Be not Nobody
By: Unica Michu
**Warning/Disclaimer: I do not own Yugioh or the characters. Or you would see 'Unica Michu' on the copyright!
I also I do not own Be not Nobody CD by Vanessa Carlton or any of her work, AOL, Di Gi Charat, Cartoon Network, Nintendo, or Speedball! (who does own that? Does anyone?) (-'-)-+ -I'm Gema
****Contains shonen-ai (shonen=boy ai=love. Shonen-ai= boy/boy love!)**** Don't like it, don't read! Flames against this will be deleted and ignored.
You've been warned.
For everyone else: Enjoy! ~_^
Chapters are named after tracks on the "Be not Nobody" CD by Vanessa Carlton CD that have to do with the chapter. So listen to the music and find out why the chapters are named what they are!
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Track One: Unsung
I
My feet move slowly across the side walk, I stare at my feet kicking randomly rocks along the way. I sigh. Another bad day. I got picked on during gym today, we were playing Speedball, and when I tried to do a two feet pick up, well, it hit me speedly in the balls. Then I got people saying "You liked it, didn't you?" It was horrible, they again brought up the fact that I'm bisexual.
I stop and look up and see my house in front of me. A typical suburb house, except minus the cars parked in the driveway. My dad is rarely ever home, he's constantly on business trips or at work. I'm not saying "It's like he's not even here." No, he does pop up every week or so to check on me, or send me letters occasionally. He's a good dad, it's just work gets in the way a lot. But, to make up for the time he isn't there to spend with me, I get lot's of things I want, no, most of the things I want.
I take my bookbag off for a second to get my keys. Once I grap them I rezipper it and unlock the door. CLICK
I throw my book bag on the couch and flip on the TV. It's on Cartoon Network. A commercial is playing, "Missed the premier of YuGiOh? Then catch it now to find out what you're missing!" I never really wanted to get into another one of those types of shows, when I got into Pokemon I got made fun of later on when the craze was over. But I might as well just watch it just for the sake of watching something.
By the middle of the show I'm starting to like it, I am! It's about this one boy named Yami. He's searching for his light, and answers to his past. He's transferred from Eygpt to Domino High and makes some friends: Joey, Anzu, Ryou, Mai, and Honda. He was challenged to a duel by Kaiba, a CEO of a big company that's in the same grade as he is! I'm surprised he needs to go to school. The interesting thing about Yami is, other then his handsome looks, his appearance is almost exactly like mine. But he's way way better looking and more mature then me. Ah, I'd love to meet him, but even if I did, why would he be interested in a shrimp like me? When I look in the mirror I can't point out one good thing about myself. The show ends where Yami is going to battle Seto Kaiba, an undefeated CEO of Kaiba Corp. Yup, Kaiba would have a MUCH better chance then me. Or that girl he's always with; Anzu I believe is her name.
I turn off the TV and grab my book bag and run upstairs to my room to do my homework. I'm a good student, straight A's ever since 5th grade. But then I get called a geek. Also, since I love games and stuff, it adds to my title "the geek". I quickly do my homework. And grab my GBA, which currently contains Golden Sun. Same old routine: Run home, watch TV, do homework, play games, eat, go on computer. It's the same boring thing everyday. I save my game and sigh. I exit my room to make my way down the stairs to the kitchen. It's barely lit now and the shadows are cast off every object in the living room, like a fun house mirror. I quickly go to the kitchen to make Mac&cheese and broccoli. I stare across the empty table. It's getting even dark out. I didn't bother to turn any lights on. Shadows cross the table and the room is an red blue shade to match the sky. I finish my dinner and clean the dishes, which gives me for the rest of the day to wander around online. So I walk upstairs to my room. I pull out the rolling and chair and flop down on it as I click on the AOL button on my desktop and I log in once the program loads. I wait as the dial goes extremely slow with the "Eu...eueeeeee". Once I connect I hear the annoying, "Welcome!" I look at my buddy list, hmmm, 0/0 of my buddies are online! Oh joy! I got bored so I decide to try to find more on this 'Yu-Gi-Oh'. I click around and soon find out that a Duel Monster game is out! A card game based on the show is out too! Yeah! Tomorrow I'm going to get the game! I look at the logo, Yami with cards in his hand. And for once, in a long time I've done something I haven't done. I smiled.
