CAN'T SAY A WORD - DANNI'S STORY
by Catherine Parkin aka LollyLady
The tears sometimes seem consuming, and sometimes I feel like if I could, I'd just lay down my head and let them take over, let these endless, bitter tears choke me whilst I slept. I've been here for longer than I even care to remember, The walls of this personal hell, the only thing I ever get to see. Well... except when I go through my rebellious phases and end up down in the cellar, and even there is better than here, where I'm so close to him but I can't say a word and I can't reach to hold him.
So all I can do is look. Look at him. Listen as he tells the others of Amber. Listen as he smiles and cries over his memeories. I can't say a damned thing and its all my own stupid, ignorant fault.
I've been mute for a long time now, since just after I was taken away from the mallrats, The chosen were being pretty persuasive with their methods to get me to talk and I ended up losing my ability to, After that, I was no use to them and so they shipped me here, this waiting ground and I've been sat in this same cell ever since, Watching people. Hitting guards. Trying to teach myself to talk again.
I'll never be able to though. I know that now, so I just sit. Waiting to be deleted. Waiting to be shipped off to some other crappy prison. Waiting for the technoes to be overthrown.
"So... Your girlfriend died, and then came back to life?!" A small, pale girl with electric blue hair grilled Bray for clues to his past.
He smiled and nodded at her. "Well technically, she was never dead, but the long and short of it is that she came back to me and was about to have my baby when I was taken."
I've heard the story so many times before. His beautiful, brave, amazing Amber came back to him, just like "princesses" always do in the end, but he's never mentioned me, not once has he mentioned his beautiful, brave, amazing replacement Amber and that kills me.
"How long was she gone for?"
Bray rubbed his forehead. "A year, a year and abit..."
She leaned towards him. "And you never... in all that time..."-
"Well of course I did. I needed love. I needed sympathy, I thought she was dead didn't I? Of course I slept with someone else. I'm only human." He stood up. "And before you ask about her... Her name was Danni, and she's dead."