Be not Nobody
By: Unica Michu
**Warning/Disclaimer: I do not own Yugioh or the characters. Or you would see 'Unica Michu' on the copyright!
I also I do not own Shrek, or the Adventures of Ulysses! (TvT) -I'm a depressed chicken
****Contains shonen-ai (shonen=boy ai=love. Shonen-ai= boy/boy love!)**** Don't like it, don't read! Flames against this will be deleted and ignored.
You've been warned.
For everyone else: Enjoy! ~_^
Chapters are named after tracks on the "Be not Nobody" CD by Vanessa Carlton CD that have to do with the chapter. So listen to the music and find out why the chapters are named what they are!
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Track Four: Pretty Baby
I
Yami stares at the seemingly lifeless body of his aibou laid on the hospital bed with his wrists bandaged tightly. He can only think to himself, "Why? Why? Is this all my fault he's like this?" Yami feels a single tear fall down his face. "I was able to talk to him a bit in his dreams, but... He doesn't think he's my hikari? But why? Why would he want to end his life because of that? What monster inside him that makes him act like this?" Yami gulps, his throat stings from more held back tears. "Or am I that monster? Did I do this to you, Hikari?" He walks over to Yugi and brushes the hair away from his face and smiles at the rare sight of Yugi in a peacefully state. He kisses his forehead, but before he walks out the doorway, Yami whispers softly, "I'm sorry, angel. I'll leave you alone." He turns sadly and walks down the hall. At that moment Yugi eyes spring open.
Was that Yami? I look around the room, wait. I'm alive? Even after that whole inncident. It was complete blur, but I do remember trying to kill myself. But why did Yami leave me alone here? Didn't he say he'd always be there for me...? No! He's probably mad at me now! I would be mad too if I had any friends who did that to me too. But of course, I'd have to have friends in the first place. I just lost the only person who's ever cared of me outside of family love. I whimper and I wipe my eyes. I have to run after him! I've got to say something to him. I can't have him just hate me! Even though it's what I deserve... I jump out of my bed and run out into the desolate halls. I hear Yami's echoing footsteps up ahead. I run toward them and see Yami walking slowly down the metal hall. The sun is just start to rise, the metal walls are more a dusty rose color rather then gray. They cast Yami's image against the floor and walls. I yell out his name, "Yami! Wait! Please!" I cry while running toward him. I stop when I reach him. Yami slowly stops walking, he still has his back turned to me though.
"Yugi. What are you doing here?" He says harshly. "You shoulder be in bed! I almost lost you again! And for a fucking stupid reason too!"
I choke out, "Y-ami...?"
He turn to face me, I think I now know why he was keeping his back to me. His face is all red and puffy with bags under his eyes, was he here all night? Why? Why does he cry and care for me so? I've only known him for less then a day! "Promise me you'll never do that again. You mean much more to me then this world! Or any other be at that! I know I've only just met you, but I feel I've now known you forever! You're much more important to me then our threads of destiny being tied together! You're my other half. I'm not whole without you, and," he walks up to me and wrap his arms around me and whispers, "I'd don't know what I'd do without you. Don't ever, ever scare me again like that, Please Yugi. Please. Promise me. Promise me that."
My throat aches from held back tears and I whimper to Yami, "Y- yami...I.... I'm s-so sorry. It was... all a blur." I feel my knees give under me but Yami supports me, mentally and physically. "Somebody cares!" My mind keeps repeating. "Some one cares! Someone cares! There's someone who cares about me!" I cry in Yami's arms and whisper, "I won't leave if you won't."
"I promise that too, angel, I promise." He lightly kisses my cheek. I feel myself grow warm. "Come on, we have to get you back to your room." He holds my hand and we walk back to my hospital room, letting Yami be my main source of warmth and support.
Once the sun begins to rise casting, a orangish warming glow instead of a pink one, the nurse comes in and gives me a check-up. She writes down some notes, examines me, and asks some questions. She tells me I'm looking better and need to come back for a check-up later about a week or so. She smiles and tells me a may leave now but to careful. I look at Yami and he smiles as he says, "Let's go home, Yugi."
I nod and follow him. Yami leads my through the seemingly endless metal halls to where Grandpa is waiting. I hang my head not wanting to look at him. Not wanting to look at anyone, except Yami.
"Yugi." I hear Grandpa say as we approach him.
"I-I'm s-sorry..." I whimper cuddling closer to Yami. Yami holds me tight and whispers soothing words. I crawl closer to the inviting warmth of Yami.
"Yugi, please don't ever do that again. Every life is precious. No matter how insignificant you think you are, someone will grieve over your death. Especially someone as sweet as you, Yugi." he says sternly but softly.
I can't believe I was going to leave, Yami. This wonderful person who cares so deeply for me, along with his grandpa. I feel so sick. I feel a few tears falling. "I'm sorry. I-I never want t-to leave yo-you." I say directing my comment more to Yami.
I open my eyes and look at Grandpa. He's smiling. "Come on, let's go home. You all had a long night." We walk out of the hospital with my hands still clutching to Yami's arm, never wanting to let go. After walking through the packed parking lot, even at this hour it's filled with cars, we come to Grandpa's green car. Yami opens the door and ushers me in. I feel myself grow warm as I get a floppy grin on my face and I sit down. Yami sits next to me in the back, we both buckle up and Grandpa starts the engine.
I lean against Yami searching for his warmth and he wrap his arm around my shoulder and rubs it as Grandpa pulls out and begins to drive. Yami then whispers to me, "It's OK. We're going home, you should rest." His words hitting something inside of me agreeing with him. I obey and close my eyes resting my head on Yami's shoulder despite the safety-belt pulling me back.
