Author's Note: Haha... I finally completed the whole story...I think my writing skills not good so you'll have to have lotsa imagination for this chapter! I like the ending... but it might be a disappointment for a lot of people... haha... review pls!
/tv screen/
(Meaning of the song)
Chapter 10
Tsukushi's POV:
Rui appeared on the screen. On the screen he looked so haggard that I almost could not recognize him.
/Tsukushi, this is the 2nd day since we last said our good byes. I thought I could get on with life without you, but I was wrong. I lost my whole meaning of life without you near me. I actually wanted to propose to you using my debut album, love at first sight 'cause it was how I felt when I first met you. I was really happy when you told me that you like me 'cause I didn't know how to express my feelings for you. I wrote all the songs thinking of you. That one month when I was recording, I wanted very much to contact you and hear your voice. But I didn't, not because I didn't love you but because I wanted it to be a surprise for you. I thought you knew how much I love you. I thought you knew that my world revolves around you. I thought that no one will steal you from me but I was wrong. I should have told you right from the start that I love you. But it's all now too late. I have lost you but nevertheless, I still love you as much as before even though you are in his arms. My last gift for you, 'Silence' and hope you will forever be blissful/
Tears overwhelmed my eyes and I watched the screen. I never knew he had so much love for me. All I did was to grumble about how he was cold to me. 'Rui, I'm sorry' I muttered sadly as I watched on the MTV of Silence showing all the pictures of us together.
/ Silence An Jing
Zhi Sheng Xia Gang Qing Pei Wo Tan Le Yi Tian
(Only the piano is left talking to me)
Shui Jiao De Dao Ti Qing An Jing De Jiu Jiu De
(The old 'sleeping' cello lies in slience)
Wo Xiang Ni Yi Biao Xian De Fei Chang Ming Bai
(I think you have shown it clearly)
Wo Dong Wo Ye Zhi Dao Ni Mei You She Bu De
(I understand and I know that you don't have any reluctance)
Ni Shuo Ni Ye Hui Nan Guo Wo Bu Xiang Xing
(You said that you are grieved too, but I don't believe it)
Qian Zhe Ni Pei Zhe Wo Ye Zhi Shi Cheng Jing
(Holding your hands with you beside me was a thing of the past)
Xi Wang Ta Shi Zhen De Bi Wo Hai Yao Ai Ni
(I hope that he really loves you more than I do)
Wo Chai Hui Bi Zhi Zi Li Kai
(That's the only reason I forced myself to let you go)
Ni Yao Wo Shuo Duo Nan Kan
(How am I supposed to say it?)
Wo Geng Ben Bu Xiang Fen Kai
(I actually didn't want a break up)
Wei Shen Me Hai Yao Yong Wei Xiao Lai Dai Guo?
(Why do I still have to smile when I break up with you?)
Wo Mei You Zhe Zhong Tian Fen
(I don't have such talent)
Bao Rong Ni Ye Jie Shou Ta
(To tolerate his existence in you heart)
Bu Yong Dan Xing De Tai Duo
(Don't have to worry about me)
Wo Hui Yi Zhi Hao Hao Guo
(I will still carry on with life)
Ni Yi Jing Yuan Yuan Li Kai
(You have walked away from me)
Wo Ye Hui Man Man Zhou Kai
(I will slowly walk away too)
Wei Shen Me Wo Lian Fen Kai Duo Qian Jiu Ni?
(Why do I have to give in to you and break up with you?)
Wo Zhen De Me You Tian Fen
(I really don't have the talent)
An Jing De Mei Zhen Me Kuai
(To calm down and forget you so quickly)
Wo Hui Xue Zhe Fang Qi Ni
(I've learnt to let you go)
Shi Ying Wei Wo Tai Ai Ni
(It's because I love you too much)
Tsukushi, this was how I felt after breaking up with you. Slowly I'm coping with life and starting to adjust to life without you. Ever since I came back, I could see in your eyes another one other than me. I want you to be happy and that was why I let you go. My friend used to say 'Love is not about possessing, it's about seeing your beloved being blissful'. Now I understand and my only and final wish for you is to happy for the rest of your life./
I covered my mouth and try hard not to cry, for Rui wanted me to be happy. I'm too silly to have thought that Rui did not love me. In fact, Rui loves me more than anyone could have love me. How could I just ditch Rui just because I wanted to feel loved? I have made such a huge mistake! Looking at Rui, I knew I love him too. I love him right from the start, right from the bottom of my heart. Please God, please don't take Rui away from me. I can't afford to lose him. If you have to take someone away let that person be me. I held tightly to Rui's hand.
'Rui, if you can hear me, please wake up. Don't sleep anymore. Please open your eyes, and look at me. I know that you are angry with me for having a fling with Tsukasa, but I promise you that I will break off with him. Please just wake up. I love you. I really do.'
I cried again as I talked to him. Then, suddenly, his heart stopped. No, it can't be, Rui can't die!
'Doctor,' I screamed as I ran out the ward. The doctor came running in and started saving him. I stood outside of the ward, praying hard that Rui will be saved. After a few minutes, Rui was admitted into the operating theater.
(after a few hours)
'Doctor, how's Rui?' I asked anxiously seeing Rui being wheeled out.
'His life is still in danger. Even though the operation was a success, he won't be able to pull through the week. The accident had glass pierce through his heart. It's a miracle that he survived till this long. I'm sorry but please prepare for the worse.'
'No, it can't be! Doctor, you must save him. No matter what, you must do your best to save him. I know he won't die! Please doctor, please save him!'
'Calm down Miss. There's nothing I can do unless I can find a heart suitable for him and do a transplant for him, but this is highly impossible. It's hard to find a heart that suits him in such a short notice. I am really very sorry.'
No. I will not allow Rui to die. Not if I can help it. I will find a donor who will be willing to donate his heart to Rui. I walked into the ward and looked at Rui. 'Rui, I promise you I won't let anything happen to you. I love you,' I whispered into his ear and kissed him on the lips. Time to clear things up with Tsukasa.
I went out of the hospital and started calling Tsukasa. 'Hello, Tsukasa. I'm just outside the hospital now. Rui is hospitalized. I'm okay. I just want to tell you that we are over. I'm sorry but you will meet another girl better than me.' I ended the call. I looked at the road ahead of me. I have found the donor for Rui, my beloved. I smiled as I took a step forward. 'Rui, I love you,' I said as I closed my eyes.
The End!
Author's Note: The song Silence (An Jing) is sang by Jay Chou. For those Jay Chou fans you should know how the song goes. Really sorry if I have translated the meanings of the song wrongly. Anyway, hoped you have enjoyed the whole story. If you are still confused, wait for the epilogue to be out! Reviews pls!