Rating: PG-13, I don't know, I'm just guessing.
Disclaimer: Two words: NOT MINE.
Summary: What if Jess couldn't go to California, what if there was something holding him back. (Lorelai's pov for chapter 9)
Author's Note: Hey guys. I am so sorry that this took so long but I had major writers block, and then all of a sudden this popped into my head. I hope you like it and I really hope that you review. Also, I was in DC (with no computer!) So, I'm really sorry and I hope that you all understand. And this is probably going to be OOC for Jess, but you'll see why, I hope it's okay anyway. Thank you all! - Carie
Dedication: For all my friends from DC who I love and will never ever forget.
Chapter 9: Broody Hoodlum in the Bushes
Lorelai was coming back from Suki's house. It was pretty late, but she had told Rory that she wouldn't be home until late because she was visiting Davey. She walked up her front stairs but stopped to listen to a rustle that she heard in the bushes. She turned around and walked back down the stairs. She thought that it must have been a raccoon or something, but she spontaniously decided to be paranoid and investigate. She heard another noise and looked up just in time to see a certain dark haired boy duck into the bushes. "Who is that in my bushes?" she taunted, sort of making fun of Jess's failed escape, "Hmm, is it a certain broody hoodlum who hails from the dirty city up North? I wonder..."
Jess stood up, "Fine, you got me, okay, now can I just go home?"
"Okay..." she started as Jess turned to leave, but then Lorelai became suspiocious. "Actually, wait a minute."
"Um... okay," he hesitated, as he turned back to face Lorelai and slid his hands half way into his jean pockets, sort of shrugging.
"How come you didn't just use the door?" Lorelai asked suspiciously. She figured that something must have happened for him to slide out of Rory's window and crawl through the bushes. She wasn't really afraid of anything happening, she just wanted to see what he did and would do.
"Um..." he said. She could tell that there was no reason to his madness.
"Okay... whatever... you can go."
Jess just sort of grunted, like he usually did, and turned back around to go. Lorelai continued up the stairs. She was about to slide the key into the door until she heard a faint whimpering. Her "mother radar", as she had named the feeling that she got when she knew Rory was upset, told her that something had definitely happened.
"Jess!" she called, but he was too far away to hear. She ran down the steps and down the driveway. "Jess! Come back here for a second!"
"Jesus, Lorelai, make up you're mind already," Jess smirked.
"Jess, normally I would come up with an amazingly witty come back, but I'm serious." Jess's smirk melted. "What's going on, Jess?"
"What are you talking about?" he said, sort of irritated.
"Listen," she paused just in time to let Jess hear Rory's loudening sobs, "What is that from?"
"I don't know, okay, maybe she's just stressed or something, I really don't know."
"Jess!"
"Lorelai!"
"Jess! Tell me why my baby girl is crying or I will personally bash your brain in!"
"Lorelai!" he said, his mouth curling up into a tight scowl. Lorelai stared into his deep chocolate eyes. His face softened to show a hidden vulnerable little boy, "Okay, I'll spill."
The two sat down in the middle of the Gilmore steps.
"Well, you were at the festival today."
Lorelai remembered. It had been a hard day for Jess. She could sort of predict that he was gonna spill everything again. It had been bottled up inside for so long. "Uh huh," she replied, not able to articulate what she had just thought.
"And you know how much of a jerk I've been to the town, to Luke, to you, and especially to Rory."
"Yeah."
"But before this afternoon, nobody knew how sorry I am, because I am terrible at stuff like that. All the stuff I said was true, but I could bear to hear her say anything else, so I just took off. I guess I got that from Jimmy."
"Jess, you don't have to be like Jimmy. You're better than that, at least Rory thinks so. But that doesn't explain why Rory is crying."
"Lemme finish, will you? So I thought about it for a while and I realized that I needed to stop just running away from shit like this. I have always been such a coward and made up bullshit excuses to cover it up. But I can't do that anymore. Maybe I could do it to Liz or Jimmy, but not Rory. I needed to show her that I'm trying really hard. But it doesn't work. I just turn into a complete moron when it comes to emotions. So at like eight I came over here to try and fix things."
