Summary: Raenef decides to keep a diary and writes his deepest thoughts and feelings in it. Eclipse finds it and learns things about his liege that he didn't know… Eclipse/Raenef. Limes.

Rated M for limes.

Disclaimer: Demon Diary and all characters shall never belong to me.

Demon Diary

Part Two: Raenef's Deepest Thoughts

The next day quickly came. Demon Lord Raenef the Fifth's eyes flinched before they fully opened, revealing they were a beautiful shining aqua green. He yawned and stretched as far as his limbs would allow. He automatically sat up, letting the sheets slide off his torso as he looked around. His sky blue satin drapes had already been opened, and the aroma of breakfast was floating in from his open double doors.

He flopped back down and sank into his pillows. He reached down and covered himself back up with his sheets. Turning onto his right side, Raenef curled into a ball and closed his eyes. I had that dream again… he thought, that dream that has so many alterations…

The dream that he'd had played in his minds eye. Only seconds later, a whimper came from his vocal cords. He flipped over onto his back and spread his legs, letting a familiar hardness come. A hand came up and clenched the sheet that covered his bare chest. The fantasy continued playing, another whimper escaping from him. His right hand scratched the top of the sheets as his eyes closed tighter.

"I won't… do it…" he could barely say.

A knock came onto one of the wooden doors. Raenef gasped, sitting up as he kept the sheets covering himself. There stood Eclipse, dressed in his normal black robes, and was holding a tray of food. "Did I startle you?" he asked.

"A… A little," answered the demon lord, panting for air.

Eclipse held the tray higher. "May I?"

Raenef nodded, letting the sheet fall. "Of course."

The raven haired man walked over and set the tray on the teen's lap. He glimpsed at the boy's unclothed chest and almost smiled. Eclipse backed away, bowing his head. "When you are done, just set the tray on the stand. I will come for it later. If I'm needed, I'll be in my study."

Raenef waved his hand as he picked up a piece of toast. "Of course, Eclipse."

Bowing, Eclipse said "Go," and disappeared. He instantly appeared right in front of his own cherry desk. He walked behind it and opened the drapes, letting mid-morning sunlight bathe him and the entire room. Sitting in his chair, he opened the bottom left drawer and took out a small black book.

I still feel a little guilty, taking and reading this… he thought, flipping though pages. I think I'll start somewhere more recent. He stopped on a page, and found that it was written four months ago. Hm… That's around when he changed… Curious, he started reading.

"I find that things are starting to make more sense. I'm not sure why, though, because what Eclipse has been teaching is becoming more complex. But it's all slowly piecing together- everything I didn't understand before seems really easy now. I also find that I'm able to concentrate more. I guess that's why I understand everything better now. I guess I'm growing out of my childishness… I hope I become more like Eclipse… Hm, I think I'll try to."

Eclipse wasn't sure what to think. Why…? Why do you want to be like me…? Wanting answers, he started to read the next entry.

"I realized something yesterday. At first, I felt uneasy about it, but I'm okay now. See, I caught myself just staring at Eclipse. He's so… perfect. VERY good looking, tall, strong, smart… a really nice chest. ( Yes, I looked.) I guess that's why I want to be like him- If I'm like him, then he'd notice me. I admit that I'm attracted to him… Heh, I guess I still am unsure about it. But I believe that he'll never feel the same way I do… though I do wish he would."

Eclipse stopped reading and took a deep breath. Raenef… you have no idea… He looked down and turned the page. Looking at the date, he noticed that the entry had been written only two weeks ago.

"I know I haven't written for a while. I guess I never got around to writing. Plus, there wasn't anything interesting to write. But now I do." Eclipse's eyes widened as he read on. "I'm in love with Eclipse. I don't deny it, and I'm not uneasy about it. I'm so sexually attracted to him- I don't deny that, either. I dream, I fantasize, wishing that he only felt the same. He doesn't even hint at it. It hurts sometimes, knowing this. But I just can't stop.

