Be not Nobody
By: Unica Michu
**Warning/Disclaimer: I do not own Yugioh or the characters. Or you would see 'Unica Michu' on the copyright!
I also I do not own AOL, Planet Ladder, Farhenhiet 451, Polysporn, CLOVER, or Wizard of Oz (V) -I'm moochi! (sp?)
****Contains shonen-ai (shonen=boy ai=love. Shonen-ai= boy/boy love!)**** Don't like it, don't read! Flames against this will be deleted and ignored.
You've been warned.
For everyone else: Enjoy! ~_^
Chapters are named after tracks on the "Be not Nobody" CD by Vanessa Carlton CD that have to do with the chapter. So listen to the music and find out why the chapters are named what they are!
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Track Three: Twilight
I
I shiver against the wind with my eyes still shut. Wait? Wind? My window was shut. I never even opened it today. I open my eyes. I see I'm in a dark alleyway. Shadows dancing everywhere, the wind blowing, ruffling my hair. I shiver again. I scrunch in the corner I'm in and try to keep warm, my PJ's are rather light-weight. What am I doing here? I thought I was in my room? This must be a dream. A lucid dream. Yeah, a lucid dream. I'll wake up any minute now. I cast my stare at the clouded night sky. The stars are faint in the city due to light pollution but they are still visible. I sigh and try to fall asleep against the brick wall but I don't succeed. The wind starts picking up. But wait, if I'm trying to fall asleep, then it can't be a dream! "ARG!" I yell to the twilight. This isn't making any sense! How did I wake up here, in an alley in the middle of the night? I hear footsteps approaching, I try to hide behind a nearby trashcan, but end up giving away my position.
The footsteps stops in front of me, "Well, well, what do we have here?" the figure sneers at me. I gather what little courage I have and look up at the person. No make that persons. A guy that looks much like Ukiro, big, bulky, and ugly. Not only that, he's with a group of guys that look just as friendly.
One of his thugs speaks, "Do you know what happens to puppies to run away?"
"Yeah, they get punished. Right, Ushiro?"
"For once your right, Ratco."
I try to melt into the wall, end up getting grabbed and getting my wish as Ushiro slams me against the cold bricks. I cry out to the twilight again but this time in physical pain. They throw me against the wall again and I fall to the cement, broken. A broken, lost lonely child. My tear- swelled eyes stare at the brutes with a sick happiness in their eyes I tremble, why fight it? No one will come to save me at this hour of the night, and there's no one who'd want to look for me. I see them ready to deliver a final bone-crushing punch. My tear filled eyes clamp shut. I whimper and tremble, please someone. Just stop them for once. Just this once.
"STOP!"
Ushiro averts his glaze to the one who yelled. "Who dares to order me around?"
I take in deep breathes, my body still shaking. I don't even bother looking up, my tears flow down, my numb fingers grasp by knees and I huddle up in a ball.
"You. Leave that boy alone!" the dark voice says.
"Why should I?"
"You shall suffer a fate worse then death." The shadowed figured draws closer to the group. The figure raises his hand and a purple glow begins to form in his hand.
I open my eyes wanting to see what he'll do. Why does he care so much of what happens to me? Last time I checked I have no friends. A purple glow is forming in his hand! Is it just me or did the wind just pick up? I shiver. The glow grows intense and his face lights up for a moment, just a moment, but just long enough for me to recognize the black, blonde, and crimson hair. "Mind crush!" A glowing Eye of Horus appears on his forehead. I once again curl back into a ball. He'll probably ask me to duel him or banish me because I look just like him and he thinks I'm mocking him or something. Just great. Just great indeed. I hear their screams. I don't want to be stuck in the shadow realm. I open my eyes to look, sure enough, they're gone. But wait, how did this happen? Magic doesn't exist. Yami doesn't exist, he's just an Anime character. I wish he wasn't here, whatever those guys did can't be HALF as bad as what he can do! I cry, this must be some cruel prank or some whacked-up dream like I was always having before. I huddle into a ball. Hoping if I pull hard enough I'll disappear. I hear his footsteps approach.
"Hikari?" his rich velvet voice asks.
"No..." I squeak.
"What?" he comes closer to me, I can hear him, but I don't dare look at him, "I didn't hear you."
