Crazy
Baby I,
Apologize
For all things that I've done
That I've done
See I know I've been a fool for far too long.
It's been a week since Yukina baby figured out what I had been doing. My face is still purple where she punched me. I still can't believe she threw a punch. I recall last night. I was lying in bed with her. They're all right when they say I'm stupid or an idiot or fool. It took last night when I was lying next to her for me to realize what I had truly done. I hurt someone who would have stayed by my side through my life. I could've stayed with her forever and she accepted me the way I was. But still so did she. She gave me things Yukina baby could not. She had things Yukina didn't. But still thinking about it, I'm sorry about it. So today, I pick up the phone and call her, hoping she's calm now.
Ring. I hope she'll forgive me now for how stupid I was.
Ring, "hello?" a sweet voice answers. I recognize it to be my sweetheart's.
"Hey, baby." I say in my usual cheerful way.
"Oh, Kuwabara..." she says in a flat tone. Why'd she use my last name? "How are you?"
Deciding to skip over the small talk, I immediately apologize. "Yukina baby, I'm sorry about what happened. Really. I miss you a lot and I wanted to know if I could talk to you face to face. Like in the park or something."
She stays quiet for way too long. I hear her sigh and she says in sad whisper. "No." "Why not"
"I don't want to see you again, Kuwabara. Not right now!" she says quietly. I can barely hear her.
"I said I was sorry Yukina. I really want to-" I hear the click of the phone and a dial-tone. She hung up on me. Apparently after a week she's still angry with me.
Baby you don't have to
Go and run away
Just come back to papa
Please baby baby won't you stay
This ritual repeats itself for two weeks. It's becoming so harder and harder to get her on phone. This absence of her voice is torture. It's like she's running away from me. I just want to talk to her and convince her to come back to me. I want her to stay with me and I'll be damned it I give on her after two measly weeks!
If you really love me
Then why are you leaving me?
I can't think
Think about this crazy day
I use it
Just to daydream about you baby
Another week goes by and they are beginning not to answer the phone. I've been seeing her less and less. I sit in my room most of the time thinking about my little ice baby. She just refuses to talk to me. She used to say how much she loved me and now she won't even speak a word to me! What I did wasn't that bad. No but what she doesn't know you did is much worse. I lie on my back in bed and think about all the times we were together. The days just pass like minutes as I reminisce about our first kiss. We never went pass kissing and holding each other. I think that's why I went to her.
I'm goin' crazy crazy
Just from thinking about you lately
I'm going crazy crazy
Just from thinking about you, baby
I'm going crazy crazy crazy
Thinking about you lately
I find myself dreaming about her at night. The way she came to me about everything and talked to me. Sometimes her confidence in me was a bit scary. Why doesn't she just come back to me it's been three whole weeks. She needs to come back! I want her to come back. But she just won't! It's driving me insane!
I'm goin' crazy crazy
When I can't touch you
It's maddening when I haven't touched her in three weeks! I want to kiss her beautiful soft lips again.
Crazy crazy
When I can't hold you
I want to wrap my arms around that small form of hers again. It's like holding a small, porcelain doll. I always thought that too much pressure on her and she would break. I think I've smashed her in a different way...
Crazy crazy
When I can't see you again
I miss her beautiful childlike face and her a blood red eyes and I JUST MISS ALL OF HER!
I finally realize
That you are my true love
And I had a lot of time to think
And you're all I seem
To be thinking of
I go to school and I see Keiko and Urameshi together. I always replace their faces with Yukina's and mines. It's becoming a crazy habit. I'm obsessed with her now. I'm completely cut her off. Now all I want is for Yukina to stand at my side again!
I can't live without you
So don't runaway
Baby you said that you loved me
So why are you leavin' me
Why why why
We have another mission for Koenma and we're meeting at Genkai's temple. When I get there we sit and listen to Botan give instructions. Out the corner of my eye I see Yukina cat's cradle with Keiko. She laughed when she kept getting the string tangled around her fingers in a mess. She notices me watching and her smile disappears. She stands with a sad expression and closes the door to the room so that I can't watch her. This hurts a lot. I turn to pay attention again to see the shrimp eyeing me! I feel a chill go up my spine and I see murder in his eyes. What the hell was wrong with him I wonder! I didn't do anything to him!
I can't think
Think about this crazy day
I use it
Just to daydream about you baby
As we're walking down the steps of the temple I continue my nostalgia. I wanted to just continue my daydream and not even go on the mission. Then I look back to see Hiei still at the top of the stairs looking back. He looks like he's waiting for something.
I'm goin' crazy crazy
Just from thinking about you lately
I'm going crazy crazy
Just from thinking about you, baby
I'm going crazy crazy crazy
Thinking about you lately
I ignore it and I look up at the sky uninterested. But still I wonder why he's holding back. He usually jumps ahead of us. I think about how I waited back to kiss Yukina good by and she'd wish me luck. I think about how she'd jump into my arms when I came back. They we she would take much more time in healing my wounds than the others...except for Hiei. It burned me up the way she used to stop talking to me in mid-sentence and look at him! I think that's another reason I went to her. That's when I hear Yukina's voice and I look back up at the top of the stairs. Urameshi and Kurama also stop and look back. Yukina hands him his katana and says a soft 'be careful.' Though I can't hear it I can read her lips.
I'm goin' crazy crazy
When I can't touch you
My eyes widen in shock when Yukina leans in and kisses him. Hiei doesn't pull away. He leans in as well and I feel my blood boil. I hear Urameshi make a side comment.
"I still think it's strange when they do that."
"Yes, only because you're human. This is pure affection for them."
Affection? As in love affection? As in Hiei and Yukina are together now?! I knew it. The way he watched her when she was with us! He stole her from me!
Crazy crazy
When I can't hold you
Hiei wraps his arms around her and kisses her forehead. She allows him to do this in front of me. I tremble with fury at this. If she was going to leave me, she could've left for someone better than that midget! I can't believe she let him touch her!
Crazy crazy
When I can't see you again
Hiei disappears in a black blur and reappears ahead of us. As I pass him I look back Yukina who waves at him. I then glare at him and he only glares back. There's more threat behind his eyes than before. When Kurama and Urameshi are out of hearing distance, he speaks to me in a cold threat.
"don't you ever go near her again. I swear that you're first step towards her will be your last step anywhere!"
If I can't see you
If I can't see you again
I would go
If I can't see you again
I'd go crazy
He can't keep me away from her. I'll get her back from him even it kills me!
A/N: oooooo grudge city up in here. So I hope ya'll are enjoying this.Admittedly this could've gone better but i guess i'm off today. Anyway just as things are looking up I'm warning you after the next chapter things are going to take a jack knife turn for the worse so be prepared. I found a beautiful song so in order to fit it in this story has to go way down hill! So the next two songs that are coming up are Objection for a talk between Kuwabara and Yukina and Everytime for a really horrible plot turn. You'll hate me for it but the out come will be to you're liking so see ya then!