Krazy 4 U

A Digimon fanfiction

Written by Bexi

Chapter Four

Matt stared blankly at the envelope that was addressed to him. He was speechless and heard Tai shout, "Open it!" He turned it over and gently opened the envelope, unsure what could be hidden inside. 'It could be anything!' he warned himself. Matt unconsciously held his breath and prepared himself for the worst.

It was just paper cuttings.

"What is it, Matt?" T.K. asked, walking over to Matt and seeing his brother's puzzled expressions.

"They're just cuttings from a paper," he informed both the boys. That was all well, but just what were on the cuttings? People don't just sent these kinds of things without reason. He knew that he wasn't going to like what he read.

He walked into the lounge and emptied the contents of the envelope onto the coffee table. Several small cuttings fell from the envelope and fluttered down. Matt picked one up and felt complete confusion filling his insides. What could anything of this mean? It was just rubbish to him.

Tai was sorting through the clippings and saw that they were of the same style and said the obvious, "They're words cut from a dictionary."

"Why would anyone sent you words from a dictionary, Matt?" T.K. asked, sitting next to Tai.

Matt remained standing and looked intensely at the cutting that he clenched tightly to.

"I don't know, T.K., I really don't know."

He threw it effortlessly down with the others and watched Tai turning them over, reading each work and its definition over in his head. All in all, there was nine pieces of paper, some with two words printed on them.

Matt looked and read each word carefully, attempting to find a hidden message in them.

He found none. The words spoke for themselves.

Craze n a passing infatuation; excessive enthusiasm; a crack in pottery glaze. vt to produce cracks; to render insane.

Crazy adj (crazier, craziest) (inf) mad; insane; foolish; ridiculous; unsound; (paving) composed of irregular pieces. - Crazily adv. - Craziness n.

Handsome adj good-looking; dignified; generous; ample. - Handsomely adv. - Handsomeness n.

Hate vt to feel intense dislike for. vi to feel hatred; to wish to avoid. n a strong feeling of dislike or contempt; the person or the hated.

Hunger n (a feeling weak or empty from) a need for food; a strong desire. vi to feel hunger; to have a strong desire (for).

Hysteria n a mental disorder marked by excitability, anxiety, imaginary organic disorders, etc, frenzied emotion or excitement.

Desirable adj arousing (sexual) desire, advisable or beneficial; worth doing. - Desirably adv. - Desirability n.

Desire vt a long or wish for; to request; to ask for. n a longing for something regarded as pleasurable or satisfying; a request; something desires; a sexual craving. - Desirous adj.

Love n a strong liking for someone or something; a passionate affection for another person; the object of such affection; (tennis) a score of zero. vti to feel love (for).

Lust n a strong sexual desire (for); an intense longing for something. vi to feel lust. - Lustful adj. - Lustfully adv.

Obsess vt to possess or haunt the mind of; to preoccupy. - Obsessive adj. - Obsessively adv.

Obsession n a fixed idea, often associated with mental illness; a persistent idea or preoccupation; the condition of obsessing or being obsessed.

All the words were powerful in their own meaning but it was still nothing to Matt. He hadn't expected to find what he did inside the envelope. The blond was unsure himself why he had been nervous of what he could have read because he wasn't in the papers for any particular reason. Sure he had interviews from teen magazines but never had he spilled some deep, dark secret that could come back to haunt him. 'I'm just thinking too much into this, it's just stupid.'

He decided that it was nothing. A fan who had gotten a little overexcited, that's all.

But was it?

Tai was unsure whether to smile and laugh impishly or what.

"I think you have a fan who is a little more that normal," he told Matt, the edge in his voice sounding almost false.

"Well," Matt said as he sat down, "I give them points for originality," he joked.

T.K. turned sharply to his brother and glared iced daggers his way. 'How could Matt be so calm about this? It's madness!' T.K. screamed to himself, wanting nothing more than to clonk Matt across the head until he understood.

Matt tilted his head and brushed back the blond strands that fell in front of his sapphire eyes. The way T.K. looked at him made a cold shiver run down his spine. T.K. had never given him a look like that before; it was uncharacteristic for him to act that way around him. He placed a hand on his brother's shoulder and was shocked when T.K. batted it away.

