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Estelle Stafford: Thank you! Hope you continue to.
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Chapter 5: Once A Warm Earth
"WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE!" Azuma yelled when he saw the ten students.
"Hum...we decided to stay." Zero said tentatively, and Azuma looked at him:
"We decided to stay." he repeated "DO YOU HAVE ANY CONSCIENCE OF WHAT YOU DONE?"
"Sensei," Ikhny started, and the professor looked at her "I believe it's my fault."
"Your fault, #87?" Azuma asked, raising an eyebrow "You caused this?" Ikhny nodded "What the hell happened?"
"Hum..." Ikhny closed her fists "I didn't want to go, and they decided to stay." she explained, and Azuma hung his head:
"I hope you know what you're doing." he said, "Because there's no way for you, to get out of here. Now, go to your rooms, tomorrow I'll see what I'll do with all of you."
"Gomen, sensei." Ikhny said, bowing. And then she left only to be followed by the rest of her friends.
"What are we going to do now?" Dr Rill asked, and Azuma looked at her:
"Wait for a miracle."
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"I can't believe we got out of there alive." Yamagi said, as he run a hand through his hair.
"Well, if you want to die, you can go back." Tsukasa replied, looking at him "I believe no one will stop you."
"Not even you?" the purple haired boy asked, and Tsukasa smiled:
"Not even me." she agreed with a nod.
"I can't believe you made me stay." Clay whimpered, and Saki rolled her eyes:
"Oh, shut up Clay." she replied annoyed "I know you wanted to stay too."
"Hey, Ikhny!" Kizna called, running towards her friend's side "Thanks, for what you did."
Ikhny gave her a confused look:
"What are you talking about?" she asked. and Kizna smiled:
"You know...defending the whole group and such."
"I didn't defend anyone." Ikhny said, "I just said the truth."
"Oh?" Kizna asked, raising her eyebrow "Ok, then. Thanks, anyway." then she walked towards Zero's side.
Hiead looked at Ikhny's back:
'What's wrong with her?' he asked to himself 'She's so different, now.' Then Hiead smirked 'Good, then I know she's aware of what I can do.'
"Well, I'm going to bed." Wrecka said, as she stopped in front of the room she shared with Saki and Tsukasa.
"No!" Clay exclaimed, and everyone looked at him.
"What do you mean, 'no'?" Saki asked suspiciously, and Clay looked at her:
"We need to be together." he said, "I think it's the best."
"Are you scared?" Zero asked, and the brown haired boy shook his head:
"No, but I think it's the best."
Yamagi touched Zero's arm:
"Clay's just looking for a way to see Saki in pj's." he said, and both Clay and Saki blushed:
"Baka!" Saki exclaimed, hitting Clay on the arm.
"Hey, what did I do?" Clay asked, and everyone laughed while Ikhny crossed her arms:
"I know a place where we can stay." she said, and everyone looked at her "We just need some sleeping-bags."
"Where?" Wrecka asked, but Ikhny had already walked towards her room.
"Weird." Tsukasa whispered, looking at the brunette "She was so social and now..."
"Yeah." Saki interrupted softly "I miss the old Ikhny."
Hiead looked at her and shook his head:
'Miss the old Ikhny? Ah, make me laugh.' he thought.
"Well, let's go grab out things." Kizna said "Meet you here, in five."
Everyone nodded and walked into different directions.
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"The Observatory?" Wrecka asked shocked "No, no way I'm going to sleep here!"
Ikhny rolled her eyes:
"Well, this is the only place where you walk without bumping into each others." she said, opening her sleeping-bag "But I believe you can go to your room if you want to." she finished
"Well..." the blue haired girl started, unsure and Roose smiled:
"C'mon Wrecka, it's like camping!"
"Ok." the girl mumbled as she sit next to Saki "What are we going to do, now?"
"Well, I brought some food." Kizna said, opening a bag "It's enough for tonight."
