me alone in the restaurant.
What am I suppose to do now? I small little brain can't think. I'm mad at Tsukasa for lying to me but what he has done is just to show his concern for me. Rui has never done that before. Rui has never given me a necklace or anything. He just takes me for granted. I wish to be loved and cared for. Should I choose Tsukasa?
To be continued....
Author's note: I know this chapter's not well written :( but still pls review!!!
Chapter 6:
It has been two days since that incident happened. I didn't went to bed with Tsukasa actually caused I backed out. I was afraid and I was confused. Do I love Tsukasa or Rui? I love Rui, but I must admit that I do have feelings for Tsukasa too. I'm not sure if the kiss happened because I was feeling empty deep inside or what. If God heard my prayers, please tell me what to do.
'Tsukushi, can I talk to you over lunch?' Tsukasa asked.
'Erm...'
'I really need to talk to you'
'Okay. I'll meet you at the restaurant down the street,' I answered still unable to look at him directly in the eye. I'm ashamed of what I've done. I'm still Rui's girlfriend when I kissed Tsukasa. I'm betraying Rui. What kind of a girl am I?
(lunch time)
'Tsukushi, I'm not sure why you are avoiding me but if you feel uncomfortable about what have happened, I'm sorry,' Tsukasa said seriously.
'I'm not avoiding you,' I replied, looking down at my coffee.
'If you are not, kindly have eye contact with me when you are talking to me,' said Tsukasa, raising his voice a little. 'Tsukushi, I didn't mean to raise my voice at you. I'm just angry with myself for causing so much trouble for you.'
'Tsukasa, it's my fault. I just need time to cool down. I didn't mean to avoid you or anything.'
'Tsukushi, I know you are in love with Rui. I don't need you to make any decision now. I love you and I'll wait for you. No matter how long you'll take I'll wait for you. I'll never give up till the day you get married and lead a blissful marriage life. Here, this is my gift to you. It's for your birthday next week.' Tsukasa handled me the diamond necklace that I've chosen.
'But I thought this is for Haruko?!'
'It's for you. I lied to you. I'm not in love with Haruko. I used her name to get you to choose a present. I didn't know what to get for you. Haruko said this was the best idea.'
'What about the decorating of the house? It was a lie too?'
'Yes. But I did this because I want to spend more time with you and I don't how to tell you that. I'm sorry. What's wrong with me? I kept saying sorry. This is just not like me, Tsukushi. It's you. You've changed me. It's the truth.'
'So what do you want me to do? Break off with Rui?' How can Tsukasa lie to me? It was a trap. He set a trap up for me to fall right into.
'No. I just want you think carefully if you will be happier with me or Rui. That's all I ask for. Even if you chose Rui in the end, I'll still be there for you if you need me. That's all I have to say. I think I better leave now.' With that Tsukasa left me alone in the restaurant.
What am I suppose to do now? I small little brain can't think. I'm mad at Tsukasa for lying to me but what he has done is just to show his concern for me. Rui has never done that before. Rui has never given me a necklace or anything. He just takes me for granted. I wish to be loved and cared for. Should I choose Tsukasa?
To be continued....
Author's note: I know this chapter's not well written :( but still pls review!!!