Rating: PG-13, yes, I have decided to up the rating (gasp) no it was
suggested by a reviewer, so I am.
Disclaimer: I own the computer, the thoughts and the fingers, that's all, I swear.
Summary: What if Jess hadn't been able to go to California, what if there was something holding him back. (Literati)
Author's Note: I have decided to start dedicating my chapters. The dedications will go to reviewers who have inspired my or given me a great idea. SO, if you want a dedication, please review. Also, in this chapter Rory and Jess will finally talk, but don't be too quick to assume, Jess isn't quite as ready to open up as we all had hoped. Until next time, Carie
Dedication: This chapter is for X-identaty because she has inspired me to do what I have done with this chapter. Her reviews are always suggestive and complementary, so X-identaty, this one is for you. And, try not to droll on your key board.
Chapter 4: Why, Mariano, Why?
Jess finally turned around when he and Rory had reached the bridge. He sat down, dangled his feet over the edge, and stared into the water. He had gone over the words in his head a million times and was prepared to repeat them when the right time came. He knew that they would seem honest, yet they wouldn't be too deep or hurt as much as anything else would.
"Hey," whispered Rory, after placing a hand on Jess's shoulder.
"I missed you," he replied, smiling. Then he moved in closer and gave Rory a gentle peck on the lips. He went in again, this time deepening the kiss. Rory opened her mouth just in time for Jess to slide his tongue in. He had wanted her so badly. He ached for her. He could have stayed like this forever. Rory entwined her fingers in Jess's hair, as he worked his hands up and down her back. The two of them would have been there for hours if Rory hadn't broken away.
"Jess," breathed Rory, "we need to talk."
"I know," he sighed.
"Jess, what happened?"
"I'm really sorry, Rory. I just needed to figure things out. I love you, I really do, it was just that I was so messed up. But I'm back now, and I'm not going anywhere."
"But why did you do all of those things? Why did you leave again? Why didn't you say good bye?
"I told you Rory, I was really fucked up. I needed to sort things out. I needed to get my life straitened out. I needed to figure out what I really wanted in life." Right after Jess said that, he wished that he could just swallow the words back up.
"You, you didn't know if you were happy?" asked Rory, on the verge of breaking out in tears.
"No, it's not that. It's that I needed to figure out what I need. I was going to California, but I realized that I don't need what's out there for me."
"But why did you do all of those things? Why did you cut school for a job? Why did you lie to me? I need you to tell me."
Jess didn't know what to say to that. He loved Rory, but he just couldn't do that.
"Tell you what?" he snarled.
"Everything!" Rory cried.
"I can't do that."
* * *
Rory hated that. She wanted him to be honest and open. Just this once. She didn't really care what he said. She just wanted to know him. To know what he had gone through. To know what he needed now. How she could help. How she could be sure that he wouldn't ever leave her again.
"Why not? Don't you think that I deserve to know? I mean it's not like you just met me. It involves me too. I want to know. Why can't you just tell me?" She screamed.
"Because I don't want to hurt you," he yelled. By now they were both standing up, facing each other.
"Well it's too late for that, now isn't it?"
"What do you want me to do?"
"I want you to tell me." She started to turn away, but Jess grabbed her wrist.
"Don't go, I just have a lot of shit to deal with. Don't you understand?"
"No, I don't. That is why you need to tell me." And with that, she pushed back on his chest, sending him flying back and landing in the lake. "Why don't you come find me when you can?" Then she turned and ran as fast as she could back to home.
* * *
Jess used the bridge to climb out of the lake. He was soaked from head to toe, and his black t-shirt clung to every muscle like a second skin. His jeans hung low, revealing his boxers, because they were so full of water. He resumed the position, hanging over the bridge, as he had been when everything made sense. When he knew what to do. He looked up at the darkening sky. Then, he muttered, "Why, Mariano, why do you have to be so fucked up, why?"
What did you all think? Next chapter will hopefully come soon, but I really need some help thinking of a way for Jess to make up with Rory. PLEASE HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!
