A/N: Hi. I finished this chapter like 3 days ago and never posted it cuz I
thought I was gonna add more but I never did. Not that much happens in this
chapter but oh well.
p.s YES I NO I SUCK AT TITLES!!!!
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Chapter Six - Asking Lila
The sun Rose at about six o'clock the next morning and for the first time in my life, sunlight actually woke me up.
I opened my eyes feeling very rested despite the fact that I had only gotten a few hours of sleep the night before.
I lay there in my bed, feeling comfortable in my skin. I felt at peace with myself. I wanted to lie there, in my bed half asleep forever. then my brain started working and I realized that I had cried myself to sleep last night and the reason why.
I let out a moan and tried to force myself back to sleep, but that just made me more awake.
After ten minutes, I silently got up and got dressed. When I was ready, I looked at my watch. It was six thirty. There was still an hour left until breakfast so I decided to go and walk around the lake, there was nothing better to do.
I went outside not expecting to see anyone else there. To my surprise, there was one other person already awake.
She was sitting by the lake, staring into the water. I couldn't make her out though, so I walked towards her, hoping she was someone I could actually get along with.
I got closer and realized it was Lila. At first, I was considering going back to the Gryffindor Common room, but then I realized that this would be a good chance to talk to her. I wasn't sure how to bring up what happened at the begging of school, but I knew that this might be my only chance for a while.
"Hi." I said and I sat down next to her.
"Good morning Ginny." I really hated her goody-goody voice.
"I haven't talked to you in a while. How have you been?"
"I've been ever so good. Hogwarts is ever so fun. How have you been?"
"Okay. Umm. have you heard of Sirius Black?"
"Oh yes. Harry told me about what happened at the beginning of the year."
"H-He did?" I felt a pang in my heart and I began to panic. Why didn't Harry tell me? Maybe I was lying to myself all along. Maybe he still thought of me as nothing more then his best friend's sister. Maybe he didn't think I'd be able to handle whatever it was, that I was still an immature innocent little girl. I wasn't though! I had grown up so much during my years at Hogwarts. I was so much stronger then I used to be. Didn't Harry see that?
"Yes. I ever so thought he would have told you. Doesn't he tell you and Ron and Hermione everything?"
"That's what I thought." I said in something very close to a whisper. Not even bothering to ask her what she told him or even why she was up so early, I turned around and walked back to the castle.
"Bye Lila." I said.
"Goodbye Ginny! It was ever so nice to see you again! We ever so have to talk some time soon."
By the time I got back to the common room, it was seven and I still had half an hour before I could go down to breakfast. I sat down on the bottom stairs leading up to our dormitories and rested my chin in my hands. I wasn't going to let Harry out of the common room until he told me what Lila said.
I expected to have to wait a long half hour, or at least twenty minutes for someone to come out of their dormitory, but just a minute after I sat down, I heard footsteps. I didn't even bother turning around to see who it was. I didn't want to talk to anyone but Harry.
"Ginny?!" Oh no. It was Dean. His voice could not be mistaken. Dean was the last person I felt like talking to then. I heard him walking down the steps, he jumped the last two.
"Your up early."
"So are you." I said flatly.
"Yeah, Neville and I have to finish up Potions homework."
"Oh Okay. Good luck." I looked up at him and forced a smile. Dean leaned over and kissed my forehead and then ran off to meet Neville.
Why couldn't I just love Dean back? I felt nothing for him anymore. Maybe I never did. I wasn't sure.
At seven twenty, someone else finally came out of their dormitory. I heard footsteps. They were quick and light, yet firm and strong. I didn't have to look to know that it was Harry.
"Ginny?" he said and he sat down next to me.
"Why didn't you tell me u talked to Lila about Sirius?" my voice sounded bigger then I felt.
"What are you talking about? I never had the chance."
"I went to talk to Lila this morning and she said you had talked to her already."
"Well, I didn't. I don't know why she'd say that."
"How would she know what I was going to ask her about then?" Great, now he was lying to me too. I felt tears form, making my vision blurry; I wouldn't let them come though. I was stronger now and I needed to prove it.
"I. I don't know. Don't worry 'bout it though. I'll talk to her as soon as I get a chance."
"Harry! Stop lying to me!" I hated this! I hated the way he treated me! I wasn't a little girl anymore! I didn't need his protection. I didn't need him to hide the truth from me. I hated the way he treated me like his sister! Why couldn't he treat Hermione like that?!? I didn't need another brother. I had enough of those. Ron trying to "protect" me from the world was already too much. I was sick and tired of Harry doing it too.
"I'm not lying! I didn't talk to her!"
My tears were becoming harder and harder to swallow.
"I don't need another brother Harry. I don't need you to protect me." I turned around and went down to breakfast.