II
I manage to get through the next day. I run straight out of school to the game shop. But I hear a familiar laugh when I'm right in front of the shop
"So, the baby's going to buy more toys." Ukiro says sneering and grabbing my backpack. "If you're going to the game shop you most got some money on ya. A good deal of it too." He snickers and punches me. I cry in pain and I hit the cement sidewalk.
"Ow." I groan as I try to push myself up off the ground.
"Hey!" a voice yells out, "What do you think you're doing! Scram!" The man yells at them. I hear his foootsteps approaching. I manage to get to my feet. "Are you OK?" he yells at me.
"I'm fine..." I say, the world begining to swerve back and forth and blurs out and I see darkness replacing reality.
I cry there, in the middle of the darkness. Hoping, hoping I had something to live for. Someone to love. Something real... Something or someone to make me feel... But no... I'm just a lost lonely child...
"Angel...stop your crying." A rich strong voice says. I break down into hysterics knowing that the voice is calling someone he cares for, and it has me confused with them......
Nothing could care for me.
Not me.
Not stupid ugly, short, weak me.
Not me... Not- I gasp feeling arms wrap around me. My stomach starts doing flip flops with a burning sensation in my chest. Why is he doing this? Just to make me feel better. Everything just has to be fake... Games, emotions, smiles, life, love. I cry into his chest clutching to the material. I feel the strong arms pull me closer, and his hand strokes my multi-colored hair. He whispers into my ear soothingly, repeating the phrase, "Shh...stop crying, angel." My cries calm down to hiccups. "Shh...why do you cry, angel?"
His words send tingles down my spine. "I'm alone..." I feel more tears fall down my face as I feel ashamed, "No one cares about me...."
He wipes away my newly fallen tears. "I care. I care, angel." I smile weakly and feel warmth rush over me. I feel everything slowly fading away till I begin to hear someone.
"Mmmmg..." I groan.
"I think he's waking." I hear a voice say.
My eyes open and I find myself in a game with two people hovering over me. "Where am I?" I mumble as I go into a sitting position.
"You were getting picked on by those big thugs." the man explains.
"Yeah," the woman next to him replies, "Mr.Harris, the nice man next to you, carried you in the shop saying you fainted after he rescued you. He also bandaged up your nose, there was a nasty cut."
I flush while feeling the bandage on my nose and I wince at the pain, "I don't know what would have made me faint like that, I'm sorry. And thank you for rescueing me."
Mr.Harris smiles, "No, that's quite alright. Are you sure your fine?"
"Yes." I look around for a clock, "Do you know what time it is?"
"Why yes, it's 3:30." He looks at me quizzingly, "Why do you ask? Do you have to be somewhere?"
"I should be heading home, Mr.Harris." I recompose myself as I stand up, "Thanks for helping me." I smile.
"That's quite alright." He smiles back, "What your name?"
"Yugi."
"I'll see you around, Yugi."
"Yeah, bye." I smile as I stand up and leave the shop. Before I leave I hear Mr.Harris saying to lady,
"What a nice child. Why would he get picked on?"
I smirk as I open the door. I've been wondering that myself. I leave with the bells ringing as the door shuts.
III
The moment I reach home I yell, "Damn it!" I forgot to buy the cards I wanted! I throw my bag on the couch and flop down next to it. Well, that beating was for nothing. I take my wad of cash out of my pocket and sigh. I place it on the coffee table next to me. I'll just put it away later. The thought is soon dismissed to the back of my head. I turn on the TV and watch it for awhile.
After I watch about an hour of TV, I take out my homework and start working on my math problems. I start chewing at my pencil and I stare at the lead markings, it all seems like a blur of meaning. I fall back in on the couch in frustration. I watch the ceiling intently, it's off-white color boring me out of my mind. I close my eyes and find myself unable to open them again or move. I then fall asleep.