Lorelai looked at her watch. It was 11:32 p.m. "Jess, you've been here for three and a half hours?"
"Yeah, well I'm not done. So I come over and knock on her window and she opens it and then I keep telling her how sorry I am and how much of an idiot I am and how much I love her. And then she starts rambling, like usual. But then we start to, you know. What people do sometimes and then..."
"You guys didn't..."
"No, just wait. So then she starts getting really weird, I mean, she was like somebody else. She started taking total control of the situation and I had no idea what to do or think or say. I just kind of lay there. She started going really fast and doing all this stuff that I didn't think she even knew about. Well, I guess she would from reading Jane Austin's stuff. And it was really scary for me because she totally just changed within a matter of like two seconds and it was crazy. So I just couldn't. I don't know what it was. I have never done anything like that. I always just kind of do it. But it was different. I mean I had protection and stuff, but I just couldn't do it. So I broke away and told her I had to go. I just couldn't do it. I don't even know what it was... I just... I... I didn't... I..."
"Love her." Lorelai looked at Jess. His face was red and blotchy and his eyes were too. Lorelai had never imagined that she would see something like that. Big mysterious Jess was breaking down and crying before her own two eyes. This was the most she had ever heard him speak so much. He was always so closed and moody. But he just broke. Her daughter had broken him. He was in love for the first time and he had no clue what to do. She had been there before. Maybe the two of them had more in common than she thought. He was just like her. Lost, confused, rebellious. But something she lacked he had. Love. He was in love with her daughter.
"Jess, you love Rory. You want it to be special. I wish that I could have been half as smart as you. Oh, Jess."
He just sat there, with his head buried in his hands.
"Jess, it's okay, you just need to tell everything that you just told me to Rory, everything. She'll understand. If she has any common sense she'll understand. If she's my daughter she'll understand."
Just then the two heard a slamming noise, and the wails were silenced.
* I know, I'm evil, so sorry. But please R/R and everything will turn out since I am a LIT idealist and it's gonna be all good, I swear. It's no where close to done so read read read. Love you. - Carie
Disclaimer: Two words: NOT MINE.
Summary: What if Jess couldn't go to California, what if there was something holding him back. (Lorelai's pov for chapter 9)
Author's Note: Hey guys. I am so sorry that this took so long but I had major writers block, and then all of a sudden this popped into my head. I hope you like it and I really hope that you review. Also, I was in DC (with no computer!) So, I'm really sorry and I hope that you all understand. And this is probably going to be OOC for Jess, but you'll see why, I hope it's okay anyway. Thank you all! - Carie
Dedication: For all my friends from DC who I love and will never ever forget.
Chapter 9: Broody Hoodlum in the Bushes
Lorelai was coming back from Suki's house. It was pretty late, but she had told Rory that she wouldn't be home until late because she was visiting Davey. She walked up her front stairs but stopped to listen to a rustle that she heard in the bushes. She turned around and walked back down the stairs. She thought that it must have been a raccoon or something, but she spontaniously decided to be paranoid and investigate. She heard another noise and looked up just in time to see a certain dark haired boy duck into the bushes. "Who is that in my bushes?" she taunted, sort of making fun of Jess's failed escape, "Hmm, is it a certain broody hoodlum who hails from the dirty city up North? I wonder..."
Jess stood up, "Fine, you got me, okay, now can I just go home?"
"Okay..." she started as Jess turned to leave, but then Lorelai became suspiocious. "Actually, wait a minute."
"Um... okay," he hesitated, as he turned back to face Lorelai and slid his hands half way into his jean pockets, sort of shrugging.
"How come you didn't just use the door?" Lorelai asked suspiciously. She figured that something must have happened for him to slide out of Rory's window and crawl through the bushes. She wasn't really afraid of anything happening, she just wanted to see what he did and would do.
"Um..." he said. She could tell that there was no reason to his madness.
"Okay... whatever... you can go."
Jess just sort of grunted, like he usually did, and turned back around to go. Lorelai continued up the stairs. She was about to slide the key into the door until she heard a faint whimpering. Her "mother radar", as she had named the feeling that she got when she knew Rory was upset, told her that something had definitely happened.
