Disclaimer: I don't know who the O.C. and its characters belong to but it isn't me, for shame!
A/n: Just a little fic about my favourite character ever, Seth Cohen.
If she wanted to love someone else, it was fine by him! He had ached for years to be her favorite but who could love a nerdy freak like him?
He was down at the pier, watching the waves crash against the shore.
No, for once it wasn't Summer's love he was pining for, it was his mother's.
For sixteen long years he felt the ice in her touch and saw the distance in her eyes that wished for someone else to come along, someone she could love like a real son. One who lived up to her expectations.
And now that Ryan was here, she had everything he wanted.
He had always known he was an accident. But he took it in his stride like everything else and dealt with it by becoming a strong person...or so he thought.
But a letter declining his application into college has brought it all out and it felt like a blow to every part of his body.
"Hey, mom. What's the letter?"
She fixed a gaze on him as transparent as glass. "I'm disappointed in you Seth."
"Great mom. Is that what the letter is? School?"
"No, Seth." Her voice rose with her anger. "It's college."
His father never noticed; he didn't care about his son. It was all business, business, business these days.
"Two disappointing events in half an hour. That's got to be a new record."
"Why don't you care Seth! This is the rest of your life, this is who you are. You never try."
What was life if you couldn't achieve? If the ones who raised you couldn't love you then what was left? There was nothing here for him now.
"I do mom, but you'd never notice. I'm a champion at computer ga---"
"Oh what about something that matters!"
"I'm in the book club at school...I – I get top grades!"
Tears streaming down his face now. Mom, he thought, I always wanted to be perfect, I wanted to be able to make you smile...
You know what, you're just one big disappointment, Seth. That's all you'll ever be."
He pulled the gun from his pocket. Ryan was probably wondering where it was. But he'd gone now, deserted him when he needed him most.
A disappointment...
So he did the last thing he wanted, but he knew it would make her happy.
That's all you'll ever be.
Please review!! Sorry to 'kirstencohen' if our stories are similar – I didn't steal your idea and I know it's vice versa.