Bring me to Life

I open tired eyes and find myself surrounded by icy blue. A cold wind blows through my hair and clothes. My clothes...? They aren't the same. They have changed to a black tunic with a dark blue sash and trim. When did I get this...?

I don't pay too much attention to that matter. I take a quick glance around and realize I'm home. It's the koorime glacier.... I look up and see my sister. She's standing at the edge of this floating island looking outward. She looks just like a doll, a beautifully crafted doll. Her hair blows in the wind dancing like tattered silk. She shifts her head slightly as if to turn towards me but her hair hides her face. She remains so silent...and so do I. I have no idea what to say to her...

"Aniki?" her voice echoes. "Are we still...do we still exist?"

"Hai..."

"Where are we...? I opened my eyes and I was back home again."

"I think we're still in bloody palace. It hasn't let us go yet...'kina-chan, you have to go back to your body. We have to get out of here." I explain walking to stand next to her.

She simply looks at me with those bloodstones. Our father's eyes...

How can you see into my eyes

Like open doors

Her eyes peer deep into my own searching for something. Apparently she didn't find it...

"How did you know I wanted to go back to my life?"

"Yukina...?"

"Look into my eyes aniki and tell me I should return to a world that doesn't want me...?"

Leading you down into my core

Where I have become so numb

I do look but I can't speak. I see too much in those blood orbs that I can't use my voice. She suffered like me as well even before this...I just never knew...

"I don't want to leave...it's calm and peaceful and there's no one to hurt me or betray me nor leave me because I'm weak. I'm not happy yet I'm not unhappy. I'm just numb right down to my heart...and it makes me at ease..."

Without a soul

She walks to the edge... her skin so pale....her eyes so dull....no soul at all...

My spirit's sleeping somewhere cold

My chest aches as I see flashes of my mother standing there. But then it interchanges to Yukina lying on the altar. My blood runs cold suddenly. I realize what this is. This is the ledge from which I was thrown. This is the ledge my mother committed suicide leaping to her death over me. This is the place in which it all began. My suffering and hers...

Until you find it there and lead

"Why are you still here? Go back aniki. You have so many people who care about what happens to you. Don't stay here because of me..." she whispers.

I walk up to her and the aching grows as I approach the place in which I fell. Am I afraid of this spot? I don't ponder on it. I take her hand in mine. She stares at me with weary lusterless eyes.

"Aniki...?"

It back home...

"Let's go home, Yukina-chan..."

"No..."

Wake me up

Wake me up inside

She pulls away from me as I stand surprised. This isn't right...as she storms away in tears I see her lying cold and dead on that alter again.

Can't wake up

Wake me up inside

She stumbles and falls into the snow. I see my mother lying dead in the snowy forest below us, blood trickling from her mouth.

Save me

She sits up and sits there.

"Aniki...you never let me do anything to help you..."

Call my name and save me from the dark

"But I can't...when I tried was so scared and it was all dark...I was just plain too scared but I kept going....why...?"

"Yukina..."

Wake me up

Bid my blood to run

Suddenly the wounds she sustained from the youkai begin to appear and burst open.

Blood is running down her arms and face. Her tunic is becoming soaked with it...

Wake me up

Before I come undone

I run to her side to touch her but I fall right through her...

I push myself up and look at her. She's becoming so transparent but the blood is still running down into the snow.

Save me

I reach out for her but she pulls away crying and growing paler...

Save me form the nothing I've become

She runs to the ledge again and looks down...

"Why does this keep happening? Why can't we be happy?" she asks looking at her fading hands...

Now that I know what I'm without

You can't just leave me

"Because I can't say what mean...I know why you're fading away..."

This time I make a quick leap to her and I wrap my arms around her from behind...she suddenly becomes solid again. I hold her close to me.

"Don't run away from me, Yukina...I don't want that..."

Breathe into me

And make me real

"But...you ran from me!" she shouts and breaks from my hold. This causes her to lose balance and fall face first over the ledge. Once again I see my mother throwing herself gracefully from this very ledge.

I grab Yukina's hand before her feet leave the edge.

"Let go, aniki. I don't want to go back if you don't want me...if you're scared of me. Life won't be worth living if I have to lose you each time I blink." She's fading again and I pray that her hand doesn't fall through mine.

Bring me to life

"You won't loose me. We can live together and you can be happy again. I won't let you end it all here, I care too much!" I say yanking her back up to me.

Wake me up

Wake me up inside

I land on my back and she's falling onto me. She changes from herself to Kurama to Mukuro and then once again to herself landing on me.

Can't wake up

Wake me up inside

She lies on me and we stay that way for a while... she picks herself up and looks at me with those same soulless eyes.

Save me

"Aniki...I don't want to be rescued. I just want to go back to where it was calm quiet and dark...I don't like it but I didn't feel anything and it made feel better...don't bring me back aniki."

Call my name and save me from the dark

The glacier is becoming dark and she's fading faster. I can see the sky through her now. The only thing that remains in blue is that accursed ledge. What is it trying to tell me?

