Thinking...

That was it... he didn't care...

His eyes started to close, feeling tiredness sweep over him. His eyes feeling like heavy weights. Quickly, he snapped out of it by remembering the dream. He was too scared to sleep, afraid he would relive that experience again... or worse... afraid his dream actually continued form where it left off. No, this wasn't just a nightmare that was a real thing that had happened in his life, how he got his bite. And it didn't end there where it was peaceful and silent... it got worse... He was thankful he woke up then before he got to the worst part. Remembering the excruciating pain after the wolf had bit him, and then... no, don't think of it now...

Making a very hard effort to forget the rest of the experience that had not been in his dreams, he finally over came it, and forgot it for then when he saw a dark figure stalking the grounds. Slick greasy black hair and a large pointed nose, head bent down and posture outrageous, he could only relate this figure to Severus. Ah yes... little Snivelly, no time to bother with him. Sighing, he plopped his head back on the trees and took in a deep breath, hoping Snape hadn't seen him. Fortunately, he didn't, but it turned out to be bad, because he was stalking right towards him. Remus, didn't notice, and closed his eyes just trying to take his mind off things but kept seeing the same horrible experience he dwelled over. His mind slowly drifting off to sleep... to nothing.. Where he could stay away from the bad memories, away from pain, inside his head. But he wasn't alone. Sitting there, in the darkness was a light brown grey colored wolf, just laying there, eyes closed and crania rested on paws in slumber. But yet its teeth were bared. Its ears were pinned back, it hungered freedom instead of slumber. And it would get its wish tonight and he knew it, for he was getting exited and Remus could feel it. He just wanted time alone in his head, let there be silence... but when this 'wolf' slept in his mind, he was never alone.

"Lupin..." came a cold sneering voice.

Suddenly, realizing his mistake at almost drifting off to sleep and forgetting an enemy was on grounds, his eyes snapped open immediately, eyes almost crackling like a candle flame burning in his eyes with hate as he looked who was just inches away from him wearing one of the coldest smiles that he'd ever seen.

Severus Snape.

"Get away from me" Remus snarled at him. Snape's face curled into a wider colder smile, greasy long nose giving him the look like he was an eagle that caught its prey. And it was like that, His enemy catching Remus in his state of weakness and depression. Snape gave a slight cold laugh.

"Why out here so early Lupin? Wanted a little walk--" he smiled coldly

"Under the moon?"

Curse him. He knew. He knew for a while now. All Sirius's fault. He was angry as ever with Sirius at that, and still wasn't completely over it, but they had gotten a bit over the incident... although, he never trusted Sirius as he had before again.

"Leave me be Severus" he said trying hold on his anger and not explode, that would only show weakness, but he knew that the wolf he had just visited in his mind was now wide awake and staring out of Remus's eyes, wanting to pounce, but held back by Remus's mind acting like chain holding the wolf back.

"Oh... sorry to bother the big bad wolf" he sneered. Remus couldn't take it any more; he had to get away form this. The sun was now rising slightly, shedding a dim light over the grounds, bathing it in a yellow shine, the silver blue gone.

He didn't even have to get up. Snape was so close; his large hooked nose only inches away, taunting him with an evil smile. All he had to do was stretch out his arms and grab the collar of his robes and do what he wanted to do with him. And that's what he did. He reached out, took a firm hold on his robes that bared the sly snake, hissing at him and wearing almost a smile. This represented nothing but foolishness Remus thought. He pulled Severus up to his face so they were only two or three inches apart. He almost roared with rage, but instead gave a slight smile in satisfaction that turned into an expression of anger, teeth barred like a wild animal. This wasn't Remus.. As Severus could plainly see, the usual flame that flickered in those honey golden eyes died out, and now the eyes staring at him with the utmost hate and fury, were a tawny orange gold like color, the pupils slanted slightly and very small, these eyes were not Remus's eyes, but the wolf. Severus could of taken a good guess that that was what happened. He wasn't even that stupid, for when Remus's eyes came back and a puzzled expression on Remus's face as he saw himself gripping Snape by the collar and was up in his face, let his grip slip slightly, and Snape got as quickly away from him as possible, straightening his robes and sneering as he walked off (Quite shaken to Remus's Surprise).

Feeling horrible he watched Snape leave, holding his head in embarrassment and shame.

He closed his eyes, and found himself in darkness, in his mind, but the wolf lay there, not in slumber, but wide-awake, just... laying there. Eyes crackling with energy and fiery violence burned in his eyes. He just stared into the darkness, nothingness, like a stuffed animal until Remus came close enough. It didn't move a muscle except for his eyes that followed Remus like prey as he walked towards him. Remus was watching the wolf... he was just... Lying there! A bored expression on his face! Just.. Sitting? Why didn't he suffer as Remus did and does currently? He watched the wolf just sitting there. It was his. Just sitting there in his mind. The wolf looked back, its eyes glazed over and bored. But it held its head high and looked elegant and important, until it opened its jowls lazily, squinted his eyes and gave a long yawn that turned into a whine and laid his head on his paws boredly. This Irked Remus. He then said irritated to the wolf

"Why do you just... sit there?" he asked annoyed. The wolf just cocked his head to a side and watched him with little interest.

"Why don't you... suffer? I have to suffer having you live inside me... and you sit here...bored!?" he asked outraged.

The wolf just gave him a look like Remus was worth less then what a cat had coughed up.

"Why cant you.. Talk..." he said the last part softly and small when he realized wolves didn't talk. Duh. Getting so mad he was talking to a wolf... but that wasn't a wolf... that was himself, only his wolf side, sitting bored while he awaited the full moon. Remus must have stayed in that same spot the wolf was in while he roamed free. But yet, this mutt was the one causing all his troubles... why did he have to pay for every thing the wolf side did? Why was this separate creature 'his' responsibility?

The light tan colored wolf sat up, shook his crania, silky glossy fur bristled as he got up ands walked over to Remus. Obviously it had had enough complaints of Remus, and didn't want him in his space. He snarled, but Remus didn't flinch or cower, he just stared into its eyes, like two wolves staring each other down as if deciding who was Alpha.

Remus didn't move. He stood his ground as the wolf tried to frighten him off, as if Remus was prey.

"Not going to work." He sighed watching the fresh attempts to scare Remus off, seeing that the wolf didn't recognize Remus at all. It snarled and bared its teeth at him, but Remus kept still, just not caring what the wolf tried to do.

"Why... why did you choose me? Why do I have to keep you here?" he asked himself aloud. The wolf just gave a snort and sat down next to him, giving up. Remus sat down too. So there they were. Him sitting with his own self, and obviously the two hated each other form glaring daggers at each other. Finally Remus stood up and watched the wolf pace in and out in the darkness, wanting to get out and kill

"Just wait... Tonight is your time; give me a bit of freedom from you. Why do you have to stay here? Why can't you just live like a normal wolf? What's the problem with letting me set my eyes on the full moon as a human, and enjoy it?" he snarled, almost meeting the same cruel noise as the wolf beside him. The wolf just whirled around at being yelled at and looked quite calm. It opened its tan maw to say

"Because I would starve..." in a growling raspy voice, yet it was smooth, but had a deep snarl in these words.

((oohh, creepy, a talking wooolllff.... xD Sorry, couldnt resist. Chapter seems a bit boring. Review! Thanks!

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