Yami smiles at the mirror image of himself resting peacefully. "It's hard to see him like this a lot." Yami thinks to himself. He winces remembering Yugi's break-down session at home. He clutches him tighter.
Grandpa sees his action through the rear-view mirror and tells Yami, "Yami, I know you're worried about him. Quite frankly, I am too. But you have to give him time to heal. Then you should try to find out what is troubling him. I don't suggest mentioning friends back home or family members."
Yami nods still holding Yugi tightly. "I understand Grandpa. But I'm scared. I don't want him to leave me." He looks down at Yugi's resting features. "Ever."
Grandpa nods and returns his full attention to the road again. "I understand."
Yami holds Yugi close the rest of the way. Afraid if he let go, he might slip away from him again, despite the death grip Yugi had on him. "Anything's possible." Yami thought, "I should know," he muses to himself, "a miracle happened to me when I found this angel." Yami sighs burying his head in Yugi's hair breathing in his sweet scent. He closes his eyes and relaxes the rest of the trip home as the rising sun begins to cast a glow a morning across the land.
II
I open my eyes, but quickly close them because of a piercing light. I turn the other way and open my eyes and realize I'm in Yami's room once again. But there's no Yami sleeping next to me or anywhere else in the room. I frown and sit up. I look at the clock and see its 11:24 A.M. No wonder he's not here. Also, next to the clock is a tray with food on it! Waffles, eggs, toast, milk, and orange juice. There's also a note. I pick it up and unfold it. It says:
"I made you breakfast. Sorry I can't be here right now. My friends are coming to meet you at 12:00 sharp. They were very worried. I hope you feel better, hikari.
--Yami"
I hold the note lovingly, he made breakfast for me! I squeal unable to hold in my happiness. I start eating. With every bite thinking: "Yami made breakfast for me! Just for me! Not for anyone else! Me!" I finish drinking my orange juice and check the clock. My eyes widen. 11:57 A.M. Crap, crap, and crap! Yami's friends are coming and I'm in my PJs! I need a good first impression! Yami still hasn't come and arg! I've got to find some clothes. But I can't go running around in PJs, this is a Game Shop, and Yami could be in the lobby and they're probably open! That'd be embarrassing. So I do the only thing I could do at the moment, I scream. "Yaaaaaaaaaami!!"
I hear a loud "THUD!" and crashing of various objects. I hear loud booms hitting the ground in an cresendo of beat coming toward my room till the door crashes open. "Who the hell is threatening my hikari while I'm taking a shower!? Come out, you!! Yugi, are you OK?" My mouth hangs open. A nearly naked Yami stands in front of me breathing heavily, tensed muscles, soaking wet, and with a towel hanging dangerously loose around his hips. He muscles slowly become less tense as he drops his hands from the door. "What's wrong Yugi?" He smirks. "What are you gawking at?"
I blush realizing I'm staring, "S-sorry. But nobody hurt me. You're friends are going to be here soon and, I have nothing to wear!"
Yami blinks and laughs. "Haha! You sound like a girl talking like that Yugi!" he looks at the digital clock. "Oh crap! Forget about clothes! I'm nearly naked!" Yami runs out the door. You just figured that out, Einstein? Or do you normally run around naked. I blush. Bad Yugi. Bad Yugi.... Mustn't think dirty thoughts... Mustn't think dirty thoughts...
"Wait! Where are you're spare clothes?" I yell after him returning from my thoughts.
"In the closet!" Yami rushes into the bathroom and slams the door. (Yami was smart and brought the clothes he was going to wear for the day in the bathroom with him.)
I sigh and shut the door. Well that was interesting. Very interesting indeed. I do as Yami says and find the clothes he was talking about. I put them on and look at myself in the mirror. I'm wearing and old Nike shirt with some jeans. Not really my style but it'll do, for now. Now I'm just missing the puzzle. Where is it anyway? Is it still in the bathroom? Sure, I could've just taken it off, but why did I break it! I don't have long to mope about the puzzle, I hear the doorbell and I rush out the door. I run down the stairs till I reach the bottom floor where the back door is. Yami opens the door a crack and...
"Hey hey! Where's our little buddy?" A blonde haired boy says barging in the moment the door is opened instantly opening the door in Yami's face with a couple of other people behind him. He looks in my directions, "Hey! Is this your hikari, Yami?" He scratches his head, "He does look just like you except, cuter."
Yami rubs his nose, grins, and puts and arm around my shoulder and puffs up his chest, "Yup! This is Yugi. He's feeling better now. And what do you mean he's cuter then me?!"
A girl with short brown hair comes and lays her elbow on Yami shoulder, "Of course you're hotter, Yami, but you're hikari is cuter!" She hugs me, "You're so c-u-t-e! Why would you want to kill yourself?"
Yami nudges her side and hisses, "Anzuuuuu...."
"Eheh! I mean-"
She's cut off a by a blonde haired girl pushing her to the side, and the blonde girl glomps me and looks at Anzu, "Be quite Anzu, you're upsetting him!" She then directs her attention to me, "Oh! You are cute!! How old are you? 12?"
"15." I state dryly. I hate when people mistake me for a twelve year old. Which is almost always.
Everyone in the room freezes, including Yami. They all say at once, "Wah?!"
I stare at them, and roll my eyes. Why do I always have to go through this twice? "I'm 15."
