BEWARE! THIS IS THE MOST INTENSE CHAPTER IVE EVER WRITTEN! LOTS OF FLUFF AND DRAMA AND ECT.
Enjoy,
Ppigglette
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It has been a week since the dance. Eriol and I, we've been a wonderful happy couple. If he was a potato, I was a carrot. We were two peas in a peacod. Or whatever that expression is. Sometimes, however, I notice that Syaoran tenses everytime Eriol and me kiss. I shook the thought away. I stood in front of Syaoran's mansion and took a deep breath. The air around here was always soothing. Today was another visit, just like every other one. I'll greet and strike up a small conversation with Syaoran at practicing area in the guardian. Then I'll go and have a conversation with Meilin. I was so used to the immense house filled with elegant objects. I was no longer amazed at the beautiful lawn filled with roses around it. I was used to everything around here except for Meilin's sickness.
"Hey Meilin you alright?" I said, entering the beautiful room. It wasn't large. It was just right. Nice and cozy.
"Yeah, I'm just tired, that's all." Meilin cracked a dry smile.
"Seriously, Meilin, you should drink a bit more." I said with concern.
"I saw you talk to Syaoran before in the practice area. You guys are so cute together."
Meilin said hoarsely.
"Meilin! Seriously. You know I like Eriol, we're even going out for heaven's sake." I pouted and placed my hands on my hips.
"Like I said last time, I want to see you guys together before I die." She said this very softly.
"You're not dying!"
"Want to play a game of thumb war?" I suggested. This will make her spirits go up. Meilin was always competitive. This was perfect game to cheer her up. She nodded and we clapped hands together. I chanted the silly song and we began. I tried my best to lose but if I tried any harder, it would look too obvious. I won, she lost.
"No way!" She screamed. "You cheated!"
I laughed. "How could I cheat at a game like this?"
She stopped. "I.." I laughed and hugged her. "Get well so you can beat me ok?" I said cheerfully.
She nodded defiantly. "I'll win for sure! I promise you, next time when we play, I'll win!" I smiled, it was working after all.
The room was bright and cheerful filled with colorful pillows on the ground. Meilin, pale and dry looking, looked more out of place then ever. She had her fighting clothes neatly folded on the table next to her. I looked at it and Meilin noticed.
"I guess I would never wear those again." Meilin looked at them sadly.
"What are you talking about? You'll be better in a few days. I mean, what could ever keep you from what you want?" I objected.
Meilin merely nodded with a weak smile. "You don't understand. She hates me."
"Who?"
All of a sudden she began coughing hard.
"Meilin!" I cried. What should I do? What's wrong? The nurses!
"Nurse! Nurse!" I screamed. The nurses heard my call and began running up the stairs.
Why the hell did they have to take a coffee break?
Meilin was choking madly, cupping her hands in front of her mouth. "Blood…" she croaked. I gasped. She was coughing blood! I took a tissue and wiped her hands. Why would she be coughing up blood? Overdose of pills won't make you do that! But it was no time to think about that.
"Don't worry Meilin, everything would be fine. The Nurses are here." I said hurriedly as I hear the nurses enter the room.
"She has Hemoptysis ?!!" One of the nurses yelled out surprised. "We never saw this on her medical record!"
Meilin was choking and she wouldn't stop. I stared at her unbelievingly.
What am I supposed to do? I panicked.
"Jones, call the ambulance! She needs an oxygen mask. This could lead to her death! Hurry Jones!"
"Yes Amelia." Jones said quickly, running down the stairs. I waited impatiently. Why is the ambulance not here yet? At a time like this! Where is it?
Few minutes later, the nurse came back up.
"It should be here any minute now." Jones said quietly.
How could they be so calm?
"Meilin, try to breath normally. Don't hold it in. You're going to end up not being able to stop coughing" Amelia suggested.
Meilin nodded helplessly. Her coughing subsided. I gave a soft sigh.
"I'm dizzy…" Meilin whispered dryly.
"You are lacking of oxygen. Just breath a lot and-" Amelia said, then stopped.
Meilin had fainted.
"Meilin!" I yelled. I heard the sirens of the ambulance. Please be alright.
Four days later…
It was pouring outside. The sky was dark and gloomy. The clouds shadowed the city, covering us with misery. Nature really reflected what I was feeling. It has been 4 days. Four long painful days. Today was even worse.
I could remember her healthy body, arrogant and strong, she was. Her ruby red eyes always looking for a competition. Her hands, usually held up as fists, ready to take anyone on. Please… Meilin come back.