T.K. saw the confusion in Matt's eyes. Was he really that…?

"How can you look past all these and joke about it, Matt? It's not a laughing matter, can you not see that? This is serious! I love you with all my heart, Matt, but sometimes you get me so wound up!" the younger blond retorted, abruptly standing up and pointing to the words. "Have you read the words and fully understood what they mean? Matt, this isn't -- it's just--"

He gathered all the words in his hand and looked at them.

"Love? Hate? Obsess? Desire? Lust?!" his voice struck a note of concern as the threw each word down after he read it. "Matt! C'mon, please!" T.K. shouted, pleading with his eyes for his brother to hear him out.

Matt almost forgot that Tai was present in the room until he turned and saw the sympathetic expression that filled his ever-cheery face. Matt turned and continued to listen to T.K.'s rising voice. He wanted Tai to leave because he didn't like it when people saw him and his brother argue. Sometimes they were only small things, but T.K. had a habit of drawing out the worst-case scenario when it came to things close to the heart. The DigiWorld had left the boy more perceptive. Of course, on some occasions he would be like Matt and try to ignore the nagging feeling. But unlike Matt, T.K. found it much harder to keep these feelings to himself and usually confined in Matt, and sometimes, even Kari (if it wasn't too personal).

T.K. remembered something that he had been told not so long ago. Someone told him that he and Matt were so alike yet so different -- almost like being two separate islands that just continuously drift. He was told that he was so open and Matt was closed when it came to expressing his emotions. Matt wasn't cold hearted, but sometimes even he couldn't read his expression. He couldn't understand why Matt was like that. He gave up trying to understand how Matt's mind worked. His brother was just too complex and unpredictable.

He would never admit it, even now, but Matt was tremendously protective when it came to T.K. He always wanted to keep the shinning ray of sunshine from the darkness, afraid of what would happen if nothing were done. Matt would blame himself if something ever happened to T.K. and he knew that. T.K. knew that also. But Matt didn't know that T.K. was also protective of Matt. If anyone ever badmouthed Matt in front of him, they would learn never to do it again. He didn't want anything to happen to Matt. Matt was like his best friend as well as his brother. They had an unbreakable bond that no one could get in between. One of his worst fears was Matt leaving him. He had grown up without a big brother being around him constantly. When Matt was gone, he suddenly realised how much he missed him. Matt made him secure when he was near and it was almost as if he had been in his entire life.

Matt meant too much to him. He wasn't going to let him look past the letter/paper cuttings.

Matt sighed. "T.K., I'm sorry, but…"

T.K. watched with his hands on his hips as Matt scanned through the many words, a smile growing larger. 'What is he smiling about? He's officially lost it, that's all I can conclude.'

Matt's shocked even Tai as he leant forward and waved his hand in the line of the blond's vision.

"Yo, Matt, care to share?" he asked.

Matt nodded. "I don't see why I didn't realise it when I first read the words. I have to admit, I was quite nervous, but now it's blatantly obvious."

"It is?" both T.K. and Tai said simultaneously.

Matt nodded again and smiled wider. They both watched as he rushed upstairs. When he came down he had a white envelope in his hand. He opened the envelope and took out a letter.

"This is a letter that arrived a couple of days ago. Read it."

Tai took the letter and began to read aloud:

"'Dear Mattie, My dearest Yamato,

Words really cannot express how much I feel for you. I feel like I'm obsessed with you and cannot escape, no mater where I go. These feelings, are as I can honestly say, are love in its purest form. I can say that with the fullest of confidence these feelings will never leave me be.

I hunger for you.

I lust for you.

You are the centre of my obsession (I mean that I the nicest way possible)

I wake up and think about you. Well I did today anyway. But that was because it was your song that I heard on the radio when my alarm went off. I mean, it feels like I know you more than any other fan out there. Your brother is T.K. and mine is Davis, and, even though Davis will kill me for writing this, they are friends. My brother has a crush on Kari, who is Tai's sister and Tai happens to be your best friend. See! We're meant to be! We know each other by association.

