Behind Blue Eyes
No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
I see him sitting in an alley in a disgusting drunken stupor. The bastard probably doesn't even remember what he did! I walk slowly to where he is clutching a bottle. He doesn't even look up at me. My eyes are narrowed and I stop in front of him. He opens his eyes and looks up at me. He grunts and stands forcing me to look up at him. He smells foul and I step back to avoid the scent. When was the last time he had been sober. He looks down on me with dull unfocused eyes and rubs his head.
"What the hell do you want, shorty?" he asks in a slur
I don't answer. I just slowly unsheathe my katana. It's too dark to see the sword save for a glint in the moonlight. He just backs himself into the wall. He saw the glint too.
"What the fuck are you doing?" he asks. I feel his reiki rising. He's raising his defenses. "If you came to pick a fight with me now ain't the time, shrimp!"
I barely feel it as my jagan burns away at the kekkai. "I'm not here to fight you..." I say dangerously. My voice is low in carefully monitored rage. "I'm here to make you pay for what you've did to her."
"To who?!" I think he remembered because suddenly he smiled at me and closed his eyes as if he were pleased with himself.
"You mean Yukina baby." I growl at that nickname. He remembers. "Yeah, she was real sweet. Too bad she was a dead fuck. She didn't move at all! I see I wasn't missing anything!"
I feel my body shake as uncontrollable rage starts seeping through. My hand tightens around the katana as I mentally will myself to hold back. This one had to die slow.
"Of course I don't even see why you're botherin', Hiei. You don't care about her! I know you don't. I'm the only one who cares about her! She just can't see that! And what gave you the right to take her from me?! To make her hate me?!" he's just rambling but I still answer.
"I didn't turn her against you. You did. and the right I have is that I'm her brother!"
And no one knows what it's like
To be hated
To be fated
To telling only lies
He cries out as I thrust my blade into his shoulder. I've killed countless. Made them all suffer and my sword taste their blood, but this one I believe I will enjoy the most. I shove him off my sword and into the wall. He holds it trying to stop the bleeding. Only start with a minor wound first because he can't die yet. I reposition the blade and stab both his legs before he blinks. He won't be going anywhere. He falls to the ground on his back. He sits up and tries to scoot away from me. I simply watch him crawl with amusement. He begs me to stop.
"Did you stop when Yukina begged?" I ask coldly walking toward him.
I raise my sword above my head as he lifts his arm in defense. I swing down and the limb flies off to the side. He screams loud. Both terrified and in pain, he uses his other hand to press the ground and a chunk of his rei-ken flies from beside me cutting into my arm. I simply don't feel it. I barely even flinch and I smirk at him. I can smell the fear all over him as he continues to try and get away from me. I walk slowly to him, stalking him if you would. I raised my sword again hacking off his leg up to the kneecap. He's going in to shock. No, I can't have that right now. Not yet. I want him aware! I use the jagan to keep his mind there and feeling. Let his brain send the messages of pain a little while longer. I'm not done yet. As I keep him from slipping away, I slice away another leg. It's at that moment that I realize that his blood is getting all over me. There's too much of it to sink into my clothes. It's all over the ground too. A sight I haven't seen in a while. I narrow my eyes as I see him begin to cry. Now he cries in guilt. He didn't cry when he broke her heart. He didn't cry when she became angry...he sure as fuck didn't cry when he was raping her! She had to do all the tear shedding and all the bleeding. I brought let her stay here to keep her from doing that. This mother-fucker had to destroy al that!
But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscious seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free
I love Yukina with all my heart and he doesn't. He took advantage of everything she gave up to him. I tear away another part of his leg. I love my sister and she deserves to be avenged for this. And I give it to her. It's the only thing I can give to her. I slice his other arm. I reach down and yank him up to eye level. He's gasping and he asks,
"Why?"
No one knows what its like
To feel these feelings
Like I do,
And I blame you!
I laugh sadistically at this. What a dumbass! How can he even ask that!
"You want to know why? because I believe this is the only way my point will get across!" I say shoving the blade through his stomach.
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain woe
Can show through
It hurt to see flashes of what he did to her and her lying there like a blood-soaked angel. But I refuse to let it show. Not while I'm ending his life. I see the crimson liquid flow from his mouth. I hit a vital point. I think it's time to end this. I look down on this deformed figure below me and I raise my sword high in a stabbing position.
"It's been a long time..." I whisper. "since I've committed a free- willed murder!"
