Summary: She was desperate for love. That was all that she had ever wanted and it was torn from her by Tohru… Will Kagura ever find solace in another person?

Disclaimers: I don't own Fruits Basket.

I'll Forget It All : Chapter Six

Shigure

I just ruined the moment and I could tell that Kyo-kun was really irritated with me. He glared at me, but I didn't really pay him much attention. I just continued my favorite song.

I looked down at Tohru and saw that she was really worried about Yuki. I better ring Hatori to make sure Kagura made it home alright. She probably did, well at least I think she did. She is very skilled at martial arts so the chance that she would get hurt lessened.

I noticed a change in Kagura, I can't explain it. Well, for one: she didn't chase Kyo around. She was more quiet and serene, which was rare. Actually, I found myself missing the old Kagura. She did provide a wonderful entertainment, especially when she was with Kyo. It was like something was missing.

Maybe it was because her smile was empty and her eyes were distant. Maybe it was because she didn't talk much and kept her head bowed. Kagura was normally very active. She would talk on for hours about stories she had just recently heard. She was normally full of energy, words, and stories, something that seems to be on short supply yesterday. Maybe she was just tired, as Tohru said, but it seems different from fatigue. I see Tohru walk into the kitchen, probably to cook breakfast. Suddenly the doorbell rang and the only thought that went through my mind was: Now! Ladies and Gentlemen! Shigure's disappearing act! Mii-san, there's no use in ringing!

Tohru

Where's Sohma-san? Did he leave because of something I did? What could it have been? What did I do? Sohma-san was never one for mornings, so he was usually the last one up. He's never been up before me. Something is dreadfully wrong and, although Kyo says it isn't my fault, I can't help but feel that it is.

I almost forgot to cook breakfast in all the commotion I had caused and I'm sure that Shigure might think I'm getting too laid back if I don't start right now. I put a determined expression on my face and start cooking. I can't let him, or anyone for that matter, think I'm slacking off especially since he let me stay at his house.

I hope Kagura-chan made it home last night. I didn't have the chance to call before I went to bed, maybe I should later today.

I sniff a little while cooking the rice. Suddenly a pair of hands holds my waist and I freeze up. I feel sweat start to form because of my anxiety. It must be Kyo! I'm so nervous, what should I do? I can't tell him to stop because he might think I don't like him, but if I don't tell him to stop he might think, he might think that I'm easy. I don't know what to do.

M-mom, what would you do in this situation?

"Tohru, you're still worried." Kyo's breath brushed against my ear and I start to shiver.

"N-no I'm not!" I stuttered, still unsure of what to do.

"You're a terrible liar."

I blushed; I could feel the heat crawl up my neck and into my cheeks. I hear him chuckle behind me.

"Let me cook. You need to rest."

I turn around immediately and put my hands up. "No! I couldn't! Just leave the cooking to me! I don't want to make it seem like I can't cook now! Just relax Kyo-kun and leave everything to me!"

He chuckles again. "You're funny."

I get a dazed look, I'm funny. Is that a complement? Oh, I'm getting dizzy! I shouldn't confuse myself like this all the time. Just keep one thought in mind! That's the spirit!

I turn back to the food. I can still feel Kyo-kun behind me, I can feel the warmth radiating off his body.

"No, really Tohru let me cook."

"Kyo, it's okay! I'll cook! I don't want to impose or anything! Don't worry about it! I'm good at cooking anyway!"

I guess I'm lucky to have Kyo to love, but what about Kagura? She's always been after him. I look down at the food and an image of Kagura's smiling face appeared in my mind. She was my friend and yet here I am with the objection of her affection. I'm in love with Kyo, someone she's loved since childhood. Is this right? Can I go on knowing that I caused Kagura pain? She seemed to be happy yesterday, nothing unusual happened except the fact that she didn't chase Kyo around. I thought it was because she was over him.

What if she doesn't want to be friends with me anymore?

I sigh out loud and at that I feel Kyo-kun shift behind me.

"Are you okay?"

I nod my head with a big smile on my face.

"It's just… It doesn't matter!" I smile and laugh a little to show that I was okay. Yup! I need to stay happy so that they will not worry about me. They were really nice to take me in after my mother's death and I don't want to be a bother to them any further.

