Staring
numbly at the piano in front of me, I put out my fingers to touch its
ivory keys. Smooth, very smooth. The grand thing in itself was made
of blackwood, polished to a gleam that would rival the moon. Selene
would be jealous, as all goddesses might be. Dropping my hand into my
lap, I sat still for several minutes. And then she came, the Mistress
of Knowledge in her usual lavish attire. She was the most beautiful
woman I ever knew, if a woman is what you'd call her. More like a
beast who dines in the halls of kings.
"Ah,
but we are all naturally born evil. It is our human nature." She
smirked and told me as she drew nearer. I turned my head slowly
towards her, not because I really cared for what she said, but merely
because she was saying something. She seemed to read minds without
really trying, a gift the Delphic oracles would have been smitten
with. Turning my gaze back to the piano, I attempted to tune her out.
She destroyed my life and I did not know why. Once again, I could
feel her drawing ever nearer, as a spider does to the fly. Like the
fly, I knew death was inevitable, and that it would surely take me.
But this was not why I hated her. 'God kills people, why can't she?'
I thought. Whether I believed it or not was a very different
thing.
"You
don't believe me?" she said, as if it were all a grand and
wonderful joke. She laughed, then, as if the whole world was laughing
with her. I looked back at her, feeling true emotion for the first
time in days.
"If
I may," she asked, surely not expecting an answer. A lack of
movement from me seemed to be all the encouragement she needed to
begin talking of what I was quite sure would be a wonderful speech.
And so it began:
"Human
nature is based on one's life and treatment thereof. A corruptive
lifestyle together with false entities on the belief that evil seems
to prevail over good will result in such appalling personality
traits: a pessimistic view on life, unhealthy life styles and habits
that routinely present themselves; immoral practices that try one's
soul inconspicuously. The individual will be so convinced in the evil
of the world that they will be lead to the belief that their misery
comes from such evil. They will be unaware that the evil itself
evolves from within them as a result of their belief that evil comes
elsewhere. Evil is truly a great trick. Slight of hand for the slow,
Sanctuary for the weak, Stability for the disturbed. We as human
beings tend to associate our reality with our tragedies. Thus, we may
promote the existence of evil as a result of acquiring one taste of
reality. That taste is delicious in a repulsive manner. It is Vanity.
Pure Vanity that drives us to such lengths to acquire such tastes. We
are merely in love with an image of evil that exists only within
ourselves."
And
so it ended. Smoothing her gown and humming softly, she acted as if
we had just talked briefly about the weather. I suppose that she
believed that society was always corrupt, which is why all humans
were born evil. That may have been true. Hell as well as Heaven knows
that every society will at least have one thing, idea, or person that
is corrupt. The prestige of good societies, things, ideas, and people
had long been dead to the world, and they took goodness with
them.
"Play
for me." Three simple words she spoke to me then. They were not
sweet or kind. They were bitter and commanding. It didn't matter. The
treachery that she asked of me did not change in her tone of voice.
Could not change. I had no urge to play this thing, this piano. It
was a device for mere mortals, not immortals like me. I was not told
of my immortality, rather, I merely lived knowing it. I knew I was
something different. My blood was no longer human.
She
grabbed my fingers then with a painful force. Of course, it's not
painful to a body that is numb to pain. She placed my fingers roughly
on the ivory keys, those smooth ivory keys, and then she sat back in
her chair, her cold blue eyes glaring at me. I smiled at her grimly
and then looked back at the keys.
It
must have been hours until I played that first note. It was
beautiful. Masterful. It hung in the air like death on Holy Ground.
And that second note, oh it, too, was wonderful. Before I could stop
myself, I soon hit the third, and then the fourth. It was ecstasy.
Happiness and such mortal emotions flooded back to me. I felt like my
old self playing my own game. It was in these moments of playing that
I finally understood what had happened. My immortality was not the
evil I had believed it to be. It was a gift, and that I, Cecelia,
would become something majestic compared to my former self. I frowned
slightly. Cecelia. My mortal name has no place here. Leave my mortal
name with my mortal world. Honour, I thought then. The only mortal
ideal I could love, the only one I cared to live for. The ideal, I
found, that bound me to Alexia for all the years to come.