Yami looks at me up and down. I find myself blushing at him checking me out, at least in my perverted mind he is, "I thought you were younger myself! Heheh, I shouldn't assume, I guess."
I shrug, "It's OK, I'm used to people doing that by now. Besides," I grin, "I like the attention I get from you gals."
Yami goes wide eyed in surprise.
"This is defiantly Yami's hikari! He's such a flirt!" Anzu says blushing doing a motion with her hand.
"OK, anyway," What's the matter Yami? Don't like that I'm getting more attention then you? "How about you all introduce yourselves to Yugi?"
Of course I already knew almost all their names, but it would be kind of weird if I said their name without them telling me, like I did with Grandpa. I can't raise suspicion that I haven't rose already. I still haven't told Yami where I'm really from.
The white haired boy says smiling sweetly, "I'm Ryou."
The blonde boy who barged in the door points to himself and speaks confidently, "I'm Joey! Nice to meet you!"
The brunette boy standing to him says, "And I'm Honda!"
The blonde haired girl who is currently on my shoulder says gleefully, "I'm Mai," she looks over at Anzu, "And that's Anzu, pay no attention to her."
"What?!" she's says madly exploding at Mai.
Yami chuckles, "And of course, I'm Yami." he winks.
I nod smiling. I hear something loud grumbling, I look toward the direction it came from, and its Joeys stomach. "Eheh...Do you guys think we could get something to eat?"
"Sure," Yami says, "where should we go?"
"How about Burger World? You know, that place Anzu works?" Honda suggests grinning.
"Hey!" Anzu says blushing, "Why is everyone picking on me! Pick on Mai!"
She flips her hair back, brushing a bit of her hair on my face, "I'm too gorgeous to make fun of, unlike you."
Anzu smirks, "Then how come Yami's mine?" Anzu grabs his arm and smiles. He smiles back. My heart completely stops dead in it's tracks. I feel the butterflies that are in my stomach dieing. H-he's with Anzu.....? I feel my insides do a unpleasant flip-flop as my brain completely stops working, I feel myself go intoa mental lockdown. I slowly feel myself recompose itself. Yami looks at me worriedly. Must have seen something hit me. And it did. Straight in the bull's-eye.
Mai shrugs, "You must have got lucky. Or you were the only who asked him?"
Yami glares at her, "What's that supposed to mean?"
Mai waves her hands, "I'm just joking. Come on, let's go to Burger World before Joey's stomach causes a earthquake or something." She walks out the door followed by Ryou and Honda.
Joey fumes, "What's that supposed to mean!?" he chases after them. I think Mai likes getting on people's nerves and pressing their buttons. Well, there's always one of those type in all groups I guess.
Yami chuckles, "Come on, Anzu, Yugi." Yami walks through the door, I follow behind him. He shuts and locks the door. Yami takes the lead to the front, I follow next to him. Joey and Honda are joking around behind me and Mai is walking next to Anzu, who are currently talking about some new clothes store or something like that. Ryou is next to Joey, he seems very absorbed in himself. sometimes I can't help but wonder when I look at him, is he even in our world? I know it's a weird thought, but, I sometimes would do that too. Completely zone-out. I frown. I think Ryou's a lot like me. Except he had friends when he was down. I really have to get around to talking to him sometime.
Yami looks at me, "Something wrong Yugi?"
I shake my head. "Nothing really."
He frowns, "If something's bothering you, Yugi, tell me. I don't want to lose you again."
I shiver. I never noticed it before, but he talks about me like I'm his. His possession. "It's nothing, Yami. I was just trying to absorb everything that's happening."
He smiles, "OK, tell if there's anything you need." Yah, there is something I need: Your heart. Too bad I'll never have it, but you'll always be in possession of me. It's not fair! No, I'm being selfish, I should accept this. Yami's probably doesn't even feel that way toward me, or swing that way! I should happy for him, so I smile at him. If I smile he'll never
Yami smiles back and start talking to Anzu. I let my smile a drop a little. We reach Burger World, whoa! It's huge! It's a lot different from TV! Yami seems pleased with my reaction. We enter through the sliding doors, and we take a seat. Soon a waitress comes and takes our orders. Joey gets four triple-burgers! I can't believe that guy! I get my order of a double-cheeseburger with fries and a soda. I personally love burgers, but, I don't really think I'm in the mood. I can tell Yami's worried. I just smile and nod if someone talks to me. Just smile and the world will never know what you're really thinking. Just keep smiling, and maybe I'll actually feel happy, maybe the mask will seep into my skin.
III
At around 1:30 we leave Burger World. The girls decide to go shopping, Joey, Honda, and Ryou decide to go to the arcade. Yami shakes his head and tells them he'll catch them later. He grabs arm and we head back to the game shop. What does he want? He already broke my heart. What more does he want? I have nothing left to give. He can't even take my life, I don't have one.
We reach the back door and Yami unlocks it and ushers me in. I go in and Yami slams the door behind me and locks it. He looks at me sternly. "Sit." he points to the couch.
I whimper. He's going to beat me up! I knew this whole 'Yami-Hikari' thing was a waste and I would be in some sort of trouble! I hate this! It's enough he beats me up mentally and confused me, but now this?
He walks over to me. He sees my scared eyes. He smiles and sits down next to me, he drapes his arms around me and whispers, "Shh....I'm not going to hurt you..." His face close to mine. Before I probably would've fantasized what he'd say next, maybe make a move myself, or blush my head off. But, I feel myself feel like breaking down. Why? It hurts to know I have no hope with him. That he's just doing it out of brotherly love. I know I'm glad I have someone who cares but it hurts. It's killing me softly... He's killing me with every smile, with every touch. I feel tears run down my cheeks, as I sob and grip the closest thing, Yami.