I yell at him, "You've got the wrong person! Leave me alone!" I begin to cry into my knees. Really not caring what anyone thinks. How can people be so cruel? I'm a broken, lost, lonely child with no friends. Why do they have to play such a cruel joke?
I feel his hand touch my arm, "No! I feel it from you! Hikari-chan! I've found you!" I feel him embrace me.
"Shut up! This isn't funny! I have feelings too! Why do you have to play such an inhuman joke! I-I-" unable to finish my sentence I start crying into my knees again, still not able to face this so called Yami.
"What are you talking about, Hikari?" I feel him release me.
"Stop it! Leave me to rot! I don't care, but call off this stupid joke! I'm NOT your Hikari! I'm a damned scum of the Earth!"
Yami pulls me into his arms, making me come out of my human sheild I've created from the world, "Shhhhh...Stop crying, angel. I'm not joking. I don't know why I would be, and you're not the scum of the Earth. My little Hikari, shhh stop crying." Like in my dream, I clutch to Yami's chest as his arms encircle me and his hands strokes my head and whisper soothing words. I don't care if this is a prank or some dream, I cry as I hold onto him, slowing feeling better. Being able to cry into someone's arms is relatively nice for a change, being able to realse held in feelings is even nicer. "Shh, it's OK, Hikari. I'm here. No one will hurt you now. Shh, I'm here." I feel sleep trying to claim me as my eyes grow steadily heavier, "What's your name, angel?"
"Yugi..." I feel my eyelids flutter as they fall against my cheeks and fall asleep in the bishonen's arms.
Yami stands up with his newly found light in his arms. He smiles at Yugi rested face. "Only a couple minutes ago his face was flowing with tears. I know he was getting beat up, but why did he sound so beat mentally? He seemed to be used to being treated like trash. But why? Oh my poor Hikari." Yami holds him tighter, examining his wounds. "He's has so many cuts and bruises. I'll have to take care of that when I get back to Grandpa's. It's a good thing I felt his presence or he might not be in my arms tonight..." Yami blushes at his last comment. "But why didn't I feel his presence before? Is my magic becoming rusty? And why is my little hikari in his PJs in the middle of the night?" Yami walks along the deserted main street to the Kame Game Shop. He walks up to the door and takes out his key with Yugi still in his arms and opens the door. Yami runs to the bathroom and places Yugi down on the ground. He takes out some bandages and polysporn. Yami quickly takes care of his cuts and brings him into his room.
Yami lays Yugi on his bed and tucks him in. Yami grabs an extra pillow and puts it next to Yugi. Yami goes under the covers and closes his eyes. After a while, both of the boys are asleep.
II
When I open my eyes....
He'll be gone...
It was just a dream....
Like every time...
I think before my open my eyes. I find myself looking in dark leather, with my arms clutching tightly to the warmth with warm, strong arms around my waist. I realize I'm in Yami's arms! So it wasn't a dream? B- but... It's not possible! Yami doesn't exist! I feel myself blush never the less. Here I am in the bishonen of my dreams arms, him declaring I'm his hikari and I obviously slept with him. My face grows even hotter. I try to break away from his arms but he just pulls me closer, now my face is at his neck. His tan, delicious, perfect neck. With of course, the famous buckle. I feel his cold fingers touching my bare skin of my back where my shirt was a bit bunched up. I yelp and grow even redder. If that was possible.
I feel him rustle and yawn. His head looks down at me. He smiles, "Good morning, Hikari." I hear his rich velvet voice whisper.
"EP!" I jump and back away.
He laughs, "Did I surprise you?"
"Yes!" I blurt out, letting anything fall out of my mouth now. I mean, I'm in a cartoon characters arms! Of course I'm going crazy for god's sake. The men in white are going to be coming any minute now...
He chuckles again, and taps my nose winking. "Come on. I need to introduce you to my grandpa, and I need to talk to you, aibou." Aibou! Yami just called me aibou! I swear it's taking all my strength to stop myself from swooning. Yami... called.... me... partner... and tapped my nose winking! Wait, wasn't my nose cut? Hey, it's healed. How did that happen? I see a hand wave in front of my face, "Hello?"
I blush realizing I must be acting pretty weird spacing out like that, "Eh heh. Sorry. Yeah, let's go downstairs. But uh, Yami?"
