I'm floating here in endless dark. My newfound wings are battered and broken beyond recognition. It's so quiet and peaceful. I don't like it. I can't rest here.
I suddenly feel a warm embrace surround me and I smell my little sister everywhere.
"Aniki, open your eyes..."
I open them and look up. I'm on solid ground and my head rests in her lap. Her icy blue dragon wings flutter around her pale naked form.
"Where are we...?"
"This is Bloody Palace...this is the side that cannot be seen save for by those who know true pain and fear."
"Why are we here?"
"To resolve the conflict..." I look to the side to see Kurama standing they're looking at us.
"No need for hostility here."
"Why are you here?!"
"Because I am part of the conflict..."
"And so am I," what...Mukuro?
Why...why are they here?
"Because this must be resolved in order to end it..." Yukina said simply.
"Because each of us is linked to this..." Kato stated with a smirk.
"Each and everyone of us has a place in your heart Hiei. Though some are in the deeper parts..." Kurama whispered.
"And so we must all be present." They said together
"But none of us is real. You see I am the Yukina that exists in your own heart. What you see me as and what you think of me. Do you understand now Aniki?"
I simply nod. I'm unsure of what else to do right now. Yukina smiles softly at me then the room goes black. I'm standing now; my clothes and wings are gone again. Someone else is there. I feel another back against mine. I recognize the scent. It's the fox...
"Hiei, I am not Kurama. I'm the image of Kurama that your heart has constructed. What do you see in me?"
Kurama: Hiei!
I start to hear him calling me. Various visions appear before my eyes. I see Kurama from when we first met. I hated the way his hair was cut. He tends to me. I'm unconscious but he speaks to me anyway.
Kurama: I don't understand why one as attractive as you would be alone.
Ch. Baka Kitsune... I see him again. Watching me as I sleep in cell we shared. We waited for the worst.
Kurama: I'm glad I had the chance to be with you again. I don't care if I die as long as it's with you.
I my eyes widen. We're atop labyrinthine castle.
Hiei: why would anyone give their life because some one else couldn't pull their weight?
Kurama: Trust me Hiei there are reasons...
Hiei: hn. I wouldn't
Kurama...I would for you...no matter if you cared or not.
My thoughts empty as I see him 'reading' that book. We are at the tournament.
Kurama: "finally awake?" I'm glad he's all right.
I'm turning down rescuing Yusuke.
Kurama: though we could use his help I respect his decision to leave. He's so constant, even when his decisions seem heartless...one of the many things that attract me to him...
I'm fighting Shigure. How could he have seen this?
Kurama: Please! Don't do this Hiei. Live. If not for yourself then for me! Please, my love, don't die! Don't kill me!
I closed my thoughts. His voice made my chest ache...why...?
"You don't wish to see more? Do you really hate me so much?"
I couldn't answer. He had disappeared before I even said a word. Did I hate him...? How could he ask a question like that?
"Would you hate me if asked the same question?"
"Mukuro?"
"No..."
She leans her bare back against mine slightly.
"Right...you're the Mukuro that I see within my own heart."
"Yes, Hiei. I want to show you all that you have missed..."
The tournament...when I fought her...
Mukuro: he's so strong...and handsome too. But he doesn't seem to care about living...why...I'm sure there are others who care for him...I think I care whether he dies as well...
What made her care? Once again I'm up against Shigure...
Mukuro: Hiei, don't think you don't have a reason to continue. I want to see you live.
She now stands in front of the regeneration tank naked before me. Half her body is an array of wires...why did she wish me to see this.
Mukuro: you and I share so many similar scars Hiei...Don't die! Hiei fight! Fight to live! Live for me...I don't think I could love anyone else...not the way I love you
What way...? I don't understand this...not at all...I understand loving my sister...is that the same...
Mukuro & Kurama: no...ours is a different love...ours is what moves us to be near you. What moves us to keep you alive...what makes us hurt when you hurt...we love you in that way....
I know,
I know I let you down
"So I've made both of you suffer..." I whisper. I feel arms wrap around me from behind and pull me into a hardened chest. Kurama...
Kurama: Yes you have...
Mukuro: ...but we allow this suffering to continue...
Kurama: because true pain would mean living with out the one we loved most...
I've been a fool to myself
I thought that I could live for no one else
"I've been so foolish. I only fought to keep myself alive. When I saw nothing else to live for I sought to end my existence! But that's all I have!"
And oh
Through all the hurt and pain
Mukuro: ...then you hate me...?
Kurama: you despise me...?
It's time for me to respect
The ones who love me more than anything
"You say you both love me in a way I know nothing of but I feel this ache in my chest that tells me that I am wrong to cast you aside. But I only know how to live alone!"
Feel the sadness in my heart
Mukuro & Kurama: then you hate us...?
I feel more pain in my chest and my head begins to spin.
