Okay now it's time for the third chapter! But first it's time for me to do something I forgot in the last chapter. Review responses !

FireKoorimeHiei- Thank you! And once again so sorry for all the spelling mistakes! I think I've got the majority fixed now. That list helped.

Hikuya- Me likes you! Me thanks you for not saying anything about me's spelling!

LuCiFeR's DaUgHtEr- I don't think she's an air head! She's just... really mentally confused. LIKE ME! Oh and I'm hapie sumwon else kant speal e-ther

Runaway Kogoro- Edit used to not cross my incredibly lazy mind either but now since all reviews except like two said something about my spelling ( I don't mind though. I need to learn how to spell. Argh I can't believe I said that?!) So now I edit. I can't misspell my future husbands name can I? (hint; it starts with a H and ends with an e, I mean I . Old habits die hard.) And the plot is going to get kinda confusing soon. But please keep reading.

Freesia- Yes Hiei is acting mean. And Botan will not be Kurama's girlfriend forever. I like the idea of paring him with Shizuru. I never thought of that before I read your story. Keep on reading!

I know there's more of you but I can't remember. Thanks for reviewing.

At this point I will introduce my muse, Hatsuharu!

Hatsuharu: Hey

Besides being my muse, Haru is also, the spirit of the ox off Fruits Basket, my tuba's name sake, and slightly gay!

Haru : Tell the world why Don't you! Oh and MegaRose dose not own YuYuHakusho. Or Hiei.

MegaRose: Why must you be so cruel

Haru: It's the truth

MegaRose : Wah!!!

This chapter is dedicated to everyone and anyone who has ever gone through band camp/boot camp. Especially if they did it with a sousaphone (tuba) over one shoulder. I have a respect now for anyone who can do a role step and actually play at the same time.

Botans P.O.V

"What do you wear to see your boyfriend and Ex at the same time?" I mumbled aloud without really thinking. At lest I had finally calmed down and stopped throwing things. To tell the truth I felt better since I had told Shizuru about my feeling's for Hiei and my lack of feelings for Kurama.

But I still didn't feel very confident about spending the whole day around both of them. Why did I have to date his best friend? That was going to make the a lot more complicated.

Why did you pick Kurama anyway ?You new it would be difficult.

Have I ever done anything that wasn't difficult. That would be so easy and boring.

I will never understand you

Good.

Why did I chose Kurama? I can't really remember. He was nice to me after Hiei broke up with me but, Kurama's always nice. It's like....He doesn't have a temper. Which is good because I have enough for both of us. Did I pick him to make Hiei jealous? I know that's what everyone else in the gang thought. I honestly don't know why Kurama. I was so messed up at the time I don't remember.

Hmm

What does that mean?!

It means hmm.

Kami I don't have time for you.

After that extremely odd argument with myself I started to root through my closet....again. Something kept tugging at the back of my mind though like, there was something I really need to do. Does anyone else ever fell this way? I mean should I be worrying this much about seeing my ex-boyfriend ? Did anyone else have this totally horrible felling on the back of their mind that is always their when I see Kurama? Am I totally insane?

It was all I could think about as I got dressed. Do I really like life to be that difficult or do I like the attention? The thought of looking Hiei and Kurama in the eye ended that thought (not at the same time: )

"Botan-chan are you almost ready?" yelled softly outside my door, jerking me back to reality. Why do I space out so much?

"Crap....I'll be out in a minute Ukina!" I called back to her.

I finally after close to an hour of searching found an out fit to wear. A pair of denim shorts ( it's summer) a pink spaghetti strap shirt and my white foe diamond diva flip flops. Bought on a shopping expedition with Keiko they are my favorite pair of shoes. I'm at least two inches taller in them than normal. Which makes me like two feet taller than Hiei.

Was I ready to face them both? Not to mention the rest of the gang. My life was never easy. Especially since Koenma put me on Yusuke duty. And since I was attacked and nearly killed by a huge group of demons. And since I started to date and be taught by Hiei. And then broke up with him for know none reason. Even though I still love him. And probably always will.

I always will.