"Eclipse… I love the way his name just rolls off my lips…"

Eclipse shut the diary, staring wide eyed at the cover as he covered his mouth with his right hand. His palm quieted his quick deep breaths. I never knew… And he doesn't know… Why didn't I see this before?

He shoved the book into his lap and picked up his pen. A second later, Demon Lord Raenef appeared in front of him, his eyes frantic. He wore black robes with a wide collar that went down to the middle of his torso, showing a slightly defined chest. He ran up to Eclipse's desk and put his palms on the wood. "Eclipse! You've gotta help!" the demon lord said urgently.

"What is it?" Eclipse asked quickly.

"My… my book," Raenef could barely say, "It's missing. It's a little black one. Leather front. It's the one you gave me about a year ago…"

Eclipse became tense, resisting the urge to look down at where the 'missing' book lay. "Calm down, Raenef," he said, surprising even himself on how calm he sounded. "Where was it last?"

"In my room," Raenef answered. "Believe me, I've turned it upside down looking for it."

Eclipse brought a hand down. He acted like he was scratching his abdomen, but he was really putting the diary in his lower robes. He then stood. "Don't worry. You probably misplaced it. Go check your study, and I'll recheck your room." The demon lord nodded and disappeared. Eclipse instantly took the diary out and stared at it. I guess I give you up now… "Go."

He appeared in the middle of his charge's room. Raenef had been correct in saying that he had turned the room upside down. All pillows and sheets were in a heap on the ground. The two drawers that to his bedside stand were taken out, their contents smeared across the floor. His closet was open, and clothes were either on the ground or hanging limply off one side of their hanger. Three drawers in his dresser were open and half empty, their contents either on top of the dresser or on the floor. He's really frantic… Eclipse thought as he looked the room over. He imagined what his master's study would look like, and he flinched. Sighing, he went over to the bedside table and set the diary on top of it.

Raenef appeared as Eclipse started putting the table back together. "I couldn't find it…!" he complained.

Eclipse pointed at the top, where the diary now lay. "I guess you didn't look hard enough in here, because I did."

The teen's eyes lit up, and he rushed over to pick the book up. He looked at both covers, then started flipping through pages. "Did you, by chance, look at any of this…?" Raenef asked slowly.

Eclipse went over and started to straighten the demon lord's bed. "No. I have no reason to read anything that you write. I figured that it contained something that you need to write a report or something.

Raenef gave an almost silent sigh of relief. "Oh… I see. I thank you Eclipse." He went up and grabbed the man's wrist, making him stop smoothing the sheets. "You can leave now," he said, looking up at Eclipse. "I made this mess, and you shouldn't have to clean it."

"I cannot allow you to do such a thing," said Eclipse.

"I don't have to, but I want to. I wanna clean it myself." Raenef smiled, making Eclipse melt. "It'll give me something to do, anyway."

Eclipse felt the teen let go of him. Using his now free right hand, he brought it to Raenef's cheek. "Of course, my lord." He smiled down at him. "Go."

Raenef's jaw dropped when Eclipse disappeared. He… left me… he thought. A hand came up and felt the cheek that Eclipse had touched. He really touched me… With such perfectly warm hands… He closed his eyes as he sighed. How strange… He's never done that before. His eyes opened to look around. Even stranger, it looks the same as I had left it…

His eyes widened in horror. Oh no… Did he…?

Eclipse appeared inside a dark bedroom. Midnight blue sheets were on a canopy bed that was identical to Raenef's. Black drapes were closed, not letting a sliver of light inside. His hands slipped into his robes, pulling them off. Only in a pair of boxers, he walked over to his bed and collapsed.

He crawled up, setting his head on the soft pillows. His right hand was brought in front of his face. It's so warm… he thought, So… soft… His hand fell to his bare chest, violet eyes starting to close. What am I doing…? I have… things… to do…

A smile came to his lips. Maybe I'll just dream now… Of him…

END Part Two.