"Yes?" Yami stop in the middle of the doorway, and turns his head looking at me.
Oh god, he's even hotter in person, I blush, "Uh-I don't have any clothes to wear. Um I mean, uh, casual clothes to wear..." I blush even at my slip up.
He smiles, "We'll go shopping for you later, I have some spare clothes you can wear in the mean time. But for now, let's just eat." I nod and follow after him.
"Good morning Yami! And, who's this?" an old man says from the stove. I realize who it is, Its Grandpa!
"Grandpa, this Yugi, my hikari. I found him last night when I felt his presence. I don't where he was hiding all this time." he smiles at me. I start to feel butterflies set afire in my stomach, but not in the good way like when Yami holds me. I don't even know where I am, myself. But, Toto, I don't think we're in Kansas anymore. So I must have gotten into their world or something. But, doesn't that mean, I'm not his hikari? Won't his real hikari still be out there somewhere?
//Yugi! Say something!//
I jump, was Yami just in my head?! "Nice to meet you Mr. Muto!"
He smiles, "Please, Grandpa is fine."
I nod. //Aibou, how did know my last name?//
I jump again. What's up with that? Yami looks at me and laughs, "I see you're not used to me talking to you telepathically."
Is that what he was doing? //Yugi, calm down. You're confused aren't you? But I'll explain everything later.// I nod. Yami walks over to the table and sits down. I do the same. Grandpa serves us our breakfast. I eat quickly, stuffing the toast down my mouth. Yami begins to talk after I hear his glass touch the table. "Yugi, where were you all this time? How come I couldn't feel you?"
The last words make me blush. Yami looks at me puzzeledly. "Um..." I try to think of something convincible quickly. I can't say I was at a different world where you were a TV show and I somehow fell into your world! I know there's magic here, but still! Yami'd think I'm a nutter! "I, just came to Domino." Well, it wasn't a complete lie.
"Where's your mom?"
I feel my tears starting to form. Everyone just HAS to ask, people at school, and now Yami. Why don't they just ask about my dad? My mom. I feel my heart clentching.Yami becomes aware of my tears, "Th-that's OK Yugi! You don't have to answer. Is there anything you want to ask, Yugi?"
Well there is on thing that has been nagging at my mind, "Yami, what am I supposed to do? Being your hikari and all."
He blinks, "I need you in order to complete my power, and I'm not whole without you."
I mumble a soft "oh." Great, being used even in a fake world. Even by my own so called "dark side".
//What's wrong? I can feel that you're sad.//
"It's nothing."
Yami frowns. //Come on Yugi, tell me.//
"I said it's nothing..."
He sighs and stands up, "If you say so. If you say so." Yami leaves the kitchen and goes to his room.
I hope I didn't make him mad at me...Great, more people mad at me. I sip my orange juice. But, if I'm not from here, then wouldn't I not be his hikari? And his hikari would be somewhere in this world. So I'm not him... I feel myself becoming sick. Great I'm living in someone else's life, with Yami thinking I'm his hikari. He'll be so mad when he finds out! He'll hate me! My favorite anime chara and crush will hate me! I wanna go home now. I don't care if I'm shunned. It's better then living in this lie! I wish I never found this puzzle! This stupid puzzle. I stare down at it.
//Hikari? What's wrong?//
I don't respond, //Come one, you can mind speak back. Try.//
I try to mind speak, 'But I can't. Probably because I'm not your hikari!' I feel like crying. I realize I didn't come close to mind speaking with Yami. It's true! It's TRUE!
//Yugi?//
I run to the bathroom and lock the door behind me. I wanna go home. I want Yami to leave me alone. I want everyone to leave me alone!
//Yugi! What's wrong? Please talk to me, angel!//
I scream from the bathroom wall I'm huddled against, "Shut up! I'm not your angel, lemme alone!" I take off my puzzle and throw it across the room. When it hits the wall it falls back apart. I wish I never found it! I wish I wasn't even born! I cry in my knees. Once again, hoping if I huddled close enough I'd disappear. Because that's all I can do! And by the looks of it, I can't even do that right! I'm pathetic! I hear the rapid pounding on the door. POUND POUND!!
"Yugi! Let me in! What's wrong?" I hear Yami yell.