"Jess!" she called, but he was too far away to hear. She ran down the steps and down the driveway. "Jess! Come back here for a second!"
"Jesus, Lorelai, make up you're mind already," Jess smirked.
"Jess, normally I would come up with an amazingly witty come back, but I'm serious." Jess's smirk melted. "What's going on, Jess?"
"What are you talking about?" he said, sort of irritated.
"Listen," she paused just in time to let Jess hear Rory's loudening sobs, "What is that from?"
"I don't know, okay, maybe she's just stressed or something, I really don't know."
"Jess!"
"Lorelai!"
"Jess! Tell me why my baby girl is crying or I will personally bash your brain in!"
"Lorelai!" he said, his mouth curling up into a tight scowl. Lorelai stared into his deep chocolate eyes. His face softened to show a hidden vulnerable little boy, "Okay, I'll spill."
The two sat down in the middle of the Gilmore steps.
"Well, you were at the festival today."
Lorelai remembered. It had been a hard day for Jess. She could sort of predict that he was gonna spill everything again. It had been bottled up inside for so long. "Uh huh," she replied, not able to articulate what she had just thought.
"And you know how much of a jerk I've been to the town, to Luke, to you, and especially to Rory."
"Yeah."
"But before this afternoon, nobody knew how sorry I am, because I am terrible at stuff like that. All the stuff I said was true, but I could bear to hear her say anything else, so I just took off. I guess I got that from Jimmy."
"Jess, you don't have to be like Jimmy. You're better than that, at least Rory thinks so. But that doesn't explain why Rory is crying."
"Lemme finish, will you? So I thought about it for a while and I realized that I needed to stop just running away from shit like this. I have always been such a coward and made up bullshit excuses to cover it up. But I can't do that anymore. Maybe I could do it to Liz or Jimmy, but not Rory. I needed to show her that I'm trying really hard. But it doesn't work. I just turn into a complete moron when it comes to emotions. So at like eight I came over here to try and fix things."
Lorelai looked at her watch. It was 11:32 p.m. "Jess, you've been here for three and a half hours?"
"Yeah, well I'm not done. So I come over and knock on her window and she opens it and then I keep telling her how sorry I am and how much of an idiot I am and how much I love her. And then she starts rambling, like usual. But then we start to, you know. What people do sometimes and then..."
"You guys didn't..."
"No, just wait. So then she starts getting really weird, I mean, she was like somebody else. She started taking total control of the situation and I had no idea what to do or think or say. I just kind of lay there. She started going really fast and doing all this stuff that I didn't think she even knew about. Well, I guess she would from reading Jane Austin's stuff. And it was really scary for me because she totally just changed within a matter of like two seconds and it was crazy. So I just couldn't. I don't know what it was. I have never done anything like that. I always just kind of do it. But it was different. I mean I had protection and stuff, but I just couldn't do it. So I broke away and told her I had to go. I just couldn't do it. I don't even know what it was... I just... I... I didn't... I..."
"Love her." Lorelai looked at Jess. His face was red and blotchy and his eyes were too. Lorelai had never imagined that she would see something like that. Big mysterious Jess was breaking down and crying before her own two eyes. This was the most she had ever heard him speak so much. He was always so closed and moody. But he just broke. Her daughter had broken him. He was in love for the first time and he had no clue what to do. She had been there before. Maybe the two of them had more in common than she thought. He was just like her. Lost, confused, rebellious. But something she lacked he had. Love. He was in love with her daughter.
"Jess, you love Rory. You want it to be special. I wish that I could have been half as smart as you. Oh, Jess."
He just sat there, with his head buried in his hands.
"Jess, it's okay, you just need to tell everything that you just told me to Rory, everything. She'll understand. If she has any common sense she'll understand. If she's my daughter she'll understand."
Just then the two heard a slamming noise, and the wails were silenced.
* I know, I'm evil, so sorry. But please R/R and everything will turn out since I am a LIT idealist and it's gonna be all good, I swear. It's no where close to done so read read read. Love you. - Carie