(I do not own GW!!!!! Also please read and review Cast: Wufie, Quatre, Trowa, Hero, Dou, Sally, Relena, Serenity, Dorothy, Catherine, Hanna, Kim, Allen, Millardo, Noin. [Flash back], thoughts that are written, (author's crappy notes))

[Serenity remembered the night she had decided to fight for the colonies in the war, she had been set ready to take up a weapon and fight for what she believed in. little did she know what would come after her meeting with the man who was to train her. It was after the meeting and she had moved to the training house that she learned the meaning of the words pain, humiliation, and owning another.

She had become a guinea pig for what the Doctor had wanted to research, anything from an implant operated Gundam piloting system to the use of psy. power in fighting. It normally would not have mattered if it weren't for the fact that she still had feelings and remembered why she went through the training. She had found that she could endure anything that was used on her as long as she kept the reason she fought foremost in her mind. The other side affect of doing this though was that she felt the pain even more clearly then before.

Still despite all the abuse one thing kept her from dropping off the edge of her mind into the looming madness that had always been there right within reach since she was young. That one small blessing that kept her sane was Dr. X assistant Mercy Valentine a sweet young woman only four years older then herself, But it was not to last. After a time and the observant fact that Serenity refused to give in completely to the wishes of Dr. X he had devised a plan to remedy this problem.

It had been an over cast day from the start and the fact that the mission she had been on had exhausted her emotionally and mentally did not help. She had walked in and went to the briefing room hoping to finish quickly and go and see her only friend so that she would be able to find her balance in her turbulent mind. What she did not expect to find was Mercy being held at gunpoint by her instructor waiting patiently like the entire world was at his disposal.

Serenity swallowed and walked in to catch Mercy's eye only to see the dead look in them already. Mercy knew she was already dead, she had known the moment that she had seen the gun. Serenity shook her head in silent denial at what she was seeing before her eyes. Mercy smiled sadly before closing her eyes as one silent tear fell from her cheek to hit the floor as the triggered was pulled and blood splattered over Serenity's face adding more red to the haze that had already fell over her vision. The brutal act had indeed robbed her of what little sanity she had held onto and broke her spirit but it also had a side affect that none could have foreseen.

The doctor had thought that in disposing of the one thing that kept her in check he could manipulate the girl to do anything he wanted. Instead he found himself held a few feet in the air against a wall with the very gun he had used pressed to his fore head.

Her hair had hid the girl's face the whole time until she looked up at the man who had nearly destroyed her spirit instead of just breaking it. In place of ice blue eyes crimson orbs cold as any garnets stared back at him. Distantly the scientist heard the hammer of the gun being pulled back and also the click of the trigger as the deadly bullet sped to his brain. His last thought was how could he have been so wrong and why had he not seen it before.

As the blood splattered over her face the pounding in her ears left and sanity returned in frightening clarity making her stomach heave in rebellion against the smell of blood. Dropping the body she turned to the side only to feel her stomach heave again spilling its contents of blood on the floor. She swore and wiped her mouth on the back of her sleeve, she had not eaten in forty-eight hours so she had expected it. Walking over the doctor's body she knelt before her dead friend. Touching the still smile once and arranging the body she stood and went to the computer on one side of the wall. Calmly she typed in the code needed and sent an e-mail to doctor J for farther instructions.]

Serenity shook her head and continued walking unable to break free of the memories or the hold on her.

Trowa watched the girl as she absently rubbed the bend of her right elbow and took note of what appeared to be needle scars. He watched in fascination as the girl's thoughts turned inward again. He would follow her to her destination but after that he would do his best to find out who she was.

[She stumbled half dragging herself as she went praying she could make it but unsure if she would. A bloody trail marked her passing making others back away from the bent trench coat covered figure. Stumbling again she looked up from the ground and nearly cried with relief she had made it, she was almost home.

Somehow she made it to the door and knocked leaving bloody smears on it. The door opened slowly to reveal a grim but handsome young man, the disdained look on his face was clear until she whispered his name and then she was falling into darkness to be caught in warm strong arms.

When Serenity came to she was laying   on her own bed in her home from before the war. Smiling Serenity closed her eyes again happy to be alive for once in a great while.  Still laying on the bed with her eyes closed she heard the door open and in the door way stood the ones she missed most; her mother, father and brother all stood there waiting for her to say something.]

Serenity cursed under her breath amazed she had finally shook the memories off for a bit. Growling under her breath about how it was a painful process to have to relive and feel those old emotions again just as fresh as if they were new. She was quickly running out of patients for the trip down memory lane and her silent but far to observant companion. Glowering again at the surrounding area she spotted the place she was looking for. With a tight mirthless grin she walked a crossed the street right into a rave club.

Loud techno music blared and to many bodies cramped the dance floor but Serenity knew where to go. Moving to the beat and through the crowd she made it past the press of bodies and into the clear space near the owner's office. Looking around she went inside without the eyes of her silent companion on her any longer.

Trowa swore he had lost her in the thick press of bodies and blaring music. Her had been following her till a burnet that had had too much to drink had started pressing against him. When he had finally gotten away from the intoxicated girl he had lost her. Frustrated but unable to do nothing more Trowa calmly made his way out of the club and back down the sidewalk.

It was time to report in to the others.

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