"Cool!" Zero exclaimed, but when he was about to reach some cookies Kizna slapped his hand away:
"Where are you're manners?" she asked, and Zero grinned.
"Here." he said, and before Kizna could react he gave her a peck on the lips. Everything went silence, while Kizna froze:
"Zero!" she exclaimed, and the boy gave her a confused look:
"What?" he asked, but Kizna lost her voice once she noticed the puppy look Zero had on his face:
"Baka." she muttered, before looking at her friends "Well, what are you waiting for?" she asked when she noticed everyone looking shocked at her, expect for Hiead and Ikhny.
In minutes everyone was eating, talking and having fun as if they had gone to their colonies.
While she was sitting on a bench, not far away from her friends, Ikhny looked to the stars, and took a deep breath. She had chosen that place for one purpose, but now that she was there she just wanted to get away...to run from there.
"Hey Ikhny!" a voice exclaimed, and the brunette turned around to see Kizna sitting next to her:
"Hai?" she asked, and Kizna cleared her throat:
"Just wanted to tell you, we're going to sleep." she said, before smiling "And say that you can count with me, to tell me whatever you want."
Ikhny gave her a small smile:
"Arigatou, Kizna." she said, and the pink haired girl's smile widened:
"You're welcome." she said as she got up "Goodnight."
"Goodnight." Ikhny whispered.
Seconds later all the Observatory was in silence. Looking to her friends Ikhny couldn't help but smile when she saw Zero next to Kizna, with an arm around her waist. Clay had a hand over Saki's, both Roose and Wrecka were turned to each other and seemed like they were about to kiss, and Yamagi was turned to Tsukasa's back, with his head against the girl's hair. All of them looked happy, despite the situation they were in.
'Why Hiead can't do the same to me?' Ikhny asked to herself, as she looked to Hiead's back 'Wait, why would I want that cold hearted boy to do that to me? Argh, that's crazy!'
As she shook her head, Ikhny looked to the stars again, and took a deep breath.
'Mama...Papa...I miss you so much...' she thought as her eyes started to tear 'No, I'm not going to cry, this was my choice...'
Then, the brunette cleared her throat:
"i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me"
He was running again; running for something that scared him more than anything in his life. He knew he had to keep running, or he would be killed. But no matter how hard he tried, the same people would always catch him and almost torture him, if it wasn't for the weapon he had in his hand.
He would always point the revolver towards the men in front of him, and when all of them were prepared to attack him, he would shot them. One of them, though he had been shot right on his chest, was still able to approach the scary child and grab him, before falling limp on the ground.
Blood was all over his face, and some had even fallen on his clothes, but that did not matter. His hand was trembling...he was trembling not only because he was scared and afraid, but because he had also been hurt and now he was lost. Four feelings he hated to feel on his chest, but that were the only feelings he was allowed to feel on that moment.
He could feel his feet walking somewhere he didn't knew, some place where he wanted to hide and forever cry because of the hard and horrible time he had been through. But when he last expected a brown haired girl appeared in front of him. He had never seen her before yet she would always appear in his dreams and even when he was awake. However, on contrary of his other dreams, now she had hurt all over her face and sadness filled her eyes.
"you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me"
"Hiead..." she whispered, extending her trembling hand "Help me...please..."
He did not know what to do; he wanted to help her, but at the same time he hated her too much to do anything for her...if anyone hadn't been able to help him why should he do it? Why should he help another? It did not make sense. Then, like in the other dreams, he was he again...seventeen-year-older, black outfit...but with colder eyes. Looking down to her hand, he sneered:
I'm not going to help you!" he said, throwing her hand away from him "You didn't help me so, why should I help you?"
The girl looked at him:
"Help me, Hiead." she pleaded "Help me, so I can help you... So I can help you to turn into a better person..."
"I don't want to become a better person!" he exclaimed angrily "And I'm not going to help a weak as you!"
