Never been forgiven

Chapter Ten: A Moment of Peace

Disclaimer: All but this storyline, Anne, Karen and all from Sirius' new school belongs to J.K.Rowling.

Remus sat staring at Sirius, breathing calmly. Finally he looked down, hiding the tears that leaked out the sides of his eyes as he thought of the life of Sirius. "Sirius," Remus began, "I'm Sorry. Ok? Don't say some of this wasn't my fault, because if I had never held the grudge for so long you would never have left. Did you hear what happened the day we found out you left?" Sirius shook his head, looking confused, but stayed silent. "We didn't, it was about the third day that you had been missing that I said to James and Peter that you were missing. Well, we were distraught, we searched the school, asked everyone we saw, but no-one had seen you in at least two days. It was Anne who'd seen you; she said that she saw you dragging your trunk down the stairs during school hours. Said she'd seen you walk out the door and climb onto the 'day bus'. Terrified the three of us rushed to see McGonagall, and she told us you'd left."

"I cried, James cried, Peter moaned. We felt awful. It took another few weeks for the rest of the school to realise. People blamed us; they said it was our fault. James took the abuse silently, Peter fought back, and I, well I guess I backed away from it, hiding away in the library." Remus sighed, he was about to give away a secret, and he knew he had to tell someone. Remus met Sirius eyes, "It was then I first cut my wrist."

Sirius jumped, shock written over his features, "Y-You ssself-harmed?"

"I know it was wrong, I guess even then I knew it was wrong but it made me feel better. Helped keep the others at bay, the words, and it didn't hurt anymore. Then James found out. I guess I was lucky he did." Remus paused, and rolled up the sleeve of his left arm to show long jagged scars. Some looked as if they had been caused by the wolf, but the others were obviously deliberate, deep. "Werewolf healing powers means they look older than they are. I only stopped about 3, maybe 4 months ago."

There was a long drawn out silent before Sirius spoke. Breaking the silence to make a valid point. "You realise that we could apologise to each other all night and not get anywhere. Really the only point is that I love you." Sirius froze, realising what he had just said. "I...I mean we can sill be friends?" He asked weakly.

But Remus couldn't make his brain move past what Sirius had said about love. He spoke slowly, as if his brain was just processing the information, "You love me?"

Sirius couldn't lie. He sighed, "Yes, I'm in love with you."

There was another silence, this was much longer. A crow crowing the distance was the first sound punctuating the silence that surrounded them, alerting them to the fact the sun was rising over the sea. It was this which gave Remus the confidence to make the first move; slowly he leaned forward, lifting Sirius' face toward his, and gently pressed his lips to Sirius. It was soft and gentle, slow an un-intruding, just a simple expression of true and unconditional love.

A smile was set firmly on Sirius' features as he gently disconnected himself from Remus. Sighing in the pure bliss of it all, Sirius pulled Remus into his arms. "You know, I think I just found what I've been looking for?"

"Hmm?"

"What kept me from ever having a relationship?"

"Oh?" Remus looked interested.

"I needed you." The comment was simple, but it meant the world to Remus, who snuggled deeper into Sirius' arms, smiling to himself.

"And I needed you."

"I know," came the tired reply. It didn't take them too long to fall asleep, feeling perfectly at home in each others arms.

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I'm so sorry, it's a bit short, but that's not quite the end. There will be a sequel....there's so much I haven't included, but I wanted the ending to be short and sweet. Give me a couple of months and I'll have the sequel up...haven't got a name yet. Anyway please review if you would like a sequel. Love you all loads and thanks for your support. I'm really looking forward to the sequel, and I hope you are too.

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