"It's OK, Yugi. I knew something was wrong." He strokes my hair, "Please tell me what's wrong? I want to help you."
You can't, you wouldn't want to. Only you make me better. I can't live with or without you. But I can't be selfish, you belong to someone else. But my heart belongs to you, and you only. I continue sobbing. "I-I'm so-sorry I couldn't be ha-happy. I t-tried...don't h-hurt me." It's too late for that; he's already made my heart hurt, ache, and break. I wish I could tell him, but it hurts for me even mention it. He'll hate me.
"No, Yugi. I'm losing you again." he begins to stroke my back in slow movement.
"Why are you wasting your time with me?"
I see something glimmer in his eyes as his eyebrows narrow. He slaps me, "Shut up! You're worth more then anything to me! Why don't you trust me? I'd give you the world, I want to make your tears stop! But they keep flowing down your cheeks like the Nile River, damn it! Why can't you see?!" I hold my cheek and stare into his eyes dumbfounded, "Are you blind?! What do I have to do to earn you're trust?! I promised you, Yugi! What will cost? I'll pay any amount! Tell me." I'm almost laying down on the couch with Yami hovering over me begging me with a fire inside his eyes.
Why can't I trust him? I want to. I want him to save me. I want to be his, and only his. But my brain keeps telling me "NO!" But my heart is screaming, "YES!" I don't know what to do, I open my mouth but no words come out. I see Yami's eyes staring in mine, begging to be answered. Something just clicked inside: Who face did I used to stare at longingly while I was on my Earth? Who saved me from those thugs? Who saved my life, and saved me from myself? Who held me in their arms when I bled? Who stayed by my side, even now when he knows I don't want him? Yami did. Yami always was there, saving me, pushing me to live on, telling me that I was important. No matter how much I disbelieved in myself, even to this moment. Even though I've just been with him for one day, how things have changed in that one day. What one day can do to you is truely amazing. Tears flood my eyes, "Y-ami.... I'm so sorry! I'm an idiot!" I grab his chest and cry. "I don't know, I was afraid. I-if I held on to you too close you'd betray me. L-like everyone else...Or yo-you'd be taken a-away...I d-don't want to hurt an-anymore..."
The sudden weight on his chest causes us to fall on the couch side by side, with me between the Yami and the back support part of the couch. I still hold Yami tight, with his arms around me like always. "Shhh....I'm not like everyone else. I promise. I'll never betray you. I'm so sorry you had such a bad past but let's forget about that and focus on now."
I whimper and answer, "Don't leave me..."
He looks into my tear flooded eyes and smiles, "Never," he brushes our nose together, "you don't either.."
I sniffle, "I promise Yami." I relax, laying comfortable in his warm embrace.
I don't know how long we laid there listening to each other's heart beat. Just listening each other breathing, becoming lost in each other's scent, or listening to ticking of the clock hung on the wall. But I didn't care, I felt safe from everything in Yami embrace, and for this moment, Yami is mine. Yami nuzzling my hair and me leaning on his chest, it feels so, perfect. Like two pieces of a puzzle that fall perfectly into place. My thoughts are interrupted by the TV turning on. Did Yami turn it on? Yami gets up with me still in his arms. "What's that?" he thinks aloud clutching me glaring at the TV. The image on the TV is visible, but it's not a picture either. It's just the blank station look with black and white lines moving across the screen. A laugh comes from the TV's speakers. What's going to happen? I grip Yami and whimper. Yami growls and puts me behind him and block me from the possessed TV. A man with long silver hair appears on the TV screen.
He laughs again, "I see you found your hikari, Yami-boy. Too bad he won't be with you much longer." He snaps his finger.
"Is this some kind of sick joke, Pegasus!" Yami yells.
So that's Pegasus! I don't have long to absorb what's happening because I start to feel tingly all over as I also feel my blood pusling hard in head. "Y-Yami...I feel weird..." I say, I feel all my energy being drained from me, I feel so sleepy...
"What?" He turns around, "Yugi! No!"
A red glow surrounds me and I manga to mumble, "What's happening Yami, I feel weird all over."
He wraps his arms around me and yells at the TV, "What are you doing to Yugi, you bastard?!"
He waves his finger, "Temper temper, Yami. He'll disappear in a couple more seconds. If you want him back, come to Duelist Kingdom and win him back. If you lose against me, you'll give me your puzzle and you can say goodbye to Yugi."
"Yami... don't listen it's a trap..." I mumble again holding him lossely.
"Yugi! Try to fight it! Don't let him take you!" Yami eyes pleading mine.
I smile, "I-I can't he's too strong." I whimper with my breathing becoming labored. I'm beginning to grow transparent and become enveloped completely in the red glow.
"No Yugi!"
I see Yami disappear and the blackness replace my Yami's gorgeous face.
"No! Yugi!" Yami cries now holding air. He starts shaking, "No...Yugi..."
Pegasus laughs, "Seems little Yami-boy has a weakness. A big one to be at that."
"What kind of sick game are you playing Pegasus! Leave Yugi out of this!" He screams at the TV jumping off the floor with the Eye of Horus glowing on his forehead.
"Like I said, come to my island and win him back. Or you, or anyone else, will ever see him again." The TV turns off right when Yami mind crushes it. Yami drops his hand and stares blankly at the bare wall trying to absorb everything that just happened. Yami collapses punching the ground.
