Chapter Six

Everything had happened in no longer than a split second, but in her mind it replayed frame by frame. The first of which was of the knife. The knife that was already en route for Olivia.

Olivia the only person she lived for when she was in hiding. When she had lost her name, her family, her home, just to stay alive, for her that was death itself. But she woke up every morning and lived only for one hope, one hope that she would one day return to Olivia. And she had. She had come back and right back to Olivia. But that same Olivia's life was the target of the knife. "I wish I could kill everyone who say its disgusting." No sooner had the words of the angry teenager that she had once acquainted flashed in her head, "That is disgusting." escaped her lips before she could even assess the reason for it.

But when the pain flooded her every thought and oozed out of her body, she knew the reason and it was none other than Olivia.

Yes, Olivia the only person in the world that she would gladly die for. And it was Olivia, that she was staring at right then as she opened her eyes and blinked to adjust to the white light of the room. Olivia whose tears were smudging all over her face as soft but desperate kisses were planted onto her. The same Olivia who had shielded for someone else's life, almost as an instinct for a police officer one might reason, but there was something else. Something else that had caused more pain than the tearing of her skin. Then she remembered the kiss. Olivia's kiss on Agent Dana Scully's lips. The woman Olivia had lied to her about, who Olivia refused to talk about.

"GET OUT." She heard her own words as it echoed her thought. "GET OUT." She said it louder and clearer and turned away from Olivia.

When she turned back, Olivia was gone.

"That was the NYPD, Ms. Cabot is going to be fine." Monica said switching off her phone and looking at another woman laying on the hospital bed.

"That is good." Agent Dodget took a moment to comment before he continued his previous question. "So, doctor you think she'll ever come out of the coma?"

"It's hard to say. Not just the fact that coma by itself in any patient is unpredictable, but as in her case it's almost as though, her body is empty."

"Like her soul is missing." Scully completed the thought for the Doctor.

"Yes, exactly. The part of her brain that became active was almost like a doorway for her to leave her body, when we shocked it, we closed the door, hence leaving her out."

The three agents probed for few more minutes before assessing that the case was closed.

"You told Olivia to GET OUT?" Miranda was screaming at her best friend even though she was in the hospital. "This is the same Olivia that you would live and die for, not to mention that you almost did die for."

"Mir, you don't understand." Alex tried to explain before Miranda screamed at her again.

"Make me understand." Miranda threw her hand in the air, agitated by her friend's action. She had known Alex all her life and after Alex had told her in detail the events due to which she landed in that bed, and what had happened when she woke up, she just couldn't believe what her friend did.

"She was kissing..."

"Because she wanted to save her life." Miranda retorted as though it was her motives that were being questioned. "A crazed murderer had a knife diving at her because she refused to to admit she was gay. Liv did the most logical thing. She kissed her so that the murderer inside would know that the Agent was not ashamed. May be not the brightest thing to do in front of her girlfriend, but damn not enough to throw her out of your life or room."

"But she lied ..." Alex was in almost tears as she was beginning to see her wrong.

"Alex listen to me." Miranda was a little calmer now as she sat next to her friend. "You were dead, or as good as dead. That was a crazy time for everyone that loved you, so I can just imagine what she went through and amidst that if she found someone and shared more than a fling with, I don't think you should blame her for it. As, the only thing that boils down to, is that when you came back, she chose to come back to you."

"I know but why do I get this feeling that it wasn't a choice she made." Alex said finally voicing out the fear that had emerged due to Olivia's silence.

"You don't know that, and if Liv didn't tell you that then you make her sit in front of you and make her talk, but you don't tell the love of your life to get out, when your gut is lying on the bed all sewed up." Miranda wasn't going to let Alex throw away any chance that she still had with Olivia.

Alex was confused more so now that she had been before Miranda had started to scream. At least, without Miranda's advocating, she had camouflaged her pain with anger, but now she didn't even have that. All, she had was the enormous pain that resulted with the fear that she might be losing Olivia. As, the thought set in, she started sob louder unable to form any course of action.

"Don't cry babe. I am not going to let you lose Liv. Now, this is what we are going to do." Miranda hugged her friend as she determined their next course. "You are going to sign that release form of the hospital. I am going to take you to Olivia's place as Cargen told me that she had taken some time off. There I am going to tie her up and you are going to talk to her and make her talk."

Alex nodded as she smiled at the thought of Olivia all tied up.

"So, Olivia is the one that you knew?" Monica asked at the first chance she got alone with the older agent.

"Yes." Scully answered without a thought.

"Were you in love with her?"

"Does it matter now? Alex was never dead and she knew about it. So, basically it meant nothing." Scully stated the painful truth refusing to let it hurt her more than it already had.

"That's not the point, the point is were you in love with her?" Monica asked finally having a name and a face of Scully's past.

"Yes, I was." Scully answered without offering more elaboration.

"And when Alex came back, you were out?"

"No, I left before Alex came back. I didn't know she was alive."

"Why?"

"No, big thing actually, it was just a little argument. She told me to get out and I just left and came back. I always thought I would go back, but it just never happened." Even though her heart had felt that everything was more complicated than that, but when put on words that was the simplest explanation.

"Why?"

"Life happened Monica. I got abducted, Mulder disappeared. The X-files was a mess. There just wasn't the time to go back." Scully said a little irritated for having to excuse her procrastination.

"I don't think its fair to her that you just let her hang there. I don't think you can blame her for ..."

"I don't blame her." Scully cut Monica hoping that she could stop talking.

"If it still hurts Dana, you need to talk about it."

"I am talking about it. I am telling you everything."

"You need to talk to her." As much as Monica wanted to not have Dana anywhere near the woman that she knew she would loose Dana to, but she knew that for Dana's own sake what she was saying was true.

"Look life has moved on, and there is nothing to talk about. So, lets just drop it. How about we celebrate and go out for dinner tonight?" Dana said smiling, hoping that the distraction would certainly help.

"Sorry Dana, as much as I like you, you got too much drama for me to go out on a date with you. But I'll accept the invitation as a friend."

"God I haven't heard the 'too much drama expression' since I was in college when all the butches used to say that all the time."

"What do you think I was in college? Just imagine me in short hair and doc martin."

"Ummm...I like what I am imagining." Scully said taking a moment to picture the woman in short hair.

"Stop it Agent Scully. Now what time should I pick you up?"

"7:00"

"Are you ready?" Miranda asked as she saw Alex take out the key for Olivia's apartment.

"She is not answering. She just might be upset. She does that when she wants to be left alone." Alex was saying to herself as she opened the door.

It took the two women only few moment to realize that the reason for no answer was not because Olivia wanted to be left alone but because Olivia wasn't there.

"May be she just went to the bar or something." Miranda overloading her brains with explanations as she approached her friend who was standing put in front of the printer.

"What is it?" She asked as she looked at the paper in Alex's hand.

It was a confirmation of the e-ticket for Washington D.C.