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I spent the next few weeks pretty much on my own. Nothing changed with Hermione, and Harry was jut acting weird. He would always look at Hermione when she was around with a look of suspicion that I didn't understand. And Ron, obviously feeling out of place, started spending a lot of time with Luna. By mid October, they were the newest Hogwarts couple. I couldn't believe it at first, and nearly fainted when I saw them making out. By Halloween though, they realized they were better off as friends which meant Dean and I were back to being the only couple in our group, even though I wished we weren't a couple at all.
Ron and I started spending a lot of our time together, which felt really odd since we were siblings and all. It was the first time since I started Hogwarts that we actually spent long periods of time together. We had enough of that at home. Everyone was acting so weird though, and I felt like Ron was the only one that hadn't changed for the worse.
Everything was messed up and confusing and I honestly didn't feel like being around any of the people I would usually give my life for.
I didn't want to be around Harry if he was going to treat me like a little girl. Plus, I was mad at him for lying to me. Hermione wouldn't want to do anything but talk about Krum, and well, I was sick and tired of constantly making an effort to avoid Dean's kisses; which meant I couldn't exactly spend my time with Neville because that's who Dean was hanging out with a lot lately along with Seamus.
Luna spent some time around Ron and I, but she was usually off doing, well I don't know what. something.
If anyone besides Neville or Luna would come over to Ron and I. I would make up some excuse and leave; which kind of happened a lot because Harry still was Ron's best friend.
Towards the end of October, Harry finally realized I was ignoring him. Actually, he probably realized it a long time ago; I mean I've never ignored Harry no matter what I thought of him as, so when I did, it probably made a difference to him. Well, I hoped it did in any case. He just didn't do anything about me ignoring him until the day before Halloween.
You see, Ron, Luna and I were sitting by the lake doing homework when I wanted to go back to the common room to grab a sweater because the weather was cooling off and I was chilly.
On my way, I bumped into Harry who was probably off to meet Ron. I passed him with an empty "hi" like I usually do and rushed on. I thought I was home free, but then he called my name. I used a lot of self control to ignore him, so when he ran after me and grabbed my arm, I had to stop.
"Ginny!" he said.
"What?" it was pretty hard for me to pretend I was upset about him wanting to talk to me.
"Look, I'm sorry if you think I treated you like- like a little girl, I seriously am, but I can't apologize for not telling you something Lila said, because I never talked to her! I mean, she's a Slytherin first year, when would I have gotten the chance?"
I looked into his eyes. He wasn't lying. I saw it. I thought I was ready to forgive him, to at least try and be his friend again, so I was surprised at what came out of my mouth.
"I never knew you were this good at lying." I said and I continued my way to the Gryffindor Common Room.
"I thought you trusted me Ginny!" he said as I walked away, thankful that he at least wasn't seeing the tears streaming down my cheeks. "Fine! Don't believe me." I heard him turn around and walk off.
By the time I got to the common room, I had completely forgotten why I went there in the first place. I sat down by the fire, not understanding why I wouldn't let myself forgive him. Harry wasn't lying! I knew he wasn't. How did Lila know what I was going to ask her then?
My head hurt and I felt like throwing up. Soon, I fell asleep with a million thoughts going through my head, completely forgetting my unfinished homework that was lying by the lake.
I dreamed that Harry and I were friends again. Our Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher was someone named Mr. Feeny so Hermione wasn't in love with anyone and She and Harry were going out. They'd been dating for a few months when Harry announced that he felt like them dating was killing the friendship of Ron, Hermione and himself. He said that he loved Hermione for a while but that they were better off as friends. That night, he asked me out. We went to the Three Broomsticks and he was leaning in to kiss me-
I woke up with a start. For a few seconds, I thought it was real.
"Damn it! Why'd I have to wake up?" I whispered.
I looked at my watch. It was 3:30am. I sat in the chair, staring into the empty fire for a few minutes when I realized that I hadn't finished all my homework. I figured that I might as well finish it now because it wasn't like I was going to be able to fall back asleep. I was about to get up to get my books and things, but then I realized that I had left them by the lake. I figured Ron or Luna or someone had taken my things up to the dormitories with them. great, Detention for me.
I took out my wand.
"Lumos" I whispered. I looked to the left and saw books, quills and parchment lying on the chair next to me. Then I noticed the note on top. Right away, I knew it was from Ron. His chicken-scratch handwriting was so distinguishable.
Ginny- We were getting worried when it took you so long to grab a sweater. You must have been tired. Anyway, Harry figured you might wake up or something, so I'd finish your work if I were you. Love, Ron P.S He really wasn't lying you know.
"Yeah, I know." I whispered after reading the P.S.
