Chandler walked down the stairs and looked at everyone. "Umm.. you guys.. can go home.. Everything's fine.."

"What happened?" Rachel asked rocking Travis in her arms.

"We'll talk about it tomorrow. Just go home and sleep. Thanks for coming.." Chandler ran his hand through his hair.

"They're ok right?" Adam asked a little worried.

"Absolutely.."

"I'm gonna go talk to her.." Adam stood up and almost started up the stairs but Chandler stopped him.

"I don't think she really wants to talk to anyone.."

"I'm sure she's gonna want to talk to me.." Adam pushed passed Chandler and began walking up the stairs. When he reached Monica's room he squatted on the floor running his hand through her hair.. "Hey babe.."

"Go home." Monica tightened her grip on Erica.

"Hon."

"Go home." She said not even looking at him.

"Ok.. Good night.." He stayed still and waited for a kiss and when he realized he wasn't gonna get one he got up and left. He walked downstairs and stood in the living room.

"How is she?" Ross stood up.

"I think she's a little tired... I'm gonna go home." Adam nodded to everyone. "Night everyone." He grinned and left.

"Bye.. We should go too.." Rachel stood up and grabbed her purse.

"Yea.." Ross sighed and picked up a sleeping Emma. "Good night.. I'm glad you guys found them.." He patted Chandler on the back.

"Yea.. Bye." Phoebe smiled and hugged Chandler. Then she left with Ross and Rachel.

Chandler sighed and walked up stairs. He looked at Monica peacefully sleeping with her arms protectively wrapped around Erica. He walked over to the side Jack was on and kissed his forehead. Then he pulled a chair up next to Jack and plopped down on it.

"Chandler.."

"Yea.."

"Do you think I'm making a mistake?"

"What mistake?"

"You know.. Marrying Adam."

He looked at her for a while and then shrugged.

"Ok..." They looked at each other for a while. "I have to talk to you about something"

"About what?"

"Me, Adam.."

"I don't really wanna hear about you and Adam... "

"And the kids.." Monica sat up.

"Oh.. Ok... well then.. All right.." Chandler nodded.

"Let's go outside." Monica got out of bed and pulled the covers over the kids. Then she walked out and sat down leaning against a rail across from her door.

"We're gonna talk here?"

"Yea.."

"Monica.. I think..."

"I'm not over reacting.... Something could happen.." She said looking up at him.

Chandler quietly closed the door and sat down and leaned on the door. "So what are we going to talk about?"

"I'm moving to London with Adam in about 2 weeks.."

"Oh..." He said trying not to look hurt but she could see it in his eyes. " umm.. Why?"

"He was only here to see how his New York business was doing.. He really lives in London... And he wants us to move there with him... I said yes.."

"Oh ... well ... what about your job?"

"He got me a job.. And he found an amazing school for the kids over there..."

"Oh.. Well that's um... that's great." He faked a smile. "I hope you guys.. have... are happy over there..." He swallowed. "So um.. When will I get to see the kids?"

"Whenever they have break from school ... holidays ... stuff like that.."

"Oh.. that's good...."

"I'm sorry..."

After a while he said. "No... I'm sorry... for not being able to give you the family that you wanted..."

"Ch.."

"Come on let's go to sleep." He helped her up and they quietly walked into the room. He sat back down in the chair and watched Jack and Erica sleep.

"You don't wanna get into the bed?"

"No.. I'm good.." He grinned and nodded.

Monica went into her closet and grabbed a blanket and threw it at Chandler.

"Thanks."

"Good night.." She said getting into bed next to Erica.

"Night.." He closed his eyes.

3 years ago.......

Monica sat in the corner of the room sipping her drink and watching all the people at the party. The room was nicely decorated with yellow balloons and ribbons. She looked over at Phoebe. It was her baby shower. Women surrounded her rubbing her big stomach. She smiled and looked around. There were a couple of pregnant women at the party. They were Phoebe's friends from Lamaze class. Monica thought about how lucky Phoebe was to be able to be pregnant.

"Hey.."

Monica looked up and found Phoebe sitting in the chair next to her. "Hey.." Monica forced a smiled. "How are you feeling?" Monica rubbed her stomach and felt a kick and giggled. "Aww. It must feel amazing to be able to feel that.."

"It gets old after a while.. I'm so tired of this! I just want this kid to get out of me. You're so lucky! You get to have twins without getting fat or anything.."

