Paper Cut
I suddenly find myself able to do things I could not before. Everything I wished I could do. I look in the mirror and I see a whole other person...it has only been a week and I feel myself becoming something else. My hair is that of Yuka's, my body is suddenly stronger and whenever I see a weapon I just get the urge to pick it up. I can twirl a Katana like I was born with it in my hands...I can take a dagger and throw it right on target with out even looking at what I'm throwing at. But what I am best at are these two blades. They aren't long enough to be swords, but they cause massive damage when youki is pushed into them. Mukuro says they have been in the weaponry room for gods know how long. They were there before she came into power over this place. I like these weapons. I can use them with ease and I find myself carrying them around a lot. The older youkai that have always lived there in the fortress say they knew Yuka when her brother ruled over Alaric. She would walk the halls with them as well. They knew every thing that was happening to me even when I didn't. The best I believe is my ability to make my ice youki into short throwing knives that delve into the dummies I practice with. It's out of character to say this but I find it fun. Yuka's voice has left me. I think it is because I have become her. Every thought I have about Hiei I'm sure is the same as her thought of Hiroshi.
Why does it feel like night today?
Something in here's not right today Go out to the balcony of my room and I see the beautiful sky of Makai darkening. I vaguely wonder why and I dismiss it as a change in the weather. I turn my attention to thought that this time tomorrow I'll be on my way to bloody castle.
Why am I so uptight today?
Paranoia's all I got left
I feel strange all of a sudden. I turn back and see the black clouds turn red. Mukuro's castle darkens in a sudden black out. I tense; my nerves make my neck prickle.
I don't know what stressed me first
Or how the pressure was fed
But For no reason I feel angry. I'm suddenly so stressed I could pull my hair out. My thoughts tell me I can't wait until tomorrow! I'm nervous, anxious even. I want to leave. I want to find him! I touch my temple feeling a throbbing pain.
I know just what it feels like
To have a voice in the back of my head
I groan at the dull pain. Is Yuka trying to tell me something? But what...? I thought I didn't have to worry about this until tomorrow. I grimace as this pain hits again. No not Yuka. It's an urge. I have to follow it or I believe my head will explode.
It's like a face that I hold inside
I close my eyes and reopen them. I see Hiei in front of me. I'm so angry I could murder him. I yell at him angrily but I hear no sound. He just looks away. I try to walk away but he grabs me and pulls me back...I strike him and storm away. He has no right to leave!
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
Close my eyes again and I see myself again...except I'm Yuka. She's killing and fighting. I open them again and look towards the mirror. I see myself. Blood covered.
A face watches every time I lie
"I know I wouldn't turn out like that if I stayed with Hiei! I won't become that way!" It gives me a disgusted disbelieving look. I know why...I'll become this way regardless because...I want to stay with him.
A face that laughs every time I fall
She gives a sinister smirk. She laughs and points out to the balcony. I turn and I see Bloody Palace. It's dark towers loom in the distance touching the sky. I can see the blood pouring fountains from here. I see cradling the castle with broken tattered wings, the Solitary Spirit. It howls at me. It's dead eyes locked with mine. I suddenly see Hiei's body floating there with in the hands of the Spirit. It's calling to me and I know in an instant I have to go alone.
(And watches everything)
So I know that when it's time to sink or swim
I run out the fortress unnoticed. They're to busy watching the storm. I Know I should've waited but I its now or never lest I miss my chance forever.
That the face inside is hearing me / Right underneath my skin
Again I see the blood-soaked me. She's smirking at me and pointing to the forest. I run into it not understanding what she's so happy about. I realize it as swarms of youkai I had never seen before were coming toward me. My eyes widen, I'm too scared to move...what do I do? One jumps ahead of the others and extends its bird-like talons at me. I close my eyes to frightened to do anything. She's in front of me again scowling at me. There around her neck as well as mine is a small black gem...Hiei's tear for me. "You're letting him down how sad," she spits at me. I growl. I open my eyes as my hands fall to my twin swords...I lower my head and I feel a smile...no a smirk creep upon my face. "Now, kill him." I order myself. Faster than my brain could register my hands pulled up and around. They twisted from side to side twirling my blades. All this occurred in a few seconds. The youkai lies in bloody pieces at my feet.
It's like I'm / Paranoid lookin' over my back
My head snaps up at the others who seem to pay no heed to the first's death.
It's like a / Whirlwind inside of my head
With a laugh I run toward them, disappearing before their eyes. I crouch in front of the first few and spiral upwards. They fall apart in layers that spray blood over me making my tunic turn a disturbing reddish purple with blue hints of what it use to be.
It's like I / Can't stop what I'm hearing within
Inside me, blood-soaked Yukina is telling me to keep going through them and don't hesitate. So I don't.
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin
She's enjoying this.
I know I've got a face in me
Points out all my mistakes to me
I know who she is now. She's the fire demon in me. The part of me that was blocked out by years of love and kindness. I saw her after I saw Yuka for the first time. When I was in a coma on the glacier...but she goes back a long away. She and I have struggled since I was a child. I would be kind to those who hate me and at night have nightmares about her spilling their blood.
