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Chapter Nine: The Journal

**boys dorm**

            "Remus…what do I do? Lily's been insulting me ever since she got out of the Hospital Wing! She thinks I hexed her! I'm gonna kill Snivelly…"

            "I think—," Sirius began.

            Everyone stared hard at Sirius.

            "What? Can't I think once in a while?" Sirius whined. James shook his head. "Sod off, James. OK, well I think that you should tell Lily it was Snape."

            "Sirius, you are a prick! I've only told her…about A MILLION TIMES! Sheezes!"

            Peter spoke. "Tell her friends that it was Snape. Tell Molly, or Mia, or Bella. They'll believe you. Then they can tell Lily."

            "Tried that. They don't believe me. Stupid girls." James sadly shook his head.

            Remus, to whom the question had been addressed to in the first place, finally spoke. "What does Diggory say about all this?"       

            "He says I did."  

            "WHAT?" Remus raised his eyebrows and scratched his sandy blonde hair.

            "He knows how I feel about Lily. Stupid git. Why is the world against me? What have I done?" James sighed pathetically.

            "Do you really wanna know the answer to that, Jamesie?"

            "I told ya to sod off, Sirius! You're my friend, friends make friends feel better."

            "Yeah? Well—"

            "Aw, put a sock in it. Okay, James. I have an idea. Firstly—"

            "I know! Put a versitium (sp?) potion in Snape's goblet! He can confess then!" Peter interrupted, and looked very proud of himself.

            James liked that idea. He had some versitium potion with him already. That would be going in Snivelly's pumpkin juice. "Okay…but Lily … she thinks I know nothing about her."    

            "Well, how much do you know about her?"           

            "She's pretty, smart, caring—" James had a dazed look in his eyes.

            "Yes, yes, but that's what it looks like. How much do you know about her emotionally, or mentally." Remus said.

            Silence.

            "That's what I thought. I suggest you keep an eye on her. Don't go stalking her, but just see what she likes. What she dislikes. Don't go too fast. Take things slow. Don't act like a prick. I think you took things too fast, saying "I love you Lily, why did Amos have to get you first". That was very pricky. And why did you say it when you weren't sure she was asleep?"

            "I just thought—"           
            "Wrong. You don't think James. You and Sirius don't think. You need to think, and listen. Keep a little book to record things about Lily in. But don't stalk her. Alright?"

            James sighed. "Alright."

**girls dorm**

            "Lily, I'm sure James didn't hex you! Sure he was jealous, but he isn't that mean. Besides, he loves you. If he really was jealous, he would have hexed Diggory!"

            "But Amos said that Potter hexed me—"   

            "Diggory is an idiot, Lily! How can you like him?

            I don't, thought Lily. What she said aloud was "Let's go to lunch. Then after that, homework. I still needa do Transfiguration homework."

**Great Hall**

            "Okay, I've got a little journal thing here…what do I write?" James asked Remus.

            "Look at Lily. Note what she is eating."      

            "PIE! Wow, she likes pie…damn…look at that girl eat…"       

            "Note what kind of pie. Maybe you can get her some."        

            "Rem, you rock!" And James began scribbling frantically in his book.

            Lily had noticed Remus, James, Sirius, and Peter staring at her. It made her uneasy. Potter made her very uneasy. Were they planning a prank on her? Potter had already hexed her…

            Molly noticed James staring at Lily, too. She told Amelia and Bella. They stared at Sirius. His hair was gelled back. It gave him a slick look. James's hair could never achieve that. He rumpled his hair at the back, and  saw Lily staring at him with dislike.

            "She hates it when you do that", whispered Remus.

            "I'll make a note of that", James whispered back.

**Transfiguration Class**

            Lily was a bit late for class, as she had just finished her homework. She looked around for a seat. Unfortunately, the only vacant seat was next to Potter. Lily frowned. There had to be another unoccupied seat…

            "Miss Evans, there is a seat next to Mister Potter, if you please," Professor McGonagall said.

            Lily reluctantly took a seat next to James. He said nothing, nor did she. They both sat in silence the whole lecture. But at the end of class, when everyone had left except Lily and James, he held her back.

            "What, Potter." 

            Remus's voice was still in James head "Don't act like a prick." "Take it slow"  

            "Uhh…how are you?"      

            "I am absouletly chipper."

            James waited.

            "Can I go now," Lily snapped. "Because if you're waiting for me to ask you how you are, you are terribly mistaken."

            James sighed. "Bye, Lily…"

            She snorted, and left the room, with her head buried in a book.

            James sighed again. He had been doing that a lot lately. He was used to getting anything and everything he wanted. But what he wanted was the one thing it would take years to have.