By: Unica Michu
**Warning/Disclaimer: I do not own Yugioh or the characters. Or you would see 'Unica Michu' on the copyright!
I also I do not own Shrek, or the Adventures of Ulysses! (TvT) -I'm a depressed chicken
****Contains shonen-ai (shonen=boy ai=love. Shonen-ai= boy/boy love!)**** Don't like it, don't read! Flames against this will be deleted and ignored.
You've been warned.
For everyone else: Enjoy! ~_^
Chapters are named after tracks on the "Be not Nobody" CD by Vanessa Carlton CD that have to do with the chapter. So listen to the music and find out why the chapters are named what they are!
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Track Four: Pretty Baby
I
Yami stares at the seemingly lifeless body of his aibou laid on the hospital bed with his wrists bandaged tightly. He can only think to himself, "Why? Why? Is this all my fault he's like this?" Yami feels a single tear fall down his face. "I was able to talk to him a bit in his dreams, but... He doesn't think he's my hikari? But why? Why would he want to end his life because of that? What monster inside him that makes him act like this?" Yami gulps, his throat stings from more held back tears. "Or am I that monster? Did I do this to you, Hikari?" He walks over to Yugi and brushes the hair away from his face and smiles at the rare sight of Yugi in a peacefully state. He kisses his forehead, but before he walks out the doorway, Yami whispers softly, "I'm sorry, angel. I'll leave you alone." He turns sadly and walks down the hall. At that moment Yugi eyes spring open.
Was that Yami? I look around the room, wait. I'm alive? Even after that whole inncident. It was complete blur, but I do remember trying to kill myself. But why did Yami leave me alone here? Didn't he say he'd always be there for me...? No! He's probably mad at me now! I would be mad too if I had any friends who did that to me too. But of course, I'd have to have friends in the first place. I just lost the only person who's ever cared of me outside of family love. I whimper and I wipe my eyes. I have to run after him! I've got to say something to him. I can't have him just hate me! Even though it's what I deserve... I jump out of my bed and run out into the desolate halls. I hear Yami's echoing footsteps up ahead. I run toward them and see Yami walking slowly down the metal hall. The sun is just start to rise, the metal walls are more a dusty rose color rather then gray. They cast Yami's image against the floor and walls. I yell out his name, "Yami! Wait! Please!" I cry while running toward him. I stop when I reach him. Yami slowly stops walking, he still has his back turned to me though.
"Yugi. What are you doing here?" He says harshly. "You shoulder be in bed! I almost lost you again! And for a fucking stupid reason too!"
I choke out, "Y-ami...?"
He turn to face me, I think I now know why he was keeping his back to me. His face is all red and puffy with bags under his eyes, was he here all night? Why? Why does he cry and care for me so? I've only known him for less then a day! "Promise me you'll never do that again. You mean much more to me then this world! Or any other be at that! I know I've only just met you, but I feel I've now known you forever! You're much more important to me then our threads of destiny being tied together! You're my other half. I'm not whole without you, and," he walks up to me and wrap his arms around me and whispers, "I'd don't know what I'd do without you. Don't ever, ever scare me again like that, Please Yugi. Please. Promise me. Promise me that."
My throat aches from held back tears and I whimper to Yami, "Y- yami...I.... I'm s-so sorry. It was... all a blur." I feel my knees give under me but Yami supports me, mentally and physically. "Somebody cares!" My mind keeps repeating. "Some one cares! Someone cares! There's someone who cares about me!" I cry in Yami's arms and whisper, "I won't leave if you won't."
"I promise that too, angel, I promise." He lightly kisses my cheek. I feel myself grow warm. "Come on, we have to get you back to your room." He holds my hand and we walk back to my hospital room, letting Yami be my main source of warmth and support.
Once the sun begins to rise casting, a orangish warming glow instead of a pink one, the nurse comes in and gives me a check-up. She writes down some notes, examines me, and asks some questions. She tells me I'm looking better and need to come back for a check-up later about a week or so. She smiles and tells me a may leave now but to careful. I look at Yami and he smiles as he says, "Let's go home, Yugi."
I nod and follow him. Yami leads my through the seemingly endless metal halls to where Grandpa is waiting. I hang my head not wanting to look at him. Not wanting to look at anyone, except Yami.
"Yugi." I hear Grandpa say as we approach him.
"I-I'm s-sorry..." I whimper cuddling closer to Yami. Yami holds me tight and whispers soothing words. I crawl closer to the inviting warmth of Yami.
"Yugi, please don't ever do that again. Every life is precious. No matter how insignificant you think you are, someone will grieve over your death. Especially someone as sweet as you, Yugi." he says sternly but softly.
I can't believe I was going to leave, Yami. This wonderful person who cares so deeply for me, along with his grandpa. I feel so sick. I feel a few tears falling. "I'm sorry. I-I never want t-to leave yo-you." I say directing my comment more to Yami.
I open my eyes and look at Grandpa. He's smiling. "Come on, let's go home. You all had a long night." We walk out of the hospital with my hands still clutching to Yami's arm, never wanting to let go. After walking through the packed parking lot, even at this hour it's filled with cars, we come to Grandpa's green car. Yami opens the door and ushers me in. I feel myself grow warm as I get a floppy grin on my face and I sit down. Yami sits next to me in the back, we both buckle up and Grandpa starts the engine.
I lean against Yami searching for his warmth and he wrap his arm around my shoulder and rubs it as Grandpa pulls out and begins to drive. Yami then whispers to me, "It's OK. We're going home, you should rest." His words hitting something inside of me agreeing with him. I obey and close my eyes resting my head on Yami's shoulder despite the safety-belt pulling me back.
