For Him
Disclaimer: Dracula. Mm. Velkan. Mm. Mm. But not mine. In the words of Sid: DON'T SPEAR ME!
Author's Note:
Mariela: Um, no they cannot make out now. Where would the fun be? This is angst, here, hunny, they can't just randomly make out in the middle of angst! Sheesh.
Marisa-Drake: Why thank you ever so much! I don't think it came out that bad at all.
Verona: Don't worry. It'll get better. Thank you for trying to review, though.
TheEvilQueen: Thanks. Velkan is here! Woot!
Sly dances around. Velkan, Velkan, Velkan, Dracula, Dracula, Dracula, Sexy, Sexy, Sexy! Hah.
Okay anyway.
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Chapter 4
Numb Decisions
I sat on a rock. Judging by the place of the sun, it was close to suppertime. I hadn't quieted down until a few minutes ago. The royalty was still catching it's breath. Princess Anna Valerious crouched in front of me.
"Kallisto," she said. "You've been up here for four years all alone?" I shook my head slowly.
"Not alone," I replied. I was numb. I couldn't feel. I didn't care. Anna's eyebrows went up.
"Not alone?" I shook my head again.
"Alone in the day, yes. As the suns last rays disappear, he comes." I never say his name. He's fine with that. He's my demon. I call him my demon. We understand each other. Anna's eyebrows disappear.
"He?" she repeats.
"That is what I said," I replied. She swallowed subtly.
"Who is . . . he?" I didn't answer. After a moment, I heard Velkan answer. I heard his lovely voice. I shivered. But otherwise, I showed no emotion.
"Count Dracula, sister. Our nemesis. The monster the Valerious family has been trying to kill for centuries. That's who." Anna's eyes looked past me, then met mine, fear, shock, and a deep respect in her eyes.
Respect?
"Count Dracula? Spawn of the devil? He comes here to the mountain every night? To be with you?" I smiled bitterly and nodded.
"Ironic, isn't it? He tells me he loves me, yet he has no heart. So how can he love when he has nothing to love with?" I laughed quietly, my laugh turning kind of sob-ish. Anna was staring at me.
"He tells you he loves you?" I smiled again and nodded. Tears came to my eyes at the misery I feel each night. About a man standing behind me as if nothing has happened. He knows how much I love him. He can feel it. I know.
"Sometimes its as if he actually means it," I said. Anna blinked, confused for a moment.
"So, Count Dracula comes up here every night. And you . . ." I smiled at her reluctance to say the things that we did. We sinned. That's how I put it. Just to include him because I know he is a sin. I nodded. She leaned back, shocked. What, she hadn't guessed? No, we sat here all night and looked at each other.
"We need to get you out of here." And I went numb again.
"What?" I asked dully.
"We'll take you back to the village."
"He'll find me." Anna gave me a look that said, "of course he will."
"We'll protect you, Kallisto."
"I came up here for a reason, Anna." I retorted. She blanched.
"What reason is that?" I looked her straight in the eye.
"Your brother." Her eyes widened respectively and she looked behind me again. Then she grabbed me, pulled me up and brought me into the sunlight.
"What?" she asked me, staring deep into my eyes. I stared right back at her.
"Velkan. I love him. I wanted him to be safe from . . . him. So I came up here to distract him. It has worked. You and Velkan are not harmed. Now you must leave. Leave and be safe. Leave without me. Please." Anna blinked repeatedly.
"You gave up your life for . . . my brother?" she asked, disbelief evident in her voice. I smiled.
"I didn't have a life, Princess. And I was bound to leave sometime. I know that I am cursed for a life with one-sided love and I didn't want to be around when Velkan found another to love. I know my heart cannot bear that. I would never be able to see them together. His deal was the perfect way out." Anna just stared in horror.
"A one-sided love?" I nodded.
"I will love him, but he will never love me back. I have known this for a long time." Anna blinked in confusion.
"How long . . ."
"Have I loved Velkan?" I finished the question for her. My numbness had taken over.