"Well.. I don't get to have that feeling of what it's like to have someone growing inside you.." Tears filled Monica's eyes. "I'm sorry.. I uh.. I have to go call Chandler and check up on the twins." Monica immediatly stood up and walked outside. She felt stupid for crying over something so stupid. Phoebe's new home was beautiful. Maybe not as beautiful as her house but it was beautiful. It wasn't that far from Monica's which was good. Monica took her cell phone out and called home.

"Hello?"Chandler said happily.

"Hey sweetie.."

"Oh hey. How's the shower?"

"It's ok.. how are the twins?"

"Great. Haven't cried at all.. speaking of crying... sounds like you were just crying.."

"No. I wasn't.. It must be the sound or something.."

"Are you sure you're ok?"

"Uh huh.. so um... what are the twins doing?"

Chandler laughed. "Well Erica's sleeping and little Jacky is sitting here in my lap smiling wondering when his mommy is coming home.."

Monica laughed. The twins were about 6 months old. Phoebe had gotten pregnant a week after they were born. "Aww.. well... I'll be home in like an hour or so... kiss Jack for me.. Bye."

"Bye."

"Love you."

"Love you too. Mwa." He said and hung up.

Monica hung up and put her cell phone back into her purse. She sighed and walked back into the party.

"What were you doing outside?" Rachel asked sipping her drink.

"Calling Chandler."

"Oh." Rachel sat down on the stairs. "You ok? I saw you sitting in the chair looking a little sad."

"Yea I'm fine.. don't worry.." Monica forced a smile.

"Monica.. come on.. it's me.." Rachel pulled Monica down to sit next to her.

"It's stupid."

"No I don't think it is... It's not stupid if it makes you sad..What is it?"

Monica let out a big sigh."I was just thinking about.... how I'm never going to have the feeling of having a baby.. you know. You did with Emma and maybe you'll do it again.. You know? I mean. I'm never going to have a baby shower or have people rubbing my stomach or feeling what it's like to have a baby kick.... I won't get to give birth.. or complain about how fat I'm getting... I won't get all of Chandler's attention all the time.. you know? He won't worry about what I'm doing or.. freak out... I mean.. I love LOVE the twins so much.. I love them just like I would if I had my own kid... it's just.. I want to get pregnant.."

"Sweetie.." Rachel wrapped her arms around Monica. "You will always have all of Chandler's attention..."

"I know but.. not in that way... I don't know.. it's just.. It doesn't matter.."

"Sweetie. I'm sure you'll be over this after Phoebe has the baby.. Just remember Mon.. It's not totally impossible for you and Chandler to have a baby..."

"Yea it is.." Monica whispered to herself.

"Huh?"

"Nothing.."

"Ok.. well sweetie.. I hope you feel better." Rachel rubbed Monica's back and then stood up. "I'm gonna go check on Pheebs."

"Ok." Monica smiled and rested her head on the wall beside her.

"I couldn't help listening to your conversation." A tall thin blonde lady said walking towards Monica. "I had the same problem a couple years ago... I married a guy who couldn't get me pregnant and we adopted a little girl named Diana. She's amazing. But I was feeling really sad that I couldn't get pregnant.. So I asked someone for advice and they told me... that if I wasn't happy that I should go find someone else to marry so I can have children... So that's what I did.. and I couldn't be happier.."

"Really?"

"Mmmhmm.. I loved my husband more then anything.... but I found someone who could give me children that I love even more... Just thought I'd share... If you're not happy just look for someone new."

"But I love my husband.. I can't just.."

"Don't forget.. I did say I loved my husband too.. I did it and I'm just.. the happiest."

"I don't think I can do this to my husband and kids."

"Just think about it. If you do this you might get pregnant and be really happy. It could be the best thing to ever happen to you. Even if this is just about getting pregnant. My name's Tina by the way."

"Monica.. But what if I never find anyone?"

"I was scared about that too.. but you are beautiful and beautiful people get men. Well.. I hope everything works out for you. I know it worked out pretty well for me." She smiled and walked off to talk to some other women.

Could she be right? Could marrying someone else make her happier? She couldn't just leave Chandler because he couldn't get her pregnant. That lady was insane Monica thought... or was she?
Did I mention that the twins are 4??? Thanks so much for the reivews!! How was this?Please review!!