I don't answer I just continue sobbing. I'm so weak, all I can ever do is cry. I manage to croak out, "...Just leave me alone..." I feel my self losing control. Everything turns into a blur, complete blur...blur...smear...*
Pound scream pound scream, sob, pound scream pound pound scream, sob, pound pound scream scream, cry. Cabinet, flip grab flip grab shiny sharp shiny. Shiny clink shiny shiny shiny smooth sharp clink shiny shiny, scream pound pound, clink. Pound pound scream, pound pound pound scream. Shiny drip red drip, scream pound. Tear, scream pound pound pound scream. Laugh. Pound pound pound scream scream. Red, pound pound scream, clink, pound pound scream. Scream pound, clink, scream, red drip...smile
BAM! BAM! Door... red yellow black..drip drip... warm...drip red soft soft dizzy
"Yugi, why did you do this? Please don't die. Please Yugi!"
Smile red red red...blurry blury. Smile smile blurry. Drip drip red
"Why Yugi?! Don't you care that I care, that people care about you? Don't die! Dear God, don't die..."
Smile smile drip drip blur blur black... scream...
III
I look into the twilight sky. So dark, but there's still the stars illuminating in the vast enternal void.
I see the whole world go dark, like a few moments ago
I turn around, Yami's there.
It's enough he haunts my days, now he even haunts my mind.
"Yugi, please don't leave me." his sad voice asks.
"I'm not who you think I am Yami." I turn my head
"You're my hikari, Yugi. That's enough for me."
"No I'm not. No I'm not." I turn away from him and run into the darkness.
Yami appears from behind me and wraps his arms around me, "Stop running from me. Stop running. I don't know why you don't think you're my hikari. But stop running, angel. Angels are made for flying, not running. So fly. Fly with me."
"But this isn't my life! I'm in someone else's!" I try to break free from his embrace but to no avail, "I'm not your hikari! I run, because I want to get away from this miss assigned role! Don't you get it? I can't fly, don't you see?"
Yami whispers in my ear, "You're my hikari. Where ever you run, I will follow."
*speak words one word at a time to get the effect. Anyone like Ray Bradbury? (F 451)
By: Unica Michu
**Warning/Disclaimer: I do not own Yugioh or the characters. Or you would see 'Unica Michu' on the copyright!
I also I do not own AOL, Planet Ladder, Farhenhiet 451, Polysporn, CLOVER, or Wizard of Oz (V) -I'm moochi! (sp?)
****Contains shonen-ai (shonen=boy ai=love. Shonen-ai= boy/boy love!)**** Don't like it, don't read! Flames against this will be deleted and ignored.
You've been warned.
For everyone else: Enjoy! ~_^
Chapters are named after tracks on the "Be not Nobody" CD by Vanessa Carlton CD that have to do with the chapter. So listen to the music and find out why the chapters are named what they are!
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Track Three: Twilight
I
I shiver against the wind with my eyes still shut. Wait? Wind? My window was shut. I never even opened it today. I open my eyes. I see I'm in a dark alleyway. Shadows dancing everywhere, the wind blowing, ruffling my hair. I shiver again. I scrunch in the corner I'm in and try to keep warm, my PJ's are rather light-weight. What am I doing here? I thought I was in my room? This must be a dream. A lucid dream. Yeah, a lucid dream. I'll wake up any minute now. I cast my stare at the clouded night sky. The stars are faint in the city due to light pollution but they are still visible. I sigh and try to fall asleep against the brick wall but I don't succeed. The wind starts picking up. But wait, if I'm trying to fall asleep, then it can't be a dream! "ARG!" I yell to the twilight. This isn't making any sense! How did I wake up here, in an alley in the middle of the night? I hear footsteps approaching, I try to hide behind a nearby trashcan, but end up giving away my position.
The footsteps stops in front of me, "Well, well, what do we have here?" the figure sneers at me. I gather what little courage I have and look up at the person. No make that persons. A guy that looks much like Ukiro, big, bulky, and ugly. Not only that, he's with a group of guys that look just as friendly.
One of his thugs speaks, "Do you know what happens to puppies to run away?"
"Yeah, they get punished. Right, Ushiro?"
"For once your right, Ratco."
