Oh. My. God.
I am so sorry. It's been forever since I've updated, wrote, or even read fanfiction. But no, I'm not dead... yet.
School is killing me. You have no idea. Ugh... we've been assigned four projects already. I have no idea why I still turn on the computer and even bother to check my email and crap. I'm such a procrastinator. Ew, this sucks.
But... don't worry, I have not abandoned fanfiction! I can't find the inspiration to write any of my other fics right now, but don't worry - I'll get to it soon. Only... updates will be extremely slow. Expect nothing more than one or two updates per month.
Anyway... enjoy this little ficlet.
Less to Lose
by Kawaii Saki-chan
I can't love her.
Don't get me wrong - I seriously want to. I want to love her with all my heart, freely and openly. But no matter what I want, I can't. It's just something I've learned... something that my experiences have taught me.
The less you hold to, the less you lose.
And it's true! If I had never fallen in love with Kikyou, for instance, then I would not have mourned her death... But of course, I was an idiot back then. So I went, met her, fell in love with her, and look where that got me: pinned to a tree for fifty damned years. I had tried to hold onto Kikyou, love her, I lost her... and it hurt.
If losing something is so painful, I'd rather have nothing at all.
If I have nothing, I can't lose anything, right?
This is what I tell myself... and what I will continue to tell myself...
I can protect her. I can smile with her. I can do anything with her, as long as I don't love her. Besides, even if I did love her, it's not like she'd love me back. Why would she love me? No one in their right mind would fall in love with me. No one... not even Kikyou...
It's better this way. I have less to lose.
Yes, it's Inuyasha referring to Kagome.
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