Anna nodded. I told her.
"Twelve years?" I nodded. "Oh my God," she whispered, then got a determined look in her eyes.
"You have to come back with us. I will not leave you here to rot. Come," she said, grabbing my hand. I held back.
"I cannot. He will find me. He will kill you. He will kill everybody. He will kill Velkan. He will take me back to his lair. He will ravage me. He will turn me into a monster. Then I will kill everybody. No. Here, he respects my wishes. If I leave, anything could happen. No," I repeated again.
Then I thought of something.
Something that made me think about how horrible I am. But you can just add that to my list of horrors.
If I go back with them, he will wreak havoc upon the town, keeping Velkan busy. If I stay up here, he will have time to find a Mrs. Velkan and have a bunch of baby Velkans.
No, I thought. That's what I wanted him to do. That's the whole reason for why I am on this mountain.
Velkan.
The turmoil in my head was unbearable. What could happen. What would happen. What I could make happen. One wrong action could ruin everything I have lived for these past twelve years.
Velkan.
"Kallisto?" I looked up at Anna. She felt my pain.
"This love of yours sounds horrible." I smiled.
"It is." She took my hand.
"Come, Kallisto." I shook my head weakly.
"I-I can't. I won't be able to live in the same house as Velkan Valerious. I can't. I just can't." She shook me gently.
"I'll help you, Kallisto," she promised.
"He-he can't touch me. I would crumble. Like I did before. You can't-you can't let him touch me." She nodded along.
"No touching. I won't let him touch you." I was getting weak. I wanted to go. I wanted civilization. I wanted Velkan.
"Come, Kallisto," and she pulled me gently towards the woods where they had gotten onto the ledge. I fell apart. She led me along, and I heard footsteps behind me. I turned to see Velkan smiling at me.
So sweet. So cute. So . . . mm. Oh God. Velkan.
Oh God. Velkan.
Oh God. Him.
Oh God. Velkan.
Oh God. Dracula.
What have I done?
What have I done?
More importantly:
What have I gotten myself into?
Disclaimer: Dracula. Mm. Velkan. Mm. Mm. But not mine. In the words of Sid: DON'T SPEAR ME!
Author's Note:
Mariela: Um, no they cannot make out now. Where would the fun be? This is angst, here, hunny, they can't just randomly make out in the middle of angst! Sheesh.
Marisa-Drake: Why thank you ever so much! I don't think it came out that bad at all.
Verona: Don't worry. It'll get better. Thank you for trying to review, though.
TheEvilQueen: Thanks. Velkan is here! Woot!
Sly dances around. Velkan, Velkan, Velkan, Dracula, Dracula, Dracula, Sexy, Sexy, Sexy! Hah.
Okay anyway.
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Chapter 4
Numb Decisions
I sat on a rock. Judging by the place of the sun, it was close to suppertime. I hadn't quieted down until a few minutes ago. The royalty was still catching it's breath. Princess Anna Valerious crouched in front of me.
"Kallisto," she said. "You've been up here for four years all alone?" I shook my head slowly.
"Not alone," I replied. I was numb. I couldn't feel. I didn't care. Anna's eyebrows went up.
"Not alone?" I shook my head again.
"Alone in the day, yes. As the suns last rays disappear, he comes." I never say his name. He's fine with that. He's my demon. I call him my demon. We understand each other. Anna's eyebrows disappear.
"He?" she repeats.
"That is what I said," I replied. She swallowed subtly.
"Who is . . . he?" I didn't answer. After a moment, I heard Velkan answer. I heard his lovely voice. I shivered. But otherwise, I showed no emotion.
"Count Dracula, sister. Our nemesis. The monster the Valerious family has been trying to kill for centuries. That's who." Anna's eyes looked past me, then met mine, fear, shock, and a deep respect in her eyes.
Respect?
"Count Dracula? Spawn of the devil? He comes here to the mountain every night? To be with you?" I smiled bitterly and nodded.