You've got a face on the inside too and
Your paranoia's probably worse
Hiei has this other person as well. I know he does. I can see it in the way his eyes look whenever he kills an opponent. Like for a fraction he debates with his killer instinct. Yuka had it too. But because of her life hers had more control of her than mine. Now for the moment mine has complete control.
I don't know what set me off first but I know what I can't stand
Everybody acts like the fact of the matter is I can't add up to what you can
I can't remember what made her wake up but I know thing she's helping me get to him. She and everyone else look upon me as a sweet little girl that unfortunately can't measure up to Hiei. I have no problem with that as long as no one keeps reminding me...of course, they do. But right now, I'm driven to be like him.
But everybody has a face that they hold inside
I slay more of these bewitched youkai as I run through this forest while she guides my hands.
A face that awakes when they close their eyes
Hiei, you won't want me as your sister when you see me again. I'm something else now.
A face watches every time they lie
I've lied to myself for so long about everyone being naturally good.
A face that laughs every time they fall
I should've known when Tarukane found me and abused me. I shouldn't have resisted the urge to let you kill him and laugh about it.
(And watches everything)
She was there all along.
So you know that when it's time to sink or swim
It's time I grow up and protect him!
That the face inside is watching you too / Right inside your skin
Hiroshi is watching you and becoming you as Yuka became me. Lets end this together! I slice through more. They're becoming overwhelming and I've started jumping over them. I form my ice daggers and toss them through the crowd. They pierce through five youkai each before halting in a sixth youkai.
It's like I'm / Paranoid lookin' over my back
I look back with crazed eyes. They're so persistent!
It's like a / Whirlwind inside of my head
My head is reeling with so many different thoughts.
It's like I / Can't stop what I'm hearing within
I hear all the voices of those who've treated me wrongly and it angers me.
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin
I get desperate as they gain on me I turn to them and they stop at the confrontation. I feel a strange haunting cold in my chest. It's my youki. It's building up with out my willing it. What is this? The chill goes into my right arm and I feel it going numb.
The face inside is right beneath my skin
I look toward the youkai. They feel it too but they aren't sure what it is. I'm not even sure...
The face inside is right beneath my skin
I feel a hand grab mine. I look to see a bandaged arm aligned with mine. I feel a head rest on my shoulder. I turn and glance. It's Hiei! Aniki?! Is it really you? His bangs shadow his eyes as a smirk comes to play across his face. A shadow to help me...but where did it...the Black Hiruiseki! My arm tightens and I have feeling again.
The face inside is right beneath my skin
A whirlwind of icy youki gathers around my arm. I realize it's not just youki...it's pure ice mixed with youki. He aims my arm and hand to the horde in front of me. I realize it then. He has a dragon...so do I...
The sun goes down
The sun is beginning to set and snow is falling around us. My arm burns. Amazing to me. So ice can burn as well. The circling youki begins to spread around me and the shadow of aniki wraps an arm around me to keep me steady as this newfound power rises with in me.
I feel the light betray me
It's getting so dark. All I can see is my youki but I know the demons are there. They moved forward and were frozen to death by my youki. Aniki pulls my arm back and I stretch out my hand. He thrusts it forward. I hear a roar erupt from the air and a beautiful white dragon made of mist and ice flies out from my arm. It hurts! Ah I don't like this it's so painful! Then I see the dragon open its mouth and engulf all the possessed youkai. When it disperses all that is left are large pieces of ice. My arm throbs and is electrified with pain. It bleeds from wounds from my own youki...i made that happen?
The sun goes down
The sun is gone now and the stars shine above me. The howl of the Spirit screeches in the night. I run as fast as I can. I speed through the trees. Bloody palace is just ahead.
I feel the light betray me
Why did the sun have to go down? I think as I feel my way through this darkness. I just have to go forward!
It's like I'm / Paranoid lookin' over my back
I look back to make sure I won't be snuck up on.
It's like a / Whirlwind inside of my head
My head is becoming more and more dizzy as I near the forsaken place.
It's like I / Can't stop what I'm hearing within
I hear his voice. He's calling out to me.
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin
I feel blood-soaked Yukina and Yuka spurring me on telling me to hurry.
It's like I / Can't stop what I'm hearing within
I please keep calling me Hiei. I can hear you I'm coming!
It's like I / Can't stop what I'm hearing within
NO! I can't hear him anymore. I'm there!
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin.
Bloody Palace...Hiei...
A/N: sry I took so long with this chapter. I hope it doesn't suck. And please don't get mad at me for making Yukina kill. It's part of the plot. Anyway. I love all the reviews and it makes me feel really good that people love this story. When it's over don't say anything but ...:whispers: I might make a sequel. So keep it on the dl. Anyway coming up next is a beautiful song that I love very much. One of my favorites. I suggest you all listen to it sometimes. It's one of those songs that does something to you. It's called Cry Little Sister.