Like last time, I feel myself in warm, strong arms. I hear him whisper, almost seductively in my ear, "I'm happy that you're happy, Tenshi."
I smile in his warm embrace. I realize I must know who this is! I look at his face. My eyes grow big. "Ya-Yami.....? What are y-you do-doing h-here?"
Yami frowns. He disappears in my arms leaving me alone, confused, sad, and cold without his touch.
Why did he go?
Why is he here to begin with?
It makes no sense!
I eyes flutter open. I feel my wet lashes swat against my face, I was crying. Why am I having all these dreams about Yami? To show me I could never have him even if he was real, that I'd just skrew up? I feel more tears cascade down my face. I sniffle and wipe them from my face. I'm so damn stupid. Crying over a nonexistent cartoon character. But why, why does it hurt even though he's not real? I knew I shouldn't have watched YuGiOh.
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ALRIGHT! Chapter 1 is uncrappified!! 2 will be ready on Christmas as a gift! Expect the 7th chapter in end of Decemeber to January.
LEMON WINS!!! (Big surprise, you perverts. xD) Since Lemon has won, the rating will go up to R when chapter 7 is out, so look for it under that rating. Go here to look at the win picture of Yugi in his Lemon boxers! xD check my bio for the link to the picture. Please, if someone knows why it won't display addresses, please tell me. ^^;;
NEW FANFICTION BY ME: Have you read my new fanfiction? It's Y/YY (of course) called "My Dark Heart" Go read, you'll like it, I promise. And please drop a review I don't have many at the moment. ;_; (only 6, sadness...) It pretty short though, you should be able to finish it in no less then 10 mins. I'm not sure if it should be a 1-shot or not. So please tell me what you think.
****Also, you know how I drew a picture for the 100th reviewer? Well, I drew a picture of Yami Bakura that was one of my best and she just didn't reply and it's been almost a month now! I also wrote to one of my reviewers who flamed and got a secret ending thingy and she didn't respond either. o_O Look, if I don't get some reponses I'm am not giving away things anymore. Not to meantion it's rude and hurts my feelings. ;_; *****
**IMPORTANT!** I take back what I said about the Harry Potter thing. I was in a extreme deperession at the decline of reviews in chapter 7 and the prechapter. When I get a decline in reviews that tells me "Uh-oh, you're starting to stink up the fanfiction." when that happens I get discouraged. The only reason I write is to make others happy and because they read it. If I get no response I drop it. So PLEASE review and make me happy. Here's how my brain operates:
Depressed Unica= very slow updates. Sadness is caused by 1.) fight w/friend 2.) decline in reviews 3.) hunger or lack of sleep 4.) Sudden depressing realization T-T
Giddy Unica = extremely fast updates. Happyness is caused by 1.) Lot's of happy reviews 2.) Yummy food 3.) Fun times with friends. 4.) Demon Diary, Magic User's Club, and YuGiOh fanfictions. 4.) No homework and weekends 5.) New manga or Anime stuff 6.) Getting Shonen JUMP in the mail ^_^
Although you cannot control some of these things, you can help my mood by reviewing because it always dramatically improves my mood. All I ask is a couple secounds out of our yaoi lovin' lives to just say "Hey, your story's good. I liked reading it." and that will make me very happy, it's not hard, you can do it!! If you need help, here are the steps 1.) move your mouse over "Go" button 2.) Click "Go" button(left-click) 3.) Type your name and e- mail or sign in 4.) In the text box write your response to my story, Oh! There you go! Very good! See no finger cramps! 5.) Now, here's the hardest step, PRESS the "submit review" button ONCE! not twice, ONCE! Did you do it? GOOD JOB! You're a big girl now! (Are there any guys actually reading this? If so, tell me in the review box, I'll draw you a picture of your request! xD Stand proud yaoi-lovin males, stand proud!)