I try to melt into the wall, end up getting grabbed and getting my wish as Ushiro slams me against the cold bricks. I cry out to the twilight again but this time in physical pain. They throw me against the wall again and I fall to the cement, broken. A broken, lost lonely child. My tear- swelled eyes stare at the brutes with a sick happiness in their eyes I tremble, why fight it? No one will come to save me at this hour of the night, and there's no one who'd want to look for me. I see them ready to deliver a final bone-crushing punch. My tear filled eyes clamp shut. I whimper and tremble, please someone. Just stop them for once. Just this once.
"STOP!"
Ushiro averts his glaze to the one who yelled. "Who dares to order me around?"
I take in deep breathes, my body still shaking. I don't even bother looking up, my tears flow down, my numb fingers grasp by knees and I huddle up in a ball.
"You. Leave that boy alone!" the dark voice says.
"Why should I?"
"You shall suffer a fate worse then death." The shadowed figured draws closer to the group. The figure raises his hand and a purple glow begins to form in his hand.
I open my eyes wanting to see what he'll do. Why does he care so much of what happens to me? Last time I checked I have no friends. A purple glow is forming in his hand! Is it just me or did the wind just pick up? I shiver. The glow grows intense and his face lights up for a moment, just a moment, but just long enough for me to recognize the black, blonde, and crimson hair. "Mind crush!" A glowing Eye of Horus appears on his forehead. I once again curl back into a ball. He'll probably ask me to duel him or banish me because I look just like him and he thinks I'm mocking him or something. Just great. Just great indeed. I hear their screams. I don't want to be stuck in the shadow realm. I open my eyes to look, sure enough, they're gone. But wait, how did this happen? Magic doesn't exist. Yami doesn't exist, he's just an Anime character. I wish he wasn't here, whatever those guys did can't be HALF as bad as what he can do! I cry, this must be some cruel prank or some whacked-up dream like I was always having before. I huddle into a ball. Hoping if I pull hard enough I'll disappear. I hear his footsteps approach.
"Hikari?" his rich velvet voice asks.
"No..." I squeak.
"What?" he comes closer to me, I can hear him, but I don't dare look at him, "I didn't hear you."
I yell at him, "You've got the wrong person! Leave me alone!" I begin to cry into my knees. Really not caring what anyone thinks. How can people be so cruel? I'm a broken, lost, lonely child with no friends. Why do they have to play such a cruel joke?
I feel his hand touch my arm, "No! I feel it from you! Hikari-chan! I've found you!" I feel him embrace me.
"Shut up! This isn't funny! I have feelings too! Why do you have to play such an inhuman joke! I-I-" unable to finish my sentence I start crying into my knees again, still not able to face this so called Yami.
"What are you talking about, Hikari?" I feel him release me.
"Stop it! Leave me to rot! I don't care, but call off this stupid joke! I'm NOT your Hikari! I'm a damned scum of the Earth!"
Yami pulls me into his arms, making me come out of my human sheild I've created from the world, "Shhhhh...Stop crying, angel. I'm not joking. I don't know why I would be, and you're not the scum of the Earth. My little Hikari, shhh stop crying." Like in my dream, I clutch to Yami's chest as his arms encircle me and his hands strokes my head and whisper soothing words. I don't care if this is a prank or some dream, I cry as I hold onto him, slowing feeling better. Being able to cry into someone's arms is relatively nice for a change, being able to realse held in feelings is even nicer. "Shh, it's OK, Hikari. I'm here. No one will hurt you now. Shh, I'm here." I feel sleep trying to claim me as my eyes grow steadily heavier, "What's your name, angel?"
"Yugi..." I feel my eyelids flutter as they fall against my cheeks and fall asleep in the bishonen's arms.
Yami stands up with his newly found light in his arms. He smiles at Yugi rested face. "Only a couple minutes ago his face was flowing with tears. I know he was getting beat up, but why did he sound so beat mentally? He seemed to be used to being treated like trash. But why? Oh my poor Hikari." Yami holds him tighter, examining his wounds. "He's has so many cuts and bruises. I'll have to take care of that when I get back to Grandpa's. It's a good thing I felt his presence or he might not be in my arms tonight..." Yami blushes at his last comment. "But why didn't I feel his presence before? Is my magic becoming rusty? And why is my little hikari in his PJs in the middle of the night?" Yami walks along the deserted main street to the Kame Game Shop. He walks up to the door and takes out his key with Yugi still in his arms and opens the door. Yami runs to the bathroom and places Yugi down on the ground. He takes out some bandages and polysporn. Yami quickly takes care of his cuts and brings him into his room.