Yami smiles at the mirror image of himself resting peacefully. "It's hard to see him like this a lot." Yami thinks to himself. He winces remembering Yugi's break-down session at home. He clutches him tighter.
Grandpa sees his action through the rear-view mirror and tells Yami, "Yami, I know you're worried about him. Quite frankly, I am too. But you have to give him time to heal. Then you should try to find out what is troubling him. I don't suggest mentioning friends back home or family members."
Yami nods still holding Yugi tightly. "I understand Grandpa. But I'm scared. I don't want him to leave me." He looks down at Yugi's resting features. "Ever."
Grandpa nods and returns his full attention to the road again. "I understand."
Yami holds Yugi close the rest of the way. Afraid if he let go, he might slip away from him again, despite the death grip Yugi had on him. "Anything's possible." Yami thought, "I should know," he muses to himself, "a miracle happened to me when I found this angel." Yami sighs burying his head in Yugi's hair breathing in his sweet scent. He closes his eyes and relaxes the rest of the trip home as the rising sun begins to cast a glow a morning across the land.
II
I open my eyes, but quickly close them because of a piercing light. I turn the other way and open my eyes and realize I'm in Yami's room once again. But there's no Yami sleeping next to me or anywhere else in the room. I frown and sit up. I look at the clock and see its 11:24 A.M. No wonder he's not here. Also, next to the clock is a tray with food on it! Waffles, eggs, toast, milk, and orange juice. There's also a note. I pick it up and unfold it. It says:
"I made you breakfast. Sorry I can't be here right now. My friends are coming to meet you at 12:00 sharp. They were very worried. I hope you feel better, hikari.
--Yami"
I hold the note lovingly, he made breakfast for me! I squeal unable to hold in my happiness. I start eating. With every bite thinking: "Yami made breakfast for me! Just for me! Not for anyone else! Me!" I finish drinking my orange juice and check the clock. My eyes widen. 11:57 A.M. Crap, crap, and crap! Yami's friends are coming and I'm in my PJs! I need a good first impression! Yami still hasn't come and arg! I've got to find some clothes. But I can't go running around in PJs, this is a Game Shop, and Yami could be in the lobby and they're probably open! That'd be embarrassing. So I do the only thing I could do at the moment, I scream. "Yaaaaaaaaaami!!"
I hear a loud "THUD!" and crashing of various objects. I hear loud booms hitting the ground in an cresendo of beat coming toward my room till the door crashes open. "Who the hell is threatening my hikari while I'm taking a shower!? Come out, you!! Yugi, are you OK?" My mouth hangs open. A nearly naked Yami stands in front of me breathing heavily, tensed muscles, soaking wet, and with a towel hanging dangerously loose around his hips. He muscles slowly become less tense as he drops his hands from the door. "What's wrong Yugi?" He smirks. "What are you gawking at?"
I blush realizing I'm staring, "S-sorry. But nobody hurt me. You're friends are going to be here soon and, I have nothing to wear!"
Yami blinks and laughs. "Haha! You sound like a girl talking like that Yugi!" he looks at the digital clock. "Oh crap! Forget about clothes! I'm nearly naked!" Yami runs out the door. You just figured that out, Einstein? Or do you normally run around naked. I blush. Bad Yugi. Bad Yugi.... Mustn't think dirty thoughts... Mustn't think dirty thoughts...
"Wait! Where are you're spare clothes?" I yell after him returning from my thoughts.
"In the closet!" Yami rushes into the bathroom and slams the door. (Yami was smart and brought the clothes he was going to wear for the day in the bathroom with him.)
I sigh and shut the door. Well that was interesting. Very interesting indeed. I do as Yami says and find the clothes he was talking about. I put them on and look at myself in the mirror. I'm wearing and old Nike shirt with some jeans. Not really my style but it'll do, for now. Now I'm just missing the puzzle. Where is it anyway? Is it still in the bathroom? Sure, I could've just taken it off, but why did I break it! I don't have long to mope about the puzzle, I hear the doorbell and I rush out the door. I run down the stairs till I reach the bottom floor where the back door is. Yami opens the door a crack and...
"Hey hey! Where's our little buddy?" A blonde haired boy says barging in the moment the door is opened instantly opening the door in Yami's face with a couple of other people behind him. He looks in my directions, "Hey! Is this your hikari, Yami?" He scratches his head, "He does look just like you except, cuter."
Yami rubs his nose, grins, and puts and arm around my shoulder and puffs up his chest, "Yup! This is Yugi. He's feeling better now. And what do you mean he's cuter then me?!"
A girl with short brown hair comes and lays her elbow on Yami shoulder, "Of course you're hotter, Yami, but you're hikari is cuter!" She hugs me, "You're so c-u-t-e! Why would you want to kill yourself?"
Yami nudges her side and hisses, "Anzuuuuu...."
"Eheh! I mean-"
She's cut off a by a blonde haired girl pushing her to the side, and the blonde girl glomps me and looks at Anzu, "Be quite Anzu, you're upsetting him!" She then directs her attention to me, "Oh! You are cute!! How old are you? 12?"
"15." I state dryly. I hate when people mistake me for a twelve year old. Which is almost always.
Everyone in the room freezes, including Yami. They all say at once, "Wah?!"
I stare at them, and roll my eyes. Why do I always have to go through this twice? "I'm 15."