"Ironic, isn't it? He tells me he loves me, yet he has no heart. So how can he love when he has nothing to love with?" I laughed quietly, my laugh turning kind of sob-ish. Anna was staring at me.
"He tells you he loves you?" I smiled again and nodded. Tears came to my eyes at the misery I feel each night. About a man standing behind me as if nothing has happened. He knows how much I love him. He can feel it. I know.
"Sometimes its as if he actually means it," I said. Anna blinked, confused for a moment.
"So, Count Dracula comes up here every night. And you . . ." I smiled at her reluctance to say the things that we did. We sinned. That's how I put it. Just to include him because I know he is a sin. I nodded. She leaned back, shocked. What, she hadn't guessed? No, we sat here all night and looked at each other.
"We need to get you out of here." And I went numb again.
"What?" I asked dully.
"We'll take you back to the village."
"He'll find me." Anna gave me a look that said, "of course he will."
"We'll protect you, Kallisto."
"I came up here for a reason, Anna." I retorted. She blanched.
"What reason is that?" I looked her straight in the eye.
"Your brother." Her eyes widened respectively and she looked behind me again. Then she grabbed me, pulled me up and brought me into the sunlight.
"What?" she asked me, staring deep into my eyes. I stared right back at her.
"Velkan. I love him. I wanted him to be safe from . . . him. So I came up here to distract him. It has worked. You and Velkan are not harmed. Now you must leave. Leave and be safe. Leave without me. Please." Anna blinked repeatedly.
"You gave up your life for . . . my brother?" she asked, disbelief evident in her voice. I smiled.
"I didn't have a life, Princess. And I was bound to leave sometime. I know that I am cursed for a life with one-sided love and I didn't want to be around when Velkan found another to love. I know my heart cannot bear that. I would never be able to see them together. His deal was the perfect way out." Anna just stared in horror.
"A one-sided love?" I nodded.
"I will love him, but he will never love me back. I have known this for a long time." Anna blinked in confusion.
"How long . . ."
"Have I loved Velkan?" I finished the question for her. My numbness had taken over.
Anna nodded. I told her.
"Twelve years?" I nodded. "Oh my God," she whispered, then got a determined look in her eyes.
"You have to come back with us. I will not leave you here to rot. Come," she said, grabbing my hand. I held back.
"I cannot. He will find me. He will kill you. He will kill everybody. He will kill Velkan. He will take me back to his lair. He will ravage me. He will turn me into a monster. Then I will kill everybody. No. Here, he respects my wishes. If I leave, anything could happen. No," I repeated again.
Then I thought of something.
Something that made me think about how horrible I am. But you can just add that to my list of horrors.
If I go back with them, he will wreak havoc upon the town, keeping Velkan busy. If I stay up here, he will have time to find a Mrs. Velkan and have a bunch of baby Velkans.
No, I thought. That's what I wanted him to do. That's the whole reason for why I am on this mountain.
Velkan.
The turmoil in my head was unbearable. What could happen. What would happen. What I could make happen. One wrong action could ruin everything I have lived for these past twelve years.
Velkan.
"Kallisto?" I looked up at Anna. She felt my pain.
"This love of yours sounds horrible." I smiled.
"It is." She took my hand.
"Come, Kallisto." I shook my head weakly.
"I-I can't. I won't be able to live in the same house as Velkan Valerious. I can't. I just can't." She shook me gently.
"I'll help you, Kallisto," she promised.
"He-he can't touch me. I would crumble. Like I did before. You can't-you can't let him touch me." She nodded along.
"No touching. I won't let him touch you." I was getting weak. I wanted to go. I wanted civilization. I wanted Velkan.
"Come, Kallisto," and she pulled me gently towards the woods where they had gotten onto the ledge. I fell apart. She led me along, and I heard footsteps behind me. I turned to see Velkan smiling at me.
So sweet. So cute. So . . . mm. Oh God. Velkan.
Oh God. Velkan.
Oh God. Him.
Oh God. Velkan.
Oh God. Dracula.
What have I done?
What have I done?
More importantly:
What have I gotten myself into?