Hermione sat in the car watching the scenery go by as the train zoomed on toward
Hogwarts. She had managed to avoid Harry and Ron so far that morning. She had
received stares as she had walked down the platform. Maybe it was because of her
Head Girl badge, or maybe because of the rings under her eyes, or her plain black
and white clothes, or her straightened hair, or maybe the extra long pants to cover
the visible bruises that should have never been made, or her skinny, bony body, or
maybe the lack of parents by her side, or maybe it was the blank face that she
wore. Whatever it was she had ended up in a dark compartment shared only with
a very quite Luna Lovegood.
Hermione could tell that Luna was staring at her, but at the moment she didn't
care. At least Luna wasn't trying to start a conversation. She took out her notebook and
CD player and shifted uncomfortably in the seat. The CD she choose was her new
Blink182. She took out a quill and started writing in her spiral named 'Midnight
Melodies'. She had been doing this a lot, writing I mean. She wrote songs and poems in
quantities that was unbelievable. She already had 3 spirals filled to the max.
Cradle the darkness My new home
A forgotten child swings in invisible memories
Watches as they smile at her misery
That can't notice her
They don't want to
She's a forbidden child
Never meant to be born
Never wanted
She never held sanity
Not in her dreams
Her tears drop like rain
Thought to only be natural
Never concerned at what it might become
Locked away
She kills slowly her pain
She writes away
Empting her mind
'Til she is but an empty shell
Never speaks
One friend, her mind
All is her enemy
No one cares much
A single cell she lives in
The key rusted
Her guards forgotten
She can't get out
How fragile her bones
How weak her mind
She's immortal
Never died
She tries to die
Her silver blade, her other friend
Her only possession
Caresses her skin
Splits her veins
And sets free her blood
But she is not allowed to die
It is her punishment
Her curse
A veil is raised over their eyes
To forget her
To remember nothing vile,
Nothing bad Nothing sad
That is her job
A transfer of pain
She feels every tree fall
Hears every girl scream
Tastes every bad thought
Smells everyone decay
Flinches as every father hits every son
To have a lifetime
But never live
Darkness has already meet her
And corrupted her
She looked out the window again, unconsciously rubbing her wrists that were covered in black
and white bracelets. Luna seemed to notice the behavior but decided to ignore it. Black and
white, that how she was now. There was no room in the world for gray, she had decided. She
had changed over the summer, she knew, mature, depressed, detached, hurt. She didn't care
about grades. She didn't even look at her badge unless it was necessary. She had started eating
a little less everyday, not anorexic or maybe she was but who cared?
It had been raining all day, which pleased her. She had always had loved the rain. The rainwas only getting harder, pounding like an annoying headache. She always seemed to have one.
Her summer had been tough, like none of the others have been, yeah right. She hadn't had a
mother since the end of 5th year. It was sad that she still didn't know how her mother had died.
No one would tell her. All she knew was that when she got home from Hogwarts, her mother
was in a coffin six feet under.
But she did have suspects. Yes, she had thoughts of how the death had occurred. Shedidn't know whether it was by murder or illness, no one told her anything. Her mother hadn't
been sick when she left. All her theories always pointed back to one person, her father. Ah yes,
her father. The bruises still burned in agony. The cuts still bleed slightly. Her father always
had...creative ways of abuse. Burning, cutting, hitting, belting, you name it and he had done it.
He had done everything but kill her. She was happy to leave her home, but she still didn't want
to go to Hogwarts.
Hermione had changed. She couldn't wholly understand what she was inside anymore.Depression had swept over her like a tidal wave. It was over-whelming. her emotions clashed
into crude songs. She remembered the first one. It was sad although all were.
Sunflowers painted on my bedroom wall
Covered by posters of my rebellion
The scent of a little girl
Now smells strangely of black and white
The colors that caress my skin
A picture of a little 5- year old me
Stares at me from a stand
Torn in half I need to move on
Sweet unicorns and ponies
Suffocated by paint
No pink in my sight, No dandelions
No kid cartoons on the TV
No immature cd's in my walkman
No innocent kisses
No frill and lace
Say goodbye to the little girl
Waiting on the corner for her mommy
Cos she's not waiting no more
There's no more mommy
On her own, by choice or not
She shakes her hips
Welcome to my revolution
She heard the compartment door open to show a grumpy looking Malfoy. Her looked at her
and stepped forward. She saw Luna visibly tense, making Draco smile. Draco soon turned his
attention to hermione that still had her spiral out.
"Doing homework already, Granger?" she looked up at him and glared, finally deciding toflick him off. He looked at her in shock but clearly wasn't offended.
"We don't want to be doing that kind of thing now that we are Head Boy and Girl now dowe?' he said with a smirk. Hermione then noticed his badge and mentally slapped herself. This
was going to be a great year rolls eyes. She just shrugged and continued writing.
"We need to go see Professor McGonagall right now. Later we need to share acompartment to discuss school events," he said, adding to Luna, "you better be gone by the time
we get back." Luna nodded vigorously. Hermione gathered her stuff into her backpack and
heaved it over her shoulder. When she was done she looked up and noticed that Draco had
been checking her out. She ignored it and walked past him and went to the teacher's
compartment, all without talking to him the whole time.