Meilin…you've been trained all your life Meilin! And you couldn't handle the pills? It seemed unreal that something like this would happen to Meilin. Her death was unbelievable. I had laughed nervously when they placed her on the stretcher. It seemed impossible that it began with overdose of pills, and then suddenly she has some sort of disease that makes her unable to stop coughing up blood?
I could no longer see where I was going. I've held this in for so long. I did cry when they first announce your death. I cried. Then I knew you would be back, knew there must be some mistake. I waited for them to call and say that you are fine. That you didn't suffer any stupid disease. That those pills did little damage to your body. I waited but the call never came…
I found myself begin to hate Meilin as time passed. To me, she was selfish. She left me and everyone else here and went on without us. She was so selfish for leaving us and not live for us.
I yelled until my lungs felt like bursting.
I began running, tears flooding my emerald eyes. The streets blurred but I kept running. Raindrops became hard and slashed at my frail body. My eyes hurt. They hurt so much. It was hard to keep them open because my lids have mysteriously gone heavy. My head felt like hammers were pounding against it.
"Selfish! Your so selfish!" I shrieked angrily and bumped into someone.
"Gomen nasai." I whispered shakily without looking up.
"Who's selfish?" whispered the person. I looked up through my tears. It was Syaoran.
I gave a loud cry and hugged him. I cried even harder this time, my body shaking with the overwhelming emotions.
"Don't cry." He said awkwardly patting me nervously. It was clear he didn't like me hugging him, even if it was just for comfort. I took a deep breath and stepped back. The street was empty, and it was late at night. I was coming back from the marketplace. But I ended up walking around aimlessly and now I was somewhere else. I didn't know where I was. But what was Syaoran doing here? It didn't make sense. Nothing made sense. Nothing.
"Hey..stop crying.."
I sniffed, "What are you doing here?"
Syaoran looked taken back. "After Eriol talked to you and you ran away, he called me to follow you if you needed help. He had to go somewhere and he was worried."
"Saying something like that after what happened…" I laughed lightly. I shook my head sadly. "You must be exhausted from following me around this whole day."
"I..uh.." Syaoran stammered. I began crying again.
"Don't you think that Meilin was selfish for leaving us? Don't you?!." I screamed painfully. My head ached from crying so much. I was in a hysterical state. Saying things that don't make sense. I didn't care. I didn't care at all. I closed my eyes hard. Maybe if I try, I would be able to wake up from this nightmare. It must be a nightmare.
I was too absorbed in my self pity and anger that I didn't notice how sadly Syaoran looked at me. His face bore a weary and pained expression. It wasn't easy for him either. He was still trying to accept it, but unlike Sakura, he didn't blame anyone. There was a voice inside his head that told him that things would get worse and that he knew who was behind Meilin's death. However, he thought that he was being to paranoid and brushed the idea away.
"Sakura…don't…cry." Syaoran whispered.
As his said this, his hand wrapped around my waist gently and pressed me closer to him. I felt his warm chest and I leaned my head on it. Hearing his heart beat. He's so warm. His finger lifted my chin up. I looked up, confused. And then he kissed me. My hands found themselves around his neck and I kissed him back. My body heated up and my tears rolled down my face. I felt so blissful. He deepened the kiss and I felt the passion radiate from his body into mine. Then suddenly, he withdrew and left me standing there, dazed.I stared at him in shock, my finger touching my lips. His face wore a warm expression, but he wasn't smiling, frowning, scowling, or solemn. It was just there. Warm, sweet, and caring. It felt so warm and delicate. The warmth left me and I could still feel the tingle on my lips.
"Gomen."
After a while of silence, he said "Come, I'll take you home." I nodded. He slowly walked me to his car, which was surprisingly nearby, and opened the door for me to step in. I put on my seatbelt and dozed off.
Edit on Nov 19 2004I reread over this chapter and I decided that it needed so much work. So here is the edited version. I reworked this a lot. Hope its better.
AHHHH I KNOW a lot of fluff! Lots of it. But I mean, I couldn't help it. I was watching a very emotional series before and well. This is the result. I hope you like it. You guys been supporting me a lot so far, thank you so much!
For S/s fans, here you go. I know this is an indirect cliffhanger but too bad. XD I need you guys to review before I can continue. BUWAAAAAH I almost cried when I was writing. I hope it got you guys that emotional too? nn;
-Ppiglette