Wind's Nocturne
Wishing on dream that seems far off...
Hoping it will come today...
Into the starlit night
Foolish dreamers turn their gaze
Waiting on a shooting star...
The quiet night sky blew a cool wind along through the air surrounding Genkai's temple. The trees rustled slightly making a soothing song reaching a hiryuu's ears. He lounged in one of the musical trees outside my window half asleep, a beautiful jewel sparkling around his neck. He's always there. Always near my window. Why? I know why...so does he, I think. I'm not as naïve as most take me. I admit I'm kind and many say I'm innocent but I'm not ignorant. I know why I know when he's there. I know why he protects me when I'm off in the woods on my own. I know why he gets those irritated looks when Kazuma-kun is around. I know why when I was captured he was prepared to risk his freedom to end Tarukune's life. Most of all...I know why he wears my tear with subtle pride...he loves me. But...does he know why he loves me...I know...does he?
I lie there in bed with my eyes closed. I can't sleep when his there...so you can imagine I rarely get enough sleep to live now a days. The reason I can't sleep is because I want to invite him in out of the night air...I want to talk to him about everything and yet nothing. Kazuma-kun and Shizuru-san have a relationship though sometimes I can't understand them. Why can't he and I? When I look at him...he turns away. When I ask has he found my brother...he simply says no...why? I rise and walk to the window. My hair is loose from its ponytail. I find it very uncomfortable when it's pulled back but if I left it down I wouldn't be able to work. Anyway, as I watch him out the window, I look up at the clear night sky. I always do that. It's a habit I suppose...I wonder if knows that I watch him the way he watches me. So protectively...
I sit on the sill with my knee drawn up and my arm resting on it, another uncharacteristic habit. Like my habit of crossing my arms over my chest. I hide that one well by holding my hands down in front of me with poise. I stare out the window at the sky, glancing at him every now and then. I suppose it's something of a twin thing...to do some things the same. Does he know of our similar habits? Doubtful...
I know it's childish, but when I look out the window at him. I sort of wish he would look back at me...Just a glance at least to let me know that he knows, is that too much. Hiei...flying shadow...for me he's a flying dream. Fleeing me when I come too close to making him real. He's the shooting star I wish upon every night hoping he'll just come to me and let me know that he knows...
But...
What if that star is not to come...
Will their dreams fade to nothing?
When the horizon darkens most
We all need to believe there's hope...
It's early morning, Kazuma's here as usual. I sit listening to him tell me about the world. I love listening to him talk about the ningenkai. I don't leave the temple very often unless it's with him. Being around him, I find I like fantasy stories like things about a knight's in shining armor. Yet again, very childish of me. I love being around Kuwabara and I think I'm what ningens called 'in love' with him. I really care for him and my heart flutters when he's around. I know for a fact I love him like I love the Yusuke, Kurama, Shizuru, Keiko, Genkai, and Botan. I even love Koenma. Bur what I feel around him goes a bit deeper...it's like what I feel for Hiei. I love them both the most. I laugh at his jokes. I find them very witty but Genkai says it's because I don't get out much. True I guess, but he's still wonderful company. He cares about what I have to say...though I must say he has to do something about my nickname. Being called 'Yukina baby' isn't one of my life long goals. Hmm, I think what just I did is called sarcasm. It's fun. I should do it more often. Anyhow, he's telling me about a vehicle that I've found very interesting after my first movie...um...what is it...oh yes my first movie date. We saw a movie with these amazing ningen machines called mo...motorcycles. I remember now. I like them because they go fast. Strangely enough I like fast things.
"So how about it Yukina-chan?"
"Hmm? Oh yes, I think it would be nice to ride one...but I'm a little scared. If you were to get one what if you were to get hurt."
"I'd learn to ride it first. But would you really ride with me?"
I nod. I suddenly feel a strange warm and comforting tickle in my mind. He's here again. Watching us from the cedar tree a little ways away. I can pinpoint him so easily now. I wonder why... I look out accidentally ignoring Kazuma-kun. I see you, Hiei...
Does that idiot always have to be there so early? It's irritating, I'm faster than the wind and he still manages to beat me here. The only credit I give him is that he's protective of Yukina and that is all. Sometimes I wonder about his loyalty when it comes to women. I overheard the baka's sister talking about his loves. It was Keiko first but he backed off when Yusuke fell 'in love' with her. Then he saw Botan and was in love with her. Until he saw my other half. I question his 'consistency' with love. But I know if I tell her this it would break her heart. She loves him...I painfully see it every time they're together...that's why I watch them. I've never been afraid of anything but somehow Kuwabara leaving her for someone else just does something to me. I know who's next on my hit list if he does. She smiles so much around him that it's painful. I can't make her smile that way...never will. I know that for fact... She's looking at me. Her bloodstone eyes so similar to mine are locked onto my post. How does she always know I'm there? Does she know what I've been hiding? I doubt it. I'm sure she couldn't even think that I was her brother. Then I recognize the look, she's inviting me down. As much as I wish to go to her...I just can't.