Ja ne~
By: Unica Michu
**Warning/Disclaimer: I do not own Yugioh or the characters. Or you would see 'Unica Michu' on the copyright!
I also I do not own Be not Nobody CD by Vanessa Carlton or any of her work, AOL, Di Gi Charat, Cartoon Network, Nintendo, or Speedball! (who does own that? Does anyone?) (-'-)-+ -I'm Gema
****Contains shonen-ai (shonen=boy ai=love. Shonen-ai= boy/boy love!)**** Don't like it, don't read! Flames against this will be deleted and ignored.
You've been warned.
For everyone else: Enjoy! ~_^
Chapters are named after tracks on the "Be not Nobody" CD by Vanessa Carlton CD that have to do with the chapter. So listen to the music and find out why the chapters are named what they are!
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Track One: Unsung
I
My feet move slowly across the side walk, I stare at my feet kicking randomly rocks along the way. I sigh. Another bad day. I got picked on during gym today, we were playing Speedball, and when I tried to do a two feet pick up, well, it hit me speedly in the balls. Then I got people saying "You liked it, didn't you?" It was horrible, they again brought up the fact that I'm bisexual.
I stop and look up and see my house in front of me. A typical suburb house, except minus the cars parked in the driveway. My dad is rarely ever home, he's constantly on business trips or at work. I'm not saying "It's like he's not even here." No, he does pop up every week or so to check on me, or send me letters occasionally. He's a good dad, it's just work gets in the way a lot. But, to make up for the time he isn't there to spend with me, I get lot's of things I want, no, most of the things I want.
I take my bookbag off for a second to get my keys. Once I grap them I rezipper it and unlock the door. CLICK
I throw my book bag on the couch and flip on the TV. It's on Cartoon Network. A commercial is playing, "Missed the premier of YuGiOh? Then catch it now to find out what you're missing!" I never really wanted to get into another one of those types of shows, when I got into Pokemon I got made fun of later on when the craze was over. But I might as well just watch it just for the sake of watching something.
By the middle of the show I'm starting to like it, I am! It's about this one boy named Yami. He's searching for his light, and answers to his past. He's transferred from Eygpt to Domino High and makes some friends: Joey, Anzu, Ryou, Mai, and Honda. He was challenged to a duel by Kaiba, a CEO of a big company that's in the same grade as he is! I'm surprised he needs to go to school. The interesting thing about Yami is, other then his handsome looks, his appearance is almost exactly like mine. But he's way way better looking and more mature then me. Ah, I'd love to meet him, but even if I did, why would he be interested in a shrimp like me? When I look in the mirror I can't point out one good thing about myself. The show ends where Yami is going to battle Seto Kaiba, an undefeated CEO of Kaiba Corp. Yup, Kaiba would have a MUCH better chance then me. Or that girl he's always with; Anzu I believe is her name.
I turn off the TV and grab my book bag and run upstairs to my room to do my homework. I'm a good student, straight A's ever since 5th grade. But then I get called a geek. Also, since I love games and stuff, it adds to my title "the geek". I quickly do my homework. And grab my GBA, which currently contains Golden Sun. Same old routine: Run home, watch TV, do homework, play games, eat, go on computer. It's the same boring thing everyday. I save my game and sigh. I exit my room to make my way down the stairs to the kitchen. It's barely lit now and the shadows are cast off every object in the living room, like a fun house mirror. I quickly go to the kitchen to make Mac&cheese and broccoli. I stare across the empty table. It's getting even dark out. I didn't bother to turn any lights on. Shadows cross the table and the room is an red blue shade to match the sky. I finish my dinner and clean the dishes, which gives me for the rest of the day to wander around online. So I walk upstairs to my room. I pull out the rolling and chair and flop down on it as I click on the AOL button on my desktop and I log in once the program loads. I wait as the dial goes extremely slow with the "Eu...eueeeeee". Once I connect I hear the annoying, "Welcome!" I look at my buddy list, hmmm, 0/0 of my buddies are online! Oh joy! I got bored so I decide to try to find more on this 'Yu-Gi-Oh'. I click around and soon find out that a Duel Monster game is out! A card game based on the show is out too! Yeah! Tomorrow I'm going to get the game! I look at the logo, Yami with cards in his hand. And for once, in a long time I've done something I haven't done. I smiled.