Suddenly, and for his surprise, a single tear felt down the girl's cheek. A tear so perfect and pure it looked like a star, and though he did not want to he couldn't help but feel horrible for her:
"Please..." she pleaded again "I care for you Hiead, but I need your help first...I need you to help me, to find the way...The way to your heart..."
Once again, she extended her cold and trembling hand, and once again he sneered:
"No!" he exclaimed, throwing her backwards as he would always do "I am not going to help you...I don't want to help you!"
Other tear felt down the girl's cheek:
"Then, both our souls will be lost."
Hiead opened his eyes, but before he could move a voice filled his mind, and through the window in front of him, he could see Ikhny's reflection. She was sitting on a bench, not far away from him, looking as if she was enchanted to the stars while her voice filled the Observatory with a sweet song.
"i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
i've been alone all along
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me"
"Shut up..." Hiead muttered low enough for no one to hear him. He wanted to tell Allecto to shut up or, even if it was needed, to slam her against the wall, but her voice was making him feel funny...the song she was singing was making him feel funny, and without any warning, the last thing he had heard on his dream, appeared on his mind:
"Then, both our souls will be lost."
"Mama...Papa..." Hiead heard a voice whisper, but before he could look through the window, he felt Ikhny getting up and walk towards him. Closing his eyes, Hiead pretended to be asleep, when he felt the girl stop close to him "I miss you, so much...I'm sorry if I...couldn't be a good daughter, but I promise I'll do my best...I promise and you'll be proud of me."
Suddenly Hiead felt someone lay besides him, and after a few seconds he opened his eyes to see Ikhny next to him, with her eyes closed. She still had some tears falling down her cheeks, but he couldn't help but think she looked beautiful.
'WHAT!' Hiead asked to himself, as he opened his eyes wide 'Beautiful! How can I think this...this weakling is beautiful! Argh! She's killing me, with those dreams!'
Without wasting a single second Hiead sit on his sleeping bag, and turned to Ikhny, and without thinking, he grabbed her neck with his hands, and started squeezing it:
"Stop it!" he exclaimed, "Stop doing that!"
"Hiead..." Ikhny said with difficulty "Wh-what are you...do...doing?"
"I'm going to kill you!" Hiead exclaimed "I'm going to kill you, so I can have a peaceful night!"
"Hiead!" Zero yelled, making everyone else wake up "Let her go! You're suffocating her!"
"Good!" Hiead said
"Let her go, Gner!" Kizna yelled as she tried to push Ikhny from Hiead's grasp
By now, everyone was trying hard to free Ikhny, who was already losing conscience, from Hiead's gasp but the boy was very strong...
"Hie...ad..." Ikhny said almost in a whisper, and Hiead looked at her "Plea...se..."
"What? You're going to beg?" Hiead asked, squeezing her neck harder.
"Ki..kill...me..." the girl said, looking at him right in the eyes. Hiead froze 'What?' he asked to himself "Ple...ase..." the girl continued "Kill...me..."
What made Hiead snap from his thoughts:
"Oh...what am I...?" slowly, he let the girl go, and falling on her knees, Ikhny put a hand over her neck and started to cough
"Hiead!" Zero yelled, before punching the silver haired boy right on the chin "What the hell is wrong with you?"
"I..." the boy said, shocked:
'Why can't I react? It wouldn't be the first time I killed someone...then, why couldn't I kill her? Why?'"Hiead!" Kizna yelled getting up, but a hand on her wrist made her look down, to her friend.
"Stop...it..." Ikhny plead between deep breaths "Don't...hit him..."
"But, Ikhny..." Kizna said, but the brunette looks at her. What Kizna saw, made her heart break: Ikhny's eyes were full of hurt, sadness and suffering. Emotions Kizna never thought she would see on her friend's eyes...
"Please..." she said in a whisper "Don't...hit him..."
With that everything went black.
To Be Continued...
A/N: Small chapter, I know, but I need to go slow now. Don't worry, things will get better...err...worse...oh, forget it. But, don' forget to review, ok? Thanks!