Wake me up

Bid my blood to run

When she lifts herself, I see some stranger...he looks like me...he's been shot through with ice arrows and seemed hurt badly... that...that's my father...?

Wake me up

Before I come undone

Yukina sits beside me broken and staring at our parents.

"Mother said that I needed to live to find you. But she said that she had lost her other half and the only thing that reminder her of him. She meant you...she said that I had to carry on and find you. But she didn't tell me what to do when I found you...I feel like I did this all wrong...."

She's disappearing and I reach out to touch her cheek. My touch solidifies her and she looks down at me

Save me

"Don't touch me...I don't want to leave..."

Save me form the nothing I've become

My parents fade away and Yukina gets up and runs to the edge.

"The only way you'll stop is if there is no way to save me, isn't it aniki?"

Bring me to life

"Yukina..."

"Then I won't let you save me...."

I've been living a lie

I don't realize what she's doing until she began tilting herself over the ledge.

There's nothing inside

I rose faster than I ever could and grabbed her only to tip over the edge with her. Gravity took its toll at the wrong time...

Bring me to life

As we fall, I feel the same dizzying sensation that I felt so long ago when I was thrown. I thought I had forgotten this feeling. She refuses to hold on to me. Instead she closes her eyes and fades.

Frozen inside

Aniki...I just didn't want you to hurt because of me...I feel as though this all my fault. They kept me instead of you...people took care of me and not you...but you don't know what it's like. The guilt of knowing that you are well taken care of. You don't have to do anything but be kind and quiet...but you. You had to fight to live and you had to fight to be near me...I don't want you to suffer anymore...and for your suffering to stop I can't be here anymore. I'm not needed nor wanted and I just cause you trouble...so I'll die and never make you unhappy...

Without your touch

Yukina...I don't want you to die...I need you... I touch her hand and it goes through her.

Without your love, darling

If you needed me...you would have told me I was your sister...if you needed me...you would've stayed with me...if you needed me...if you need me then...you...you...

Don't say it Yukina...

You would've told me you loved me...

Only you

I can see every opportunity missed. All my chances, every last moment I had with her. I realize that I couldn't erase it...but I want to try. I grab hold of her disappearing form and press her close to me.

Yukina...I understand now...I know why you wanted to be near me...why any of you fought to get close to me...but it's you I need the most.

Are the life among the dead

You're the only one who kept me alive. The need to find you and keep you safe was my only reason for living.

All of this time

My aniki's head is buried in my chest. He holds onto me keeping me from fading out of this godforsaken world. I hear his words and they touch. I wrap my arms around me. He speaks again to me with real words...aniki what are you trying to say?

"All this time..."

I can't believe I couldn't see

"You've been waiting for me to say what I feel ..."

Kept in the dark

"But I couldn't understand what you or any of them wanted from me."

But you were there in front of me!

"But the answer was right there..."

I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems

Aniki, I knew all along what you felt...I just turned a blind eye to it...I wanted to hear it...

Now to open my eyes to everything

Instead I realize I've cause you pain...I'm not worth it aniki...

With out a thought

"You're wrong!"

Without a voice

"I should have said it already!"

Without a soul

"But I'll say it now..."

Don't let me die here

I feel my body grow solid again. I cry and I burry my face in his hair. I don't want to die...I don't want us to die!

Must be something wrong

I want us to live!

Bring me to life

"I love you..."

Wake me up

Wake me up inside

My eyes snap open and I see the jagged rocks below us. I take tight hold of my aniki. "Let me save you this time..." I whisper.

Can't wake up

Wake me up inside

He tightens his hold on me as assurance. I smile and tilt my head back...

Save me

I feel my soul come back to me and I see my hair change to Yuka's style again...

Call my name and save me from the dark

Hiei...we'll make it...

Wake me up

Bid my blood to run

I wince and I feel liquid run down my back.

Wake me up

Before I come undone

I feel them burst through my back and tunic. Feathers of icy blue float around us

Save me

I'll save us...we'll live!

Save me from the nothing I've become

I flap and tilt us upwards. Everything comes back to color and I see the sun...

Bring me to life....

I fly up wards and I feel my aniki move against me. He looks at me tiredly. I run my fingers over his back and his own black dragon wings flare out. I take his hands in mine and we press them flat against each other. I smile warmly and he gives me one of my favorite smiles. Warm and loving....

I've been living a lie

There's nothing inside

"So, what if...what if we didn't make it...what if bloody palace still has us, Yukina?" I ask intertwining my fingers with hers.

"We're alive aniki. And I'm sure we're free of this. As long as wherever you go I'm right there with you...not always in person but in your heart."

"Then...as long as we're bonded we will always remain one soul."

"One soul, one life, one heart..."

Bring me to life...

Yukina and Hiei pov

We lean into each other and we press our mouths against the other. Now finally, I feel at ease...

A/N: not a bad 've done better but my brain has been tied with school. So anyway I realize something. I never did a freaking' disclaimer. But oh well. Ya'll know I don't own goddamn thing! And if you sue me...what's the matter with you? Suing a teenager!