Someday

Prologue

As I sit back now and look at old photos and memories, I wonder how I ever made it through my Seven years at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. I was pretty much a nerd, no one really saw me. It was like I wore a permanent invisibility cloak. I'm not going to blame it on anyone but my self. I was a short, shy, out of place, girl with tons of uncontrollable red hair, scared of my own shadow. When I got my letter I was scared while my Parents where proud and told anyone who would listen about their "Perfect Little Angel." It's funny really, I was never perfect or an Angel 'till I got my letter. I had one friend at that time and she abandoned me as soon as the found out about my school. My sister Petunia and I had been best friends since before I can remember and then I was a freak in her eyes. It was as if she and my parents had switched places. I'm going to start you off in my 6th year when I first was noticed…

CHAPTER 1

James Potter sat on his fore poster bed staring at the ceiling with a somewhat dreamy look in his eyes. Last night he had kissed Bethany goodnight and she had smiled and walked off. A smile was a good sign wasn't it? He had had a crush on Bethany Allway since 1st year. And Last week he had finally gotten the courage to ask her out on a date. It had been the perfect evening full of magic and laughter and love; there had been love right? He could barely remember the setting and where they had gone, just the feeling of her smooth lips on his. He settled back on his bed with a stupid grin on his face only to be startled out of his daydream by none other that his best friend in the whole wide world, Sirius Black. "So, mate how'd ya do?

"I kissed her." James said staring happily into no where.

Sirius sighed un-happily, he knew how much James liked her and knew it would take him next to, oh I dunno, forever. For him to get him out of this happy trance, even as he thought this he saw James's face transform and

watched his friends mind slip into la la land.

"c'mon man, get up, get dressed, pack your bag we got McGonagall first thing."

James sighed languidly and asked "I need breakfast first, what time is it?"

"Past breakfast mate." Sirius said trying to keep from laughing

"Sh!t!" James cursed himself for being so d*mn cross eyed.

Sirius laughed and tossed his friend some bacon James looked up and smiled, wondering yet again, what he had done to get such a great friend.

Lily Evans sat up in her four poster bed, she was covered in cold sweat. Her eyes where full and they dripped. Her nails and cuticles where bloody and ripped from all the scratching she had done. Her throat was raw and soar from all her anguished cries and pleas. It happened every night, her dreams haunted her and did horrible things to her. She watched the same scene over and over again and heard the same voice telling her to do the same things over and over. Her heart ached and her body sagged making her look small and mousy. This was her life.

She got up noiselessly and crept into the showers, she did this every morning, she had never been noticed before, no reason to start now. She looked at herself in the mirror and cringed at what she saw. Long red, bloody welts spread across her body from all the scratching. Her eyes where wide and bloodshot. Her face pale under her wild mane of hair. She hated herself. It was her fault she looked this way. She could've stopped it if she had just tried harder. She started the shower and let the cold water scorch her scarred body. Her eyes brimmed over again as she recalled what had happened and all the ways she could have stopped it. She wanted to run away so badly, she loathed this place, she hated it with every fiber of her being. She longed to go back to her old, normal life and become friends with her sister again. It was her fault they had stopped being friends in the first place. If she had just tried a little bit harder maybe she and Petunia could've stayed friends. She sighed as she stepped out of the shower and back in front of the mirror. She took out her wand and waved it over her self muttering something under her breath, all her marks disappeared. She had learned year ago how to hide her unhappiness. No one noticed her so she could go on hating her self and being perfectly content with it.

James's eyelids started drooping lower and lower, his friend kicked him under the table trying to keep him awake. James jumped and accidentally whacked the girl sitting behind him. She didn't make any noise so he figured he didn't have to say sorry. The girl sitting behind him felt her eyes well up with tears, just because she hid her scars and cuts didn't mean they didn't still hurt.

The room couldn't contain her self-loathing, the castle couldn't contain her, and she wondered with a cruel since of humor, if the sky would be able to contain her. Her heart hurt. Her mind wandered, her wide eyes took on the couples sitting by the lake talking. She felt empty, she blamed her self for her parent's death, this new, evil wizard had killed them. Lily couldn't help but think if she had refused to go to this school he never would have come after her or her family. The memory of that Christmas had been haunting her dreams since three years ago, when Lord Voldemort had first risen to power among the wizarding people.

Flash back

It was a snowy Christmas Eve and everyone in her family sat around the tree laughing and talking, having a good time. Lily's mind drifted, she couldn't wait to get back to Hogwarts. Don't get me wrong, she loved her family, but as the years went on Hogwarts was beginning to feel more and more like home to her. She sighed and decided to stop daydreaming and just enjoy the time she had with her family. She couldn't help looking forward to the end of year tests, Lily was a grade freak, she got all A+'s and she didn't want those grades to drop. She was the smartest kid in her grade, for God's sake.