But still, I'm sorry for falling in love… with Kyo. I'm really sorry that I stole Kyo from Kagura. I've never really meant to, it just happened so fast. Everything happened so fast.

I'm so, so, so sorry for falling in love, Kagura. But, can we really, truly stay friends after this?

I feel so guilty for being so happy and you're sad. I'm really sorry. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry…

Hatori

I sat in my office, occasionally glancing at the picture of Kanna. She looked so happy in that picture and it made me miss her more. I wish I could see her again. Our love was sweet and we thought it would never end. All good things, however, must come to an end no matter how improbable it may seem.

What happens to snow when it melts?

It becomes water, right?

Phhtt! No, it becomes spring!

I remember that day as if it were yesterday. She had just first arrived at my office for a job and I was smitten. She was so beautiful and full of spirit. I loved her with every part of my body. Her spirit and body was beautiful and basked in the glory of loveliness. Akito forbade our marriage and he blinded me that day, but I could never blame him for it.

How could I blame a child who was going to die? How could you blame someone when at the moment of their birth they were told that they would die at an early age? His life was filled with hospitals and medicine. His life was filled with thoughts unavoidable early death.

How could you blame that?

The coldness and bitterness of an early death. The hatred that seeped through him with each passing sickness. It weakened him, and yet made him stronger.

How could you blame that?

Kagura-chan hasn't come back last night. I think she might still be with Kyo. My mind drifted back to the day, two days ago when she asked me to erase her memory of him, but after Akito took her away she wouldn't leave her room until yesterday when she left to go to Shigure's.

I remember hoping that she would be able to get over him by seeing him again. She had grown a little mature since the revelation of his true form, but I know she has seen it before. She seemed more quiet and morbid. I knew what was wrong.

She was in love, but tried to force herself out of it. I could tell she wanted to hold on to the hope that he will come to her and I can tell that she wanted to hold on to the silly infatuation she had. She wanted to love him and have him love her, yet she wanted to let him go and force herself out of love. She tried to force herself to ignore him.

Kagura, I pity you.

Unlike you, I have accepted the fact that I will never be loved like Kanna had loved me. I accepted the fact that Kanna has found someone else and I'm happy. She deserves happiness.

I look outside and watch the birds in the courtyard. It was a lovely spring day.

The phone rang.

I pick it up.

"Hello."

I hear crying in the background, and then Shigure's voice comes on. "Oh! Hatori, has Kagura come home?" In the background I can hear Mii-san's voice. She's probably begging for Shigure's writing. I chuckle to myself.

"Are you asking because you're worried? Or are you just trying to find a new way to torture your editor?"

"Of course I'm worried! How could you say such a thing?! Quite frankly, Hatori, I'm really hurt!"

"She didn't come home last night."

Without saying a goodbye, I hang up the phone and massage my temples. I don't know why, but everything Shigure does amuses and annoys me.

Kagura

Yun-chan was so nice and understanding. I wish kyo could be like that, so he would understand what he was doing to me. I wish he could see me for who I am.

"Kagura?" I look up at you and you hold out your hand. "Everyone might be worried."

I take your hand and walk along side with you to Shigure's house. Will it be right for me to think that you just needed someone there to undergo the same torture as you?

I don't think so. I won't think like that. At least I can watch Kyo be happy with Tohru. I should have known, I should have known better than anyone else.

They were so compatible in everyway, although they were opposites. They just fit. I guess that selfish part in me will never go away. I loved him deeper than she can ever love, yet you chose her shallow love over mine.

Did he even notice the emptiness in my eyes? He wouldn't, he couldn't. He was too much in love with someone else to pay me much attention. It was then that I remember that Yuki still had my hand in his. I just noticed how big his were compared to mine. I suddenly felt so small and insignificant, but when I looked up to see him smiling all the bad feelings were gone.

I slip my hand out of his and clasp them behind me.

"You know, Yun-chan, maybe I'll just go home." I smile up at him. He looks down at me with his lavender eyes and shakes his head.

"We'll just call Hatori-san and tell him that you're with us."

"I don't think Kyo would want me there."

"I don't care what that baka neko wants." I giggle lightly to cover up my growing fear and sadness. That baka neko? I guess when they do have a friendship, its going to be a complicated one. A small part of me didn't want to go back, but that was a small part and it fought overwhelming odds.

TBC

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