Author's Note I was waiting to use the damn internet, but seeing as I can't, I just wrote this chapter instead… I'm really mad though… don't mess with me… jk…

Summary She was desperate for love. That was all that she had ever wanted and it was torn from her by Tohru… Will Kagura ever find solace in another person?

Disclaimers I don't own Fruits Basket, but if I did… I would make sure that Tohru got a better personality… sorry to all the Tohru lovers.

I'll Forget It All

Chapter Fourteen

Kyo

We are in the van. Hatori brought it instead of the car because there were so much of us. As was expected, I took my seat next to Tohru in the very back. Yuki took the seat on the other side of Tohru and Kagura sat alone in the second row. Shigure took his regular seat next to Hatori in the front. Kagura smiled at all three of us in the back and put her legs on the seat next to her. I looked over at the other two and saw them smile at Kagura. I didn't know what to do. If I smiled, would she ask me to sit in the front with her? But, before I could make my decision, she turned around and leaned against the glass window.

I stared at her while she slowly closed her eyes as if to fall asleep. Since I was on the end where there was no seat in front of me, I could see her whole. I looked at her hands when she suddenly clutched them and that was when I noticed that she didn't have her cat bag anymore. I wonder what happened to it. Instead of her cat bag, she had a plain brown leather backpack. I looked up and noticed that everything was so quiet. I wonder why? There was so much tension in the car, I could feel it. Why was everyone acting so oddly? I reached over to Tohru and gently held her hand. She looked up at me and smiled while blushing deeply.

I resisted the urge to grab her and just hug her to death. I didn't want to become a cat in the car. I glanced up and saw Yuki turn his head away from us and stare out the window. I knew his feelings, but it didn't matter.

He had everything I ever wanted except her and I wasn't about to let him take the only thing I have. My eyes drifted back up to Kagura. She was asleep.

If she wasn't so clingy, maybe I would have loved her. I don't know, but right now Tohru dominates my heart and no one else ever could. Minutes passed… then almost an hour later…

"We're shopping in Aya's shop…"

Immediately the car seemed to almost tip over because I and Yuki stood up so suddenly with death glares directed towards Shigure.

"What! It'll be faster…" He seemed to shrink away from us, but it didn't really help the situation.

"Kyo, Yuki, just accept it. We already told Ayame that we would be there and it would be a lot faster."

Yuki and I sat back down. Tohru seemed to be panicking inside. I could tell because her hair was standing on end.

"Wha-what happened…?" We all looked up at Kagura. I had completely forgotten that she was asleep. She rubbed her eyes with the end of her sleeve and looked out the window. Something seemed so different about her. I'm starting to get worried, although I don't show. I don't ever want her to get the idea that I like her. If she did, she might pounce on me as if I were a small mouse. Kagura looked out the window.

"Where are we going?"

"Aya's shop!" Shigure replied brightly. He knew that Kagura loved hanging out with Ayame because he was so "funny."

"Really!" Kagura practically laughed out. She just simply loved going to his shop, just to see what he was doing. Then, she suddenly got morbid. I wonder what she's thinking. She seemed so distant now, ev

When we arrived, Hatori parked the car and we all got out. Kagura got out first then me, Tohru, and Yuki.

"Tohru-chan! Let's go in!" Kagura grabbed Tohru's arm and together they ran into the shop. Me and Yuki sighed and walked in slowly. I saw Tohru's eyes widen as she ran her fingers over a manikin's dress. It was really very beautiful, not that I'll tell that to Ayame.

Mine-san came out of the back and she smiled when she saw us.

"AYAME!"

Ayame came out of the back and his eyes widened when he saw us. He immediately jetted out for Yuki. I suppressed a laugh when I saw Yuki try to run away, but was unable to do so.

I looked out of the corner of my eye and saw Tohru talking animatedly with Kagura while looking at a pale yellow dress. Kagura smiled and nodded. Tohru picked the dress off the rack and pulled Kagura's hand to go look at the other clothes. The day went on. It was like a trial and error. After Yuki and I picked up the right sizes for our tuxes, we sat in front of the dressing rooms. Tohru and Kagura came out in random times. I can't exactly remember which dresses were worn; all I knew was that Tohru looked beautiful in each and every one. I would turn my head to Kagura every now and then, but I just couldn't keep my eyes off of Tohru.

"But! The price is so much! I just couldn't!" I smiled at Tohru's modesty.

"Don't worry. We have the money and you need to enjoy this, so just pick out whatever you need." Tohru smiled up at Shigure, but I knew that she was determined to just pick all the cheep ones so she wouldn't be a burden.

"Now, Shigure… It's been a long time…" Shigure immediately went into his position.

"Indeed it has…"

"I felt so cold and empty without you…"

"I missed you with each passing day…"

I just roll my eyes at them and look at Tohru who was examining herself in the large mirrors. She was wearing one of those dresses that goes out on the bottom and have ribbons and lace across the chest (a/n: you know the dress she wore when Mine dressed her up. Yeah, the one when she went to Ayame's shop with Yuki!).

She was so beautiful. What did I do to deserve this beautiful angel? Tohru smiled and twirled around. I remember looking up at Kagura for a split second and seeing a small faint smile grace her lips before I turn all my attention on Tohru.

