When I stop caring

Why are you doing this to me?
Why can´t I be what you want me to be?
Have you ever thought of my happiness
When all you did only brought more distress

I tried so hard to please you,
I even hurt myself in doing so
But still you won´t stop turning me away
I fear I will stop caring some day.

I don´t want to leave you,
Because I can´t forget like you do
The truth is, there is another you in my heart
Reality and dream keep tearing it apart

This other you is the way you were
Once before a time, it´s still there
It is the reason to hope again
You may have loved me way back when

You stole my very heart before
I knew I had one and even more
Did you get into my head and soul
The remains of a broken hearted being were all
You could find when you entered me
Now let me be and set me free.

I no longer can stand your ignorance
I realize now I never had a chance
Bound to fail, that´s what I am and always will be
In your life has never been a place for me
Or for the love, the friendship, trust
And being ignored even caring cannot last

Stop your silence and come back to me!
There is still time for recovery
My dearest, don´t wait, it´s not too late
Right now you´ll find only love, not hate
Remember me and the happiness we were sharing
For you I´ll go on caring. caring.

By Kokoro, 2. Dezember 2003