A/N: it's just something I thought of and decided to share with my fellow fans.
Disclaimer: needless to say that the wonderful A.S.P owns all the characters I'm using for this fiction.
Summary: some one is sending Lorelai daisies and little love notes.
Lorelai and Luke, of course.
Love notes and yellow daisies
"I can't do this Luke, I'm so sorry, I thought I could but I can't, please don't hate me... say you don't hate me..."
He looked at her, he wanted so much to tell her but he couldn't find the words or his voice for that matter.
His heart broke, he never thought, not in a million years that this would happen on their first date.
He took her hand, in his mind he thought it could be the last time he would be able to touch her like that, and led her to the bench that was near by.
As they sat she said "say something Luke, tell me you don't hate me for doing this"
He looked down, and as he let go of her hand her heart broke.
Suddenly he got up and started walking to his truck, she followed him wiping the tears from her eyes.
They drove in silence, she wanted so much for him to hold her hand and tell her he understands.
When they got to her house she reach for the door to get out of the car and hesitated, maybe he would tell her now, but he didn't, she closed the door behind her and walked to her house.
She started crying and stopped on her track, he could tell something was wrong "Lorelai" he called and got out of the car
"I'm sorry" he said, she didn't turn "tell me what's wrong" she turned her eyes red and swollen and said "I can't say"
"We were always able to tell each other everything even if it was bad"
"You wouldn't understand"
"Try me"
"I can't"
"Yes you can, tell me what I did wrong, I'm a big boy I can handle it"
"Oh, no... Its not you Luke... I'm so sorry, you are sweet and kind, it's not about you, I'm sorry if I led you to believe you did something wrong"
"Then what is it Lorelai, tell me... I'll help..."
"You can't"
"You know what... I'm going to go now and if you change your mind you know where to find me"
"Will you wait for me?"
"Wait?" he asked with a confused look
"Until I fix everything and..."
"I wish you'd tell me..."
"I can't"
"yeah, I got that part" she looked down, she didn't blame him for being hurt, he looked at her his eyes searching for a sign, a clue maybe, something that would tell him what is wrong, she didn't move her mind racing with thoughts and fear that he will go now and never come back
"I'll wait" he said finely
She raised her eyes and met his, she wasn't crying any more, some how talking to him always calm her down "you would?" she then asked not loosing eye contact with him
"Yes"
Then she reached for his hand and cupped it with both her hands
"I need you so much and the thought of not being able to confide in you drives me mad, but I'm sorry, I cant, I can only say that Rory and I are in a very weird place right now and I have to deal with her"
"Is she alright?" he asked worried
"She will be"
"I'm sure she will"
"Some how when you say it, it sounds better, I actually almost believe you" she said releasing her fingers from his and putting her worm hand on his chick
"At least you're feeling better"
"Yeah, better, thank you for being Luke and understanding"
"Go get some sleep"
"Good night Luke" she said with smile
"Night crazy lady" and he turned to leave
"Wait!" she ordered
He turned to look at her
"What kind of a date is it when you don't kiss me good night?"
"That's why I hate dating... all those unwritten rules"
She leaned in closing her eyes and pressed her lips gently against his, as he closed the space between them to deepen the kiss she put her hand on his chick and smile through the kiss, and he pulled away and said
"What now?"
"Nothing..."
Her hand went to his neck and she pulled him in for another sweet long kiss, her tongue brushed his lower lip and he shivered, parting his lips he gave her access and their tongues met for a slow, long, passionate dance till they couldn't breathe of course
"It's really late"
"I know"
"See you tomorrow?" he asked hopeful
"I don't know"
"Ok"
"Good night Luke"
"Good night Lorelai"
And he was gone
she got inside and set on the couch, realizing she just told Luke she cant be with him she started crying, Rory who was still awake watched her mother crying but froze, she didn't know what to say to her, not after all the horrible things she said to her last night.
She went back to her room, lying on her bed she cried her self to sleep.
Lorelai woke up at 7:30 am, with a face that said
'Why the hell do I keep this bed if I don't get any sleep...?'
She was tired with the inn keeping her busy all day and thoughts of Rory crowding her mind all night.
It was hard.
As those thoughts running in her head she walked to her bathroom and Looking in the mirror she saw a tear down her cheek,
Luke,
she thought, remembering the date they had after the opening when she sadly told him she can't do this right now with Rory and her being in a weird place.
She stood there in the parking lot in Hartford and told him she needs time, she smiled, how sweet was he for letting her take her time,
He was all she needed but yet she feared her self pity and her rotten mood would drive him away
"oh Rory" she said in frustration, she missed her, after she insisted on taking her grandmothers offer they parted without a proper goodbye just a dry hug and cold empty words.
And then it was the same when she came back, holding their emotions, not knowing what to say or how to say it, she went of to start her second year at Yale and they haven't spoken since.
She got dressed and walked out the door to Luke's.
"Coffee" she said sitting down at the counter smiling while he poured her coffee not looking at her and went to take orders
She finished her coffee put some money on the counter and left, She knew he would get tired of waiting for her, 'I guess he got tired' she thought and made a note in her mind to come in after closing time and talk to him.
"Hi Sook" Lorelai said walking into the kitchen
"Hi honey, how are you feeling?"
She made a face
"That good ha..." she Sookie said sarcastically and poured her a cup of coffee
"I just wish that every thing would go back to how it use to be"
She said frustrated "I mean Rory is barely speaking to me,
My parents... well don't even get me started on that and on top of all in love with my best friend and I can't even tell him I need him
Because I'm a coward... and I hate where I am right now,
I swear if I could only get Rory to talk to me every thing will be back to normal..."
She caught her breath and looked at Sookie who was about to say something and continued "and don't say call her because it's not like I can't call her, I call her but she's cold and distant and I miss her and I'm alone and I feel like I'm loosing her and I don't even know what to say to make her understand... Understand my side of the story, why I said those things..."
Sookie stood beside her and rubbed her back she didn't know what to do or say to make her feel better
"Why don't you go home early, go rest and call Rory,
ask her to come home and talk, use that mother tone you hate so much and make her listen, sweetie she loves you, and you're best friends she needs to know you're not mad at her, I mean you're the grown up for once use that and make the first move you'll feel better you'll see, she'll come around..."
"I don't know, and Luke something is going on with him, he didn't even talk to me this morning, I knew he wouldn't wait for me forever, after he read that book he probably found a nice little girlfriend who didn't want him to wait..."
"What are you talking about? What book? Since when does Luke read books?"
"Oww, I'm just babbling here, not every thing I say has to make sense, does it?"
"Well you got me there"
Lorelai parked the car at her house around noon and walked towards the porch, there by the door was a single yellow daisy placed on a piece of paper, She looked around and picked it up, smelling her favorite flower she opened the paper and read aloud
"In my life there is only you, in my dreams only your smile, in my heart the warmth of your touch and one hope to have you in my arms"
It didn't say who's it from, she smiled, not something she did often, and walked inside.
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