Kagura

Dear, sweat Kyo. I felt warmth inside me when you looked at me. There was no hatred or anger in your eyes; it was just blank. As if you were meeting a new person and my selfishness meant nothing to you. I looked up at the mirror and smiled. I could never be as stunning as Tohru or as selfless as her, but I promise that I could be whatever you want… just take me. Just love me, that is all I crave.

Like the air we breathe, I need your love to go on. I still smile at my reflection and was shocked. I never noticed how empty my eyes have gotten or how shallow my face looked. I looked down at the dress in distaste. It made me look to skinny, as if I was anorexic. The dress was green, my signature color. I wanted something new. I don't know why, but I felt the sudden urge to go all out. Kyo doesn't love me, so I need to change and later forget everything.

I can't go on depressed forever.

Still, it's so hard.

I looked up and saw Kyo and Tohru talking… they were smiling and laughing again. There could be nothing in the world that could ever dampen their lives now, and I hope there never will. I turn back to the mirror and frown. Why couldn't I be prettier?

Oh well, I guess it doesn't really matter now who I impress… it's not like anything will make Kyo love me now. Sometimes I wonder if he ever felt anything for me… anything besides hate and aggravation. Could he have felt something for me? Could have loved me for an instant?

I guess it wouldn't matter what I wore. I took of the green dress off and looked at the purple one I had just pulled off one of the racks. I slipped it one and looked at myself in the small mirror. I didn't feel like showing this dress to anyone. I don't know why, but I felt that this was the dress I wanted and that it should be a surprise for tonight. It was a simple lavender dress that reached a little way below my knees. I let my fingers trace the butterfly imprint on it.

"Kagura, oni-chan!"

I remember when he first saw a butterfly. He was only five and I was seven. He grabbed my hand and pulled me towards it.

"What is it Kagura?"

I remember his cute red eyes looking up at me with fascination. This was before the "incident," so he was more open with me then.

"It's a butterfly."

I remember when he reached out to catch it, but it flew away.

"It doesn't like me?"

I remember smiling to him and pulling him into a hug. He was cute that I couldn't resist. Then the butterfly returned and landed on his nose.

"See! Kyo, it likes you! They say that you could make a wish when a butterfly lands on your nose and it will come true."

I remember him closing his eyes and mouthing something that no one else could ever hear.

"Finished!"

"What did you wish for?"

"That you'll never leave me."

"I'll never leave you Kyo."

"Kagura, will you marry me?"

I remember that day. It was right before I pulled off your bracelet. Hatori erased your memory of me running away from you, but I know that it was engraved in your heart although you will never know it. Hatori even erased that moment with the butterfly, so I guess you forgot about your wish.

When you turned away from every one of my advances, I turned violent and made you ask me to marry you. I just wanted to hear those words again so I could make sure it wasn't a dream.

Maybe I'm just in denial when I think you'll one day love me. I mean, love takes time right?

I take off the dress and put it back on the hanger. This was the one I was going to buy, but I didn't want anyone to see it just yet.

I walked out of the dressing room and saw that everyone was talking to Tohru about another dress that she tried on. I don't know why their fussing so much about it, Tohru looked well in everything she tried on. This time she was wearing a thin strapped sundress that ended about two inches above her knees. She was also wearing a matching choker necklace. She was so cute in the dress.

Everyone was so distracted with Tohru that they didn't see me when I walked out to pay for my dress. Mine-chan was the one who checkout my dress. I paid for it and asked her to fold it so she can put it in a bag. She smiled and did what I asked. Mine-chan and Aya had the same passion for designing clothes and dressing up girls.

Yuki

I heard the dresser door open, but I didn't bother to look up. I know things are weird between me and Kagura so I decided that we should see less of each other now. I tried to focus all my attention at Tohru, but I just couldn't. Every time I tried to think of Tohru, my mind would drift to Kagura.

I don't know why I should think of her, sure we spent some time together and talked to each other, but it doesn't become anything more than friendship. She's just a friend that I'm to comfort as she comforts me. I shouldn't think of her as anything else because I know that she would get hurt. No matter what I do, the people I love always get hurt.

But, still why not? Our love interests were stolen from us and there is no one in the world who would understand us more than we do each other. She's a member of the zodiac too, so we could hug each other without turning into animals.

I get up when Kagura enters the room. She seemed kind of distracted and I guess that's why she tripped. Having very fast reflexes I caught her in my arms. I helped her regain her footing and bowed her head and muttered a small thanks. I heard a faint plopping sound and saw a small paper booklet on the floor. I reached down and picked it up.

It was a plane ticket to go to America… a one way trip. Was she planning on leaving?

I looked down at her and handed it to her.

"Thank you…"

"Why?"

"Well, I was invited to go on a student exchange program…"

"Are you going?"

"I haven't decided yet."

"Have you asked Akito?"

"Do I have to?"

I looked down into Kagura's eyes and saw that she was still broken.

TO BE CONTINUED…

Okay, that's chapter twelve! I hope you all enjoyed it and I'm sorry that I couldn't update sooner… wouldn't let me sign in so, it took me forever to update.