Something finally clicked right then. I love Hiei. Four foot tall, knows no other color than black, telepathic, violent, ex-criminal, could slice me in half in his sleep ,Hiei. But despite all of that and the fact that Hiei broke up with me, I love him. I believe in one true love and deep down in my hart I know and have Known that he is mine.

But I can't have him. He doesn't want me. He's ignored me since our break up. He won't return my feelings.

But Kurama does. He loves you. He tells you every day.

I know. I don't want spend the rest of my life in this unrequited love triangle. I want to be in love again.

You know what you have to do

Yeah

That feeling I've had this morning. I know what it is. And now as I walk over to the small box on my dresser, I what I must do.

Lightly I take the box off the shelf and look inside at the contents. It's still there.

Inside is a pale pink stone encircled in gold. A Rekai stone. It was given to me by Koenma ten months ago.

Flash Back

"Who where they!" Yusuke yelled angrily.

The whole group was assembled in Koenma's office. Yusuke was yelling, Kuwabara looked confused(as usual), Hiei and Kurama looked cool and calm as usual, and Koenma looked like he had a migraine.

"Yusuke please stop yelling! It's not helping and your up setting Botan" Koenma said rubbing his head.

Yusuke looks guilty immediately, his gaze shifting apologetically to the blue harried girl in the chair next to him. Botan dose not look her best. Her kimono is ripped at the shoulder and leg and splattered with dirt and dried blood. Dirt is smudged across her face with more blood but no wounds are visible.

"Koenma, do you have any idea who did this, or why?" Kurama asked calmly.

"No Kurama I have no idea who did this or why. In fact, I can't think of any one who would really want to hurt Botan." The pint sized ruler said with a small sigh.

About two hours before Botan had been attacked by a group of demons. They weren't very high classed but they had easily over powered Botan. If Hiei hadn't shown up when he did, there was no doubt any ones mind that she would be dead by now.

"So what are you going to do about Botan, Koenma" Kuwabara asked with worry in his voice. He had begun to think of the blue haired girl as a sister.

"I'm going to send her back with you. Stay with her!" Koenma said

"And if they come back?" Kurama asked.

"Then fight them. You one the dark tournament! You should be able to handle a couple of low classed demons." Koenma said. His answer seemed to satisfy Kuwabara and Yusuke but Hiei and Kurama both sent him dark looks that Botan and the others couldn't see.

"Here Botan," Koenma said opening a drawer in his desk, ignoring the looks Hiei and Kurama sent him "This will allow you to transform from human to spirit' he added as he handed her a small box containing the necklace.

End flash back

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The stone has other properties besides allowing me to transform. Such as letting me make Rekai promises.

Rekai promises are sacred. You can only be released by one from Enma or Koenma.

The stone feels warm in my hand. I can feel the magic inside of it.

"Ish na marana hela na" I have no idea what the words mean or even what language there in. There's a series of them though, that is used to activate the Rekai stones abilities.

"I swear to stop comparing Kurama to Hiei. I will stop remembering what I had with Hiei. I will now try to love Kurama as much as I love Hiei. I swear this all in the name of Enma."

As the stone falls from my hand I can feel the magic working. All my fears of today vanish. So do my thoughts of Hiei. I can feel my memories of our time together erasing as well.

You have to stop talking now.

I know

I don't love him anymore

I know

I'm better off now. I can have a regular, full life now.

If that's true then why d you feel so empty?

Yeah! I'm done! Oh joy! Oh happiness! tear

Okay done with that now. I'm so so so sorry I haven't updated in forever. Blame it on band. I have no free time! I have practice on Tuesday and Thursday games on Friday and eventually I'll have contests. ( Hatsuharu: no one cares MegaRose) And I might actually start having sectionals! Which are evil! (but thank god all the other tuba's are guys so they're as lazy as I am) And I've got home work, test and like twenty other stories I'm working on.(check out Blood red roses!) But I promise I'll start updating more.

Okay I'm done ranting now. Review!

What MegaRose listened to while writing this chapter

Clay Aikens , Measure of a man

And

Blake Sheltons self titled first c.d.

Hatsuharu: Once again no one cares!

MegaRose: Shut up, or I'll put you in the case with lumpy and C.C

Hatsuharu, shaking: Anything but that

MegaRose, smiles happily: Review!