Yami looks at me up and down. I find myself blushing at him checking me out, at least in my perverted mind he is, "I thought you were younger myself! Heheh, I shouldn't assume, I guess."
I shrug, "It's OK, I'm used to people doing that by now. Besides," I grin, "I like the attention I get from you gals."
Yami goes wide eyed in surprise.
"This is defiantly Yami's hikari! He's such a flirt!" Anzu says blushing doing a motion with her hand.
"OK, anyway," What's the matter Yami? Don't like that I'm getting more attention then you? "How about you all introduce yourselves to Yugi?"
Of course I already knew almost all their names, but it would be kind of weird if I said their name without them telling me, like I did with Grandpa. I can't raise suspicion that I haven't rose already. I still haven't told Yami where I'm really from.
The white haired boy says smiling sweetly, "I'm Ryou."
The blonde boy who barged in the door points to himself and speaks confidently, "I'm Joey! Nice to meet you!"
The brunette boy standing to him says, "And I'm Honda!"
The blonde haired girl who is currently on my shoulder says gleefully, "I'm Mai," she looks over at Anzu, "And that's Anzu, pay no attention to her."
"What?!" she's says madly exploding at Mai.
Yami chuckles, "And of course, I'm Yami." he winks.
I nod smiling. I hear something loud grumbling, I look toward the direction it came from, and its Joeys stomach. "Eheh...Do you guys think we could get something to eat?"
"Sure," Yami says, "where should we go?"
"How about Burger World? You know, that place Anzu works?" Honda suggests grinning.
"Hey!" Anzu says blushing, "Why is everyone picking on me! Pick on Mai!"
She flips her hair back, brushing a bit of her hair on my face, "I'm too gorgeous to make fun of, unlike you."
Anzu smirks, "Then how come Yami's mine?" Anzu grabs his arm and smiles. He smiles back. My heart completely stops dead in it's tracks. I feel the butterflies that are in my stomach dieing. H-he's with Anzu.....? I feel my insides do a unpleasant flip-flop as my brain completely stops working, I feel myself go intoa mental lockdown. I slowly feel myself recompose itself. Yami looks at me worriedly. Must have seen something hit me. And it did. Straight in the bull's-eye.
Mai shrugs, "You must have got lucky. Or you were the only who asked him?"
Yami glares at her, "What's that supposed to mean?"
Mai waves her hands, "I'm just joking. Come on, let's go to Burger World before Joey's stomach causes a earthquake or something." She walks out the door followed by Ryou and Honda.
Joey fumes, "What's that supposed to mean!?" he chases after them. I think Mai likes getting on people's nerves and pressing their buttons. Well, there's always one of those type in all groups I guess.
Yami chuckles, "Come on, Anzu, Yugi." Yami walks through the door, I follow behind him. He shuts and locks the door. Yami takes the lead to the front, I follow next to him. Joey and Honda are joking around behind me and Mai is walking next to Anzu, who are currently talking about some new clothes store or something like that. Ryou is next to Joey, he seems very absorbed in himself. sometimes I can't help but wonder when I look at him, is he even in our world? I know it's a weird thought, but, I sometimes would do that too. Completely zone-out. I frown. I think Ryou's a lot like me. Except he had friends when he was down. I really have to get around to talking to him sometime.
Yami looks at me, "Something wrong Yugi?"
I shake my head. "Nothing really."
He frowns, "If something's bothering you, Yugi, tell me. I don't want to lose you again."
I shiver. I never noticed it before, but he talks about me like I'm his. His possession. "It's nothing, Yami. I was just trying to absorb everything that's happening."
He smiles, "OK, tell if there's anything you need." Yah, there is something I need: Your heart. Too bad I'll never have it, but you'll always be in possession of me. It's not fair! No, I'm being selfish, I should accept this. Yami's probably doesn't even feel that way toward me, or swing that way! I should happy for him, so I smile at him. If I smile he'll never
Yami smiles back and start talking to Anzu. I let my smile a drop a little. We reach Burger World, whoa! It's huge! It's a lot different from TV! Yami seems pleased with my reaction. We enter through the sliding doors, and we take a seat. Soon a waitress comes and takes our orders. Joey gets four triple-burgers! I can't believe that guy! I get my order of a double-cheeseburger with fries and a soda. I personally love burgers, but, I don't really think I'm in the mood. I can tell Yami's worried. I just smile and nod if someone talks to me. Just smile and the world will never know what you're really thinking. Just keep smiling, and maybe I'll actually feel happy, maybe the mask will seep into my skin.
III
At around 1:30 we leave Burger World. The girls decide to go shopping, Joey, Honda, and Ryou decide to go to the arcade. Yami shakes his head and tells them he'll catch them later. He grabs arm and we head back to the game shop. What does he want? He already broke my heart. What more does he want? I have nothing left to give. He can't even take my life, I don't have one.
We reach the back door and Yami unlocks it and ushers me in. I go in and Yami slams the door behind me and locks it. He looks at me sternly. "Sit." he points to the couch.
I whimper. He's going to beat me up! I knew this whole 'Yami-Hikari' thing was a waste and I would be in some sort of trouble! I hate this! It's enough he beats me up mentally and confused me, but now this?
He walks over to me. He sees my scared eyes. He smiles and sits down next to me, he drapes his arms around me and whispers, "Shh....I'm not going to hurt you..." His face close to mine. Before I probably would've fantasized what he'd say next, maybe make a move myself, or blush my head off. But, I feel myself feel like breaking down. Why? It hurts to know I have no hope with him. That he's just doing it out of brotherly love. I know I'm glad I have someone who cares but it hurts. It's killing me softly... He's killing me with every smile, with every touch. I feel tears run down my cheeks, as I sob and grip the closest thing, Yami.