II
I manage to get through the next day. I run straight out of school to the game shop. But I hear a familiar laugh when I'm right in front of the shop
"So, the baby's going to buy more toys." Ukiro says sneering and grabbing my backpack. "If you're going to the game shop you most got some money on ya. A good deal of it too." He snickers and punches me. I cry in pain and I hit the cement sidewalk.
"Ow." I groan as I try to push myself up off the ground.
"Hey!" a voice yells out, "What do you think you're doing! Scram!" The man yells at them. I hear his foootsteps approaching. I manage to get to my feet. "Are you OK?" he yells at me.
"I'm fine..." I say, the world begining to swerve back and forth and blurs out and I see darkness replacing reality.
I cry there, in the middle of the darkness. Hoping, hoping I had something to live for. Someone to love. Something real... Something or someone to make me feel... But no... I'm just a lost lonely child...
"Angel...stop your crying." A rich strong voice says. I break down into hysterics knowing that the voice is calling someone he cares for, and it has me confused with them......
Nothing could care for me.
Not me.
Not stupid ugly, short, weak me.
Not me... Not- I gasp feeling arms wrap around me. My stomach starts doing flip flops with a burning sensation in my chest. Why is he doing this? Just to make me feel better. Everything just has to be fake... Games, emotions, smiles, life, love. I cry into his chest clutching to the material. I feel the strong arms pull me closer, and his hand strokes my multi-colored hair. He whispers into my ear soothingly, repeating the phrase, "Shh...stop crying, angel." My cries calm down to hiccups. "Shh...why do you cry, angel?"
His words send tingles down my spine. "I'm alone..." I feel more tears fall down my face as I feel ashamed, "No one cares about me...."
He wipes away my newly fallen tears. "I care. I care, angel." I smile weakly and feel warmth rush over me. I feel everything slowly fading away till I begin to hear someone.
"Mmmmg..." I groan.
"I think he's waking." I hear a voice say.
My eyes open and I find myself in a game with two people hovering over me. "Where am I?" I mumble as I go into a sitting position.
"You were getting picked on by those big thugs." the man explains.
"Yeah," the woman next to him replies, "Mr.Harris, the nice man next to you, carried you in the shop saying you fainted after he rescued you. He also bandaged up your nose, there was a nasty cut."
I flush while feeling the bandage on my nose and I wince at the pain, "I don't know what would have made me faint like that, I'm sorry. And thank you for rescueing me."
Mr.Harris smiles, "No, that's quite alright. Are you sure your fine?"
"Yes." I look around for a clock, "Do you know what time it is?"
"Why yes, it's 3:30." He looks at me quizzingly, "Why do you ask? Do you have to be somewhere?"
"I should be heading home, Mr.Harris." I recompose myself as I stand up, "Thanks for helping me." I smile.
"That's quite alright." He smiles back, "What your name?"
"Yugi."
"I'll see you around, Yugi."
"Yeah, bye." I smile as I stand up and leave the shop. Before I leave I hear Mr.Harris saying to lady,
"What a nice child. Why would he get picked on?"
I smirk as I open the door. I've been wondering that myself. I leave with the bells ringing as the door shuts.
III
The moment I reach home I yell, "Damn it!" I forgot to buy the cards I wanted! I throw my bag on the couch and flop down next to it. Well, that beating was for nothing. I take my wad of cash out of my pocket and sigh. I place it on the coffee table next to me. I'll just put it away later. The thought is soon dismissed to the back of my head. I turn on the TV and watch it for awhile.
After I watch about an hour of TV, I take out my homework and start working on my math problems. I start chewing at my pencil and I stare at the lead markings, it all seems like a blur of meaning. I fall back in on the couch in frustration. I watch the ceiling intently, it's off-white color boring me out of my mind. I close my eyes and find myself unable to open them again or move. I then fall asleep.
