The pain I feel; the song I hear.

Disclaimer: I don't own Yugioh characters.

Hello I'm Melissa. This is my first Yugioh story I actually wrote down. This is kind of sad maybe to people but whatever. On with the story!

Chapter 1: the beginning

Why did he have to feel so much pain by himself? What did he deserve to be in so much pain and misery? There's no where to go he's all alone. He wished he would just disappear and be alone forever, but then all he would be able to do is think about the past. He wished he could forget, but if he did all he would do is try to remember his past because of his damn curiosity; just like before.

No one would understand. No knew what he was thinking and neither did he know what they were thinking. DO they hate him? What is he going to do if they do? ALL he wanted to do is died, but even then he would feel the pain. There was no way to escape the pain.

He hated himself! He could never show his face again. The pain is unbearable. There's nothing he can do; just wait and see what happens in the future if there was going to be one for him.

He didn't know what to do. He doesn't want to cut anymore. All it does is cause him more pain. WHY? Is all he could ask? What did he do wrong? So many questions rushed to his head. All he wanted was to be loved. He never backstabbed anyone. They always did it to him. He was in a deep hole of depression and he couldn't get out. Why won't they ever think about his feelings for once? He was in love he wasn't going to let someone just take him away let alone some stupid blonde boy. He was supposed to be his friend.

"I don't think I can ever love him the way you do Yami" He said

But yet he ran to his arms and pretended that Yami wasn't there.

Watching Joey and kaiba hug was a different thing but watching them in bed was just wrong. How could Kaiba give Yami a key to his apartment and then just take Joey over to have sex that night.

"I LOVE YOU!" was all Kaiba said to Yami when they were together. What went wrong? JOEY was the thing that went wrong. . "NO!" he screamed. No one could hear him nor did he want anyone to hear his pitiful cries. He slid the blade across his veins horiztaly. He was so sad that he didn't notice the blood come out slowly. NO HE WANTED TO DIE! HE NEEDED TO GET RID OF THIS AWFUL PAIN! He cut himself over and over. The pain he felt was so unbearable that he couldn't feel the cut pain. He decided to end his life here and now no one would care anyways. All he had to do is cut himself one deep cut on his main vein and all the pain would be gone for the moment. He put the blade on top of his main vein's skin about to cut through it. The blade dropped to the floor. He couldn't do it. He had to be forgiven by his friends. To him he did nothing wrong. Its not his fault for loving someone. His heart decides who to love and who to hate. He picked up the blade. They didn't care so why should he. This time he was going to do it. He was going to kill himself. He thought for a moment about the things that happen in the last few weeks. Deep in his heart he knew that he shouldn't do this, but in his brain he thought over and over he had to; he had too! Tears ran down his face. This was the end. His book was written, but yet a lot of pages were empty. He slid the blade fast vertically across his skin. He had done it. The blood flowed beautifully out of his body. To him it was a beautiful way to die. So much pain he felt at his last moments. His life flashed through his eyes. He remembered the first time he met Yugi and his friends, his first kiss with Kaiba and the great sex.

*FLASHBACK*

"Ha ha Seto I beat you! I made it to your bedroom before you." Yami laughed happily.

"You were just lucky."

"O was I?"

"Yes Yami. You were."

Seto walked toward Yami and got close to his face and kissed his soft lips.

Seto pushed Yami onto the bed.

"You know Seto this would be my first time having sex with you."

"I'm full aware of that, Yami. I just can't hold in my feeling any longer."

"Neither can I."

Their lips joined in another kiss. Yami parted his lips to left Seto's wandering tongue into his mouth. Seto did the same for Yami. Seto not breaking the kiss struggled to take off his pants. Yami saw this and decided to try to help him. Yami broke the kiss to catch some air and to take off each others clothes.

"Yami I love you," Seto still out of breath.

"I love you more Seto."

"Do you?"

"Yes."

"Lets be together forever Yami. I want to die with you by my side. No matter what happens let's stay together forever. Even if you ever start to hate me I would always love you. NO matter what happens. I would always love you."

"Seto, I promise. If you promise me. I will always love you no matter what."

"I promise."

Now that they had each others clothes off; they were ready to begin.

Seto and Yami joined in a French kiss that was so long they couldn't breathe afterwards.

Seto's hand slowly went lower and lower. Yami moan escaped his lips.

Seto heard this and was very happy with himself. Seto rubbed his body against Yami.

"Seto stop teasing me!"

"No its fun." He laughed.

"Not for me. I'm not sure if I could actually stand any longer." Yami was so aroused to stand such treatment.

"Seto hurry please." Yami said begging.

"Ok here I go."

Seto slid some lube on and stuck his member in slowly.

Yami screamed out loud.

"You alright Yami." Seto said concerned.

"Yea it just hurts alittle. Seto its ok just go fast."

"Ok Yami. I love you."

"I love you too."

*End Flashback*

This wasn't a time to be thinking about his first time with Seto. He had to do some thing first. He really loved him and trusted him.

He was never more in love. But everything that has a beginning has an end. Tears so lonely and sad dripped into his cuts. It stinged. He started to lose his consenous. He felt like the stupidest person on earth for everything he ever had done. He was almost time he was going to die. Suddenly the door swung open and he heard someone call out his name. But was it too late so save poor Yami.

Hope you like it. I know its short so I'm writing the second chapter right now. But I'm not sure if to post it when I finished. REVIEW and think me WHAT you think!

Please Review if you like it or if you don't. Thanks its means a lot to me.