Feel the best thing I could do
"Yes. As long as I hated you, you couldn't interact with me. I hate Kurama, I hate Mukuro!"
I see Yukina's face smiling at me. "I hate Yukina!"
Is end it all
And leave forever
"I left all of you to avoid this interaction! I didn't want to become involved because it only meant I would be thrown away later!"
What's done is done
"I thought as long as I kept away from the three of you it would allow me to live with peace of mind!"
It feels so bad
Mukuro: but it hurts doesn't it!
Kurama: The pain you feel from abhorring everyone!
Yukina: and so you suffer the same...
What once was happy now is sad
Yukina: I smile for you...
She cries in front of me and turns away
Mukuro: I cry for you...
She scowls at me and turns her back
Kurama: I live for you.
He's bleeding badly his eyes going duller with each second; he also turns away...
I'll never love again
I can't love them....
"I can't love you...I don't know how!"
My world is ending...
Mukuro, Kurama, and Yukina: then you will continue to hate and we will die...
I wish
That I could turn back time
Cause now the guilt is all mine
Can't live with out the trust of those you love
Wait! Don't...I...don't want to be alone. I want to go back and say what I was suppose to say...what I have to say...
Yukina: but you throw away our trust...
Mukuro: you despise our feelings for you...
Kurama: but you don't want to be left alone?
And oh you can't for get the past
You can't forget love and pride
That most of all is killing me inside
Yukina: you've done wrong by us many times, aniki...
Kurama: you're blind to how much we care...
Mukuro: and so you've shattered our pride and wilted our love...
"I can't make up for it..." why does it hurt so much. This pain it's driving me insane...
It all returns to nothing
It all comes
Tumbling down
I reach for Kurama but he falls to pieces like glass.
Tumbling down
I turn to Mukuro and she also shatters...
Tumbling down
I turn to Yukina...not her. She cracks and falls the slowest.
It all returns to nothing
I just keep
Letting me down
Yukina: do you hate me for wanting to be beside you?
Letting me down
Mukuro: do you hate me for wanting to be there when no one else could?
Letting me down
Kurama: do you hate me for wanting to love you?
They all leave me and so I lie here.
In my heart of hearts
I don't hate you Yukina...I just don't know how to say what I feel...I'm defined my actions...
I know that I can never love again
Mukuro, Kurama...this love you both feel for me...I no nothing about...I can't return it if I don't understand it...
I've lost everything
Mukuro: then we can't stay with you...
Everything
Kurama: we'll fade away and you'll have nothing...
Everything that matters to me matters in this world
Yukina: and we won't matter to you anymore.
I wish
That I could turn back time
Cause now the guilt is all mine
Can't live with out the trust of those you love
They are gone from my vision...and so I lie here with guilt tearing my chest apart and I'm all alone.
And oh you can't for get the past
You can't forget love and pride
That most of all is killing me inside
I look above me, as Yukina run's her fingers through my hair.
"So here it is...you've kept your feelings bottled up inside and it's led to so many bad things. But you still can't say what you mean..."
"How do I say it...?"
Mukuro takes my hand and rubs her unscarred cheek on it. "You know how to say it...your just afraid..."
Kurama touched my cheek with soft hands. "Don't be afraid of us or our affection. We won't cast you aside..."
Oh oh oh oh
It all comes
"Affection...?"
Tumbling down
Yukina: I love you aniki!
Tumbling down
Mukuro: Hiei, I love you.
Tumbling down
Kurama: I love you, Hiei.
Oh oh oh oh
I just keep
I sit up surrounded by the three people that I...I love the most. The pain disperses and I can breath again...
Letting me down
Yuka: you've found yourself Hiei...
Letting me down
Hiroshi: and now you have to say what you mean
Letting me down
Yuka: so don't let fear stop you
Oh oh oh oh
It all comes
"But who are you?"
Tumbling down
Yuka: we are the hurt, the pain, the suffering...
Tumbling down
Hiroshi: we are what could've happen but we also did exist.
Tumbling down
Yuka: and now our spirits can rest...nothing left to hold us back.
Oh oh oh oh
I just keep
"Then you're free and so is Kato? But Yukina and I"
Letting me down
Yuka: are free to live
Letting me down
Hiroshi: and free to love
Letting me down
I can't breath suddenly...I'm floating upwards. What's happening? Is Bloody Palace letting me go? Then I'm free and so is my imouto-chan? No she isn't free yet.
Yuka: and that is why you must go...the power will remain there...inside both of you. It all belongs to you two now. Do with it as you will.
Hiroshi: Yukina must be brought back to reality...all you have to do is tell her what you really mean...
Then we can all breath again...
A/N: okay, that went well I suppose. My brain is fried so if anything confused you then email me and I'll let you know what I meant. On to the next chapter Bring Me to Life. Love that song