Disclaimer: I own the computer, the thoughts and the fingers, that's all, I swear.
Summary: What if Jess hadn't been able to go to California, what if there was something holding him back. (Literati)
Author's Note: I have decided to start dedicating my chapters. The dedications will go to reviewers who have inspired my or given me a great idea. SO, if you want a dedication, please review. Also, in this chapter Rory and Jess will finally talk, but don't be too quick to assume, Jess isn't quite as ready to open up as we all had hoped. Until next time, Carie
Dedication: This chapter is for X-identaty because she has inspired me to do what I have done with this chapter. Her reviews are always suggestive and complementary, so X-identaty, this one is for you. And, try not to droll on your key board.
Chapter 4: Why, Mariano, Why?
Jess finally turned around when he and Rory had reached the bridge. He sat down, dangled his feet over the edge, and stared into the water. He had gone over the words in his head a million times and was prepared to repeat them when the right time came. He knew that they would seem honest, yet they wouldn't be too deep or hurt as much as anything else would.
"Hey," whispered Rory, after placing a hand on Jess's shoulder.
"I missed you," he replied, smiling. Then he moved in closer and gave Rory a gentle peck on the lips. He went in again, this time deepening the kiss. Rory opened her mouth just in time for Jess to slide his tongue in. He had wanted her so badly. He ached for her. He could have stayed like this forever. Rory entwined her fingers in Jess's hair, as he worked his hands up and down her back. The two of them would have been there for hours if Rory hadn't broken away.
"Jess," breathed Rory, "we need to talk."
"I know," he sighed.
"Jess, what happened?"
"I'm really sorry, Rory. I just needed to figure things out. I love you, I really do, it was just that I was so messed up. But I'm back now, and I'm not going anywhere."
"But why did you do all of those things? Why did you leave again? Why didn't you say good bye?
"I told you Rory, I was really fucked up. I needed to sort things out. I needed to get my life straitened out. I needed to figure out what I really wanted in life." Right after Jess said that, he wished that he could just swallow the words back up.
"You, you didn't know if you were happy?" asked Rory, on the verge of breaking out in tears.
"No, it's not that. It's that I needed to figure out what I need. I was going to California, but I realized that I don't need what's out there for me."
"But why did you do all of those things? Why did you cut school for a job? Why did you lie to me? I need you to tell me."
Jess didn't know what to say to that. He loved Rory, but he just couldn't do that.
"Tell you what?" he snarled.
"Everything!" Rory cried.
"I can't do that."
* * *
Rory hated that. She wanted him to be honest and open. Just this once. She didn't really care what he said. She just wanted to know him. To know what he had gone through. To know what he needed now. How she could help. How she could be sure that he wouldn't ever leave her again.
"Why not? Don't you think that I deserve to know? I mean it's not like you just met me. It involves me too. I want to know. Why can't you just tell me?" She screamed.
"Because I don't want to hurt you," he yelled. By now they were both standing up, facing each other.
"Well it's too late for that, now isn't it?"
"What do you want me to do?"
"I want you to tell me." She started to turn away, but Jess grabbed her wrist.
"Don't go, I just have a lot of shit to deal with. Don't you understand?"
"No, I don't. That is why you need to tell me." And with that, she pushed back on his chest, sending him flying back and landing in the lake. "Why don't you come find me when you can?" Then she turned and ran as fast as she could back to home.
* * *
Jess used the bridge to climb out of the lake. He was soaked from head to toe, and his black t-shirt clung to every muscle like a second skin. His jeans hung low, revealing his boxers, because they were so full of water. He resumed the position, hanging over the bridge, as he had been when everything made sense. When he knew what to do. He looked up at the darkening sky. Then, he muttered, "Why, Mariano, why do you have to be so fucked up, why?"
What did you all think? Next chapter will hopefully come soon, but I really need some help thinking of a way for Jess to make up with Rory. PLEASE HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!