Yami lays Yugi on his bed and tucks him in. Yami grabs an extra pillow and puts it next to Yugi. Yami goes under the covers and closes his eyes. After a while, both of the boys are asleep.
II
When I open my eyes....
He'll be gone...
It was just a dream....
Like every time...
I think before my open my eyes. I find myself looking in dark leather, with my arms clutching tightly to the warmth with warm, strong arms around my waist. I realize I'm in Yami's arms! So it wasn't a dream? B- but... It's not possible! Yami doesn't exist! I feel myself blush never the less. Here I am in the bishonen of my dreams arms, him declaring I'm his hikari and I obviously slept with him. My face grows even hotter. I try to break away from his arms but he just pulls me closer, now my face is at his neck. His tan, delicious, perfect neck. With of course, the famous buckle. I feel his cold fingers touching my bare skin of my back where my shirt was a bit bunched up. I yelp and grow even redder. If that was possible.
I feel him rustle and yawn. His head looks down at me. He smiles, "Good morning, Hikari." I hear his rich velvet voice whisper.
"EP!" I jump and back away.
He laughs, "Did I surprise you?"
"Yes!" I blurt out, letting anything fall out of my mouth now. I mean, I'm in a cartoon characters arms! Of course I'm going crazy for god's sake. The men in white are going to be coming any minute now...
He chuckles again, and taps my nose winking. "Come on. I need to introduce you to my grandpa, and I need to talk to you, aibou." Aibou! Yami just called me aibou! I swear it's taking all my strength to stop myself from swooning. Yami... called.... me... partner... and tapped my nose winking! Wait, wasn't my nose cut? Hey, it's healed. How did that happen? I see a hand wave in front of my face, "Hello?"
I blush realizing I must be acting pretty weird spacing out like that, "Eh heh. Sorry. Yeah, let's go downstairs. But uh, Yami?"
"Yes?" Yami stop in the middle of the doorway, and turns his head looking at me.
Oh god, he's even hotter in person, I blush, "Uh-I don't have any clothes to wear. Um I mean, uh, casual clothes to wear..." I blush even at my slip up.
He smiles, "We'll go shopping for you later, I have some spare clothes you can wear in the mean time. But for now, let's just eat." I nod and follow after him.
"Good morning Yami! And, who's this?" an old man says from the stove. I realize who it is, Its Grandpa!
"Grandpa, this Yugi, my hikari. I found him last night when I felt his presence. I don't where he was hiding all this time." he smiles at me. I start to feel butterflies set afire in my stomach, but not in the good way like when Yami holds me. I don't even know where I am, myself. But, Toto, I don't think we're in Kansas anymore. So I must have gotten into their world or something. But, doesn't that mean, I'm not his hikari? Won't his real hikari still be out there somewhere?
//Yugi! Say something!//
I jump, was Yami just in my head?! "Nice to meet you Mr. Muto!"
He smiles, "Please, Grandpa is fine."
I nod. //Aibou, how did know my last name?//
I jump again. What's up with that? Yami looks at me and laughs, "I see you're not used to me talking to you telepathically."
Is that what he was doing? //Yugi, calm down. You're confused aren't you? But I'll explain everything later.// I nod. Yami walks over to the table and sits down. I do the same. Grandpa serves us our breakfast. I eat quickly, stuffing the toast down my mouth. Yami begins to talk after I hear his glass touch the table. "Yugi, where were you all this time? How come I couldn't feel you?"
The last words make me blush. Yami looks at me puzzeledly. "Um..." I try to think of something convincible quickly. I can't say I was at a different world where you were a TV show and I somehow fell into your world! I know there's magic here, but still! Yami'd think I'm a nutter! "I, just came to Domino." Well, it wasn't a complete lie.
"Where's your mom?"
I feel my tears starting to form. Everyone just HAS to ask, people at school, and now Yami. Why don't they just ask about my dad? My mom. I feel my heart clentching.Yami becomes aware of my tears, "Th-that's OK Yugi! You don't have to answer. Is there anything you want to ask, Yugi?"