"It's OK, Yugi. I knew something was wrong." He strokes my hair, "Please tell me what's wrong? I want to help you."
You can't, you wouldn't want to. Only you make me better. I can't live with or without you. But I can't be selfish, you belong to someone else. But my heart belongs to you, and you only. I continue sobbing. "I-I'm so-sorry I couldn't be ha-happy. I t-tried...don't h-hurt me." It's too late for that; he's already made my heart hurt, ache, and break. I wish I could tell him, but it hurts for me even mention it. He'll hate me.
"No, Yugi. I'm losing you again." he begins to stroke my back in slow movement.
"Why are you wasting your time with me?"
I see something glimmer in his eyes as his eyebrows narrow. He slaps me, "Shut up! You're worth more then anything to me! Why don't you trust me? I'd give you the world, I want to make your tears stop! But they keep flowing down your cheeks like the Nile River, damn it! Why can't you see?!" I hold my cheek and stare into his eyes dumbfounded, "Are you blind?! What do I have to do to earn you're trust?! I promised you, Yugi! What will cost? I'll pay any amount! Tell me." I'm almost laying down on the couch with Yami hovering over me begging me with a fire inside his eyes.
Why can't I trust him? I want to. I want him to save me. I want to be his, and only his. But my brain keeps telling me "NO!" But my heart is screaming, "YES!" I don't know what to do, I open my mouth but no words come out. I see Yami's eyes staring in mine, begging to be answered. Something just clicked inside: Who face did I used to stare at longingly while I was on my Earth? Who saved me from those thugs? Who saved my life, and saved me from myself? Who held me in their arms when I bled? Who stayed by my side, even now when he knows I don't want him? Yami did. Yami always was there, saving me, pushing me to live on, telling me that I was important. No matter how much I disbelieved in myself, even to this moment. Even though I've just been with him for one day, how things have changed in that one day. What one day can do to you is truely amazing. Tears flood my eyes, "Y-ami.... I'm so sorry! I'm an idiot!" I grab his chest and cry. "I don't know, I was afraid. I-if I held on to you too close you'd betray me. L-like everyone else...Or yo-you'd be taken a-away...I d-don't want to hurt an-anymore..."
The sudden weight on his chest causes us to fall on the couch side by side, with me between the Yami and the back support part of the couch. I still hold Yami tight, with his arms around me like always. "Shhh....I'm not like everyone else. I promise. I'll never betray you. I'm so sorry you had such a bad past but let's forget about that and focus on now."
I whimper and answer, "Don't leave me..."
He looks into my tear flooded eyes and smiles, "Never," he brushes our nose together, "you don't either.."
I sniffle, "I promise Yami." I relax, laying comfortable in his warm embrace.
I don't know how long we laid there listening to each other's heart beat. Just listening each other breathing, becoming lost in each other's scent, or listening to ticking of the clock hung on the wall. But I didn't care, I felt safe from everything in Yami embrace, and for this moment, Yami is mine. Yami nuzzling my hair and me leaning on his chest, it feels so, perfect. Like two pieces of a puzzle that fall perfectly into place. My thoughts are interrupted by the TV turning on. Did Yami turn it on? Yami gets up with me still in his arms. "What's that?" he thinks aloud clutching me glaring at the TV. The image on the TV is visible, but it's not a picture either. It's just the blank station look with black and white lines moving across the screen. A laugh comes from the TV's speakers. What's going to happen? I grip Yami and whimper. Yami growls and puts me behind him and block me from the possessed TV. A man with long silver hair appears on the TV screen.
He laughs again, "I see you found your hikari, Yami-boy. Too bad he won't be with you much longer." He snaps his finger.
"Is this some kind of sick joke, Pegasus!" Yami yells.
So that's Pegasus! I don't have long to absorb what's happening because I start to feel tingly all over as I also feel my blood pusling hard in head. "Y-Yami...I feel weird..." I say, I feel all my energy being drained from me, I feel so sleepy...
"What?" He turns around, "Yugi! No!"
A red glow surrounds me and I manga to mumble, "What's happening Yami, I feel weird all over."
He wraps his arms around me and yells at the TV, "What are you doing to Yugi, you bastard?!"
He waves his finger, "Temper temper, Yami. He'll disappear in a couple more seconds. If you want him back, come to Duelist Kingdom and win him back. If you lose against me, you'll give me your puzzle and you can say goodbye to Yugi."
"Yami... don't listen it's a trap..." I mumble again holding him lossely.
"Yugi! Try to fight it! Don't let him take you!" Yami eyes pleading mine.
I smile, "I-I can't he's too strong." I whimper with my breathing becoming labored. I'm beginning to grow transparent and become enveloped completely in the red glow.
"No Yugi!"
I see Yami disappear and the blackness replace my Yami's gorgeous face.
"No! Yugi!" Yami cries now holding air. He starts shaking, "No...Yugi..."
Pegasus laughs, "Seems little Yami-boy has a weakness. A big one to be at that."
"What kind of sick game are you playing Pegasus! Leave Yugi out of this!" He screams at the TV jumping off the floor with the Eye of Horus glowing on his forehead.
"Like I said, come to my island and win him back. Or you, or anyone else, will ever see him again." The TV turns off right when Yami mind crushes it. Yami drops his hand and stares blankly at the bare wall trying to absorb everything that just happened. Yami collapses punching the ground.