Chapter Three
"One last breath."
By: Careless Dreamer
Please come now I think I'm falling
I'm holding onto all I think is safe
It seems I found the road to nowhere
And I'm trying to escape
I yelled back when I heard thunder
And with it let me say...
This fog is covering everything. I can barely see the forms. It's just shadowed people or forms. Then everything seems to change with the drop of a dime. I begin to fall, I guess trying to escape something. The out of nowhere a scream erupts out of my mouth. Something goes terribly wrong and my body lurches forward. I'm able to draw in one last breath and that is all.
Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain't so far down...
Then someone's arms are wrapped around me as if knowing I'd need this very thing. Something is terribly wrong as I feel things being stuck into my body and hearing faint sounds of shouting and sobbing? Anything could be going wrong... something feels like it ain't too far down the road I'm now traveling.
I'm looking down now that it's over
Reflecting on all my mistakes
I thought I found the road to somewhere
Somewhere here in His grace
I cried out heaven save me
But I'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say...
Then the reasons were evident, came to mind. The evident reasons were, I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for my stunt back at the house. Then everything would be semi-normal. Then eventually everything would lead somewhere. Like this path that I'm on. But to where, I have no Earthly idea. Realization hits, my one last breath was beginning to wear out.
Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain't so far down...
I feel the arms around me tighten and I hear the words:
"Hold on, I'm right here. Everything will be all eight, Duo will help you. All you have to do is breathe."
Everything was still hard to comprehend because I'm still falling in this abyss of nothingness.
Sad eyes follow me
But I still believe there's something left for me
So please come stay with me
'Cause I still believe there's something left for you and me
For you and me
For you and me...
There has to be something out there to make this reality of death not true. Wufei, I thought, please stay with me. I'm sorry for all the trouble I've caused you... but right now I need you by my side. There still has to be something left for us.
Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain't so far down...
Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain't so far down...
Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain't so far down
Please come now I think I'm falling
I'm holding onto all I think is safe.
So far that one last breath has come and gone. I'm barely able to go on. What will become of me? I'm serious, am I going to live or die? Will the baby affected seriously by my actions? I hope most of all that I get through this with the baby and am able to put this behind us.