Like last time, I feel myself in warm, strong arms. I hear him whisper, almost seductively in my ear, "I'm happy that you're happy, Tenshi."
I smile in his warm embrace. I realize I must know who this is! I look at his face. My eyes grow big. "Ya-Yami.....? What are y-you do-doing h-here?"
Yami frowns. He disappears in my arms leaving me alone, confused, sad, and cold without his touch.
Why did he go?
Why is he here to begin with?
It makes no sense!
I eyes flutter open. I feel my wet lashes swat against my face, I was crying. Why am I having all these dreams about Yami? To show me I could never have him even if he was real, that I'd just skrew up? I feel more tears cascade down my face. I sniffle and wipe them from my face. I'm so damn stupid. Crying over a nonexistent cartoon character. But why, why does it hurt even though he's not real? I knew I shouldn't have watched YuGiOh.
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ALRIGHT! Chapter 1 is uncrappified!! 2 will be ready on Christmas as a gift! Expect the 7th chapter in end of Decemeber to January.
LEMON WINS!!! (Big surprise, you perverts. xD) Since Lemon has won, the rating will go up to R when chapter 7 is out, so look for it under that rating. Go here to look at the win picture of Yugi in his Lemon boxers! xD check my bio for the link to the picture. Please, if someone knows why it won't display addresses, please tell me. ^^;;
NEW FANFICTION BY ME: Have you read my new fanfiction? It's Y/YY (of course) called "My Dark Heart" Go read, you'll like it, I promise. And please drop a review I don't have many at the moment. ;_; (only 6, sadness...) It pretty short though, you should be able to finish it in no less then 10 mins. I'm not sure if it should be a 1-shot or not. So please tell me what you think.
****Also, you know how I drew a picture for the 100th reviewer? Well, I drew a picture of Yami Bakura that was one of my best and she just didn't reply and it's been almost a month now! I also wrote to one of my reviewers who flamed and got a secret ending thingy and she didn't respond either. o_O Look, if I don't get some reponses I'm am not giving away things anymore. Not to meantion it's rude and hurts my feelings. ;_; *****
**IMPORTANT!** I take back what I said about the Harry Potter thing. I was in a extreme deperession at the decline of reviews in chapter 7 and the prechapter. When I get a decline in reviews that tells me "Uh-oh, you're starting to stink up the fanfiction." when that happens I get discouraged. The only reason I write is to make others happy and because they read it. If I get no response I drop it. So PLEASE review and make me happy. Here's how my brain operates:
Depressed Unica= very slow updates. Sadness is caused by 1.) fight w/friend 2.) decline in reviews 3.) hunger or lack of sleep 4.) Sudden depressing realization T-T
Giddy Unica = extremely fast updates. Happyness is caused by 1.) Lot's of happy reviews 2.) Yummy food 3.) Fun times with friends. 4.) Demon Diary, Magic User's Club, and YuGiOh fanfictions. 4.) No homework and weekends 5.) New manga or Anime stuff 6.) Getting Shonen JUMP in the mail ^_^
Although you cannot control some of these things, you can help my mood by reviewing because it always dramatically improves my mood. All I ask is a couple secounds out of our yaoi lovin' lives to just say "Hey, your story's good. I liked reading it." and that will make me very happy, it's not hard, you can do it!! If you need help, here are the steps 1.) move your mouse over "Go" button 2.) Click "Go" button(left-click) 3.) Type your name and e- mail or sign in 4.) In the text box write your response to my story, Oh! There you go! Very good! See no finger cramps! 5.) Now, here's the hardest step, PRESS the "submit review" button ONCE! not twice, ONCE! Did you do it? GOOD JOB! You're a big girl now! (Are there any guys actually reading this? If so, tell me in the review box, I'll draw you a picture of your request! xD Stand proud yaoi-lovin males, stand proud!)
Ja ne~