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A/N: ok I'll try and hurry up with the next chapter!!!! Thx 2 all my reviewers!!!
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Chapter Six - Asking Lila
The sun Rose at about six o'clock the next morning and for the first time in my life, sunlight actually woke me up.
I opened my eyes feeling very rested despite the fact that I had only gotten a few hours of sleep the night before.
I lay there in my bed, feeling comfortable in my skin. I felt at peace with myself. I wanted to lie there, in my bed half asleep forever. then my brain started working and I realized that I had cried myself to sleep last night and the reason why.
I let out a moan and tried to force myself back to sleep, but that just made me more awake.
After ten minutes, I silently got up and got dressed. When I was ready, I looked at my watch. It was six thirty. There was still an hour left until breakfast so I decided to go and walk around the lake, there was nothing better to do.
I went outside not expecting to see anyone else there. To my surprise, there was one other person already awake.
She was sitting by the lake, staring into the water. I couldn't make her out though, so I walked towards her, hoping she was someone I could actually get along with.
I got closer and realized it was Lila. At first, I was considering going back to the Gryffindor Common room, but then I realized that this would be a good chance to talk to her. I wasn't sure how to bring up what happened at the begging of school, but I knew that this might be my only chance for a while.
"Hi." I said and I sat down next to her.
"Good morning Ginny." I really hated her goody-goody voice.
"I haven't talked to you in a while. How have you been?"
"I've been ever so good. Hogwarts is ever so fun. How have you been?"
"Okay. Umm. have you heard of Sirius Black?"
"Oh yes. Harry told me about what happened at the beginning of the year."
"H-He did?" I felt a pang in my heart and I began to panic. Why didn't Harry tell me? Maybe I was lying to myself all along. Maybe he still thought of me as nothing more then his best friend's sister. Maybe he didn't think I'd be able to handle whatever it was, that I was still an immature innocent little girl. I wasn't though! I had grown up so much during my years at Hogwarts. I was so much stronger then I used to be. Didn't Harry see that?
"Yes. I ever so thought he would have told you. Doesn't he tell you and Ron and Hermione everything?"
"That's what I thought." I said in something very close to a whisper. Not even bothering to ask her what she told him or even why she was up so early, I turned around and walked back to the castle.
"Bye Lila." I said.
"Goodbye Ginny! It was ever so nice to see you again! We ever so have to talk some time soon."
By the time I got back to the common room, it was seven and I still had half an hour before I could go down to breakfast. I sat down on the bottom stairs leading up to our dormitories and rested my chin in my hands. I wasn't going to let Harry out of the common room until he told me what Lila said.
I expected to have to wait a long half hour, or at least twenty minutes for someone to come out of their dormitory, but just a minute after I sat down, I heard footsteps. I didn't even bother turning around to see who it was. I didn't want to talk to anyone but Harry.
"Ginny?!" Oh no. It was Dean. His voice could not be mistaken. Dean was the last person I felt like talking to then. I heard him walking down the steps, he jumped the last two.
"Your up early."
"So are you." I said flatly.
"Yeah, Neville and I have to finish up Potions homework."
"Oh Okay. Good luck." I looked up at him and forced a smile. Dean leaned over and kissed my forehead and then ran off to meet Neville.
Why couldn't I just love Dean back? I felt nothing for him anymore. Maybe I never did. I wasn't sure.
At seven twenty, someone else finally came out of their dormitory. I heard footsteps. They were quick and light, yet firm and strong. I didn't have to look to know that it was Harry.
"Ginny?" he said and he sat down next to me.
"Why didn't you tell me u talked to Lila about Sirius?" my voice sounded bigger then I felt.
"What are you talking about? I never had the chance."
"I went to talk to Lila this morning and she said you had talked to her already."
"Well, I didn't. I don't know why she'd say that."
"How would she know what I was going to ask her about then?" Great, now he was lying to me too. I felt tears form, making my vision blurry; I wouldn't let them come though. I was stronger now and I needed to prove it.
"I. I don't know. Don't worry 'bout it though. I'll talk to her as soon as I get a chance."
"Harry! Stop lying to me!" I hated this! I hated the way he treated me! I wasn't a little girl anymore! I didn't need his protection. I didn't need him to hide the truth from me. I hated the way he treated me like his sister! Why couldn't he treat Hermione like that?!? I didn't need another brother. I had enough of those. Ron trying to "protect" me from the world was already too much. I was sick and tired of Harry doing it too.
"I'm not lying! I didn't talk to her!"
My tears were becoming harder and harder to swallow.
"I don't need another brother Harry. I don't need you to protect me." I turned around and went down to breakfast.