As I drive the sword into his head I hear two voices call my name, Kurama and the detective. I stand there with my steel still in his skull. My eyes are tired and my jagan slowly dims. I hear a hi-pitched scream. The ferry girl is with them. The fox is the only one that dares to approach me. He carefully removes my numb hands from the hilt. I remain still staring at the wall. I blink and I look from the fox to the detective to the ferry girl and last to my doing. I hadn't seen so much blood from one body since I was an assassin. I was covered in it and standing in a pool of it. I knew what was coming next and had no objection's too it.
But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscious seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free
I sit in the cell at reikai. I stare blankly at the floor. I recall everything that Koenma said at the trial.
"It is a serious crime for a demon to take human life. I do sympathize with your motives but I can't overlook reikai law. I'm sorry but for the bloody death of the ningen Kuwabara Kazuma, I sentence Hiei Jaganshi to death. I'm truly sorry, Hiei."
So here I am...waiting for my death. But I feel more fulfilled than I ever had in my life. They come visit me every now and then, Kurama and Yusuke. Even Genkai came. This is my last night though. I don't think they will come. That's when I hear the cell door open. The ogre who had guarded my cell practically shouted at me.
"Hey, Jaganshi! You have a visitor."
"I'm not deaf you moron!" I mutter. I hear light footsteps coming toward me and I look up. There is Yukina. Practically glowing in front of me. I stand and she smiles at me. She's completely healed but something behind her eyes tells me that not everything is better.
"Yu-"she stops me by putting a hand to my mouth.
"I know you believe I shouldn't be here. I'm not here to say that you shouldn't have killed him or that he didn't deserve it. I came to talk to you a last time." She says softly.
I nodded and sit on the cot again. She joins me. "I wanted to say I'm sorry for putting you through this."
"Wha-" she interrupts me again. "It's all my fault for letting myself fall into Kuwabara's hands. "I should've seen it before. I blame myself for what's about to happen to you. And..." tears are rising in her eyes. "I'm really really sorry. I never meant for everything to go this way. And..."
No one knows what it's like
To be mistreated,
To be defeated
Behind blue eyes
I hold her in my arms as she breaks into tears again. Why does she have to be the one that cries so much. "Don't. Don't be sorry. I chose this path and it wasn't your fault that I did what I did. I just didn't want to see you hurt ever again." I whisper in her ear.
She looks up at me again at a loss of what to say. I smile down on her, a genuine smile. She buries her head in my chest. The guard annoyingly calls time up for her. She clings to me not wanting to let go. I carefully disentangle her from me. I look into her eyes and I kiss her gently. My last kiss for her.
No one know how to say
That they're sorry
And don't worry
I'm not telling lies
It's early morning when they come for me. They take me out of the cell after making sure the kekkai are in place on my jagan and dragon. I'm marched to a strange gunmetal black room. They sit me in a chair and chain me to it. A few feet above me I see everyone I know there. Yusuke, Kurama, Botan, Shizuru, Yomi, Mukuro, the girl Keiko, and of course my sister. I look in her eyes and I say a silent 'I'm sorry.' Koenma is in the center of them and he steps forward.
"Hiei Jaganshi, for the murder of Kuwabara Kazuma, you're to be put to death as of now by soul displacement."
Soul Displacement? I never heard of this punishment. I suppose I've never seen the execution of a youkai who's killed a human. They aren't stupid enough to get caught. The group that brought me here leave in a hurry. I look straightforward to see this strange ghostly figure coming toward me. It's glowing white as snow. It gets to a good distance and I see it clearly. It's a woman...or at least it's female...its pure white with eerie clear irises. I suddenly feel fear. Something I've never known for real. I feel myself struggling against the bondages. This creature reaches out a bony hand and touches my face. I lose all will to get away. I look down with heavy eyes to see its hand buried deep with in my chest. What is it doing?
But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscious seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free
It pulls its hand out and I grunt painfully. I suddenly feel as though I'm fading away like I'm leaving my body behind. My eyes focus on the being's hand and I see it holding a shining black orb. Strange how black can glow... then I realize that's my soul...I feel sleepy and I see flashes of my Yukina. She's smiling happy. She's sad. she's angry. She's crying. And the best one, she's smiling with tears of joy in her eyes. I close my eyes slowly as something wet slides down my cheek...I barely register the tap on the floor. I relax in the chair, my whole body is suddenly numb... as darkness settles around me I have one regret about all this....
No one knows what its like
To be the bad man,
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes.
I wish I could be there for you...forever...
A/N: :cries: gosh that was so sad...okay...I'm okay. Anyway I hope you liked this chapter. I had to up the rating for it. Gruesome death. Anyway don't get discouraged! It ain't over yet!