But you have to admit, you are EXTREMELY handsome and you receive letters like this one everyday. You are desirable and drive me crazy (big time!). This desire -- this craze -- just keeps on getting more and more extreme (that's the second time I have used the word "extreme" in the same paragraph -- wait, now it's the third!) with each passing day.

I hate you for that, but then I know that I can't stay mad at my wittle Mattie. That's actually hard to do.

By now you are probably thinking that I suffer from hysteria or some other kind of mental problem and that I should be dragged away by the men in white coats to an asylum. But I'm not -- you have to believe me. What's the point? I mean it's not like you are even going to read this letter anyway because it will stay in the bottom of my drawers.

But what if, for some obscure reason, this letter is accidentally posted to you? What if you read it? Maybe I should just screw it up! Why am I even writing these small parts that are irrelevant to this letter? Maybe I am insane and I don't realise it yet?

Oh, well…

Your biggest fan in the entire population of Japan,

XxJunxX

PS. I LOVE YOU, MATTIE!'"

Tai handed the letter back to Matt. "What does this have to do with those words?"

"Can you not see? All the words that were sent today are mentioned in that letter and they are ALL underlined. Coincident?"

T.K. took the letter from Matt and laid it next to the cuttings, looking from one to the other.

"That's strange, but they are all there." He looked up. "Do you think it is just a coincident?"

"Nope, Jun must have sent those words. Don't ask me why, but it has to be. Coincidences like this don't just occur randomly. I don't see no other explanation, T.K., the proof is all there."

"So, Jun's your crazed fan?" Tai smirked.

Matt rolled his eyes. "I knew she was crazed from the start."

The blond DigiDestined of friendship threw himself down onto the chair and smiled.

"At least that's lifted the weight off my shoulders. Now, you see there is no reason to get all up tight, T.K."

T.K. looked away from Matt and mumbled an apology under his breath. He waited for a few minutes for Matt to demand a better apology but when it didn't arrive, he walked into the kitchen.

"Hey," Matt said suddenly, "don't forget dinner you two, I'm starved."

To be continued…

Author's notes: Here I am writing my author's notes. I apologise for the last part, I know that it was a little … crap. I didn't like it but I don't think I have the willpower to change it. I've caught a stupid bug and I've done well to write this chapter when I should be tucked up in bed. I may have been able to miss going to the nursery, but I can't miss going to college this evening. That takes the biscuit, doesn't it?

I have to say, I really liked the words cut from a dictionary. I wanted to do something complete out of the ordinary and this just cropped into my mind. I like it.

The main reason I'm rushing this is because it's May Day on Monday and I don't have to be in college until the following Monday. So, I thought it was only fair to upload this early instead of doing it late. I should have the next chapter complete by then. But I have to say I have been distracted lately. You see I have gotten back into Gundam Wing, which I haven't been interested in for under a year. So, I've been reading lots of fics there … some are really original, but then again, so are some of the digimon ones also. I'll shut up now and let you all go.

Thanks for all the reviews, I love you guys.

Reviewer's response:

Vi: Thanks for the review, I luv reading every one. Did you really find the phone call creepy? Well that's what I'm aiming for – on the edge of your seats! Wayhay! Like you said, I have been thinking about it and … well, you'll just have to continue reading to find out what is REALLY going to happen mwahahahahah sorry bout that.

Curtis Zidane Ziraa: I don't think so! Nah, we all like different pairings. If we all liked the same thing then the fics around here would be pretty boring. P.S thanks for the review – oh, I may just end up shortening your pen name, I'm just lazy.

Yamatoforever: I know it amazes me by how many mistakes we make in life and at the time we thought it was the right thing and for the best. It just makes the pressure even worse later on. But don't blame Matt's dad, he was only looking out for him. All parents do it. You'll have to wait and see about the stalker question. But you really insulted me by the last part … "After all, girl's power couldn't do much like knocking Matt or something" gee. I won't take that too personal then. Thank you for the review and I hope you review the next chapter.

Thanks a bunch, guys

Bexi