Well there is on thing that has been nagging at my mind, "Yami, what am I supposed to do? Being your hikari and all."
He blinks, "I need you in order to complete my power, and I'm not whole without you."
I mumble a soft "oh." Great, being used even in a fake world. Even by my own so called "dark side".
//What's wrong? I can feel that you're sad.//
"It's nothing."
Yami frowns. //Come on Yugi, tell me.//
"I said it's nothing..."
He sighs and stands up, "If you say so. If you say so." Yami leaves the kitchen and goes to his room.
I hope I didn't make him mad at me...Great, more people mad at me. I sip my orange juice. But, if I'm not from here, then wouldn't I not be his hikari? And his hikari would be somewhere in this world. So I'm not him... I feel myself becoming sick. Great I'm living in someone else's life, with Yami thinking I'm his hikari. He'll be so mad when he finds out! He'll hate me! My favorite anime chara and crush will hate me! I wanna go home now. I don't care if I'm shunned. It's better then living in this lie! I wish I never found this puzzle! This stupid puzzle. I stare down at it.
//Hikari? What's wrong?//
I don't respond, //Come one, you can mind speak back. Try.//
I try to mind speak, 'But I can't. Probably because I'm not your hikari!' I feel like crying. I realize I didn't come close to mind speaking with Yami. It's true! It's TRUE!
//Yugi?//
I run to the bathroom and lock the door behind me. I wanna go home. I want Yami to leave me alone. I want everyone to leave me alone!
//Yugi! What's wrong? Please talk to me, angel!//
I scream from the bathroom wall I'm huddled against, "Shut up! I'm not your angel, lemme alone!" I take off my puzzle and throw it across the room. When it hits the wall it falls back apart. I wish I never found it! I wish I wasn't even born! I cry in my knees. Once again, hoping if I huddled close enough I'd disappear. Because that's all I can do! And by the looks of it, I can't even do that right! I'm pathetic! I hear the rapid pounding on the door. POUND POUND!!
"Yugi! Let me in! What's wrong?" I hear Yami yell.
I don't answer I just continue sobbing. I'm so weak, all I can ever do is cry. I manage to croak out, "...Just leave me alone..." I feel my self losing control. Everything turns into a blur, complete blur...blur...smear...*
Pound scream pound scream, sob, pound scream pound pound scream, sob, pound pound scream scream, cry. Cabinet, flip grab flip grab shiny sharp shiny. Shiny clink shiny shiny shiny smooth sharp clink shiny shiny, scream pound pound, clink. Pound pound scream, pound pound pound scream. Shiny drip red drip, scream pound. Tear, scream pound pound pound scream. Laugh. Pound pound pound scream scream. Red, pound pound scream, clink, pound pound scream. Scream pound, clink, scream, red drip...smile
BAM! BAM! Door... red yellow black..drip drip... warm...drip red soft soft dizzy
"Yugi, why did you do this? Please don't die. Please Yugi!"
Smile red red red...blurry blury. Smile smile blurry. Drip drip red
"Why Yugi?! Don't you care that I care, that people care about you? Don't die! Dear God, don't die..."
Smile smile drip drip blur blur black... scream...
III
I look into the twilight sky. So dark, but there's still the stars illuminating in the vast enternal void.
I see the whole world go dark, like a few moments ago
I turn around, Yami's there.
It's enough he haunts my days, now he even haunts my mind.
"Yugi, please don't leave me." his sad voice asks.
"I'm not who you think I am Yami." I turn my head
"You're my hikari, Yugi. That's enough for me."
"No I'm not. No I'm not." I turn away from him and run into the darkness.
Yami appears from behind me and wraps his arms around me, "Stop running from me. Stop running. I don't know why you don't think you're my hikari. But stop running, angel. Angels are made for flying, not running. So fly. Fly with me."
"But this isn't my life! I'm in someone else's!" I try to break free from his embrace but to no avail, "I'm not your hikari! I run, because I want to get away from this miss assigned role! Don't you get it? I can't fly, don't you see?"
Yami whispers in my ear, "You're my hikari. Where ever you run, I will follow."
*speak words one word at a time to get the effect. Anyone like Ray Bradbury? (F 451)