Disclaimer: I don't own any thing of Yugioh or the song.
Chapter 2: the hospital
Ok I bet you would like to know why I name this story: The pain I feel; the song I hear.
Its because for this chapter and the others I would have some song in the story. Because the songs would help Yami feel what he thought was gone. Well I hope it would work out. Memo: '' means thinking "" means actually talking out loud.
This chapter's song is: "I can't smile without you."
This chapter is for 3 of my reviewer: The Ghost of Jounochi,
Kaneda-Shotaro and Yami Tetsuo, and shadow-demon18b.
And on with the story!
Yami laid on the hospital's white bed. Around him were beautiful white not opened yet roses and in the center of the boutique was a single red rose. He smelled them and slowly opened his red eyes. He was shocked to see two beautiful blue eyes staring back at him. Yami didn't want to see Seto. Seto had betrayed him and went to Joey. He was afraid that he wouldn't be able to hide his tears any longer. Seto, his EX-lover, was Yami's first in everything.
~Kaiba's POV~
'He looked away from me. Don't look away from me Yami please. He acts so cold to me now. I don't care I still love him. Yami forgive me. It was a mistake. Joey that mutt means nothing to me. Not having you by my side makes me so sad.
I miss waking up and seeing your smiling face look at me. I wish I could tell you how I feel. But he's in so much pain because of me. He almost died because of me. I don't want to cause him any more pain….'
My thoughts were interrupted by Yami's voice. I want to just yell out 'I LOVE YOU YAMI' but he wouldn't care. He would think I'm lying. I know he doesn't love me anymore. I know it.
"Seto…I mean Kaiba…."
'Don't call me Kaiba! Yami I'm still your SETO!'
"Kaiba I need to know. I need and want to know the truth…."
"Yami the truth is…"
'Yami I love you!' That sentence screamed in my head over and over again. My heart started pounding. I fell like my hearts going to pop out.
"Yami…I…"
'I was interrupted by the mutt's voice.'
"I'm back. How's Yami, Kaiba?"
'Yami's face went pale. I wonder what was going on; through his mind and his heart. Tears started coming out from Yami's eyes. He placed his hand on his heart. He looked like he was in so much pain.
"Yami are you ok?" I asked touching his hand on the bed.
"Don't touch me."
'I retreated my hand from the bed.'
"Yami…" Joey said.
"GET OUT NOW. BOTH OF YOU GET THE FUCK OUT! I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU OR HEAR YOUR VOICE IN MY ENTIRE LIFE FROM THIS POINT ON!" Yami shouted out at us.
'Yami I won't leave. Remember the promise.'
"Did you just save me to make me feel more pain? Why did you save me?! Why didn't you just let me die and end my misery? I don't care if you wanted to tell me that you guys love each other, but to rub it in my face is another thing. Why do you two hate me so much? "
'My heart stopped that moment. I felt my energy drain from my body. This pain; was Yami feeling it too.
"Fine, if you won't leave then I will."
Yami struggled to get out of the bed.
'Did he want to get away from me that much?'
"Yami …don't move so much or you wounds will open up again."
"NOT that you care KAIBA!" He barked back.
I felt like I was going to faint, but I couldn't. I have to be strong. If I want him back then I have to fight for him.
Yami stop trying to get out of the bed when he hit his arm on the bed.
Joey's POV
'Seto looked like he just got stabbed in the heart. Seto loves him. Like I loved Honda, Like Anzu loved Yugi. But at the end everyone loved someone else. Honda loved Duke, He didn't love me. Seto loves Yami and Yami loves him, I have to make him see. They have to be together, no matter what.'
"Are you two deaf or something. I told you to leave. I want to be alone." Yami said so coldly.
'He's really upset.' I thought.
'Of course he has to be, if I was him I would be mad too; if I saw what he saw.
I just feel so terrible. How am I going to fix up this mess?'
"Yami, Listen the truth is…"
"I don't want you hear your lies, Wheeler."
