Never been Forgiven

Chapter Nine: Time to Talk

Disclaimer: All but this storyline, Anne, Karen and all from Sirius' new school belongs to J.K.Rowling.

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"Sirius?" Remus ventured. It was late in the night, the moon was high overhead, and Sirius still lay shivering in Remus arms. Long ago his heart-rendering sobs had numbed to muffled tears to complete silence. A muffled 'yes?' answered his question. "I hate .... No, that's not the right word ..." His arms tightened around Sirius. "..." Remus sighed, giving up, "We should go in. Its getting cold."

Sirius turned to look out to the sea. "that's not what you were going to say." His voice was almost harsh, lingering on cold, but he was deadly quiet leaving a brief second of depressing silence, before he plunged into his explanation, for once he would tell the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. "I guess it all started that night. The night of the full moon.... I ran into Snape on my way down to meet James and Peter. For well.... To change." Sirius was shaking again. This was the first time he had told anyone, everything, and the memories were painful. "He knew, he knew about you....a...and he provoked me... calling... calling you names I don't want to repeat. I tried god I tried to keep my temper but I...I couldn't... and I told him about you, and the willow.

"I guess it was the next day everything started. I realised everything.....I knew how angry you all were with me. And that hurt, hurt me more than I thought possible. I think it was that when it all began... the first time..." Sirius sadly trailed off.

He took a deep breath, "I was down by the lake, I think it was the Saturday after the full moon." Sirius paused and swallowed, hard. "I guess I was thinking back, reliving that night. Too lost in memories to notice them approaching....he...he...grabbed me from behind. Then he started to yell....and...a...and..." Sirius brook down at that point.

"S'ok Sirius. You don't have to say anymore, I know." Remus crooned gently rubbing the shaking boy's back.

"Crabbe wu...wu...was holding me, when I heard... I heard...people."

Remus looked surprised, "People?"

"You, James, and Peter. I could hear you laughing, dunno what you wear saying." Tears streamed down Sirius face as he spoke. Remus looked shocked, but stayed quiet. "Once you were out of ear shot it begin." Sirius shook all over. Remus had trouble hearing his next words through his sobs. "There were 8 of them. Malfoy, Crabbe, Goyle, Snape, Parkinson and Zabini."

"Oh Sirius, I'm so sorry."

"Don't be. It was my fault, not yours... if only I'd been stronger-"

"Don't ever say that. Sirius you're stronger than anyone I know. If anything it is my fault, no Sirius let me finish. If I hadn't been so angry with you for no reason, you would have been with us, and hell maybe you still would be with us. Maybe you would never have left if I wasn't such an idiot." At this Sirius tried to protest, but Remus stopped him, "No Sirius I was. I was never that angry with you, just confused. You were my best friend, and I guess I felt betrayed. But it gave me no right to treat you the way I did, and for that I'm sorry."

They sat in silence for a long time, each reliving memories of times when their friendship was strong, and they were much closer. Sirius was first to speak, "We've changed, I've changed."

"I noticed" commented Remus wiry.

"Well, it was just after...everything, it was hard not to. You know I got this whole new life, I was nervous about people. It took me two years to make friends. I guess I was afraid, so I turned to studying and I changed my look, my hair and even my sport. The biggest changed happened the summer of last year, when I left home."

Remus gasped, "You what?"

Sirius couldn't help but smirk, he was very proud of the way he had left home. "It was the third week in, I think. I generally lose count of the time when I'm at home." He grinned, "Karen thinks it's funny. You gotta agree?!" He looked expectantly at Remus, who just stared back, obviously shocked. "No? O....K. Well, anyway, I was arguing with my erm sibling, and my dad somehow got into the fight, My memory's a bit fussy on this. I think that's funny. Still no laughs, well basically I punched him, my dad, after that I couldn't stay so I left, but not before giving my brother a piece of my mind. God that was funny."

"I see" Remus looked deep in thought.

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Karen walked around waiting for Sirius to return. Hearing a sound she looked up, and saw Adam walking towards her, alone. He looked awful, he had a bruise on his face, and looked as if he'd been crying. She approached him cautiously, "You ok? What happened?"

Adam was stunned he spoke in an awed voice, "I-I kissed him. So beautiful, and I just kissed him-"

Karen cut him off, grabbing him and shaking him-hard, "Who? Come on Adam , Tell me, Who did you kiss?"

"Sirius." It was barely a whisper but Karen heard it as if it had been yelled at her.

"You What?" She was shaking with rage, "How could you? YOU IDIOT!" Barely able to contain her anger she lauched into a-ten-minute-long-lecture of which cannot be written down and have this story rated PG-13. Finally, still shaking with rage and suppressed fury she gave him the dirtiest look she could muster and stormed off toward the school.

After searching the school Karen entered the Vasa-marde - Food-hall – where she ran into Peter, James, Anne and Lily who reported that Remus, too, was missing. "Well, Do you think we should see if we can find them?" Karen spoke after a long minute of silence, trying hard to become friends with the people Sirius considered very important in his life.

James looked awkward, he couldn't but be nervous around the one person who knew his 'best friend' better than him, "Yeah, let's." And so, slowly the five exited the Vasa-marde, talking quietly.

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Well, their you have it, I updated. And I know how I'm going to finish this fic, with just one chapter, and I have a plan for a sequel. Firstly I'd like to say thank-you to all my reviewers-

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