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I spent the next few weeks pretty much on my own. Nothing changed with Hermione, and Harry was jut acting weird. He would always look at Hermione when she was around with a look of suspicion that I didn't understand. And Ron, obviously feeling out of place, started spending a lot of time with Luna. By mid October, they were the newest Hogwarts couple. I couldn't believe it at first, and nearly fainted when I saw them making out. By Halloween though, they realized they were better off as friends which meant Dean and I were back to being the only couple in our group, even though I wished we weren't a couple at all.
Ron and I started spending a lot of our time together, which felt really odd since we were siblings and all. It was the first time since I started Hogwarts that we actually spent long periods of time together. We had enough of that at home. Everyone was acting so weird though, and I felt like Ron was the only one that hadn't changed for the worse.
Everything was messed up and confusing and I honestly didn't feel like being around any of the people I would usually give my life for.
I didn't want to be around Harry if he was going to treat me like a little girl. Plus, I was mad at him for lying to me. Hermione wouldn't want to do anything but talk about Krum, and well, I was sick and tired of constantly making an effort to avoid Dean's kisses; which meant I couldn't exactly spend my time with Neville because that's who Dean was hanging out with a lot lately along with Seamus.
Luna spent some time around Ron and I, but she was usually off doing, well I don't know what. something.
If anyone besides Neville or Luna would come over to Ron and I. I would make up some excuse and leave; which kind of happened a lot because Harry still was Ron's best friend.
Towards the end of October, Harry finally realized I was ignoring him. Actually, he probably realized it a long time ago; I mean I've never ignored Harry no matter what I thought of him as, so when I did, it probably made a difference to him. Well, I hoped it did in any case. He just didn't do anything about me ignoring him until the day before Halloween.
You see, Ron, Luna and I were sitting by the lake doing homework when I wanted to go back to the common room to grab a sweater because the weather was cooling off and I was chilly.
On my way, I bumped into Harry who was probably off to meet Ron. I passed him with an empty "hi" like I usually do and rushed on. I thought I was home free, but then he called my name. I used a lot of self control to ignore him, so when he ran after me and grabbed my arm, I had to stop.
"Ginny!" he said.
"What?" it was pretty hard for me to pretend I was upset about him wanting to talk to me.
"Look, I'm sorry if you think I treated you like- like a little girl, I seriously am, but I can't apologize for not telling you something Lila said, because I never talked to her! I mean, she's a Slytherin first year, when would I have gotten the chance?"
I looked into his eyes. He wasn't lying. I saw it. I thought I was ready to forgive him, to at least try and be his friend again, so I was surprised at what came out of my mouth.
"I never knew you were this good at lying." I said and I continued my way to the Gryffindor Common Room.
"I thought you trusted me Ginny!" he said as I walked away, thankful that he at least wasn't seeing the tears streaming down my cheeks. "Fine! Don't believe me." I heard him turn around and walk off.
By the time I got to the common room, I had completely forgotten why I went there in the first place. I sat down by the fire, not understanding why I wouldn't let myself forgive him. Harry wasn't lying! I knew he wasn't. How did Lila know what I was going to ask her then?
My head hurt and I felt like throwing up. Soon, I fell asleep with a million thoughts going through my head, completely forgetting my unfinished homework that was lying by the lake.
I dreamed that Harry and I were friends again. Our Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher was someone named Mr. Feeny so Hermione wasn't in love with anyone and She and Harry were going out. They'd been dating for a few months when Harry announced that he felt like them dating was killing the friendship of Ron, Hermione and himself. He said that he loved Hermione for a while but that they were better off as friends. That night, he asked me out. We went to the Three Broomsticks and he was leaning in to kiss me-
I woke up with a start. For a few seconds, I thought it was real.
"Damn it! Why'd I have to wake up?" I whispered.
I looked at my watch. It was 3:30am. I sat in the chair, staring into the empty fire for a few minutes when I realized that I hadn't finished all my homework. I figured that I might as well finish it now because it wasn't like I was going to be able to fall back asleep. I was about to get up to get my books and things, but then I realized that I had left them by the lake. I figured Ron or Luna or someone had taken my things up to the dormitories with them. great, Detention for me.
I took out my wand.
"Lumos" I whispered. I looked to the left and saw books, quills and parchment lying on the chair next to me. Then I noticed the note on top. Right away, I knew it was from Ron. His chicken-scratch handwriting was so distinguishable.
Ginny- We were getting worried when it took you so long to grab a sweater. You must have been tired. Anyway, Harry figured you might wake up or something, so I'd finish your work if I were you. Love, Ron P.S He really wasn't lying you know.
"Yeah, I know." I whispered after reading the P.S.
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A/N: ok I'll try and hurry up with the next chapter!!!! Thx 2 all my reviewers!!!