She smiled dreamily looking out at her snow-covered yard. A face popped up in her window and then popped back down. Lily jumped up and ran to the window. Her mother looked at her confused. They're where no foot prints under the window from what she could see. She smiled and said she wanted to go outside for a moment to enjoy the nice crisp air. She walked into the hallway and grabbed her coat. Lily walked out to the window and looked at the snow underneath the sill. Absolutely no footprints what so ever. Just then out of the corner of her eye she saw a flash of green inside her living room and heard the unmistakable scream of her sister. She turned and ran back inside, her sister sat there in the corner, cowering under the harsh glare of a red-eyed stare. Lily felt the words rise up into her mouth and before she could stop herself she had screamed at this wizard, to leave her sister alone and had done a running jump onto the mans back. She really was an idiot. The man began jumping in circles and trying to throw her off his back but she had held on, screaming out swear words that would have made any sailor proud. Then, the man simply disappeared out from underneath her. Later that night Lily and her sister had discovered her parents bodies rolled under the couch where they had gone when the hooded wizard had first popped into the living room. They where dead.

End of flash back

That scene had played it's way across her memory every single night, she couldn't stop it. In her dream she heard a voice telling her what to do and how to save her parents, but she ignored it, she told it to shut up and leave her alone. "See?", it told her every night when she and her sister found her parents bodies, "see how you could've saved them if you had just listened to me?" that voice was killing her slowly. Last Christmas, the rest of the world had remembered a birth, but she had remembered a death, she had hid herself behind everyone and tried to be ignored by all.

James sighed at his reflection in the mirror, long little baggy's spread under his eyes and he had to admit it, he looked terrible. Hid throat was scratchy and he couldn't stop sniffling, he felt [I]terrible.[/I] He wished he could just go back to bed and sleep for a week and a year. His nose was red. He looked like Rudolph the red-nosed reindeer. No girl wanted to go out with Rudolph the red-nosed reindeer, right? I mean, that [I]was[/I] how the story went, wasn't it? Who cares, James really needed to go back to sleep, his throat was throbbing. Just then, James's other best friend, Remus Lupin, came speeding in. "Oh my gawd mate, you should see Bethany, she's already to leave and she looks [I]hot[/I] " Remus sputtered out.

"Wha the heckl amb you talkin about?" James asked, unable to hide the confusion in his voice.

"Nur duh, your date with Bethany, in like, two minutes." Remus said, worrying a little about his friend's state of mind.

"SH!T" James cursed, he had completely forgotten.

"oh man, wha ab I gonla do? I feel horrible, I forgot and I think I'be gut ab code." James's words where somewhat slurred from the "code" in which he thought he had.

"Man, you're in trouble, that girl will hate you if you don't go with her!"

"crapit."

Lily sighed as the evening wore on, it was Halloween and all the students where here, celebrating the stupidest holiday in the world. She was sitting by herself in the back of the room, holding on to her fork as if it was her savior. Hmmm… maybe it was? She had a strange picture of her running at the head boy and ramming a fork into his forehead, and then saying something stupid like "who's the smartest kid now? Huh? Punk." And then biting his ear off or something. A small smile played across her lips (a rare occurrence) as she imagined everyone running to see if he was okay. No one would care about her, she was invisible, remember? She shook her head with a sigh. No, she couldn't do that, she had a feeling that she wouldn't be so invisible if she killed someone. Just as she thought this she felt someone tap lightly on her shoulder. She turned around with a rather large frown on her face. She hated it when people bothered her.

"Umm… I'm sorry to bother you." Said James Potter with a look of utter discontentment on his somewhat beautiful face. "But I need my fork back please."

"What?" Lily looked down and realized she had grabbed the fork from the pudding with out noticing.

"Oh sorry I didn't mean…" she trailed off till she wasn't saying anything, just mouthing the words.

"That's ok, don't worry about it." He waved the whole thing off with a flick of his wrist.

Lily noticed that James didn't look so good, she could tell he had tried to use something to cover the dark circles under his eyes and his voice cracked, so she guessed he might just be sick.

"Umm, your James right?" she asked, it wasn't necessary since, duh, she already knew his name he was, like, the most popular boy in school.

"yeah." He said with a little surprise in his voice, duh, he was the most popular boy in school.

"Well, I can't help but notice, you look a little sick and I was wondering if there was anything I can do?" It was strange really, the way Lily felt compelled to help this boy, even though people would see her if she did (helped him, I mean).

"Well… I could use some help getting to the hospital wing, I think my head is about to fall off." He was feeling a little awkward that this girl he didn't even know was the only one who had seen how he felt and actually done something about it.

Lily smiled at his good nature towards the pain and helped him stand up.

"Done and done." She said, giving him a grin…