'He called me Wheeler! Man, Yami is pissed.'
Normal POV
Yami sat on the bed crying. Some how he couldn't stop. Soon, Kaiba found himself crying also. Joey stared at them. They are in so much pain.
"I'm going now. If you want to be alone then I respect that Yami. We will be waiting for you at school. Yami sooner or later you're going to know the truth whether you want to know or not. I understand that you're not ready, but we won't wait long. We will tell you in exactly 20 days. If you won't listen then we will make you. Got it?"
Yami just nodded as he saw Joey walk out the door. Now it was only Seto and Yami in the room. Both of them crying. That was sad to look at.
"Yami…I'm sorry. I'll leave if you want me to." Seto said not looking up.
Yami's POV
'I have to make him think that I don't love him, even though I still do. This is going to be hard, but I can't have him think I'm weak.'
"Leave…Kaiba. Leave now. I don't want to see your face or hear your voice anymore. You mean nothing to me, anymore. I just can't believe I trusted you. I…hate…you, Seto Kaiba!" I shuttered.
'Deep down I hated him for what he did, but I can't stay mad. I love him so much.'
"Ok Yami if that's how you feel, I understand. Cut remember one thing you made the same promise I did. I'm going to hold you to that. And for the recorded I hate you, too." Seto said hiding his face from Yami and running out the door.
Yami's tears just ran down his cheeks.
"NO, Seto!" Yami yelled. He cupped his face and cried. Seto his only love said he hated him. What was he going to do? He just said that he hated Seto so he could leave. He never expected him to say it back. His world was falling down little by little and he couldn't do anything, Just cry and cry hoping things would get better.
'This is my entire fault! I shouldn't have said I hated him. Well at least I know how he feels. But I didn't want to know he hated me. I'm so lonely. Seto come back to me. I still love you.'
Seto POV
'I told him I hated him. Serves him right, he did say it first. But I didn't mean it. I couldn't look at his face. I couldn't stand seeing him cry any more. I just wanted to hold him tight in my arms again. Kiss him and comfort him. I want o be with him.'
Normal POV (at the hospital)
Yami's put the radio on so the nurses couldn't hear him cry.
He started to actually hear the song that came on. This song was a long song. A song that he could relate to what he felt. He listened to it closer to understand the words clearer.
~I can't smile without you~
You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh And I can't sing
I'm finding it hard To do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew
What I'm going through
I just can't smile without you
You came along
Just like a song
And brightened my day
Who'd of believed that
You are a part of a dream
Now it all seems Light years away
And now you know
I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh And I can't sing
I'm finding it hard To do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew What I'm going through
I just can't smile
And now some people say
Happiness takes So very long to find
Well I'm finding it hard Leaving your love behind me
~Song end~
Yami found himself crying more and turned off the radio. He decided to curl up into a ball and try to cry himself to sleep.
"You know I can't smile without you…Seto."
Yami said as he felt his eyelids get heavy. He fell asleep in not time with all the energy he used up crying.
Normal POV
~10 days later~
Yami stayed at the hospital for 10 days till he got somewhat better. Even though most of the time he was crying. Now he only had 10 more days till they will make him listen. He wasn't sure what to do or think anymore. All he knew was that he felt lonely and I mean lonely. But Yami had to go to school. The doctor said he could go but he couldn't do anything physical for a while. But going school meant he had to face everyone. Yugi, Joey, Seto, Anzu, Bakura, Ryou, Honda, Duke, Malik, and Marik.
How would they react to him trying to kill himself? May be they didn't care after what he told them. What he told them seemed like it cut them deep.
Well, he had to go. School was the only thing right now that can make him stop thinking about what has happened. Was it going to make him stop thinking about it or make him think about it more? Either was he was out of the hospital and had to go. If he liked it or not.
Well that was tiring. I'm so tried. I have to go to this concert thing for band tomorrow. I wasn't going to write it today but since I got 3 reviews I thought Might as well write it. Well later. PLEASE REVIEW. Thanks