He's gone now. What do I do wrong? What makes him leave me alone every time? That's one of the things I can't understand about him. He never comes to me when I really want him to. When I need him to. That just makes me question whether or not he loves me...whether he accepts me as his sister. It hurts when he does this. When he leaves my side for months on end to be in Makai I can barely live those days through. When he's not near to me I feel like my world has just gone dark. I try to be normal and be myself but it's hard when my other half is not around. Sometimes I wonder if there will be a time when he won't come back to me. A time when he doesn't return to me...it just scares me so badly...I wonder if he'll ever come to me, truly come to me, and let me know he's my brother like I wished for all my life. Suddenly I feel as though he'll never do it. It's these instances that I wish to cry the most. But I refuse to show my tears in front of Kuwabara. It seems to hurt him every time I'm sad and I don't want that. Besides I can't just keep thinking that he'll never come. I have to believe that he will...it's the only way I can make it through the day...it's my hope. So I'll just keep on letting him watch over me as my wonderful black-winged angel. Let him protect me until one day he sees the light between us and I can protect him in my own way...
Is there an angel watching over me
Can there be a guiding light I've yet to see
I know my heart should guide me but
There's a hole with in my soul
It's been a month since I've been back to Genkai's temple. I'm in Mukuro's territory doing my evening watch. Out of nowhere I fall free the tree I watch the sunset on. I hit the dirt with a hard thump and I grunt. That isn't what's painful. I feel this sudden chill in my chest like my heart had frozen over. A rare pain, yes, but it's not impossible. It only happens among demons of koorime descent. Something's happened to her. Without a word back to Mukuro I head for the nearest portal to the Ningenkai. I don't even bother to grab my sword. I don't need it. Not for this danger. I know what's happened. All I need are my bare hands to do two things. One: to wipe her tears and two: to end a ningen's life.
As I make it to the old woman's temple, I see the baka's sister coming out of the temple with her head lowered. Kurama's there too, I can feel him. I show up at the entrance. Shizuru, I believe that's her name, spots me and puts one of those smoking white sticks in her mouth.
"Hiei," she says softly. "I know what this has done to both of you, but please, he's only a human. Please don't harm him. I've lost him once in this lifetime. Don't end his life now."
"The degree of pain he gets will be the same he gave out." I say coldly. He doesn't deserve any sympathy from me. Not a bit.
She sighs at me and continues down the temple steps. "If it makes any difference I did warn her. But she didn't listen."
I growl at the ningen female and continue inside the building. I go to Yukina's room to see the door open. Inside, Kurama's arms are around my imouto-chan. I can hear her crying into his shirt. I can hear the hiruiseki hitting the floor. Kurama looked up at me from her hair. I give him a look telling him to leave. He nods at me and uncurls himself from the crying koorime. She didn't look up or towards me. She just stayed in that position. She didn't want me to see her face. When Kurama leaves he shuts the door behind him. I take a step towards her but stop when I hear her voice, broken and sad.
What can fill this emptiness inside of me?
Am I to be satisfied without knowing?
I wish then for a chance to see
Now all I need (desperately)....
"Humans act so strangely. Some of them are cruel because greed makes them that way. Some are cruel because they're so innocent that they're cruel without knowing it. But the worst is that some are cruel because they're blind. They're blind to those who love them most and continue to wonder can they get more from life. All I wanted was to be at his side. I was so sure that he would allow me to do so... but I was wrong. He told me he loved. The power of his love for me made him strong...if that was so strong...then why is he with another human girl who had more to offer than I did? I always thought my love enough...I guess not."
I listen to this as the aching in my chest is building more and more. This feeling would kill a normal Koorime. But Yukina and I are not normal koorime. That's why it's just painful...very, very painful. I walk towards and sit next to her. I know very little about emotion. I truly don't know how to react to this situation. So I just sit there and listen. That's all I can do...I think that's all she wants me to do...just listen.
"Now I know why Shizuru cries every now then. Why she's so downtrodden about everything. I know what a heartache is. Shizuru said not to let myself fall in love with him. Back then I didn't even know what in love meant. I didn't know until I was already in love. Unfortunately I didn't learn what a heartbreak was until I experienced it...But...WHY THAT WAY?!" she shouts to me. "I THOUGHT THAT MAYBE BEING WITH HUMANS WASN'T BAD. I THOUGHT...I thought..." her voice breaks and she falls into my arms. She cries again and I hear her say in a whisper. "I thought I could be loved too."
I didn't know what to do. I had no knowledge in any of this. I could kill easily and maim just as quickly, but this was beyond me. I suddenly thought back to when Kurama embraced his mother once. She was crying over something I can't remember what. On this example I slowly and cautiously wrapped my bandaged arms around this innocent creature. When she didn't pull away I enclosed her tightly pressing her against me. This felt very right to me, like this was how it was meant to be. I guess it was. Without even realizing it, I had tilted her chin up and pressed my mouth to hers instinctively. A koorime trait that I remembered. It's instinct among them to kiss their siblings when they're hurt or to show affection. I didn't think I could do it being a male. Apparently I was mistaken. I pull away and she looks up at me with her red cheeks and swollen eyes. Even with these temporary flaws she was still beautiful. For some reason she smiled at me. She pushed herself forward and kissed me back. That's when I realized what I had done. I let her know I was her brother. With one act I destroyed years of protection around her. But she didn't seem upset at all...like she had already known...she did.
"Arigato, onisan!" she says smiling.
For my star...to come...
Winds Nocturne-Lunar: Silver Star Story
A/N: I love that song. I'm not sure I want to end this story here. I have an idea but I don't know whether I should continue. Anyway, if I do continue it'll be a collection of songs just because I found so many songs that can revolve around them. So review and tell me what you think. And sorry for making Kuwabara seem like an ass but hey it fit.